Genre: Romance, teacher, crime, murder, single dad
Warning: SMUT(do not read if you are not comfortable)
Definition of Pre-K: teacher for children at the age of 4
Author’s Note: Oh my god. I was writing this and then i clicked save as draft. A couple hours later I went to resume my work and IT WAS GONE. I WAS FREAKING OUT. But thankfully it popped back up and it wasn’t gone. Also, I feel like I’m going to hell for writing this chapter, so cheers to hell! I am sorry it’s so short though!
Taking your hand into his, Jaebum led you out of the bathroom hallway, and out the doors of the bar. His feet moved quickly as he dragged you to the elevator of the hotel. He held your delicate hand in his large one, impatiently tapping his foot and waiting for the doors to open to his floor. Your other hand was loosening his tie and getting him prepared. Your hand exploring his chest, and Jaebum didn’t know if he could contain himself. You obviously couldn’t contain yourself.
The elevator finally arrived to Jaebum’s hotel room. You followed Jaebum to the front of his door as he looked for his room key. You left soft kisses on his cheek as Jaebum was anxiously sliding the card into his room. He managed to open the door, and pulled you inside with him. You lost contact with his cheek and instead your body was met with the wall. The room was pitch black, and you felt Jaebum’s lips grazing your ear.
1. Accept the fact that there are things in your life that won’t go the way you want them to.
Accept the fact that there are people who will turn their backs to you when you need them the most. Accept the fact that happiness doesn’t come from people and things around you, it will come within you. Accept the fact that everyone will get tired and they can hurt and leave you. Accept the fact that behind every heartache, there will always be a reason, a lesson. Accept the fact that every person you will meet will bring changes in your life, and some of them will have the greatest impact and some will put you in the darkest night. Acceptance is the key.
2. The real world is like nothing you ever expected.
We were taught to follow a pattern and live our lives to rules set by the society. They expect us to find a job that’s related on our degree, adjust our preferences to fit in, earn a lot of money, buy a car, fall in love, marry and then raise a family. And if you follow all that, you’ll be successful. Why? Because we’re living in a success-based society where if you don’t follow the boundaries, you’re nothing but a failure.
But life is more than that. It’s about making decisions for your own good and coping up with changes and transitions. We should set our own boundaries. So don’t be afraid to be different. Don’t be afraid to fail.
People will criticize you if you don’t have a title around your belt but don’t get discouraged. If you think that you’re on a wrong path of profession, don’t be afraid to change direction. Take control, put yourself
3. Never beg for love.
Never beg someone to love you back or be with you when you want to. Never beg for someone’s time, commitment, affection and attention. Never beg someone to stay with you when you need them the most. Because if they loved you that much, they won’t have let go of your hand in the first place. You should never hae to beg for the attention of the one you’re meant to be with because they will already be there. If you have to beg, he/she is not worth it. No one is worth begging for.
4. There will be moments in your life where you’ll be tired of everything, but press on.
Some days, you will wake up and not want to talk to anyone around you and just want to be alone. You won’t figure out what’s wrong with you because all you know is that you just want to be by yourself. No explanations, no deep reasons. You will search for a space of silence in this noisy world. You will detach yourself slowly from people around you and start living without them. You will shake off negativity and be neutral. Coffee and music will be your best friends; you will shut down from the world you’re living in for a moment. Inactivity will take place. This phase is called hibernation. You will get tired in life eventually, and it’s normal. You will slow things down, reinvigorate your soul, purpose, and life through it. And once you are done, you will be ready to live again with a newer and better version of yourself.
5. Don’t forget to love yourself as much as you love others.
Sometimes we love people so deepy that we forget to love ourselves. We give others the chance to be our world and be in every part of it. We give them the ability to create emotional attachments and to break our hearts. But in the end, they won’t love us back the way we love them and eventually, they will get tired and leave us behind. They can’t give what we need or what we deserve. And there are people around us who loves us so much, people who are willing to give what we need, that they will do everything for us to see our worth, but we choose to neglect them. That’s life. We often give ourselves so much to people that we don’t deserve and we often reject people who are willing to be part of our world. So remember to love, but to always love yourself, too.
6. Stop expecting people to save you every time.
It’s your job to save yourself. Everyone has an hourglass; everyone has their own limitations. People will say, ‘I’ll always be there for you’, but it doesn’t mean you can rely on them every time. Stop expecting people to be superheros when you need them the most. Stop depending on others. At the end of the day, you should learn how to save yourself from drowning. Because everyone is busy trying to save themselves.
7. Love doesn’t fade even after the breakup.
It stays within you, and it will always be with you even though you’ve already moved on and found someone else. It will always have a special place in your heart that will never be filled with anyone, it will always be that person. It just converts into something less like care and friendship. But it stays. It will never run dry. Love will always be there.
8. Don’t get easily attached to someone you’ve just seen each passing day.
Don’t get too attached to someone who makes you feel that you’re important and fun to be with. Be strong enough to neglect the chances of longing and missing them. Be invincible as long as you can. Because there will be a moment that they will leave you and depart from your life and you will realize that they have taken a part of you that you will never get back again even though you didn’t mean to give it away.
9. Remember that you cannot go back anymore.
Everything that happened in your past will always stay there as you continue your journey in life. The people you loved will always be a part of you. They won’t distract you unless you look back and let the past consume you. They just exist to remind you how you overcame the storms in your life. They are the living proof that you matter, and that you are stronger now. Don’t ever go back; you’re now in a better place. Keep walking. Leave your past behind you.
10. Remember that you don’t have to be friends with everyone around you.
It’s not necessary to add everyone on your social media accounts and give them a daily glimpse of your life or even talk to them every single day to be a step closer to your inner soul. Life is less drama and bullcrap if you keep your circle small. It keeps you away from the pressure and negativity and gives you the room to grow with the people you love. You can’t always trust everyone around you, so carefully pick the people who you will trust with your stories and plans in life. Be with people who support your goals, motivate you, feed you with goodness, cheer you up when you feel down and bring positivity in your life. The smaller your circle, the clearer your vision. Respect everyone, but trust few.
E.J. Cenita, 10 Beautiful Pieces Of Life Advice For Every Stage Of Your Journey
A/n: I was up a good it of the night adding onto this, and as usual a lot of these are quotes from various media sources and a few of them are from my own brain, so I hope you like them.
#1: “If true love was easy, we’d all have it.”
#2: “She was sweet to me, reminds me of you.”
#3: “Oh, well thank you, no one ever really notices me like that.”
#4: “I’m sorry, but she’s very little and YOU’RE HURTING HER!”
#5: “I make no apologies for how I repaired what you broke”
#6: “Don’t feel stupid because you don’t like all the things everyone else does.”
#7: You’re strange…I-I didn’t mean that in a nasty way!“
#8: “This is the dream. It’s conflict and compromise and it’s very exciting!”
#9: “I’m going to let you in on a little secret. I’m pretty good at knowing when someone is lying to me.”
#10: “It’s pretty strange we keep running into each other.” “Maybe it means something?” “I doubt it.” “Yeah, I thought so.”
#11: “Oh, well you’d never want to burn a bridge you’ve fought so hard to build.”
#12: “I can’t let you do this.”
#13: “I’m so sorry, but I don’t love you anymore.”
#14: “I thought I could make it work, that we could make it work, but we can’t.”
#15: “I really don’t mean to bother you, but can I stay the night?”
#16: “Well, what do you keep telling me for? What am I supposed to do? I’m nothing special.”
#17: “You need to leave me alone.”
#18: “Please go away.”
#19: “I knew the moment I saw him, that I never stopped loving him.”
#20: “So when I win your heart, and I will win it, it’ll be because you choose me.”
#21: “I want to tell you that I love you, and I that I want to marry you and grow old together, but you’re not ready for that. So go, live a little and I’ll be waiting for you”
#22: “You wanna know the truly sad thing? When I met you I thought you were the person I would spend the rest of my life with. But I guess not.”
#23: “This, whatever this is between us, it’s over.”
#24: “I never want to see you again.”
#25: “So go find someone else. Someone who will love you the way I never have, the way I never will.”
#26: “I have loved you for so long, but you. You’ve never even noticed.”
#27: “You know, I styled my hair differently because I thought she’d like and I don’t even think she’s noticed.”
#28: “It’s okay. If I can’t make you happy anymore than I have no right to keep you. You deserve so much better than that, so it’s okay. You can go.”
#29: “Choose me, I’m the one that’s always loved you and always will.”
#30: “Please don’t give up on this, on us.”
#31: “I love you so much it physically hurts to not be around you.”
#32: “Even the idea of you being with someone else is enough to make me wish I was dead.”
#33: “I was just really trying to impress you.”
#34: “You have no idea how wonderful it feels to finally have someone around who knows what the hell I’m talking about”
#35: “It’s not that I don’t feel the same, it’s that you deserve more than me. You could find someone much, much better.”
#36: “You’re all I ever wanted.”
#37: “Tell me what I have to do to get you to forgive me? Want me to jump off a cliff? Done. Want me to hit your ex with a chair? Deal.”
#38: “There’s nothing that could make me stop loving you.”
#39: “Why don’t we just fly away somewhere?”
#40: “I really didn’t mean to ignore what you were saying, but your eyes look really lovely in this lighting.”
#42: “No, no. Please tell me everything about it.”
#43: “I swear to god I’m smart.”
#44: “I don’t need anything else, just hold me for a little.”
#45: “You know for someone so tall you’d think you’d be use to ducking underwalls, but here you are with an ice pack and the doorway has a knick in it.”
#46: “Have you really read all these books?”
#47: “This is going to sound really crazy, but I overheard your conversation and I knew if I didn’t at least attempt to talk to you I’d go crazy.”
#48: “What? You can’t just leave whenever you’re the only person who understands me.”
#49: “You didn’t even say goodbye.”
#50: “Please don’t go, I need you.”
#51: “It was just so painful, knowing everyday I was losing you a little more and there was nothing I could do because you stopped loving me.”
#52: “So what if you’re a boy? I can damn well buy you flowers if I please.”
#53: “Loving you was like walking into a battle I knew I wasn’t going to win.”
#54: “I don’t know what’s more annoying. You not realizing how long I’ve been into you or you trying to push me away because you feel the same and it terrifies you.”
#55: “I know it’s petty to be jealous over you since we’re not dating, but I’ll be damned if I didn’t wanna knock that guy’s face in.”
#56: “I just needed something to be wrong with him, that way I had justification for not liking him.”
#57: “Promise me we’ll meet again?”
#58: “I’d like that.”
#59: “We’re never going to see each other again, are we?”
#60: “Oh no. You don’t get to waltz into my life and make me love you only to tell me you’re leaving.”
#61: “Talk to me, please.”
#62: “If you’re not even going to try and help yourself and least let me try.”
#63: “No one’s ever complimented me before.”
#64: “I’ve just always assumed no one would ever want to flirt with me, so I’m sorry if it came off like I wasn’t interested.”
#65: “You’re just so beautiful and you don’t even realize it.”
#66: “I could make you happy.”
#67: “Don’t go where I can’t follow.”
#68: “You make me want to love again.”
#69: “I’m sorry, but I can’t do this anymore. These past weeks without you have been absolute misery.”
#70: “Close your eyes, it’s a surprise.”
#71: “And just when I thought you couldn’t any more wonderful.”
#72: “I would never do such a thing. I would never leave you.”
#73: “I love you, I love you, I love you.”
#74: “I couldn’t find you.”
#75: “I really thought you’d always be the one who was there for me, but you weren’t.”
#76: “You were missing for over sixteen hours, how the hell do you want me to react?”
#77: “Oh I’m sorry, I’ve just been in love with since the moment I saw you. So, forgive me if I’m not overjoyed to hear you like someone else.”
#78: “I don’t care if it’s selfish, I want you and your attention all the time.”
#79: “Can’t I have one good thing in my life?”
#80: “It’s strange. I didn’t realize how much I needed you until you weren’t by my side.”
#81: “Say you’ll move in with me.”
#82: “Will you stop looking so surprised, it’s not like I’ve never worn a dress before.”
#83: “Well it’s not my fault I act 20x more clumsy when you’re around.”
#84: “C'mon, I’m adorable, you can’t stay mad at me.”
#85: “I can’t explain it. But ever since you came into my life, it’s like seeing color for the first time or diving head first into the sea.”
#86: “I forgot what being lonely was like after I met you, and I never want to go back ever again.”
#87: “For a moment there I thought I lost and it killed me a little.”
#88: “Good morning, sunshine.”
#89: “You are the best thing that has ever happened to me.”
#90: “My apartment’s heat turned off and we’re in the middle of a blizzard, would you mind if I slept with you?”
#91: “You think I care for you so little that betraying me would make a difference?”
#92: “I never planned on someone like you.”
#93: “Save your heart for someone else. I’ve got no use for it.”
#94: “You don’t get to take cheap shots at me because you’re hurting.”
#95: “Excuse me? You were the one who left me.”
#96: “Every day since you left I thought about where we went wrong and how I could get you back.”
#97: “We’ve already had enough bad timing.”
#98: “Don’t run, stay with me.”
#99: “This is about you needing to feel like a hero again.”
#100: “This, this is exact why I’m leaving you, because you lied to me again.”
#101: “Don’t be scared, I’m right here.”
#102: “This is as brave as I know how to be.”
#103: “I know it’ll hurt you, but please, be a little proud of me.”
#104: “You will not insult my memory, there will be no revenge. I will die and no one else will suffer.”
#105: “This isn’t you.”
#106: “If you love me in any way, you’ll come back.”
#107: “Some men might take your silence as off putting, but I’ll have a challenge.”
#108: “I mean why would you choose me over him. He’s broad and far more handsome than I am.”
#109: “Seeing you laugh and shine by just being in his presence killed me.”
#110: “I just wanted to be chosen.”
#111: “I spent a lot of time with you thinking I was second best, but you know what? I am good.”
#112: “I deserve more than to be your second choice.”
#113: “I think about you all of the time, I don’t even have to try. You’re just always there.”
#114: “Tell me that you need me.”
#115: “You never needed me.”
#116: “I’ll make two cups.”
#117: “I am never letting you leave again.”
#118: “All I need is possible.”
#119: “The minute I stop believing things will get better is the minute I know they want.”
#120: “I don’t feel so alone right now.”
#121: “I just can’t help but feel so insufficient compared to you.”
#122: “I never took a liking to him because I knew he was intended for you.”
#123: “What are you doing here?” “I was just passing, saw your light on.” “What? Halfway up a hill, at two in the morning?” “Alright, I drove over. I was hoping you’d still be awake Don’t be a twat about it.”
#124: “I’ve had a lot on my mind lately, and I’m sorry but I think I’m going to need some space for awhile.”
#125: “I’m going away for a while.” “How long is awhile?” “I don’t know.”
#126: “Was it something I did?”
#127: “Why don’t you love me anymore?”
#128: “I would give anything to see you smile.”
#129: “Don’t cry, then I’m gonna cry and I’m supposed to comfort you.”
#130: “Come here, lemme fix it.”
#131: “How do you make this look so easy?”
#132: “Where did you learn to do this?”
#133: “Look I don’t think you understand, I’m in love with you.”
#134: “I understand if you don’t feel the same, but it would be really nice if you did.”
#135: “I could make you happy.”
#136: “Not you, anyone but you.”
#137: “You deserve so much more than you give yourself credit for.”
#138: “Because you deserve a happy ending.”
#139: “I got because it reminded me of you.”
#140: “Promise me you’ll write.”
#141: “I don’t think I can handle another heartbreak.”
#142: “Why can’t you just tell me you love me back?!”
#143: “I didn’t mean to yell at you, I shouldn’t have done it.”
#144: “You’re not scared of me, are you?”
#145: “I’ve got your back.”
#146: “I’m sorry, sir. But there’s been a shooting.”
#147: “She didn’t make it.”
#148: “She’s dead! She’s dead and she’s never coming back!”
#149: “Come back to me.”
#150: “If you wanna hurt them, the way you’re hurting. Shoot me, I’m your eye for an eye.”
you know what I need??? I need Pepper Potts having a heart to heart with Aunt May about the people they care about frequently putting themselves in mortal danger. I need Pepper Potts to validate Aunt May’s fears and worries while also acknowledging that with great power comes great responsibility, and that both Tony and Peter are saving people’s lives and, sometimes, the world. I need Aunt May to have someone who understands how it feels when the person you care about most in the world doesn’t answer their phone and your heart stops and all the horrible things that might’ve happened to them while fighting for the greater good start running through your head.
Like yesterday, I remember
You sobbing on my shoulder–
Stained and eroded by the years
Of tears you saved for me,
Fearing no one else cared–
Dejected by life in general.
I stroked your hair like it
Was the last time I would;
Perhaps I had a premonition,
Because I lost you soon after
(Not lost like I had won you
And suffered defeat–
You’re far from an objective,
A prize to obtain–but lost as in
I couldn’t find you anymore;
I doubt you could even find yourself)
You became someone else entirely,
Someone who couldn’t (or wouldn’t)
Recall all the memories we made;
A stranger with hands that once
Reached for me, a heart that once
Knew mine better than I did.
Perhaps you had found yourself
And I was the lost one,
At a loss as to how someone
Could change completely so suddenly,
In less time than it takes
To write and send a message
Of goodbye that never came.
If it had, this wouldn’t hurt so bad,
At least it wouldn’t be so torturous,
To have been warned before you went
Without a seeming second thought.
Now I’m nothing to you…
And that’s exactly what I did
To deserve this treatment: nothing.
I may feel like a lost loser, but you turned your back on someone who never would’ve done that to you…so you’re the one truly losing out
luke, raphael, simon, and jace, post 2x15 scene || light spoilers, light jace/simon, raphael/simon
They let Luke’s partner go after her memory’s altered, and Raphael slides into the bench opposite Luke. The werewolf nods at one of the waiters, and a glass of blood is set down at their table.
“No thanks.” Raphael says immediately, arching an eyebrow. “It all smells like wet dog.” Luke shrugs as he slides it to the end of the table, his gaze settling heavy on Raphael.
“Thank you.” he says, his voice tired. “For what you did for Simon.”
Raphael shrugs. “Simon’s fate is the clan’s fate, now. He’s a Daylighter. He’s the most wanted vampire in our world.” He stares at the cracked red leather in the booth. “I never thought I’d see it happen, but he’s managed to annoy just about everyone through his sheer existence.”
“You don’t sound annoyed.” Luke says, leaning forward, and Raphael looks at him and smooths a hand down his jacket, grounding himself as he momentarily relives every single thing Simon’s put him through.
“I don’t know what I am with him right now.” Raphael admits.
Sometimes he burns with anger at the thought of the gift that’s been handed to Simon. He aches for the touch of sunlight, to feel warm again, however briefly. He’ll take anything, any small chance to be what Simon is - and yet. Raphael has lived eighty years, has helped this fledgling more times than he can count, has cleaned up after every mess Simon left behind, and yet -
Hasn’t he been good? Hadn’t he been good enough to deserve this?
Or is this the punishment he’s been waiting for since drinking Isabelle’s blood? Maybe the weeks spent sweating out every trace of her from his system, the shattered pieces of his heart, weren’t enough. Maybe the elusiveness of Simon Lewis, always there and yet too far away to touch, is his true penance.
Habit takes him to to the boathouse where the fledgling lives now, and he stands outside silently, weighing whether to go in or not. He hears raised voices from the inside -
“ - get out, Jace, I’m serious. This is - this is the opposite of a good time to bother me - “
Jace Wayland - Herondale, now, they say - sounds broken, and defeated, his voice unbelievably small. There’s silence for a while.
“Jace.” And oh, the amount of emotion in Simon’s voice when he says Jace’s name - it shouldn’t hurt Raphael. It shouldn’t. But when has life ever gone according to plan with Simon? “Jace, I - why did you come here?”
“I don’t know.” Jace is unwavering when he speaks, a soldier charging ahead into battle. “Or - I do know. I just can’t…face it right now. Besides, you’re…”
“Heartbroken.” Simon finishes quietly. “Yeah.”
Raphael decides that he’s heard enough and he slides the boathouse door open, leaning against the frame and looking at the two of them. They turn, both staring at him warily.
“Were you - “ Simon begins.
“Yes.” Raphael answers shortly. “Valentine’s escaped?” He addresses the last part to Jace, who’s hands clench into fists.
“Someone took him and probably killed Duncan too.” Jace admits quietly. Raphael doesn’t know who Duncan is, but he looks carefully at the way Jace looks poised to fight a threat, and thinks about what Isabelle told him. About manipulation, and what it means to be monstrous.
Raphael thinks he understands. He doesn’t want to, but - he does.
“The cops have been taken care of. They know Quinn killed the girl.” Raphael says to Simon now, his voice low. “You’d do well to stay out of the way of any vampire for a while. Daylighter or not, you’ve created sides in the community over the incident.”
“Right. Thank you, Raphael, I - ” Simon’s voice is thick as he looks at Raphael. He looks miserable, his face permanently lined with sorrow, but Raphael wants to shake him for his stupidity. When everyone around him has fallen in love with his bright eyes and quick smile and horrible sense of humor - when Maia looks at him like he’s the most delightful person she’s ever met, when Jace constantly goads him for his attention, when even Raphael trails behind him, quietly saving him from himself - why does he keep looking for Clary? When so many other people fall so quickly for him - why does he still only have eyes for her?
“Simon.” Raphael says, and he looks down briefly, crossing his arms, before he looks back up. “I will protect you, but - how did you become a Daylighter?” His voice is soft, and filled with an ancient longing that he hadn’t meant to let slip.
He can’t help himself. “Please.” He says quietly. The first time, the only time he’ll beg this man.
Simon flinches back like he’s been slapped. Jace inhales sharply, and Simon’s glance flickers to him.
“I don’t know.” Simon repeats dully, but he’s still looking at Jace. “I don’t know.”
The pieces click. Raphael wants to scream.
“I hope,” he says, his voice tight, “that you’re worth the sunlight, Herondale.”
Jace’s hand flies to the hilt of his blade, and Simon takes a half-step forward to shield the Shadowhunter, but Raphael is done. He’s shaking with anger and with misery, because this is the one sacrifice that he isn’t willing to make, and it fucking figures that Simon’s pulled every possible person into his orbit, inescapable in his force. There is no immovable object here that can withstand Simon Lewis.
He turns and leaves, and he can hear Simon’s whispered I’m sorry. What he doesn’t expect is Jace, running after him, and when Raphael faces him, Jace is steely-eyed.
“I will always remember who my friends are, Raphael Santiago.” He says, echoing Raphael’s own words from what seems like an age ago. Raphael’s mouth twists downward in an ugly sneer, but he can’t help the envy and jealousy rising in his chest.
“Save your pity for someone who cares.” Raphael snaps. Jace stands his ground.
“If it were anything else, I would give it to you too.” He says clearly. “You understand.”
“Understand what?” Raphael snaps.
“What it feels like to be a monster.” Jace smiles wryly. “What it feels like to be around Simon.”
Raphael is silent, because silence is his last line of defense against his own heart. He can’t do anything more, weak and battered as he is.
“I can’t take it, even if you offered.” Raphael licks his lips absently, thinks of rich crimson pumping wildly beneath fragile skin. “I’m not that person.”
“I know.” Jace nods. “That’s why I didn’t offer.”
Raphael wants to scream, and laugh, and cry; he wants to thumb away Simon’s tears and make him understand affection and kindness given even when it isn’t asked for; he wants to know why the haunted look in Jace’s eyes is familiar enough to make him feel like he’s choking with fear. He wants to taste the sunlight. He wants to drink the sun.
He can smell Jace’s blood, thick and rich, beating wildly with the vitality of youth and the angels. He wishes things were that simple.
“Keep Simon close, Shadowhunter.” He says, stepping away into the shadows. He thinks about how beautiful Simon had looked when he’d been at the DuMort, all sharp lines and eager excitement. “You never know how much you miss the warmth of the sun until it’s gone.”
“Y/N, Y/N, Y/N!” You jumped out of bed with a hand on your chest. What was that? The room was dark, lurking with shadows and still figures. You got up to get a drink of water and when you got back, something stood in the middle of the room. Instead of turning away, you stepped inside and walked around it. The figure disappeared and you just shook your head and crawled back in bed so you can go back to sleep. A faint alarm stirred you awake. The sound didn’t come from your clock because you memorized that sound; in fact, it came from a car. You woke up in a patch of grass, dirt under your fingernails, feet dirty and bare. You scrambled from the ground and frantically looked around the woods. “What the he–” The overpowering smell of your alpha permeated the air around you. How did I get here? You took off running and tried to find your way home but you ended up in the same place that he bit you. “Y/N…”
Scott watched all the dirt go into the drain as he stood underneath the shower head. How could Derek do that? How could he kill Peter? He knew that he wanted to change back, to get rid of the curse of being a werewolf.
“You were in the woods?” Scott put on his backpack and stepped out the jeep. “Yeah, it was kinda like the first time I was bitten. Now that Peter’s out the way and Lydia’s okay, things might go a lot better” The two best friends walked into school, side by side. “True, but Derek’s an alpha now. Isn’t that something we should worry about? And why hasn’t Lydia changed?” Scott walked to his locker to grab some of his course work. “Maybe, but I don’t want to worry about that right now. Let’s take things slow until we have to take necessary action.” Jackson slammed his locker and stomped away. Lydia hurried after him like a little puppy, tears running down her face, her heels clacking as she followed close behind. “Jackson! Please, Jackson!” Stiles shook his head, Scott looked the opposite direction to see a gorgeous girl down the hall. “Didn’t you take his ex to the dance? How’d that turn out?” Stiles scratched the back of his head then rested on the locker. “I don’t know” “What do you mean?” “Hmm, well jeez Scott, between the grotesque alpha named Peter sauntering around town hurting the people I care about and being threatened to find you, not to mention Peter killing Allison’s aunt then being murdered by Derek, I didn’t see to it that she’d gotten home or had a great time” “You just left?” Stiles rolled his eyes and sighed, “do I have to repeat my speech?” “Stiles, a pretty girl agreed to go on a date with you without question, to a place where everyone could see you guys and you didn’t make sure if she was okay by shooting her a text message or a one-minute phone call?” Stiles opened his mouth to protest but widened his eyes once he realized what he did. “Oh my God, do you think she’ll be upset?” “Dude, it’s been two weeks. I think at this point you’re pretty non-existant” “Aw, fuck me” “No thanks” Scott clapped Stiles on the shoulder and headed to class.
Derek jumped down the stairs and rose to face Scott. “I don’t see how my making a pack is any of your concern. In fact, I think you should join me” “I don’t want to be a part of your stupid pack! You’re taking innocent lives, Derek. They don’t deserve this curse” Derek chuckled and walked outside. “You think this is a curse? Scott, you don’t have to rely on an inhaler anymore, you can heal in an instant, run fast, and do things you thought you could never do” Scott grew angry, “what about the monsters that are constantly gunning for me, the hunters waiting at every corner, and the full moon?” “A small price to pay for a life much better than before” “Leave them alone!” A sly grin crept on Derek’s face as he listened to every word being said. “Alright, Scott. I won’t hurt your friends” Scott was skeptical but he took it and left with a confidence that Derek wouldn’t hurt his friends anymore.
Scott went back to school for some extra lacrosse practice since he missed today’s. As he ran along the field, he tried to funnel all his anger and release them. Allison not being able to be with Scott. The Argents hunting werewolves. Derek and his new pack. The thing that killed Mr. Lahey. And Jackson’s constant prodding. It’s all building and Scott was trying to bury it inside of him. When he was done, he cleaned up in the locker room, put his gear away, and headed out. On his way to the exit, Stiles asked him if he remembered to gather research for chemistry. He groaned as he realized he’d forgotten all about his part of the chemistry test tomorrow. Scott made his way to the library and heard the sound of music coming from inside. He walked in to find Jackson’s ex dancing around to something that probably came out of That 70s Show. He smiled at the way she danced to herself, swaying from side to side. Her hips jerking in a soft but sharp motion. He loved the way her pants clung to her body, revealing her nice curves. Something stirred inside of his chest and he could feel himself becoming aroused. Before it could progress, Scott cleared his throat to signify his presence. But she didn’t stop. Instead, she turned around, smiled, and danced a little silly until the song came to an end. Scott had a wide smile and waited until she climbed down from the desk. “Didn’t think anyone else came after hours” Scott put his bag down and shrugged his shoulders, “forgot I had homework” “Scott forgetting to do homework?!” She gasped dramatically. “Someone call the police, we’ve got a rebel on our hands” “Guilty as charged,” Scott raised his hands in the air making her laugh. They went their separate ways, studying whatever it was that they were studying and she put down the music, switching over to a much more chill, cafe type. He was on the verge of passing out while reading chemical bonds when a loud thud alerted him awake. Scott looked around the library to find the source of the noise when he found her hunched over a pile of fallen books from a high shelf. “Need some help?” “Sure” The books were almost thirty pounds each. Most of them were history books and some were more on mythic knowledge concerning transformation, lunar science, and of course, wolf species. “So, what are you researching?” “That’s an odd question, I bet you don’t even know my name, Scott McCall” “Yeah I do” “Oh really? What is it then?” Scott was stuck. He did not know this girls name. Stiles had to have mentioned it at least once. The kid waved and said hi to her almost every day, prior to the dance. She smiled and grabbed the last book. They both stood to look at one another. “Shows how much I don’t matter. In light of that, I’ll be taking my leave” With that, she turned to leave but whipped around to stand three feet away from Scott. For some reason, his heart began to pound against his chest. “I changed my mind, I decided I’ll give you another chance for a favor in the future, agree or disagree?” Scott could barely hear his thoughts over the blood rushing in his ears so he just nodded. What the hell was happening? “Great! When I tell you this, I want you to remember it for as long as your memory is intact. I want it to melt on your tongue every time you say my name” By now she had a hand resting on his shoulder, her body slightly pressed against him, and her mouth half a foot away from his lips. “It’s Y/N” She kissed his cheek then left with an innocent smile painted on her face. Scott could feel the absence of her lips as a tingly burn, a sweet hole being drilled into the hollow of his cheek. He stood in the same spot for five minutes before completely grasping what happened. Y/N. He shouldn’t be doing this. Allison and him were still together, maybe not in the way he wanted to but there were in a relationship. “What is going on with me?”
“Do I know you?” Your heels clacked as you walked away from the whiny little boy. “Y/N, come on. Don’t act like this” “What am I acting like?” “Like you don’t miss me” You let out a short, humorless laugh at the accusation. “Says the boy following me around” “I need my key back” You stopped walking and whipped around on your heels. He truly had the audacity to be bold and brash with you. “I threw that piece of metal on the side of the road when I caught you balls deep in your ex-girlfriend” Jackson clenched his jaw and dropped his gaze to the floor. “Y/N, I didn’t–” “Save it for someone who actually cares. I truly support your decision though. It let me know that I could do so much better than a luring scoundrel who likes to break hearts when he’s bored” You flicked your hair back and marched towards the exit, only to find him following you close behind. “Y/N it wasn’t like that, okay? Honestly, you were –” “Stop” “Very special to me and I hope–” “Shut up” “That we can hash out any problems–” Anger fell over your body and you swore if you could glow your eyes, it would’ve been a burning red. You pushed Jackson up against the lockers, closed your eyes and inhaled deeply. “There is no we, there will never be a we, not ever again” You opened your eyes and shot him daggers. Jackson’s blue eyes seemed to shiver when you gave him the reality of the situation. From your peripheral you could see Scott. You flashed him a smile and a seductive wink. He returned your smile and unconsciously licked his lips. Jackson watched in a daze as you strutted away from him.
Scott stirred awake in his hot bed. He walked towards the window to let the cold air come in. Maybe it was the lack of sexual contact, the coldness of the air breezed itself onto his boxers, coaxing his bulge. He shivered and shook away the thought to touch himself. Instead, he climbed back into bed and tried to go back to sleep. At first, his dreams were about a half-naked Y/N posing on the library table, books in piles in the background. She crawled towards him, placed a finger on his lips and told him, “shh, no talking.” The image was quickly whisked away as Derek grabbed her by the throat and bit her the same way he was bitten. “No!” He laughed as blood dribbled from his mouth. Out from the ground, a hand drug her underground. Scott tried to lunge for her but Derek held him back, “she’s Peter’s now!” He emerged from the ground, eating her body in half. Gut spilled out from her bottom half as Peter noisily munched. “Scott….” “Scott!” Scott snapped his eyes open and scrambled himself awake. Derek stood over him and threw a shirt in his face. “Get up, there’s something you need to see”
Derek pulled the veil off of a table to reveal a dead body. Scott winced at the sight and covered his nose and mouth. “Look at the scratches” Scott got closer to see how deep the slashes were. “What could’ve done this?” “I don’t know, but whatever it is, it’s not something that should be kept around” Scott furrowed his brows and flashed Derek a look. “What do you mean?” “Come on Scott, this creature is killing people. It has to die” “What is wrong with you? This isn’t a plan to get rid of an enemy this is a ploy to get more power” “Thought we had this conversation earlier with Erica, Isaac, and Boyd, power is all that this is about Scott. When will you get that through your thick skull?” Derek covered the body with the black veil. “Never, I’m not going to support the death of a creature that’s probably scared and confused” “Scared and confused?” Derek chortled. “Don’t be so stupid, McCall. It’s going to kill again” “What are you going to do?” “I only brought you here to tell you what I’m going to do. Your opinion means nothing to me” “Derek!”
After Deaton closes the clinic, a faint light turns on in the main room. Files and documents of the animals in attendance are scattered in an organized mess. The dogs and cats in the holding room all make noise as the door opens but suddenly stops. A snake in the corner hisses at the glass. Back in the operating room, a vial of clear liquid sits on the table. You pick it up and give a devilish smile. The smell of mischief fermented off your skin making the snake draped around your shoulder feel contempt in its placement. No one suspects and no one knows.
Man, you've really done it this time. I told myself not to get attached to you. I swear I did. You were never going to love me the way I needed you to. It was always going to be someone else who could see your feelings better than I could. It was always going to be someone that made you feel things I couldn't. Somehow the shred of getting close to you kept me nearby. I thought somehow you'd chose me, the wild, impulsive, emotionally unstable Leo. The crazy thing is I cared about you the most. Maybe you didn't know that and didn't care. Maybe you knew that and maybe you had to save your own heart before anyone else. I should've let you take care of me more. I should've let you in and stopped playing games, pretending like none of this mattered. I shouldn't have made it a competition of who can mean the most. Because now, I need you more than you need me. I should've known you'd get to me. You're the only one that does.
You whip your head around, stopping in the middle of the crosswalk as the rest of the crowd pulls past you. The surroundings haze as if the world is being tugged away until everything is but a picture from a distance and you are in darkness. You swear you’ve heard a voice, a warm breath tickling your ear but no one’s there. Except, you catch a moving shadow on the road and in your peripheral vision; sterling pink.
The crosswalk ticks once….twice….three times then flickers to red. The stop light flashes green and absent-minded drivers push down on the pedal, accelerating forward. And you don’t notice, standing right in front of them as a mesmerized statue.
“M O V E !” Someone shouts but you don’t react fast enough, it doesn’t register fast enough. It’s as if sound passes right past through you and it never reaches your ears. It’s as if every second is being pulled down to last days and evenings, as if millenniums have passed and you’re still in the same place.
God has this way of gently guiding my heart and my mind back to Him when I start to wander from Him. God is so loving and merciful, sometimes we just don’t realize how loving and merciful God really is.
If you’re lost tonight. If you’re crying tears of sorrow tonight. If you’re searching tonight. If you’re struggling tonight. Or anything else along those lines. Please know that God loves you and cares for you and wants you to come to Him despite what you have done wrong. Let God gently guide your heart and your mind back to Him. God wants to love you and work through you and with you. I don’t care what you did wrong, God’s arms are open to you. God’s arms are wide open to you.
Psalm 34:18 “The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
I hope that this reaches someone. Much love and God Bless yall!!
“If you use your wish to grant someone else’s, you should be careful you know exactly why you’re doing it. Are you really doing it for someone else’s benefit, or the opposite, you’re doing it for that person’s everlasting gratitude?”
“I just want to save you.”
“I just pretend to be alive by moving around a dead body.”
“Is this world even worth saving?”
“Even if you can’t see me, even if you can’t hear me, I’ll always be by your side.”
“If someone says it’s wrong to hope, I will tell them they’re wrong every time.”
“Who cares what anyone else thinks? It’s your life - do whatever you want to. That’s the right way to live.”
“Remember this and take it to heart: kindness sometimes leads to even greater tragedy.”
“I’m not afraid of anything anymore. Because I’m not alone any more.”
“If someone like me could go around helping people who are in trouble, then I think that would be truly wonderful.”
“Why is it that when humans regret the decision based on a misunderstanding they feel resentment toward the other party?”
“I won’t ever depend on anyone again.“
“I will never need anyone to understand me again.”
“It’s the first time I’ve been this happy while fighting.”
“Whenever we pray for somebody’s happiness, someone else must be cursed in exchange.”
“I learned, never grant wishes for other people because you don’t know what they truly want.”
“There’s awful, horrible things in this world, I know that now. But there’s a lot of things…. Worth protecting too.”
“I try to act cool, but I’m scared.”
“You’re too kind. Don’t forget that kindness can sometimes bring forth an even greater sadness.”
“This isn’t supposed to be fun. What we’re doing is very dangerous. Don’t forget that, okay?”
“What’s wrong with you? Are you out of your mind?”
“Why can’t you understand you don’t have a luxury to fool around?”
“Why are you doing this to yourself? Why won’t you trust me? Can’t you see I just want to help you?”
“I will save you. That’s the one thing I wished for.”
“Who are you staring at?” You friend laughed seeing your
concentrated face while offering you a drink.
“Do you know who that guy is?” You pointed out at one of the
many guests. He was wearing black jeans and a perfetly simple white t-shirt and
still managed to look somehow dazzling.
“Aaa, Woo Jin? You don’t know him? He’s an actor,” your
friend sipped from her own drink while keeping her eyes on the guy in talks. “Why?
You smiled to yourself. He was really good looking, but
behind all that there seemed to be an aura that attracted you to him, something
that made you think he was a really good person. “More than that,” you placed
your drink on the bar and stood up from your place, “I’m gonna marry him.”
We all have days when we need to be reminded how much the people in our lives care about us. That’s why this DIY Valentine’s card idea is so perfect.
Choose a Hallmark card for every occasion and come up with as many “Open when…” ideas as you can. To save money you can print cards at home or make your own. No matter who your special someone is, they will love this thoughtful gift!