scars-on-my-heart

War Paint

I think I smeared you on my face,
Took blood from the scars you left me with
And tattooed poetry on my
Graffiti-deficient heart,
And waited until my tear-stained melancholy
Was ready to face another day
Without you.

I was tagged by the absolutely stunning wonderful-hemmings to do the 20 beautiful people selfie challenge

I tag: happy-go-lukey iheart5sauce lowkeymgc mukethings unpredicahood scars-on-our-future-hearts violet-halsey giggly-mikey wynw00d madstaticsounds mayhemcas mgcmemelord its-only-maura hearteyesmgc 0ur-her0es-with0ut-capes youucompletemess cumformeclifford calumownsmyass hairlesscalum smileymuke

I want to apologize in advance if I made anyone feel uncomfortable because I tagged them. I just went into my activity and picked people who I noticed reblogged or liked a lot of stuff! Of course if you don’t want to do it I completely understand!

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Never ones to miss out on a trend that involves selfies, here are the four MTG Community Managers posing with some of their favorite cards. From the top:

Chris:  Myr Battlesphere (AKA: Katamyri Damacy) rolled its way into my heart during Scars of Mirrodin draft, where its ridiculous combination of power and cuteness won me over. It’s a fireball, a token generator, and a fatty all at once - one that snuggles up with Tinker and Recurring Nightmare all day long in cube draft. Let’s lump up and make the Fifth Dawn in the sky, my robot friend(s)!

Alison: I enjoy ruining plans and mass-producing weenies, so white is the color for me! My three chosen faves are Angel of the Dire Hour (my hero), Nahiri (my queen) and Brimaz (my cat). Control is just so tedious, am I wrong?! HAHAHAHA *swirls glass of sparkling water and chuckles merrily*

Nate and Sean: Victor captured our allegiance… and our hearts.  ♥

I wanted him to leave footprints on my heart.

Not scars where his fingertips traced my imperfections and tear tracks stained on my cheeks.

—  It wasn’t enough to leave me on the floor//you had to make sure I couldn’t get up too, 23/07/2015
my heart is covered in scars
something about this
indefiniteness flitting
across a summer sky
sounds familiar
it looks pale and full of
graveyards
I see tombstones
with foreign names
and death in naked dreams
my soul is my church
and in silent I pray
for the stars to come back
to come back some day
—  I’m going to dance again

anonymous asked:

You want boy to like you? I like you. I have no idea who you are but you have my heart. Be gentle. Ignore the one scar shaped like a dinosaur... Mistakes were made.

Oh man this is lovely
U wanna marry me

I wish to unlearn the pain.
The pain that was my prison.
The prison I turned into my paradise.
For how else was I to survive?
To make hell my heaven .
And now I am left , dry bones ,
missing something ,
But I will never go back there.
My heart still scarred from
his shackles,
Too long I only imagined he was
squeezing me in an embrace
yet reality proved otherwise .

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Today, exactly one year ago, flight MH17 from Malaysian Airlines was shot down over Eastern Ukraine.

None of the 298 passengers and crew survived the crash and so many families, friends and loved ones were left to grief this incredible loss.

Most of the 298 were Dutch and in my country this tragedy left a big scar on the hearts of many people. Everyone somehow knew someone who was on that airplane or was suppose to be on that plane.

The images above are of the solemn ceremony that took place in Eindhoven. Where military airplanes carried all the bodies from Ukraine to Holland to be identified. And of the hearses that travelled slowly from Eindhoven to Hilversum. Thousands of residents watched them pass and payed there respects along the route.

Sadly till this date no one is held responsible for this crash. All of the 298 families still wait for justice. For them I hope justice will come soon.

May all the victims of this crash rest in peace.

If ever I am still your home.

At first, I was scared to death that you are just like him— fleeting; someone who will temporarily patch the void I have been trying to conceal for a long time but then, maybe first impression lasts because now, you will just be a name carved in my heart— a scar, a history. That night, when you let me let go of you, I think I heard the church bells ringing. I think I heard the song we could’ve picked if we ever reach that state in our lives as a couple. I almost uttered the vows I have been trying to silence every time we go through hard times because that makes me want to envelope you in my arms, be strong for you and me and not let go of you. I almost envisage you in a tuxedo wearing that panty-dropping smile of yours and that look in your eyes that keeps my feet tethered to the ground. I almost felt the touch of a cold, gold ring in my annulus finger and it made me flinch. Tears started to run down my face and I can’t breathe. I pushed you away because you gave me reasons to, I pushed you away because I don’t deserve you, I pushed you away because I always think you would go back to me like a kid on a trampoline but baby, you surprised me. You never came back. But I waited. Thinking that was just spur of the moment kind of decision and until now, I am still waiting. If coming home ever cross your mind, my door and windows are closed but remember that you have the key and access through mine’s so I’ll be at the sofa, drinking a sweet caffeinated drink, waiting for you. Do not be afraid to come back. Swing the door open, embrace me with your cozy arms, kiss me and I will not hesitate.

THEY TELL YOU NOT TO SMOKE BECAUSE APPARENTLY IT’S ADDICTING AND I WISH I WOULD HAVE LISTENED BECAUSE THAT’S ALL I DID WHEN YOU WERE MINE BUT YOU BROKE MY HEART AND CAUSED SOME SCARS SO I HAVE NOTHING TO SATISFY THE CRAVING AND IT’S KILLING ME INSIDE

I THOUGHT YOU TOLD ME EVERYTHING FROM YOUR DEPRESSION TO SELF HARM BUT YOU NEVER TOLD ME HOW YOU WOULD BE LIKE NICOTINE INSIDE MY BODY AND YOU NEVER TOLD ME HOW YOU WOULD MAKE ME FEEL SO NEEDED AND SPECIAL BUT THEN THROW ME ON THE GROUND AND STOMP ME OUT LIKE A CIGARETTE BUTT

I LIT YOU UP COUNTLESS NUMBERS OF TIMES NO MATTER HOW MUCH WAS LEFT OF YOU AND I ALWAYS TRIED TO MAKE YOU FEEL SOMEWHAT ALIVE BUT THE THANKS I GET IS WANTING SOMETHING I CAN’T HAVE AND I DON’T KNOW HOW YOUR STILL MAKING ME WANT YOU AFTER WHAT YOU DID BUT MY SOLUTION WILL BE FINDING SOMEONE ELSE I CAN START SMOKING AND HOPEFULLY THEY WON’T TASTE ANYTHING LIKE YOU

  • my mom:can you go fold the towels?
  • me:did you say t-tao??....
  • my mom:no, I said t-
  • me:mom,, !you know how I feel about this topic okay!! the scars are still fresh, my heart is still hurting.. I am heartbroken...., I can't believe you would bring him up.. *tears run down my face + sobs into hands like rly ugly*
  • my mom:so you're not going to fold the towels???
How can you leave behind someone with a name that is supposed to encompass love
No matter how many times they have abused your brain with their words
You wait
And wait
For them to show up
Because they are supposed to be the one
The one that never leaves
The one that loves you weather you’re two or eighteen
But you
You are what my nightmares are filled with
A fist in my face or another word in the form of a knife going straight through my heart
I am your flesh
I am you blood
And maybe that is why I have dedicated my life to destroying myself
Because being covered in you is unbearable
You run
And run
But you never seem to find your way back to me
And now i’m left with a body full of scars which will still never compare to the anguish you inflicted on my heart and my mind
But Dad
I still love you
So i’ll wait for you
Until I die
Maybe I won’t be waiting so long after all
—  I cried over you for 3 hours today.

anonymous asked:

Old scars/Future Hearts - All Time Low

this is my jam yo

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library | I LOVE IT

send me song recs

Hello! so I recently reached my goal and thought it’d be fun to do a follow forever. I want to thank you for keeping my dash cool, you’re all awesome. (Sorry if I forgot anyone)

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