same-cycle

i kinda hate it when celebrities (or almost-celebrities) have tumblrs because it’s almost the same cycle of “haha woahoho hey! i’m hip and with it! i’m on this super cool millennial website!” and then one of their fans is inevitably like “cum between my toes” and they never log in again 

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Humans were so circular; they lived the same slow cycles of joy and misery over and over, never learning. Every lesson in the universe had to be taught billions of times, and it never stuck.

Maybe it was good that the world forgot every lesson, every good and bad memory, every triumph and failure, all of it dying with each generation. Perhaps this cultural amnesia spared them all. Perhaps if they remembered everything, hope would die instead.

Mastering yoga takes time….In the beginning I wanted too much too soon…I ended up hurting myself. You need to let your body tell you when.. Let your body guide you.  Hard work and discipline really pay off. Yoga is also about meditation. Reflecting about your life, your growth.  Its about self forgiveness and loving yourself.

I’m a woman who runs with the wolves..They represent so much of how I feel, Of what I want in life. Duality…Following your heart, gut and female intuition. Soft, wholesome girl and the wild passionate women inside..Play and love. Instinct and challenge. Home and adventure. First, I want to be able to not only live, but thrive, on my own and with someone. Being alone has a way of guiding you to those creaky, cobwebby, eggshelly places in our being. To Be in it, truly without attachment or dependency. Sharing my life with someone..being loved and love in return..also let me evolve and grow into a stronger person.  I am so thankful for the special souls in my world who have been here with me, walked this path, together, with love and respect, with complete allowance and acceptance. I am equally grateful for the lessons learnt through great heart ache and pain. Lessons I learned from immense love and passion.  This is what I know: in this life, a steady love, and a place to call home, are far more precious than any earthly possessions or wealth in this world. I will use what I have for growth, change for others and myself. My grandparents gave me that gift and I will pay it forward! I’ve been loved and left  heartbroken, alone and together…May this next chapter be one of wild love, adventure, and most of all ..home. 

If I could give any piece of advice to anyone who was in the same depressive cycle as me it would be this:
Get the fuck up. I don’t care if you’re body is tired if your mind has had enough, you will get dressed, get up and carry on every single fucking day because if you don’t your life is going to pass you by and in a couple of years time when what’s bothering doesn’t hurt anymore you are going to look back and hate yourself for becoming a shadow of who you were, you are going to wish you got up that day before you lost control.
You are choosing to surrender yourself to your demons, remember that you are the only one who can control your actions, you are the one doing this to your damn self.
Do you think the reason why you don’t want to get out of bed everyday cares? If they cared you wouldn’t be stuck in this pit. The only one you are hurting right now is you.
While everyone is soft with you and tells you what you want to hear you listen to me, do not do this, as soon as you begin it is impossible to survive. You will stop feeling sorry for yourself, take control back of your life and stare the reason that’s making it so hard for you to function in the eye and say, I will not let you break me, you will not have the power to keep me from living, I will triumph you and I will do it because if I don’t take action now when I’m a little bit older and wiser I will then look back and think why the hell could I not just have gotten out of bed, if I took care of myself then by now I would have so much more happy memories to look back on and to enjoy in years to come rather than remember the same black four walls day in and out alone, because I just couldn’t face up to my heavy heart and lonely soul, so I hid. I hid from the world when I should’ve just gotten out of bed every single day.
—  B.L letters I never sent

Humans were so circular; they lived the same slow cycles of joy and misery over and over, never learning. Every lesson in the universe had to be taught billions of times, and it never stuck.

Maybe it was good that the world forgot every lesson, every good and bad memory, every triumph and failure, all of it dying with each generation. Perhaps this cultural amnesia spared them all. Perhaps if they remembered everything, hope would die instead.

—  Maggie Stiefvater, “Blue Lily, Lily Blue”

Can I just point out, that in the end, John technically DID need a male therapist to talk to. He didn’t work through his issues until he opened up to Sherlock. That line about John choosing a female therapist still stands out to me because Ella was also a woman and he wouldn’t talk or open up to her about his issues either, and he definitely wasn’t opening up to Eurus.

I’ve noticed that ALL of John’s relationships with women are emotionally restricted on his side. Yet with men, he seems to grow stronger more open connections. When I see him interact with Sherlock or Sholto he’s different than he was with Mary or his other girlfriends. I don’t think him choosing a female therapist was him making moves forward, that was him repeating the same cycle.

Choosing a woman that he doesn’t fully connect with, staying in the same emotionally stunted state. Much like his romantic relationships. John’s next growth is going to come when he works past his need to fill the heterosexual mold and chooses a man for a partner as well.

What do you buy?

Check 2nd house.

Sun: tend to buy expensive things or, at least, things that makes them look like they were better than you. Their identity is reflected on what they posses. They feel whorty through this house, so it’s normal that these people tend to accumulate things. Value their wealth as their life.

Moon: tend to buy things and then feel guilty. Their financial stability is like the phases of the moon: constant change and, at the same time, follows a cycle. The NEED financial security. If a material good (of any sort) is missing, it’ll affect directly to their feelings. They tend to buy confort items.

Mercury: tend to buy things related to knowledge, technology and basically trends. They tend to be flighty and in constant change so what’s today may not be tomorrow. However, they’re very clever about the financial world and earning money.

Venus: CLOTHES AND MAKEUP and everything that makes them look better (this is very subjective, you may don’t consider makeup as a need in order to feel beautiful so you skip that part. Think about what you buy and makes you feel flawless). They may a bit too shallow and being a compulsive buyer. They value beautiful things and show them off all the fucking day. Also they love to buy gifts for their friends and lovers!!

Mars: tend to buy things impulsively, often driven by a whim or sort of “competition”.  They tend to risk their financial security in if they think the invertion will work (and they have high self-steem so they think it’ll always work out for them). Their possesions are linked to their anger, so don’t!take!their!things!away!

Jupiter: tend to buy A LOT. Useless shit, exotic things, extravagant gifts, whatever, they buy it. They have this unconscious idea that everything will be okay tomorrow, so they try to help meanwhile: giving loans to everyone, spending in gifts for their friends, giving fancy parties, etc. They just don’t care, because they bank accounts are constantly full, for some reason.

Saturn: do they buy something actually? They work hard in order to have financial security but when the moment comes, they feel constricted and only buy the basic things. They just don’t want fancy parties or expensive gifts, they only want their bank accounts full and their family happy.

Uranus: your local snob. Tend to buy things that make them feel cultivated~ Value “culture” and weird art. That, or maybe they may be your local commie who feels “trapped” in Capitalism and its material world. Whatever the kind of Uranus, they’re still in constant change, like their bank accounts.

Neptune: tend to buy too many things or nothing at all. May buy things in order to fill their “emptiness”. Buy useless shit or pieces of art. At the end of the day, they value intangible things more than their material goods. 

Pluto: buy what they need to live. They’re overprotective over their material goods and tend to go through moments of poverty and then financial stability. Basically their bank accounts are a rollercoaster. Don’t try to make them risk their wealth, you already know the answer.

you know how when you’ve just graduated from uni there’s this thing about employers not wanting to hire people with no work experience so you can’t get your first job in order to get this very experience to get another job later and it’s just like an endless cycle with no breaks?

i kinda feel the same about getting a relationship rn. like it seems that most people have been through all the “first time"s during middle/high school and here i am, closeted and with zero experiencte in any kind of relationships, and i don’t even know how to meet someone but even if i do i won’t know how to act or what to say or do and i feel like i’m just gonna fuck it up from the start bc there’s no way it can work out when you have no idea what you’re doing y'know? and so there’s this very same cycle where i’m doomed to never have a relationship bc i never had one.

(does it make sense? probably not but i can’t help but think about it)   

502. The knocker has the same rotating cycle of questions (although there are many) so the less riddle-minded ravenclaws have a huge masterlist of the riddles and the answers to them. Some more pretentious students look down upon this practice, but even the people who are the best at riddles need to use the list once in awhile (it’s the worst when the knocker adds a new question that not on the list though!)

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ya lit meme: ten books or series [5/10] ♡ the raven cycle by maggie stiefvater

Humans were so circular; they lived the same slow cycles of joy and misery over and over, never learning. Every lesson in the universe had to be taught billions of times, and it never stuck.

Maybe it was good that the world forgot every lesson, every good and bad memory, every triumph and failure, all of it dying with each generation. Perhaps this cultural amnesia spared them all. Perhaps if they remembered everything, hope would die instead.

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26 albums from 2016 → Bon Iver - 22, A Million

“The old records are of this sad nature, and I was healing myself through that stuff. Being sad about something is okay, and then wallowing in it, circling the same cycles emotionally feels boring. For this one, there’s some dark stuff, but I think cracking things, and making things that are bombastic and exciting and also new, and mashing things together and explosiveness, and kind of shouting more - I think that was more of the zone.”