satisfied,

Satisfied (Reprise)

A duet between Hamilton and Angelica reflecting on the affair and pamphlet


[HAMILTON]
I remember that night, I just might
regret that night for the rest of my days

[ANGELICA]
I remember that pamphlet that you wrote,
about the Reynolds girl and your sinful ways

[HAMILTON]
I remember her beautiful red lips,
and the way she said my name

[ANGELICA]
But Alexander, I’ll never forget
the broken look on Eliza’s face

She was never the same

[HAMILTON]
She wouldn’t look me in the eyes
wouldn’t say my name

[ANGELICA]
Set her heart aflame

[HAMILTON]
Threw our love away

[HAMILTON AND ANGELICA]
Burnt out with the shame

[ANGELICA]
I knew it, you could never be satisfied.

[HAMILTON]
I don’t know what you mean

[ANGELICA]
You forget yourself
You’re like me,
But I tried to be satisfied
Oh, I tried
But you could never be satisfied

I thought you loved Eliza!

[HAMILTON]
Angelica, you know I do

[ANGELICA]
Why’d you do it then?

[HAMILTON]
I don’t know, I-

[ANGELICA]
-don’t want to hear it then.
Say goodbye,
say goodbye.

So so so—
So this is what it feels like to match wits
with someone at your level! But here is the catch!
It’s the feeling of falling, being blind in the night
It’s giving up what’s wrong for what’s right
I chose that, right?
That conversation lasted two minutes, maybe three minutes
I thought we were in total agreement
I’m screaming, I missed my chance
Leaving my sister in his cheating hands
I missed him, but I know where I stand
I asked why he did it, did you see his answer?
He and Eliza were the picture of romance
But then he cheated, enhanced with the pamphlet

Prideful, boy did he show it
Cheated, wanted everyone to know it
I wanted to slap him, straight in the face
Then I turn and see my sister’s face and she is

[ELIZA]
Helpless…

[ANGELICA]
And I know she is

[ELIZA]
Helpless…

[HAMILTON]
And I made her this

[ELIZA]
Helpless…

[ANGELICA]
And I realize

[HAMILTON AND ANGELICA]
There was a different ‘helpless’ in her eyes

[ANGELICA]
I know my sister like I know my own mind
You will never find anyone as trusting or as kind
When I saw her burn the letters
When I saw you made her cry
She said, “I’m not fine”

[ANGELICA AND HAMILTON]
She wasn’t lying

[HAMILTON]
And when I lie awake at night
regretting that old time
When I lie awake at night

[ANGELICA]
Holding Eliza
While she cries
over her husband

That gave her all the strife of this life
why is my poor Eliza his wife?

[HAMILTON AND ANGELICA]
And I know
shes’ not happy as

[HAMILTON]    [ANGELICA]
my wife            his wife

[HAMILTON AND ANGELICA]
And I know

[HAMILTON]
I’ve always been satisfied

[ANGELICA]
God I hope he’s satisfied

A toast to the groom! To the groom! To the groom! To the groom!
To the bride! To the bride! To the Briiii To the Briiiiiiide!
From your sister, Angelica Angelica Angelica
Who is always by your side. by your side by your side
To your union, To the Union!To the Revolution!
and the hope that you provide, you provide you proviiiide
may you always, Always
be satisfied! Rewiiiind

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Hamilton

Satisfied (double audio)
Sia vs Renee Elise Goldsberry
Satisfied (double audio)

LHS: Satisfied - Sia ft Miguel + Queen Latifah, Hamilton Mixtape

RHS: Satisfied - Renee Elise Goldsberry, Hamilton: An American Musical (2015)


(it gets better about 40 seconds in….. just you wait)

a bunch of rambling thoughts about satisfied
  • it starts with angelica surrounded by people, seemingly satisfied and content, and ends with her all by herself on stage, privately devastated and unsatisfied
  • it’s framed like an essay. intro & thesis, three body paragraphs, conclusion and restatement of the thesis, showing her intelligence
  • while analyzing alexander, even in a lovestruck daze, angelica notes that he’s penniless. this comes up again in reason one, yet is once again dismissed. his financial state doesn’t matter—eliza does.
  • in the sia cover, the aforementioned singer sings both “and i knooow” and “helpless”, signifying that once angelica realizes eliza’s feelings, she is helpless to do anything but acknowledge them
  • helpless is repeated by eliza, three times, one for each reason.
  • angelica notes both alexander and eliza’s eyes, but never her own, symbolically linking them 
  • angelica also mentions “the first time i saw her face / then i turn and see my sister’s face” once again connecting the two people she loves more than anything
  • “intelligent eyes” she notices his mind first, a link to schuyler sisters, “i’m looking for a mind at work”
  • angelica says “mind” rather than heart during “i know my sister like i know my own mind”, showing that this is both a rational and emotional decision; she is using her head and her heart to manage this sacrifice
  • angelica only says “heart” once in the whole song, with ‘set my heart aflame’
  • in the first verse: “i remember that night/i remember those/i remember that dreamlike” angelica uses remember three times, and never forget for alexander, drawing attention to the line that “i have never been the same”—alexander is breaking the pattern of angelica’s world
  • the fire symbolism throughout the song, in comparison to helpless which uses “drowning”. angelica “match” wits, aflame, etc. there is also electricity (ben franklin with the key and the kite), another flame-filled metaphor. 
  • angelica also links alexander to icarus in BURN, in this case, angelica is icarus (clothed in orange), destined to fall, and alexander is the sun. eliza (clothed in blue) is the sea, this metaphor established by helpless and then by satisfied
  • angelica’s reiteration of the wedding toast is a reminder that this is all replaying with her mind; much like “i realize three fundamental truths at the exact same time”, this is all happening within a matter of seconds, showing how fast her brain truly works
  • “he’d be mine” / “that boy is mine”
  • angelica reflects on his eyes right before the reintroduced wedding toast, reiterating the feature she once again first noticed about him
  • satisfied is in many ways a revelation on a scene we thought we previously understood. this is another callback to schuyler sisters with angelica “you want a revolution? i want a revelation!” and the other wedding-goers go “union / to the revolution” what happens next? a revelation 
  • “i just might regret that night for the rest of my days / i’ll never forget the first time i saw your face” regret and forget are the first half of this rhyming scheme, connecting the two. if angelica could forget her feelings for hamilton, she would not have to regret this night.
  • “i’m sure you don’t know what you mean” “you’re like me: i’m never satisfied” / “nice going angelica, he was right: you will never be satisfied” angelica now painfully, acutely, understands what he was saying
  • at least my dear eliza’s his wife / at least i keep his eyes in my life—rhyming scheme, in addition to showing that, even when it comes to consoling herself about losing alexander, eliza still comes first
  • he will never be satisfied. i will never be satsified. is one of the only times in the song alexander and angelica are directly compared the same way that eliza & alexander are on numerous connections. a callback to “you’re like me: i’m never satisfied”
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“satisfied as of august 6th”: Karen Olivo leaves the chicago production of Hamilton tomorrow and that’s honestly so heartbreaking because her performance was so emotional and i was stunned. like, yeah satisfied is sad but she made it S A D and she was actually crying during quiet uptown. anyways, her birthday is also august 7th so let’s celebrate the icon that is Karen Olivo, and her legendary career as a performer.

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SATISFIED: Lams version

Mulligan:
Alright, this is what I’m talkin bout! Give it up, for the Best Man, John Laurens!

Laurens:
A toast to the groom!
(to the groom, to the groom, to the groom)
To the bride!
(to the bride, to the bride, to the bride)
From your best friend
(Laurens, Laurens, Laurens)
Who is always by your side
(by your side, by your side)
To your union and the hope that you provide
(you provide, you provide)
May you always (always)
Be satisfied (rewind)

Rewind!
Rewind!
I remember that night, I just might
I remember that night, I just might
I remember that night, I remember that

I remember that night, I just might
Regret that night for the rest of my days
I remember us soldier boys
Drinking and toasting ourselves to our future praise
I remember that pub light candlelight
Like a dream that you can’t quite place
But Alexander, I’ll never forget the first time I saw your face

I have never been the same
Intelligent eyes and a witty ass nickname
And when you said “Hi” I forgot my dang name
Set my heart aflame, ev'ry part aflame
This is not a game…

Hamilton:
You strike me as a man who has never been satisfied

Laurens:
I’m sure I don’t know what you mean, you forget yourself

Hamilton:
You’re like me, I’ve never been satisfied

Laurens:
Is that right?

Hamilton:
I have never been satisfied

Laurens:
My name’s John Laurens

Hamilton:
Alexander Hamilton

Laurens:
Where are you from?

Hamilton:
Unimportant, though I can already tell I like you a lot.
Just you wait, just you wait…

Laurens:
So so so
So this is what it feels like to match thoughts
With someone at your level! What the hell is the catch? It’s
The feeling of freedom, of joy and pride
Maybe with him I won’t have to hide? You see him right?
The conversation lasted over two drinks, maybe three drinks
Ev'rything we said in total agreement, it’s
A dream and it’s a bit of a dance
A bit of a posture, it’s a bit of a stance
He flirts with me in his notes, and I give him the chance
I tell him bout my plans, do you see his face tho?
Dumbstruck, listening at the edge of his seat.
He’s fallen hard, you can tell by the knowable seam in his pants
Handsome, boy, does he know it!
Peach fuzz, and he can’t even grow it!
I wanna take him far away from this place
Then I’ve gotta leave to fight, leading my men at a quick pace
Then I get a note that leaves tears on my face he is

Eliza:
Helpless

Laurens:
And I know she is

Eliza:
Helpless

Laurens:
And her eyes are just

Eliza:
Helpless

Laurens
And I realize three fundamental truths at the exact same time
I’m a man in a world in which
My only job is to keep my title rich
My father has no other sons so I’m the one
Who’ll lead the black battalion the one
Cause I’m the oldest and the wittiest and the slavery in
Our new nation is insidious
And Alexander is penniless
Ha! That doesn’t mean I want him any less
(Doesn’t mean I want him any less)
(Doesn’t mean I want him any less)
(Doesn’t mean I want him any less)

He tells me he likes me a lot, that confuses the shit outta me
I’d have to be green to not see what he means
I don’t reply
Now there’s Eliza
Now that’s his bride
Nice going, Laurens, he was right
You will never be satisfied
(I will never be satisfied)
(I will never be satisfied)

I know my best friend like I know my own mind
You will never find anyone as trusting or as kind
If I tell him that I love him he would toss her to the side
He’d be mine
She would say, “I’m fine”
But she’d be lying

But when I fantasize at night
It’s Alexander’s eyes
As I romanticize what might have been
If I hadn’t left
so quickly
At least my dear Eliza’s his wife
At least I keep his letters in my life…

to the groom!
(to the groom, to the groom, to the groom)
To the bride!
(to the bride, to the bride, to the bride)
From your best friend
(Laurens, Laurens, Laurens)
Who is always by your side
(by your side, by your side)
To your union and the hope that you provide
(you provide, you provide)
May you always
Be satisfied

And I know
She’ll be happy as his bride
And I know
He will never be satisfied
I will never be satisfied