sam's face just breaks my heart

Samuel deserves better too. He was suppose to debut with Seventeen and trained along with them for a while only to leave due to personal reasons. He was in 1Punch but that ended when 1/One left to go with YG. Sam moved to Brave Entertainment and honestly this poor boy has been given so much false hope and at the end it was nothing but a huge disappointment and that it breaks my heart. Whenever the camera would show his face near the end you can tell he was trying not to cry. He did a lot this season that made him deserve to be in the top 11. I just want him to debut soon as a solo or in a group; he just deserves this and I hope that he isn’t so hard on himself for this. It’s honestly not his fault and I hope he knows that.


For the bittersamgirlclubTop 5 Challenge: Top 5 Most Heartbreaking Sam Moments. Well, thanks to the BSGC for this cruel and unusual prompt. If you’re interested in my thoughts on these five horrible moments then by all means, read on…

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Father!Dean Winchester x Daughter!Reader 

Warning: Angst 

Part 2


Summary: The reader makes an effort to hang out with her father (Dean) by buying a pair of his favorites band tickets but it turns out Dean would rather go with the readers older brother (Jr.) rather than her. 

Originally posted by frozen-delight

Originally posted by blackandwh0te

Growing up in a house full with boys wasn’t always easy yet I wouldn’t change it for the world, but being the only girl did mean that I was left out in some activities that “only guys would understand”. 

I wouldn’t have minded it much if only it didn’t have a big impact on the amount of time I spent with my father, Dean. 

Right now was one of those times where I wish that something would change in mine and my fathers relationship. 

I’ve been saving up money to pay for tickets for my dads favorite band that were coming into town and I had to cancel plans with my best friend, which she wasn’t happy about, but I’ve been waiting to spend time with my dad which I haven’t done since you were young. 

“Hey Sammy!” I say walking into the kitchen with a hop in my step. 

“Someone’s happy this morning,” Sam replies, mirroring the bright smile on my face. 

“Oh nothing, I just bought two front seat tickets to Dads favorite band!” I squeal, jumping in happiness. 

“Really? That’s amazing. Wait, I thought you hated Deans taste in music." 

"Oh I do. It’s just that Dad and I haven’t hung out in a while because he’s always hanging out with you or Jr. and I thought maybe this will, I don’t know, be a memory we’ll be able to make together,” I finish off with a small smile, looking at the ground. 

“He’ll love it (Y/N),” Sam says, also giving me a small smile back. 

After mine and Sam talk, I found out that Dean and your brother were actually out and won’t be back until later that evening. 

The minute that they walk through the door, I, as usual, gave both my brother and Dad a hug. Backing up, I look at my dad, not being able to hold in my excitement any longer. 

“Guess what Dad! I was able to score two front row tickets to you’re favorite band! I thought maybe both of us can go. It starts at 8." 

"Wow (Y/N) that amazing.” He says, bringing me into another hug. Sam walks into the living room seeing me and Dean hugging and he smiles. 

“I’ll be right back. I’m gonna go get the tickets from my room.” Running up the stairs I burst into my room and quickly grab them from my desk and turned to run back to the living room. 

“Maybe you should come with me Jr., (Y/N) won’t even like the concert,” I heard my Dad say. 

I slowed down and quietly inch my way towards the living room entrance. 

“I don’t know Dad. You saw the look on her face, she’s really excited.” I smile softly, hearing Jr. try to decline. Him and I have always been close and he always protected me from anything that even looked a little dangerous. 

He’s my big brother. 

“I know but I just don’t think that me and your sister will have a good time if it were the both of us and besides you love this band,” Dean pleads. 

And that’s when I knew that I would never have the type of relationship that I wanted with my Dad. That it’ll never be like his and Jrs. 

I wipe away the tears that spilled onto my cheeks and fan my eyes and plaster a fake smile onto my face. 

“Dean, you need to go with (Y/N) she’s been feeling li-” I cut off Sam as I walk back into the living room, with a smile on my face. 

“Hey Dad, I completely forgot that I was suppose to hang out with Diana tonight and you know how she gets when I cancel plans on her. I’m sorry but I can’t go, maybe you can take Jr. with you,” I force every word out my mouth, my heart breaking more and more as I talk. 

“Oh, that’s okay Sweetheart we can do something tomorrow, just you and me. How does that sound?” I force another smile, nodding my head ‘yes’ but I knew he’d forget and end up hanging out with Jr. or Sam. Just like he did every time.  

“Yeah. Anyway, here you go,” I say, holding out the tickets for him to take. I stare at the tickets and let go of the tight grip I had on it when my Dads hands come in vision and takes the tickets. 

“I’m gonna head upstairs and take a little nap before I go out.” I say, turning around and ignoring the confused look Sam gave me and the excitement on my Dads face as he looks at the tickets. 

“Wow, front row. You know-” I shut and slide down my room door and drown out my Dads voice. I shut me eyes and silently let the tears that I’ve been trying so hard to not let go finally out. 

After a while I pick myself up and drop myself onto my bed. I pick up the phone and click on Diana’s contact number and wait for her to answer her phone. 

“Um, hey Diana, sorry I cancelled on you earlier, yeah, no everything’s okay. I was just wondering if you’re still on for tonight? Oh, you can’t. No, that’s okay, you don’t have to cancel on your dad, you should hang out with him. Yeah, okay. Bye.” I hang up, throwing my phone next to me and lay down on my bed. 

“So much for having plans tonight.” I whisper to myself, hugging my pillow to my chest.

AA!SteveTony - the one where the married dorks get on to becoming married dorks. Continued from this fic.
For @ishipallthings <33

Word Count: ~1500
Warnings: None, only fluff

Steve opened his eyes with a start in the room he claimed as his in the SHIELD facility that the Avengers were temporarily calling home. The room was little more than a barracks; it should have been familiar, but nothing had felt familiar in a while.  

Brows drawn in concentration, Steve focused on where he knew the speakers were located.  

“Tony?” he rasped up at the ceiling, staring blindly into the dark. When there was no answer, he murmured wryly, “I’m losing sleep because of you.”

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Probable Fear Of Abandonment- Part Two

Part One Here

Pairing: Sam x reader
Characters: Sam, Dean, the reader
Warnings: injured!reader, swearing, angst
Request: The reader and the Winchesters have hunted together for years, but when the reader is hospitalized and the Winchesters have to go save the world they leave her behind. The plan was for the separation to be temporary, but when the reader wakes up earlier than the doctors thought she would and sees the Winchesters gone, she thinks they left her. So, with both her heart and a few bones broken. she moves on with her life and starts hunting solo. Years later, fate will bring the three of them together again. On an impossible hunt, not only will the reader see her ex-boyfriend, Sam, but his brother again too!
A/N: Hope this lives up to the hype of part one:) 
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When he first called your name, something within you had just clicked. Suddenly you felt trapped, like you needed to get out. So, without knowing where you were headed, you bolted out of the grocery store without so much as putting your cart away. 

The parking lot had been filled with cars, each of them honking and yelling as they whizzed past, narrowly missing you. But in your frenzy, it had all sounded like white noise. Everything except the sound of Sam’s voice was drowned out, and all you could focus on was the man behind you. 

You’d had no idea where you were going, just that you needed to leave. It hadn’t even occurred to you that talking to Sam would have been a good thing, that it would have provided closure. He was the only one in the world that could answer the question you’d asked yourself for years: why had he left? But none of that donned on you in the moment, and you had just ran through the parking lot like a maniac, with Sam behind you the entire time. 

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Control Freak

Anon asked: Hi can your do where the reader boyfriend broke up with her and calls her nasty names and Sam and Dean get angry.

Pairings: Dean x sister!reader, Sam x sister!reader

Reader’s Age: 16-19

Word Count: 1,289

Warnings: swearing, mentions of abuse (let me know if I missed anything)

Originally posted by supernaturalfreewill

Since Sam and Dean have always been very protective of you, it was hard for you to keep a relationship. Your older brothers would always scare guys away. You had only had one other boyfriend before Beckett. He was the love of your life, he made you in the happiest of moods, he always made you feel special, there was no other guy like him and you loved him… or so you thought.

After 4 months of dating Beckett, he started to act different. He’d get jealous of everyone you talked to, he would always want to know where you were going, he insisted that you hang out with him instead of your friends and family, and if you had plans with friends or family, he made you cancel. He was so controlling. You tried to tell him off a few times but he got so mad at you, he started physically hurting you. You didn’t want to tell your brothers because you thought they’d be mad at you for not standing up to him. You had lost a few friends because of him, he was ruining your life and you didn’t know what to do.

It was late at night. You were finishing up some homework assignments in the bunker library when Beck started to text you.

B: Wanna come over and hang?

Y: Can’t, doing homework

B: You don’t have a choice, I asked you to come over, so come over.

Y: Just give me a sec.

“Who’s that?” Sam asked. “Beck.” You said, lowering your head.

You set your phone down and got up. “brb.” You muttered. “Where ya going?” Dean asked. “Bathroom.” You replied, not looking back.

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Originally posted by theyremenofletters

Sam’s face in this scene kills me, then fills me with life. He’s been wanting this hug for 34 years! Just to be loved and appreciated by his mom and his brother. Both are so proud of him right now and thankful that he’s safe. Dean needs this too, as well as Mom, but Im so glad the writers gave this moment to Sam. For a moment, he lets all the pain and sadness wash away and be replaced with love and comfort. All he’s wanted his whole life.

Ive watched this episode 7 times now and this scene still brings me to tears. What Jared does for Sam with just facial expressions is amazing.. Normally when Sam hugs someone,, because hes so tall, he leans down to accomodate the other. Not this time though, hes standing straight and tall,” let mom bury her face in my chest, let Dean rest his head on my shoulder, Im not a baby, Im not a little kid, Im a big strong man, and I did it all for you” And all these thoughts, feelings, and forgiveness  come out in just body language and facial expressions! Jared hit this out of the park!

In the scene just before this, Mom states that shes scared, what if Sam can’t forgive her? But Sam says “Mom, you dont have to be scared of me”  and with just the tone of his voice, and the words Jared chooses to accent, is heart breaking and you know he’s already forgiven her and he isnt going to hold the past against her. Sam is a beautiful human being and we might not get to see that so clearly if Jared didn’t put so much life into this character. As bad as this show can be, this is the very reason Im hooked on it, and will support it till the end and beyond. It can confuse me, hurt me, piss me off but then give me episodes like this and all is forgiven. I feel kind of the way Sam feels right now.

Sweet Innocence

Pairing: DeanxReader
Word count: 1,895
Warnings: Talk of sex
Request: Anonymous. Hola! I have an idea for something. I would love for a dean and reader where the reader is super sweet, shy and innocent (she doesnt understand alot of dirty jokes and stuff) and they find out that they are eachothers soul mates. Dean feels like he ruins everything and she’s so sweet he thinks she’ll be hurt around him just like everyone else. So he pushes her away and says some really mean things and she’s hurt and confused and leaves. He realizes how stupid he was and finds her to make up

Part 1 of Dean’s Soul Mate

Dean watched as your nose crinkled as you laughed. He thought you were the most adorable people he had ever met. It probably helped that you were also the most innocent. Somehow, you’d made it to your mid-twenties, a virgin. On top of that, dirty jokes went right over your head. Sam was making faces at you while you were trying to eat your breakfast. You’d been sick the week before, and he was happy you were back to your usual self.

Cas popped in, making you jump. “Morning, Cas.” You smiled at him.

“Good morning, Y/N.” He smiled back. Cas felt comfortable around you, probably because neither of you understood certain things.

Dean sat back in his chair, kicking his feet up on the corner of the table. “What’s up, Cas?” He asked, popping a piece of bacon in his mouth.

“I have come across some very interesting information.” He began, making Dean make that face that meant ‘go on’. It always made you chuckle. “I have found out that you have a soul mate, Dean.”

“You’re joking, right?” Dean laughed, shaking his head. “There’s no way heaven wants me with someone.”

Cas shook his head. “Not someone. Y/N.” He said as if he was stating the color of the sky. “Y/N is your soul mate.” You had been drinking your juice when he said that, causing you to choke on it. “Are you alright?” You simply nodded and waved him on. “I felt you should know that.” And with that, he was gone.

The three of you sat in silence, none of you sure what to say after that. After a few minutes, Dean got up and stormed off. You looked at Sam, who simply shrugged.

And that’s when things went down hill. Every time you tried to talk to him, he’d shut down. Normally he was the one trying to get you to get out of your shell. By that night, you thought that maybe he was just having a rough day.

Walking in the living room, you smiled when you saw him watching a movie. “Can I join you?” You asked quietly.

He glanced up, shrugging. “I doubt you’d get it.”

You furrowed your brow. “Why not?”

“Dirty jokes, sex, things outside your comfort zone, sweetheart.” Dean was cringing internally at how he sounded. He was being a dick, but it was for your own good. He had to keep you away to keep you safe. He heard your footsteps move away from the living room.

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All Is Beautiful - Part 2 of 2

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Word Count: 4,000

Summary: Part Two. After saving you from a violent attack, Sam keeps in touch and you grow closer. This ended up being pretty smutty. It really took on a life it’s own. I’m not sorry. 

Warnings: Explicit sexual content, unprotected sex, language and an animal death (briefly mentioned).

Tags: @impalaimagining @spontaneousam​  

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“Please don’t go” - Harrison Osterfield Imagine part 4

A/N: This is the last part if this small series. I was planning on posting this on Thursday but since I reached 100 followers today I decided to celebrate by posting it today. I hope you enjoy.

Word Count: 790

Warnings: Swearing

Summary: Harrison tells you he loves you but it does not turn out the way he had hoped.

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Dean literally brought me to tears. I wasn’t expecting the writers to ACTUALLY show dean grieving for Cas. I didn’t know how much I needed it. Seeing him pray to Chuck and break down IS SO IMPORTANT and i want to protect him and… His FACE WHEN HE BURRIED CAS LIKE he just looks like he’s so tired and sad and I just…

Things I Have Been Reading- July

Hello my lovely tumblr people, how has your day been?  I hope it’s been good.  Right, now, this months list isn’t as long as usual as I’ve been very busy and hardly read anything BUT I am hoping to make up for that next month so please send me any fics you think I might like. 

For more fic recs feel free to follow my @girl-next-door-recommends which is a blog I set up fairly recently to keep track of all the great stuff I have been reading.  I also have a tagging system to make it easy to find your fandom amongst the many or you can search for a certain character if that is your thing.  

So, here is some things I have been reading that I thought you might like too.

Originally posted by idedicatethisblogtodestiel


Magic Dean - @kittenofdoomage has blessed us, truly blessed us, with this amazing incredibly smutty piece of Dean fucking Winchester.  Definitely one for the 18+ and DAMN don’t read it in public because you will need to go lay down for a bit or do the ice bucket challenge or something.  *furiously fans face*

Ready Steady - @dont-hate-relate-pls So as some of you may know I’ve been in a bit of a ROB crisis of late (it will help with a certain piece I’m working on but that’s beside the point) so ANYWAY, I came across this Chuck fic and instantly fell in love with it.  It broke my heart but in a really good way and I love the song it’s based on so go read the awesome fic!

Here again - @sdavid09 You know my list wouldn’t be complete without my favourite angel making an appearance and this is one I read a while back and recently rediscovered and I swear it ripped my heart out all over again.  So many Gabe feels right here so you have been warned!

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Can’t Stop This Feeling - @t-adash-i Peter Maximoff is actually super cute and sweet.  I think this awesome little fic might just have opened another trash can for me to fall into.

Married with Benefits - @bovaria A story where you are fake married to Steve you say?  Don’t mind if I do.  One of my favourite writers writing one of my favourite characters in one of my favourite AU’s.  GO.  Read ALL the parts now!!

Assistant to the Captain - @marvelouswritings YYYYYYEEEEEEAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! And with this series and it’s incredibly slow burn you are forgiven for the angry pile of angst I am after reading Table for Three.  

Control - @theheadcanonsawakens I do like a bit of Pietro and wiping the cock smug smirk off his face so this fic is right up my street.  Cute and funny, just a brilliant story you should go check out.

The One With The STD - @redlipstickandplaid Dude. Seriously dude! Fuck Bucky and Fuck Nat!  Aaaaarrrrrrggggghhhhh.  This is so fabulously written that I am really really fucking angry at fictional characters right now so well done.

Table for Three - @marvelouswritings What was that? Oh, never mind that was just the sound of my heart breaking into a billion pieces.  I swear to god I have never hated Bucky more than I do reading this series.  Right now I am soooooo Team Sam or even Team Steve.  

Love Me Honestly - @brighterlights The sequel to one of my all time favourite series and it does not disappoint!  The adventures of reader and Bucky continue and it is super sweet and cute and lovely.

Liar - @iwillbeinmynest There are times when I just want to wrap Tony Stark up in a fluffy blanket and cuddle him like a human burrito until everything is better and this fic plays to that side of me perfectly.  Sleep deprived, working himself too hard to save everyone Tony is a weakness of mine and this fic hit me right where I knew it would and now I want to go write more Tony myself.

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Star Trek:

Darlin’ - @musingsongbird McCoy is one sexy bastard and I TOTALLY get this kink.  Beautifully crafted smut here for over 18′s enjoyment.  Definitely a fun one to wake up to.

Frustrated - @kaitymccoy123 Scotty SMUT!!! (please consider that a warning, no under 18′s please)  This is the writers first time writing smut and it is far better than I can ever write! This piece is worth the cold shower.

What I Never Knew I Always Wanted - @pinkamour1588 I love Scotty and I love fluff so imagine how amazingly ecstatic I was to stumble across this beautifully written little piece!  This wonderful writer deserves a follow so go read this and then lurk in her blog just like I am doing wahahaha.

Originally posted by deadpoolsheik

Other Fandoms and Fics:

Like A Wildflower - @team-durin Oh please please feel free to tag me in any and all fics about my favourite dwarf!  A little Fili is always appreciated and jealous Fili is even more super yummy plus you get Kili being an adorable shit too!  Fantastic.

Home Before Midnight - @another-tmnt-writer So this is possibly one of the cutest things I have ever read!  Donatello as Cinderella is just…*sigh*.  I wish I had some requests for this amazing writer but until I do I will just scroll through a wonderful blog with fabulous writing.

Sleep No More Shanghai - Final Thoughts

Some final thoughts on Sleep No More Shanghai. There will be some minor spoilers.

I saw the show 34 times, over five visits from NYC from Dec 2016 to Oct 2017.

My initial thoughts on the show are posted here and highlights of my favorite performers are here.

I have to be honest, the show lost a lot of magic for me after the first cast change. There are some great new performers, but the original cast was INCREDIBLE. It brought together many of the best performers ever to work with Punchdrunk.

It was particularly magical because many of the performers were in The Drowned Man, and of course you know me - anything that reminds me of  Drowned Man makes me happy. (I wouldn’t be the @sleepnomoreboston of Drowned Man; my heart warms at the thought of it living on in any form.)

But it’s not just the nostalgia - it’s that Drowned Man had a particular performance style that was all about developing interesting characters and engaging the audience. Building in little interactions and moments throughout the loop, recognizing audience members who’d been following a while - and developing the characters with complex motivations, dialogue, and humor. And with many performers having worked together before, and with weeks before opening to rehearse together, the chemistry between cast members was absolutely off the charts when the show opened.

Since the cast change, I feel the loss of those performers, and that original chemistry. Miranda Mac Letten and Laure Bachelot as Sexy Witch. Omar Gordon & Fred Gehrig as Cunning Man. The extraordinary chemistry between Fania, Miranda, and Olly as the witches. Fania as Bald and Omar as Banquo. I could go on and on.

That said, of course cast changes are inevitable, of course new performers will come in and many of them will eventually become the next generation of “great performers." 

So - final thoughts -

I was lucky enough to see Paul Zivkovich as Macbeth. Having seen Paul as Macbeth many times in New York, it highlighted for me the differences in the Macbeth loop in Shanghai. The Shanghai Macbeth is SCARY. Scarier than in New York, more deranged.

In New York the Walled Garden solo is contemplative, Macbeth wrestling with the nature of his own soul, and sorrowful, foreshadowing his fall from grace and his death. In Shanghai it’s still beautiful, but it’s also explicit that in his internal struggle the dark side of Macbeth has won. The Walled Garden is right outside Duncan’s room, so Macbeth peers in, creeps in through Duncan’s room, lingers over the bed, malicious. It’s not just a philosophical struggle between good and evil; it is a premeditated decision to murder another human being.

The other reason the Macbeths seem worse in Shanghai is Duncan. In New York, Duncan is a symbol. Regal. Distant. I never really care when he dies; my heart doesn’t start to break until Banquo and Lady Macduff.

But in Shanghai, Sam Booth’s Duncan is a stunning reinvention of the character. He’s still a symbol - as every character is - but he’s also human. He’s *specific* and idiosyncratic. He sings to himself, and dreams, and has moods and fears.

He’s terrified not just of his own death but of age, of irrelevance. He’s conflicted towards his son, proud and yet full of dread that Malcolm will one day replace him. He latches on to Lady Macbeth because she makes him feel youthful, alive in the face of the looming death he fears. He’s flawed; he thrills at the prospect of an affair with his host’s wife. 

Sam’s performance highlights the man beneath the regal symbolism of the character. The fragility of his humanity, as he stumbles up the stairs singing, as he struggles to remove his jacket under the influence of the drug. As he dreams of kissing the woman who’s sent him to his death.

He becomes a symbol, not just of "the king,” but of regrets and lost possibilities.

A few other thoughts:

For my final visit I didn’t get to see Andrea Carruciu at all. But thankfully I did see him for a final time in August and was as impressed as before with the quality of his performances as both Macbeth and Porter. Two of the most complex roles - and so different from each other - for someone new to Punchdrunk to pull them off as well as Andrea is an exceptional feat.

I love the Bride as a character, and the performances of both Tang Tingting and Debbie/Wen Hsin Lee who originated her.

I love watching Speakeasy Barman play pool with the audience. I’m delighted with how much fun Olly is in that role.

I love that Witches 1 has such a huge space to flow through, how beautiful it is with an unobstructed view and a high ceiling. 

I love every single thing about the Dragon Boat scene. How epic and emotional and eerie and dark it is. It feels like Drowned Man, like Twin Peaks, like that video of Faust that’s floating around. It’s completely new to Sleep No More yet fits and complements everything about it.

I love Witches 8, obviously.

I love the gorgeous film noir lighting in the speakeasy, and the layout so that you can see many more angles on the Macbeth/Banquo fight. If you stand in the right place you can see the expressions on their faces up close in ways that are impossible to see in New York. 

I am super impressed with Garth Johnson, whose improvisations are clever and full of characterization. I was thrilled when his Porter made up for the lack of mirror behind the lobby desk by finding his reflection in the top of the lobby desk itself. 

I was thrilled also with Ian Garside’s Porter, who was full of sorrow yet also amusing and sweet. He performed his 1:1 with an emotional narrative that I’ve not quite seen before, and loved very much.

(Overall the Portering in Shanghai is A++).

Although I miss Omar & Fred I still love that Cunning Man is such a distinctive, devious character in Shanghai.

I love the expanded use of the Macduff child’s mirrored bedroom. Multiple scenes and 1:1s happen in there, making sure that far more of the audience notices what is certainly one of the most chilling and heartbreaking sets that Punchdrunk has created.

I love the little passageway into the crib room, and the scene over the cradle with the tiny lights. Eerie and beautiful. The beauty of the set in Shanghai is extraordinary.

I didn’t get to see Austin Goodwin’s Boy Witch, Conor Doyle’s Porter, or Paul Zivkovich’s Porter, all of which have been popping up recently. That’s Punchdrunk, of course. Get used to disappointment.

I understand they need flexibility in the cast schedule, that many of the people I want to see are swings who wouldn’t be on the regular schedule anyway, that Punchdrunk’s long-running show model depends on the audience not getting attached to particular performers in particular roles. But of course we get attached anyway. A great performance can be life-changing. The performers are not interchangeable.

Ed Warner is my great regret of Sleep No More Shanghai. I did not see him perform at all on my final visit, and saw him only once before, as Banquo. His Banquo was exceptional (best Banquo 1:1 I’ve ever had) but I would have loved to see him as Husband or Cunning Man.

I wanted to see him as Husband because I have not yet seen a fully convincing performance of Husband, and I think Ed would convince me. He can capture vulnerability like no one else. The best Husband I’ve seen is Ben Whybrow, who is an extraordinary actor (I wish I’d seen his one man show in London) - his 1:1 moved me to tears both times I saw it - but he also projects competence, self-confidence, a sense of emotional remove, a sturdiness. That doesn’t work quite right for the Husband character - he should be very young, very naive - a character whose primary function is to be manipulated by Cunning Man and (in a way) Bride.

Your heart should be breaking for him, but with Ben I wonder why he falls for it. He seems like he should know better. But I think Ed - based entirely on that Miguel 1:1 where his eyes were brimming with tears and I STILL remember every moment of it like it was yesterday - he could project the vulnerability in such a way that I would never question it. I would feel the tragedy of the character, and the longing for love that drives him; he’d have my complete sympathy, without my doubts.

But I’ll never see it. Sigh.

Oh and Cunning Man because… I don’t know, it’s just a funny character in Shanghai, and I’m super curious as to what he’d do with it. It’s the opposite of Husband, an archetype I’ve not seen Ed play - how would he handle it? I’ll never know.

Anyway. I am, in general, running out of things to say about Sleep No More, in any form. Six and a half years is a long time to be active in a fandom, especially one as physically and financially exhausting as this one. I’m taking a break for a while, but I’m sure you’ll see me around.

Tell me you’ll stay

Summary: Love happens when you least expect it. Love changes your whole life. Y/N and Sam are madly in love, they’re attached to each other. Soulmates, that’s what they are. But it’s wrong and they know it. Y/N has been losing sleep because of this. She needs to talk with Sam. And Sam needs to decide wether to stay or leave.
Pairing: Professor!Sam x Student!reader
Word count: 2.4k
Warnings: shitty summary; one tiny curse word, angst, teacher-student not-professional-relationship. I don’t think I can point any other one, but if you see it lemme know ;)
A/N: This is my entry for Divas of Storytelling Challenge by @leatherwhiskeycoffeeplaid​ and @kitchenwitchsuperwhovian​. My song was “Stay” - Rihanna. I hope you all enjoy it. Thank you!


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Romeo, Juliet and the Devil

Romeo, Juliet and the Devil by Limitless_Mind

Pairings: Gabriel/Sam Winchester

Rating: T

Length: 1561

Warnings/Tags: AU, Angst, Angst with a Happy ending, Binding Spells, Hurt! Gabriel, Hurt! Sam, Possessed Sam, Lucifer. 

Summary: “Lucifer, what is-” He froze, amber eyes locked onto the white suit. Lucifer spun around, twirling a little and smiling at his brother sadistically.
“Do you like my new meat-suit, Gabe?” Gabriel’s shoulders started to shake, tears rolling down his face unbidden.
“Sam…”**Trigger Warning: Heavy Angst with a Shmoop ending**


I really like the idea of this story. The idea of Sam saying yes in order to save Gabriel is a very interesting one, and I like the way it played out. I’m really pleased it had a happy ending - Lauren 

OUCH MY HEART! I’m a sucker for Lucifer taunting Gabriel in Sam’s body though. Just the right amount of angst with a happy ending. I loved it! - Patty

Ah! This was so heart breaking and so sweet at the same time. The apocalypse actually happening is always interesting and this was great. I am a sucker for the happy endings!- Nikki

Paradise City

PAIRING- Reader x Sam Wilson


WARNINGS- use of swear words and slight implications of smut/ smutty times *wink* *wink*

Request from @highchu

Hey precious 😘 may I request a Sam Wilson x reader oneshot based on Guns N’ Roses “Paradise City”? Ps! Your writing is amazing

This took me a few attempts but I am happy with the way it turned out  I used a few lyrics to steer the story in the direction i wanted, I hope you like it !!! 


Originally posted by henrycavillisbae

New York the city that never sleeps, and you were quickly realizing why as you paced around your room well your shared room, your boyfriend Sam Wilson was no where to be seen you knew dating a member of the Avengers was never going to be an easy ride

I’m a hard case that’s tough to beat
I’m your charity case

You heard the lock click and the door open as Sam stepped though the door looking worn down, he glanced over at you.

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Scaredy Cas

Pairing: Castiel x Reader

Warnings: Mentions of horror movies, Slight spoilers for the Ring (not really but eh, I guess I need to put this in here)

A/N: Well hello everyone!  Look who’s posting again!  I don’t really have anything new to say, but I have a new series up.  You guys should check it out.  Requests are open.  I can’t read the requests on this blog, but someone will inform everyone of the group of requests.  That’s all.  Enjoy the story!

Link to my Masterlist


“Hey.”  I say walking into Dean’s room.  Dean was sitting on his bed cleaning one of his guns.  “I’m about to watch the Ring.  You want to watch?”  The Ring is my favorite horror movie.  I found it at a store during our last hunt, and I got so excited.  I’ve been wanting to watch it ever since we got back.

“It’s my turn to go on a supply run.  I’d rather watch the movie with you, but we have nothing here in the bunker.”  He says putting his gun down.  “Maybe Sam or Cas will watch it with you.”  A slight blush comes on my face at the thought of watching a horror movie with Cas.  I’ve had the biggest crush on the angel forever.  

“I’ll go ask Sam.”  I say going towards the library.  He wasn’t in there which is odd.  I go to his room and find him passed out on his bed.  I smile and leave his room.  I guess I’m watching this alone.  Cas isn’t in the bunker, and he might be doing some important angel business.  I go into the living room area where I had everything set up.  I had the movie put in, popcorn popped, and a nice big blanket and pillow for hiding oneself.  I sit down on the couch and get comfortable before I press play on the remote.  It was just getting to the part where they find the girl who watched the video earlier in the closet.  It was coming.  This part is pretty freaky.

“Hello, Y/N.”  I jumped out of my seat and barely caught the popcorn before it spilt everywhere.  Cas just had to pop up at this moment.  I paused the movie and turned to Cas.

“Hey, Cas I didn’t realize you were coming back to the bunker.”  

“Did I scare you?”  He asks.

“Yeah but it’s not your fault.  You just came in at the wrong time.”  I say pointing towards the tv.

“Dean called me asking if I wanted to join for a movie night.  I didn’t have anything else to do, so I agreed to come.”

“When did he call you?”

“A few minutes ago.”

“That’s odd because Dean is going on a supply run.  I guess he thought I needed someone to watch the movie with.“  

“What is this movie?”

“It’s called the Ring.  It’s about this video tape that if you watch it, you get a call saying you have seven days to live.”

“Why would anyone watch the video if they’re going to die in seven days?”

“Most people don’t believe the rumors.  Some watch it on accident.  The mystery behind the tape is the best part of this movie.”

“Well, then I shall watch it with you to understand the mystery.”  I nod and get comfortable with Cas sitting next to me.  As the movie goes on me and Cas are basically cuddling.  We were getting to the part where Noah is about to be attacked by Samara.  Samara was walking out of the TV screen and coming towards Noah.  I was cuddling closer to Cas.  This is the scariest part of the movie to me.  That was when I felt something grab my leg and pull me off the couch.  I screamed and kicked my other leg out to kick whatever just pulled me off the couch.  I heard a grunt and saw it was Dean.

“Dean!”  I yelled and reached for the remote.  I paused the movie.  Dean was sitting on the ground laughing.  “Screw you, Dean.”  I say getting off the ground and sat on the couch.  “You just ruined the moment.”

“Sorry, sweetheart, but your face was priceless.”  A very confused Sam walks into the living room.  My scream must have woken him up.  

“What is going on?”  Sam asks.

“Me and Cas were watching the Ring, and Dean decides to be a jerk and scare me.”  I say.

“I almost didn’t want to do it.  You two were finally doing something about your feelings.”  Dean says.  Me and Cas look at each other confused.  “Don’t do that.  You two like each other.  Now do something.”  Dean says as he leaves the room.  Sam had already walked back.  Me and Cas just sit in silence for a bit.  We didn’t play the movie.  

“Are you okay?”  Cas asks.

“Yes, it’s a good thing Dean and Sam put carpet in this room.  I about had a heart attack, but other than that I’m good.”  More silence.  “Should we talk about what Dean said.”  

“Y/N, I do have feelings for you.  I can’t lie about it.”

“I like you too Cas.”  He smiles.  We then share a passionate first kiss.  We break apart, and I can’t help the smile that comes across my face.  Cas smiles as well, and we settle back down.  I press play, and we finish the movie.  “Hey, Cas.”  I say as the credits roll.


“Do you think you can get your brother Gabriel to help with a prank?”  

“I’ll ask him.  Are you wanting revenge on Dean?”

“Yes, even though he got us together, he needs to pay for scaring me.”  

The next week, Dean was visited by the Grudge.  And yes, I got it all on tape.

~Kylie :)