Sebastian Stan, Chris Evans, Anthony Mackie and director Joe Russo pose for photos during the Southeast Asia press conference of Marvel’s ‘Captain America: Civil War’ at Marina Bay Sands on April 21, 2016 in Singapore.
this morning I laid in bed and watched dust particles float through a beam of light for an hour. they were so light, drifting through the world of existence without a single clue. they were beautiful; small scraps of living, signs of life only stirred if I blew a small stream of air their way. It was just yesterday I felt the same they did - able to daintily bounce in my surrounding element until a large unexpected gust blew me down to the floor where I know lie. I lay, staring up at the small pieces grazing on nothingness and wonder how to rejoin them. I suddenly feel like a rock, unbelonging and heavy.
we live in this tiny world where our lives push at the boundaries, bloating it’s stomach with fattening joy. we swirl round’ and round’ and round’ clogging the black hole drain with bubble baths and candle wax. white wine and pancakes make for a poets brew; broiling over with tangerine steam that burns away the bitter and mundane- revealing a sweet, soft layer of comfort beneath the hair clippings and bull rings.
Emerson Student Competes in Her First Pageant – Miss Boston
Q. How did you get involved with the Miss Boston organization in the first place? What first intrigued you about the pageant? Were you always interested or was it something you were kind of coaxed into?
A. I got involved with the Miss America Organization through a professor, Dr.Dana Rosengard. At first I wasn’t into it because it didn’t really seem like something that was very “me"… But this year I kind of just thought about it out of the blue and figured I should go for it…I didn’t really see anything I could lose from giving it a shot.
Q. Beauty pageants can sometimes bring out a "diva” side to people. Did you feel any kind of pressure to act a certain way once you were going to be in Miss Boston?
A. I didn’t necessarily feel any pressure from any specific outside source. I guess I just tried to clean up my Facebook.
I felt the need to look more “fit” because lets face it, being in a swimsuit in front of 200+ people would make anyone want to hit the gym more. I think the only time I really felt real pressure was the day of the pageant… when I started to see everyone’s outfits and hair and make-up… But at that point there really wasn’t much I could do about it except be confident in what I was bringing to the table.
Q. Talk about the Miracle Network and your work with them… what you did to raise money, how much you raised and what that experience was like for you doing charity work.
A. The Children’s Miracle Network is the Miss America Organizations official philanthropy. We were required to raise $100 but were encouraged to try and raise more … an award at the show was incentive to raise the most money.
I decided to throw a fundraiser at Limelight Studios. It was a karaoke event where people paid 5$ at the door and could come in and sing all night long. I ended up raising the full $100 that night. I really liked that part of the competition because it made me think out of the box to try and get people to donate to the cause. I love trying to throw events, so this was a good opportunity to put that into play.
Q. What kind of support did you receive from friends/family/others while doing this pageant? What was it like to sort of see so many people cheering for you?
A. I received a lot of support from my family and friends, which was awesome. So many people I wouldn’t have expected to be supportive were, and it really meant a lot. The fact that this was my first pageant and I had so much support really solidified to me that I had made the right decision by going through with this and stepping outside of my comfort zone.
Q. Talk about the other girls in the pageant. Did you make any lasting connections with any of them? What does that mean to you to have a potential new group of girls in your life who have shared this experience with you?
A. The other girls were surprisingly all very down to earth and incredibly helpful. Not everyone was a pageant vet … and for a few other girls it was their first pageant as well. I really enjoyed getting to know each and everyone of them. I don’t necessarily think I made any life-long friendships … but I think I fell into a nice group of girls that I could go to for advice with future pageants. When I used to think of pageants, I thought of girls being sneaky and cutting up dresses. But everyone was so dedicated to the organization that we all really wanted to see everyone succeed.
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