Learn to give people up before they hurt you beyond repair. Even if they tell you they will change. Even if they tell you that they love you. Just remember, love isn’t meant to be permanently damaging. Love is meant to aid your healing.
I look at you and wonder sometimes, how anyone can be so gentle that they take all of their sorrow, all of their pain and turn it into help and hope for another human being. And then I wonder what I must have done right to walk this earth at the same moment, the same era as a human as exceptional as you.
I want pumpkins everywhere and hot chocolate on cold rainy days and leaves changing color and cute fall outfits and halloween and harvest season and spooky movies and fresh cold mornings and bonfires and seasonal food and sweaters and scarfs and oh god,
Humans are bad at most things. Love, relationships, parenting, holding ourselves together, being dependable. But there is one thing we are so good at, that we are in fact, spectacular at it. We are all so damned good at being broken open. It’s how the light gets out. It’s how we know it’s there. Because once in a while, someone comes along who tells us life is so much more than just existing. Someone comes along to remind us, to stop being so small and so human. And do better by being so much more.
One of the most lonely and haunted feelings in the world is when you reach for someone. Someone who once truly loved you and you thought would always be there. And your fingers close around empty space because you pushed them away. You are left with the flavour of loss sitting at the back of your throat. And you have no one to blame but yourself.