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Days like today kind of blow my mind.  I think back, 2, 3 years… when I refuse to wear dresses, when it was difficult to go out with out sleeves.  Because I was so concerned about what other people might think.

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And now, here I am- fat, bare-armed, and happy.  I feel so pretty in this dress.  

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It took time to get there, but most of the time I feel pretty at peace with my body and with myself.  And that’s pretty amazing.

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Also, it’s fun to go do things like… rent major power equipment while wearing an embroidered sundress.  Heh.

Ok, so wait for the Good Photos to share and I’ll put up a proper post later tonight.

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But this is the quick-shot after photo.  That’s me, and my almost shaved head.

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2 things: My friends are fucking amazing.  Because every time I thought I was going to start crying… someone would crack me up.  I think there are probably about 50 photos (between everyone’s cameras) of me just… cracking up while having my head shaved.

And 2: In case you didn’t already know… SuperSandy is like… the most amazing woman on the planet and you should all be crazy jealous because I got to meet her, hang out with her, hug her, and eat her INCREDIBLE mac n cheese. 

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Between Sandy, and my friends, and the Fairy Godmother… There is no way I could have felt more supported and more loved and I don’t even have the words right now to describe it.

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Once some of the “official” photos are in my possession I’ll do a big progression/blog post about it all… but I wanted to give ya’ll something to tease you with.

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Bring on Chemo… I’m fuckin ready for it now.

Kris and I drove out to White Rock so I could get my bluebonnet photos today!  While I was contemplating my next shot (and it was epic btw) she got this pic of me with her phone.

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Exciting Fat Person: Photographer edition.

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I LOVE THIS PHOTO!

Know why?  Because it felt completely amazing to be back in my element again.  Shortly after this shot I laid on my belly and got the most beautiful bluebonnet photo I’ve ever taken.  

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It felt AMAZING to be myself again.  

Ok, so the setup isn’t perfect.  All I have is a giant gray sheet for a backdrop so I popped in a basic gradient just to simplify things.  Will have to do something different in the future I think.

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Here’s one of the eshakti dresses though.  It’s super soft and silky and I love it.  I added the belt to break it up a bit.

I can’t even express how pretty I feel these days. I’m going to let my hair grow longer so I can really see the post chemo color and texture, but ultimately, I will very likely go back to it being this short.
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I just feel so pretty with it like this! Really great with the shape of my head, and I do have such pretty features, having my hair so short lets people focus more on my actual face…. Which I really like.

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New Glasses!  I’ll miss my blues, but I loved the sharper angle and striking black frames.  PLUS the insides are a really great kind of orangey color (which I never would have *thought* I’d like) that’s a great pop of brightness!

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I’m going to have to update my illustration!  I still can’t believe I bought glasses with orange details!!  The photo looks yellower than they are (it’s really more of a … well, an orangey  yellow! (like PMS 130 pictured next to it!)

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Love them!  There’s a lot more lens real estate than in my last glasses, and the plastic frames themselves are actually a lot slimmer and I loooove them.  I think they look great!

OOD (sort of)

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Top (Fashion Bug): black with shiny silver inset

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Skirt (unshown)(Fashion Bug): Black, Grey, and red plaid (long with belt)

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Scarf (CVS… no really!): Red, silver, black, and white

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Boots: black, no heel

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Socks: grey and super fuzzy… (yum!)

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Lipstick (I know, shocking!!) Mary Kay Berry Sparkle Nourishine Gloss

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And that’s it! that’s my goin-to-the-show outfit!

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So excited to go out and celebrate. Just wish I had eyelashes so I could wear some mascara! Oh well, all good things in time right?