I'd like to request a thing. I'm quite depressed rn (I'm safe and fighting however, there's no reason to worry) and when I get this way I like to imagine listening to one of TFW's heartbeats (they'd know I'm doing this) and them talking to me to make it better // I'd very much appreciate a short paragraph of each member in TFW doing this if possible? (I'm sorry if this is confusing. I can try to specify more if needed. Your writing always makes me feel better <3 thank you so much for everything)
Feel better, Nonnie <3 Please know you aren’t alone. You have people who love and care for you and are so proud of you for fighting through this. I hope this helps ease the struggle if only a little.
Dean’s touch is gentle, fingers warm on your skin as he sweeps your hair from the back of your neck. The same calloused fingertips move to caress your shoulder, his touch light but affectionate. “Shh,” he whispers, pressing a tender kiss to the top of your head. “You’ll be okay.”
You nuzzle closer to him, enjoying the softness of his body with that firm layer of muscle just underneath. His heartbeat is steady. Comforting. When he speaks, you hear the rumble deep in his chest. “Just keep listening,” he murmurs, cradling you to him. “I’m right here.”
His arms tighten around you. You keep your ear glued to his chest, listening to the steady thumping coming from inside him, and it sounds like home.
Cuddling with Sam is like being embraced by a space heater. His chest is burning, huge arms wrapped all the way around you, and the warmth comes from all sides. He has a nice chest. Muscular, but not hard, with just the right amount of fuzz to tickle your cheek. “You can hear okay?” he checks, a hand cradling your face and brushing his thumb along your lips down to your jaw.
“Mmm,” you murmur, nestling closer to his heart. “It’s nice.”
“It’s beating just for you,” he whispers back. “We can stay here as long as you like.”
“I’d like that.” Your voice is soft, sleepy. As you feel the flutter in his heartbeat, you know so does he.
You can’t see Cas’ wings. Of course you can’t: not without sacrificing your ability to see anything from that point on, yet somehow you can still sense them. There’s a warmth around you that isn’t coming from his chest, a tingling on your skin that feels simultaneously like a warm breeze and the touch of the softest down. It’s comforting.
Beneath your ear, there’s a heartbeat. A strong, powerful heartbeat that seems to resonate in your skull, and between each thump you swear you can hear a flutter that’s less like a murmur and more like a wingbeat. You’re feeling his grace, you realise. It feels safe. Soothing.
“Feel my heart?” he asks quietly. “As long as it’s beating, I’ll be here to watch over you.”
In the arms of your angel, you settle down to sleep.
Sam calls Cas as soon as they’re safely back at the bunker.
“Why didn’t you tell me sooner?” Cas growls at Sam, stalking across the kitchen to where Dean is nursing a beer. He asks Dean, “How are you feeling?” with some leftover animosity, but Dean recognizes it for what it is: concern.
I was just thinking of all the times dean and cas hug and I noticed something that's annoying me, there were always someone else with them, I mean when cas and sam hug for the first time they were alone but dean and cas are never allowed anymore to have any meaningful interaction unless there's someone else around, this season they have never been in the same room alone not once, it doesn't look very hopeful anymore
I know what you mean, and it annoys me to no end. The thing is, though, judging by how Dean’s written (and, whatever he says, how Jensen plays it), I don’t see their relationship getting more distant, or anything. My impression is that basically everybody on that set, including the microphones, the chairs and the bloody donut boxes, knows that they’re very close the Gay Point of No Return - that’s what the problem is. There’s just so much unsaid crap between them, for fuck’s sake, that it defies logic that they can even function side by side. A conversation about pretzels is long, long overdue, and considering how fragile everyone is, it could really slip out at any moment. So, I don’t know - I really want to think that by now, knowing their show has been dragged through every kind of fathomable mud for queerbaiting and dishonesty and just fucking stop it if you don’t mean it, they would scale back on the gay and focus on something else if there’s really nothing there. It’s not like they lack plotlines or anything - having Mary there, for instance, was a godsend occasion to talk about their childhood and John’s abuse and whatever. Instead, well, they’re really not doing that. The last season and a half have probably been the gayest on record since the gothic romantic novel that was season 8? And this thing about interrupting a couple and not letting them talk - that’s Romance Tropes 101. Now, if that’s what they’re doing, I’m still pissed at them because in a normal story, by the time things get to this point, it’s so painfully clear the two characters dig each other and want to smooch and cuddle over every piece of furniture in the room that it can be seen from space, and in the case of Dean and Cas, this is not happening - a good 85% of the audience is still not seeing anything amiss.
So, again - I don’t think they’re putting less Destiel in there. I think they’re keeping up with the usual level of subtext they always have, and we’ll just have to wait and see if they’re being honest about it or not.
Your words came out slowly and with an under gruff tone. The morning after your birthday party wasn’t as festive and carefree as the night before. Instead, you woke up with a dry mouth and headache. Events of the night were mostly blurry or non-existent in your mind. Only recalling all the tequila you drank, the money you won and that you ended up in your apartment heavily drunk.
Sam scoffed with a small flat smile as he slid the hot coffee towards you. Inhaling the smell of brewed coffee made your insides flutter with joy. The smell of coffee being really satisfying in this moment of regret. Blowing air in order to cold the coffee before you took a small sip.
“Thank you,” you sighed placing the cup on the counter.
Sam nodded with a weak smile. “Babe?” he said softly catching your attention.
You watched him laid both hands above the kitchen counter. Something was off about him since both of you woke up this morning, being mostly silence and pensive. You gave Sam a nod with an arched eyebrow as answer instead asking what.
Sam clenched his jaw, “Do your remember anything that happened last night?”
I really like that for the past couple seasons that Dean has acknowledged that Cas is Sam’s best friend too! Sam and Cas have had a very close, supportive relationship throughout the seasons, with maybe a bump or 2 in the mix but much of the fandom overlooks this. Since S5, they have verbally called each other “friend” and have confided in each other, defended each other, and hell… Sam taught Cas how to hug properly! However, Dean acknowledging it, is important. In S11 Dean told Cas he is the best friend he AND Sam have ever had, and he’s their brother. In Regarding Dean, Dean again, acknowledges Cas as “their” best friend, not just his own. I think this is the writers’ way of subtly telling the fandom to stop making Cas’s relationship with the Winchesters, exclusive to Dean.
In Seasons 4 and 5 it may have appeared that Cas was closest to Dean, because they shared a “profound bond” that Cas mentions in S6 because he raised Dean from Hell, however, we then learn later in S6 that Cas raised Sam too! And I need to mention, he raised Sam not because he was instructed to by Heaven, but it was his own choice to do so, now they all share the same “profound bond”. At the end of First Blood, Cas gives a heart breaking speech about how he wont let any of them die, they mean too much to him. Not just Dean, not just Sam, not even just Mary, but ALL of them.
When Dean was thought to have died at the end of S11, the sun returned to normal. It was afternoon. When Sam and Cas returned to the Bunker, and met by Toni Bevell, it was after 1am. Cas and Sam had just spent several hours with each other, most likely grieving the loss of Dean together. But still, much of the fandom doesn’t notice, or appreciate this. But seriously, even Dean knows Sam has just as close a relationship with Cas as he does. And I might add, a whole lot less violent :\ Cas only ever hit Sam when he was possessed by Gadreel and had to knock him out. Sam only ever struck Cas (stabbed him with an angel blade) when Cas thought he was God and threatened to kill them. Cas and Dean have fought each other physically and verbally since very early on, I might venture to say that Sam has a much better relationship with Cas than Dean does.
Im not trying to diss the whole Destiel fanon, but maybe Dean himself has been trying to tell some of you to pump the breaks a little?