scale a spirale

anonymous asked:

I just hope that the first episode of Season 13 will have 1) Sam facing the Nephilim - and therefore his own powers and his own destiny and making peace with it and 2) Dean facing Cas' death - and therefore his feelings and making peace with it (or not.. try true love's kiss please, it'll work). It just seemed very deliberate to set them up like that apart from each other, each facing their own challenge.

Yeah. Because that’s yet another way that Sam and Dean broke the pattern…

Every season finale since s2 has alternated whether the brothers were together or apart.:

  • s2 together standing over the Impala’s trunk
  • s3 dean in hell so apart
  • s4 clinging to each other watching Lucifer rise
  • s5 sam in hell so apart (even though we see Sam looking through the window at the end, they are effectively narratively ‘apart’ for the next year)
  • s6 together kneeling before godstiel
  • s7 dean in purgatory so apart
  • s8 clinging to each other as the angels fall so together
  • s9 demon dean on the run so apart
  • s10 together in the impala as the darkness rolls across the land
  • s11 dean went off to blow up amara with the soul bomb so apart
  • s12 Sam left Dean by Cas’s body and ran alone to face the nephilim… breaking the pattern… because they are apart…

So much of this episode (as well as 12.22) was about BREAKING PATTERNS.

Dean FINALLY confronted Mary with the truth in 12.22, about how her deal with Azazel had affected his life. About how he’d been forced to become both mother and father to Sam, because John was too broken to be either of those things to both boys. This is the culmination of Dean’s not wanting to “overwhelm” her early on, of his discomfort at telling her the story about her life with John in 12.01, knowing all along that it was a pretty lie– but it was what Mary believed at the time. This was the final part of Dean angrily telling Mary that he’d never been a child in 12.14. That time his words had been intended to wound her, but this time he spelled the whole thing out in detail– not to wound, but to heal.

Like in 12.12, the lance that inflicted the wound was the only thing that could heal it.

So much of 12.22 was also Dean surrendering that obligation he’s always felt as Sam’s “parent” with Sam directly– trusting him to lead that mission to the BMoL headquarters. He let Sam take the entire lead over the group of hunters they recruited for the raid, and he expressed his trust in Sam in actual words.

(fyi I have 9.23 playing in the background as I type this up, and trust me when I say it’s like night and day, the dynamic between Sam and Dean…)

And that mutual trust continued and grew stronger in 12.23, and opened to include Mary as an equal partner in understanding.

When all three Winchesters showed up at the house, Cas didn’t even make a pretense of greeting the rest of the family. Just Dean.

And Dean’s first words to Cas are about how they’ll work things out between them as soon as they get Cas and Kelly to safety, reassuring him that things between them aren’t broken.

and then we had a visual confirmation of Cas’s motivations, his seemingly unconvinced “belief” in the future the nephilim had shown him. When Kelly asked him to tell her again, to reassure her that her sacrifice was worth it, Cas hesitated, and flashed back to the scene in 12.19 where the nephilim sent its power into him. It was like he had to shake something off and focus in order to remember that vision.

We even had Mary and Kelly talking about how they would die to protect their children. Right after Mary came to accept the fact that she DID die to protect her children.

The entire last ten minutes of the episode was like a dark reversal of the rescue mission to save Sam in 12.02, and the fight scene in that basement, but in an entirely jumbled up fashion.

But in an even LARGER scale, these “cosmic consequences” spiral back through every level of the story– from Mary herself and her understanding of the interconnected fate/choice of her deal with Azazel; through Amara’s influence of the story in s9 as the Winchester/Campbell family’s fate as descendants of Cain and Abel in taking on the original Mark of Cain, through her influence over s10 as the force that both kept Dean alive and was slowly killing him all the the same time, through s11 as she got to experience humanity first-hand and demand recognition from Chuck and her growth from wanting to destroy the universe just because and acceptance of the beauty it actually contained (and that Chuck’s love of the universe didn’t diminish his love for her), and then in s12 the Cosmic Consequences of her freeing Lucifer and resurrecting Mary (because her touch is chaos itself, and bringing back Mary and Lucifer HAD to be influenced by her essential chaos…). That kind of instability introduced into an orderly system that has always adhered to certain cosmic “rules” HAD to bring about this sort of fundamental chaos, you know? And hooboy do we ever have it.

The moment we learned that the entire Winchester Family History had been essentially engineered by Heaven to someday act as the key that opened the lock on the Darkness and force that confrontation and resolution of the Original Rift that created the universe, and the moment Dean orchestrated that resolution, it brought that cosmic-scale rift back down to Winchester Family levels. I know I’m not explaining it well, but it’s something Gabriel said way back in 5.08 when he was pushing Sam and Dean to accept their roles in the apocalypse– As above, so below. But now, post-resolution, that mirror’s been flipped.

Dean completed his task of balancing the universe again, but Amara’s “gifts” in the form of Lucifer removed from Castiel and the resurrection of Mary have both turned very bad. The wishes go very bad.

And they’re ALL interconnected– Castiel, Lucifer, Mary, and Amara.

And now the nephilim, as well.

The things Cas was saying about the nephilim’s vision of the future sounded appallingly similar to the things Amara had wanted in her perfect vision of the future, you know? The whole notion of remaking the world in their own vision, where there was never any conflict or hatred or pain or suffering. Amara’s ideal sounded very much the same, with her bliss pitted against the nephilim’s paradise.

It took Dean a long damn time to see that offer for what it was, to see how it wasn’t real, what Amara was offering. That it was the annihilation of self and the surrender of his identity that Amara was really offering.

Which is fundamentally identical to what the nephilim seems to be offering Cas…

Dean had to die and be reborn as a demon, then struggle through the trials of bearing the mark and eventually come to an understanding of the truth of all of it. I think that’s exactly the point in the narrative we are with Cas.

I know I am not explaining it well, because it’s taken me three hours to even put this much of it in this disorderly state, and I still don’t feel like I’m getting to the true heart of the matter here…

But once again, just like in 12.22, Sam’s struggle will be an external one, facing the nephilim as a sort of incarnation of his own life-long feelings and beliefs about HIMSELF, that he wasn’t pure, that he was a freak because of the demon blood and his powers, that he wasn’t truly human somehow because of that. And Dean’s struggle will be internal, like it was reclaiming Mary from the walls she’d been forced to construct inside her own mind in the name of self-preservation.

Sam’s walls have finally manifested into something physical for him to confront.

We’ve finally scraped the thousand layers of paint off the walls that Dean’s been putting up for the world his entire life, and he’s not trying to camouflage what’s underneath. He’s finally let something OTHER than Sam literally bring him to his knees. He’s finally shown Sam the thing that actually had the power to do that to him, too. And Sam had his little moment of acknowledgement before running off to face the nephilim alone.

And that’s the tip of the iceberg on how damn meta that finale was.

The sheer amount of YOI content on my dash just won me over and I ended up binge-watching the whole thing. And then it put me in the mood for drawing, which I haven’t done in a really long time, so…have some sketchy, sneezy Victor :)

SACRED GEOMETRY: An Introduction

by  Saṃsāran

What is meant by “sacred geometry”? Well, in its simplest terms it is the geometry which underlays all creation.  There are repeating geometric forms which can be seen in all existence from the atomic to the cosmic. They range from the simple and familiar such as circles, squares, triangles, spheres, cubes to the more complex such as hexagons, pentagons, spirals, toroids, fractals, helix to fourth dimensional  forms such as the hypercube and the hypersphere.  These forms make up all of our visual reality and their repetition and their combinations speak to the nature of reality and the underlying symmetry and order of the universe which may be at first indiscernible to the naked eye.

Clifford Torus: Fourth Dimensional Structure 

Once we have learned to recognize these forms and to understand a bit about the mathematical relationship between them a whole new world dawns for us. You’ll recognize these patterns everywhere.  You will see them in the shape of molecules within a crystal.  In the forms of the virus and cell.  In flowers, seeds and leaves.  In the structure of an insects eye.  You will see them in the cream in your coffee and in the shape of geological structures. 

You will see them in clouds and weather patterns.  You will see them in the structure of planets, their orbits in galaxies and in the fourth dimensional shape of the universe itself.

The shapes are a language.  They speak of relationships and patterns and those patterns are meaningful no matter what the scale.  The spiral in your coffee cup has the same relationship as the spiral of the galaxy.

Multiverses: Quantum Dimensions & Sacred Geometry

Let’s do a little thought exercise so we don’t have to resort to math, this is Tumblr after all. Imagine a point in space. A little “.” now extend it into space in both directions “__________”. Now rotate it:

now rotate the circle:

Now rotate the sphere and you get a fourth dimensional structure known as a hypersphere:

Every point is connected to every other point. Every single point in that solid sphere is rotated and each of these rotations is a dimension. They are infinite and vary only slightly one from the next yet within the structure everything that ever existed exists in infinite variation.

Inside a Saltwater Room

for @notanightlight

The aquarium has a new exhibit on mermaids.

It isn’t like Gimli’s never seen them before. But seeing a mermaid from a stadium away at SeaWorld is an entirely different experience from seeing one up close, and Gimli is only now fully appreciating just how beautiful they are.

There are five of them, three males and two females, in the aquarium tank. Kili is on the opposite side of the room, admiring the female with the red hair and the forest green tail, and Fili stayed behind to look at the sea otters; Gimli’s on his own. He’s following the motions of the two identical males with the black hair and pure white scales, watching how they spiral upward around another, never touching but always within an arm’s length.

And then, there is a knock on the glass, directly in front of Gimli.

He looks down again to see pale blue eyes peering out of the tank, golden hair swirling in the water around a face that is eerily beautiful.

The mermaid tilts his head, blinks twice, taps the glass again. Gimli’s lips quirk into a smile, and he taps the glass back. The mermaid smiles, so brightly he could almost be human, and shoots upward in a streak of sky blue and pale gold.

Gimli thinks he’s going to be visiting the aquarium more often now.

His next day off from work, Gimli goes back to the aquarium.

The mermaid exhibit is in the back, past the deep-sea waters and the tidepools, so it takes him a while to get there. He doesn’t really mind. Best for last and all that, right?

The blond mermaid seems less bright than he was a week ago, his movements slower. When he sees Gimli he still goes to the glass, but instead of tapping he lays his hand against it and stares out with wide eyes.

Gimli lays his hand over the mermaid’s and gazes back.

The third time Gimli visits the mermaids, it’s the abovewater portion of the tank that he goes to. There’s no glass here, nothing separating him from the blond mermaid.

He takes a few minutes to notice that Gimli’s there, which gives Gimli the chance to watch him - to see how tired he looks. They’re all like that, but the blond one shows it most.

Then he does notice, and he swims up to the surface to look at Gimli face-to-face.

He’s got violet half-moons stamped beneath his eyes; his arms and chest are mottled with bruises. It was hard to see through the water - everything seems blue-tinted - but it’s painfully clear now.

“What happened to you?” Giml whispers.

The mermaid doesn’t understand (of course he doesn’t, mermaids look humanoid but they can’t understand language any more than a dolphin would) but he looks so defeated that Gimli can’t help but feel for him.

Gimli reaches over the glass, not touching the mermaid’s skin but close enough that either of them could reach out. The mermaid does and -

- oh.

Gimli is flooded with memories that are not his(silken seawater on his skin even though he’s never been in the ocean, the type of coral reef part of hi had always thought didn’t exist outside of pictures) and a clear voice speaking in his ears: My name is Legolas.

My name is Gimli, he responds automatically.

Legolas is smiling so brightly that Gimli has to smile back; he seems far less tired now, and his eyes are glowing again. He sends across an image that Gimli does recognize - a red-haired man, taller than Gimli but not by much, holding an axe that is taller than either of them. It feels distinctly like a question.

Glóin, Gimli says. My father. Yours? It’s odd how few of Legolas’s memories feature other mermaids.

Legolas’s smile fades. Gimli wishes he hadn’t asked. Legolas takes a deep breath, lets it out, sends across another memory -

- scared alone so scared it’s too small i can’t breathe iT’S MOVING WHY IS IT MOVING -

- where’s ada where did they take him why did they take him i need him where is he where’s ada -

- alone and hurt and so so scared -

The memory fades and the terror fades with it. Gimli struggles to catch his breath.

Seaworld? he asks, and sends an image of the logo along with it. Legolas nods.

Gimli twines their fingers together. “i’ll get you out of here,” he promises, though Legolas won’t understand. “I swear to God, Legolas, I’ll get you out of here.”

“Involute of a circle” That’s how I made this spiral. It started with a circle, which I made by standing in one place and turning while I chipped the ice with a shovel. It’s not a perfect circle, since I was eye-balling the distance I kept the shovel from my feet, and I probably didn’t pivot on one precise position, though I think I did alright. Trying to keep the spacing of the spiral even was a little harder, but I think I did alright. This was the “blueprint” for some light painting I had planned. (see previous photo) This shot gives you a better idea of the scale of the spiral. It was shot much closer to the spiral and I’m in the center for size reference.

I Got a Boy - Chapter 30

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It was time to come clean with Annabeth. She deserved to know what was happening. But first: sleep.

Percy, exhausted both physically and - thanks to Mark’s impromptu sabotage - emotionally, came home to an empty dorm and a note from Annabeth saying she’d gone for a run. Probably to clear her head. Good thing too. Percy knew she was most likely working herself up into a lather over studying. She was like a husky. If she didn’t go outside once in a while, she’d be tearing up the furniture.

With about as much grace as a flying donkey, he face-planted onto the bed and almost immediately knocked out. When he woke up, it was already morning. Annabeth had returned during the night and, naturally, he’d slept right through it. The slight details gave her away though. He saw her running shoes next to the door, and the closet was a little open, and he smelled the shower having just been used, her unmistakable body wash drifting his way. That’s probably what got him up - the remnant of her.

Moving was particularly difficult because his muscles were fighting him all the way. It was a good ache though, the kind that spurred him onward. It got him to brush his teeth, go to the bathroom, and finally eat a breakfast bar.

While he chewed, he dialed her number. She answered after two rings.

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A team of astronomers is proposing that huge spiral patterns seen around some newborn stars, merely a few million years old (about one percent our Sun’s age), may be evidence for the presence of giant, unseen planets. This idea not only opens the door to a new method of planet detection, but also could offer a look into the early formative years of planet birth.

Though astronomers have cataloged thousands of planets orbiting other stars, the very earliest stages of planet formation are elusive because nascent planets are born and embedded inside vast, pancake-shaped disks of dust and gas encircling newborn stars, known as circumstellar disks.

The conclusion that planets may betray their presence by modifying circumstellar disks on large scales is based on detailed computer modeling of how gas-and-dust disks evolve around newborn stars, which was conducted by two NASA Hubble Fellows, Ruobing Dong of Lawrence Berkeley National Laboratory, and Zhaohuan Zhu of Princeton University. Their research was published in the Aug. 5 edition of The Astrophysical Journal Letters.

“It’s difficult to see suspected planets inside a bright disk surrounding a young star. Based on this study, we are convinced that planets can gravitationally excite structures in the disk. So if you can identify features in a disk and convince yourself those features are created by an underlying planet that you cannot see, this would be a smoking gun of forming planets,” Dong said.

Identifying large-scale features produced by planets offers another method of planet detection that is quite different from all other techniques presently used. This approach can help astronomers find currently forming planets, and address when, how, and where planets form.

Gaps and rings seen in other circumstellar disks suggest invisible planets embedded in the disk. However gaps, presumably swept clean by a planet’s gravity, often do not help show the location of the planet. Also, because multiple planets together may open a single common gap, it’s very challenging to estimate their numbers and masses.

Ground-based telescopes have photographed two large-scale spiral arms around two young stars, SAO 206462 and MWC 758. A few other nearby stars also show smaller spiral-like features. “How they are created has been a big mystery until now. Scientists had a hard time explaining these features,” Dong said. If the disks were very massive, they would have enough self-gravity to become unstable and set up wave-like patterns. But the disks around SAO 206462 and MWC 758 are probably just a few percent of the central star’s mass and therefore are not gravitationally unstable.

The team generated computer simulations of the dynamics of a disk and how a star’s radiation propagates through a disk with embedded planets. This modeling created spiral structures that very closely resemble observations. The mutual gravitational interaction between the disk and the planet creates regions where the density of gas and dust increases, like traffic backing up on a crowded expressway. The differential rotation of the disk around the star smears these over-dense regions into spiral waves. “Although it had been speculated that planets can produce spiral arms, we now think we know how,” said Zhu.

“Simulations also suggest that these spiral arms have rich information about the unseen planet, revealing not only its position but also its mass,” Zhu said. The simulations show that if there were no planet present, the disk would look smooth. To make the grand-scale spiral arms seen in the SAO 206462 and MWC 758 systems, the unseen planet would have to be bulky, at least 10 times the mass of Jupiter, the largest planet in our solar system.

The first planet orbiting a normal star was identified in 1995. Thanks to ground-based telescopes and NASA’s Kepler mission, a few thousand exoplanets have been cataloged to date. But because the planets are in mature systems, many millions or a few billion years old, they offer little direct clues as to how they formed.

“There are many theories about how planets form but very little work based on direct observational evidence confirming these theories,” Dong said. “If you see signs of a planet in a disk right now, it tells you when, where, and how planets form.”

Astronomers will use the upcoming NASA James Webb Space Telescope to probe circumstellar disks and look for features, as simulated by the modeling, and will then try to directly observe the predicted planet causing the density waves.