Summary: Sam and Dean reassure each other after their visit home. Takes place directly after Home, 1 x 09.
Warning: Wincest, some smut, feels
Word Count: 1100ish
A/N: I just needed some codependent boys today. Enjoy! XOXO
Dean stays quiet as they drive away. They don’t talk about anything that Missouri said, or the fact that Mary had been there. They don’t talk about anything, really.
Sam watches Dean, his face in alternating light and shadow as he drives through the night under the streetlights, and wonders what memories he’s lost in. Sam’s lucky. He doesn’t remember that house or their mother. But Dean does. This trip had been hard for Sam, but it’s probably devastating to Dean, and of course he won’t talk about it. He’s just gonna sit there in the driver’s seat and glare at the road until he can pretend he’s fine again.
As always the show tries to make it seem like Dean is on the wrong side, or is his actions and words are wrong or as he’s being too emotional, or unfair to the people around him (i.e: Sam, case, Mary) or as if he’s just selfish or stubborn not to support their ideas, their quest,their missions. They try (and sadly Successfully it does work on most fans) to make him out/to paint him as the bad guy, or someone who doesn’t understand or respect their perspective.
The thing is Dean does he understands better than anyone because he’s been doing his whole life, support his family and friends agendas/missions, and because he’s the one who’s always supporting their missions (never actually leading) he’s the ONLY ONE who goes into any of these missions CLEAR HEADED, he’s the ONE WHO NOTICES THE BAD SINGS, who is NOT so focused on the missions he loses the bigger picture or the possible consequences of these missions, he’s the ONLY one who spots that there’s something more to this than what it seems, he’s the only one who can actually sense when someone is playing him or any of his family members or friends, he’s the only who sees things for what they truly are and not what the others hope/believe to be.
And because of this he’s always on outside, he’s always the “bad guy”, he’s always “not supporting his friends and family’s missions agendas”, he’s always being too hard on his loved ones. The REALITY is he’s the ONLY one who’s LOOKING OUT FOR THEM, he’s the ONLY one who always TRIES HIS BEST TO AVOIDE further dangerous consequences for everyone’s actions/missions.
Examples: in S3 (and throughout S4) when he learned that ruby is a demon he has been warring sam NOT to trust her, warning him NOT use his powers, telling him over and over again that she’s manipulating him, twisting his fear (that his demonic powers would make him a bad person) into making it seem as if his demonic piers are good/can be used for good, telling Sam that god and angles told him (Dean) to stop Sam from using his powers more than once, and DEAN was 100% RIGHT because ruby was part of Lilith’s plan ALL ALONG.
In S11 yet again he was telling Sam over and over NOT to listen to the voices/visions he was seeing that they weren’t from god, telling him that there something NOT right about the whole thing, Sam yet again ignored him and because of Sam, Lucifer GOT OUT OF HIS CAGE AND NOW WE HAVE THE OMEN/ROSEMARY’S BABY ON THE WAY.
Now it’s happing all over again in S12 with the BMOL, Dean does NOT trust them for obvious reasons, and now both Mary & Sam are nothing more than their earn boy/girl who NEVER question anything and just follow orders blindly and Sam is acting as he’s on the right side by trying to convince dean to join this mission just as blindly as he & Mary are.
Dean was 100% RIGHT in telling Mary to ACT LIKE THEIR MOTHER, not to take care of them or cut the crust or whatever childish things, but to ACT LIKE THEIR MOTHER AND SUPPORTS THEM AND TRUST THEM more than a bunch of STRANGERS who for all she knows are the bad guy, that’s what he meant when he said she should ACT LIKE THEIR MOTHER, NOT actually be a mommy and take care of them or any of the other motherly things, because Dean has been TAKING CARE OF HIMSEF AND HIS BROTHER AND HIS FATHER SINCE HE WAS 4 YEARS OLD. So sure as hell had EVERY RIGHT TO BE MAD AT HIS MOTHER and it was 100% WRONG to make him apologize for what he said.
When he asked Sam to choose a side, he was actually asking him to pick HIS SIDE FOR ONCE IN HIS LIFE, because Sam just as Mary, John, an case have ALWYS CHOSEN THEIR OWN SIDES OR THE SIDE OF A COMPLETE STRANGER/DEMON, and it was ALWAYS THE WRONG side. So when Dean asked Sam to pick a side he was actually asking for ONCE to pick his side, to trust him on suspension about the BMOL, but the end of the day Sam STILL AS USUAL PICKED BUNCH OF STRANGERS OVER HIS OWN BROTHER.
We all know by the end of S12 the BMOL will turn out to be the bad guys in some way or the other, and we all know Sam & Mary yet again will be have the rug pulled from under them especially Sam.
So if anyone even dares to blame Dean Winchester when things blow up in their faces (like we all know it will) for anything what so ever, i will go crazy post on your asses reminding of all the MANY MANY OTHER TIMES DEAN WINCHESTER WAS 100% RIGHT AND WARNED THE IDIOTS NOT TO DO SOMETHING IDIOTIC. So all this oh let’s blame Dean for this and that NEEDS TO STOP BECAUSE DEAN FREAKING WINCHESTER IS ALWYS ALWYS ALWAYS NOT MATTER WHAT 100% RIGHT.