I WANT TO RUN AWAY BECAUSE I AM PRETTY SURE THINGS I DON’T LIKE ARE GOING TO HAPPEN REALLY SOON AND I AM NOT EVEN A TINY BIT PREPARED FOR THIS
BUT DAMMIT EVEN NOW SHIT IS SO INTERESTING
Okay, let’s come out of capslock to talk about this. There are two major things I see happening here, and they’re both pretty amazing.
First – most obviously, most importantly, and most SOUL CRUSHINGLY – we have Crow laying it out in the most direct way yet just how important Siren has been to everything she’s done. The context is here in these past few episodes that Siren is gone, but as I’ve written rather a lot about, I feel it stretches much further than that. Still, in the here and now, Crow is laying it out as clear as I think she ever will: she and Siren looked out for each other.
Crow’s been trying to get this done, as much for Siren as anything, I think. It’s been eating at her that Siren didn’t get the True Star Seed, not just because that led to her death, but because it implies that she failed. That’s what really gets to Crow in the first direct conversation we see her have with Fuckoff Meow. Fuckoff Meow keeps saying that Siren couldn’t do the job, that it was too much for her and she couldn’t keep up, and Crow LOSES HER SHIT. That Siren is dead is obviously the worst thing, but that her memory is being shat on is something Crow can’t abide. Siren was GOOD at what she did, and if she’d had just one more chance, she would’ve proven she was better than everyone.
We’ve seen how it’s been eating away at Crow. She’s lost her focus. She’s caught between trying to prove Siren’s methods were good ones (and they were, for SIREN) and trying to save her own ass. As a result, she’s been fucking up all over the place.
But now she’s back. Fuckoff Meow comments on Crow’s confidence. She’s determined and certain. She’s everything she hasn’t quite been able to be since Siren died.
And she can do it BECAUSE of Siren.
That’s the best thing in what Crow says here. She isn’t full of false bravado and misplaced arrogance. She knows that the reason she can be confident right now is because Siren figured it out and left the information behind, almost certainly, I think, for Crow to find in case something went wrong.
That’s how Crow and Siren were. They pushed and pulled each other through this nightmare, keeping each other going, compensating for each other’s weaknesses, augmenting each other’s strengths. They are rivals in the best sense of the word. They make each other BETTER. Even after Siren’s death, she’s still got Crow’s back.
That’s what Fuckoff Meow can never hope to understand. She has no idea what it means to truly have and be a rival.
Which brings us to the second thing that I think is great about this, because this is such a delightful fuck you to Fuckoff Meow. Throughout her episodes, her actions depend on Crow’s. Following her, butting in, shooting her ridiculous gun to try and steal victory, getting the drop on her and taking her place at the idol auditions. Hell, we even have this from their first one-on-one exchange after Siren’s death:
She’s talking as though she and Crow are in direct competition. Everything Fuckoff Meow has done says the same thing.
Fuckoff Meow thinks that she’s Crow’s new rival.
But she can’t ever hope to be because she doesn’t get it. Right here, Crow lets her know in no uncertain terms that she never, ever will. She isn’t good enough to even UNDERSTAND, let alone hope to take Siren’s place.
And that, more than anything, infuriates Fuckoff Meow.