Let’s go back to Indiana, circa 1983 Just four boys in the basement chillin’, playin’ D&D There was Lucas, there was Willy Will And Dustin, there was a Mike
But one night, Will goes missing while he’s riding on his bike, yikes! That’s when they met me Elev I had no hair on my head I had been so close to dead Courtesy of Dr. Brenner who’s huntin’ me twenty-four sev
Joyce was hanging Christmas lights in the web Started hearing something Willy had said This could be a message from the beyond What happened to Barb? She’s just gone in the Upside Down
Hopper’s on top of the case I’m throwing vans into space I’m lying down in a tank Trying my best to find Willy and Dustin’s got pudding for days Demogorgon’s getting’ all in my way Blast him to pieces just like a grenade
Will’s now at home coughin’ slugs in the sink What happened to me? I’m in the Upside Down
What about now? The saga continues, tune in to see how Upside down. What about now? The saga continues, tune in to see how All I need is my Eggo waffles, I’m in love with those What I’m left with when I use my powers is a bloody nose
Bad news when you see that bloody nose Bad news when you see that bloody nose
Authors Note: Contains swearing, based off the song Sex - EDEN (I recommend listening to this prior, after or during reading this)
The mixed smell of sex and sweat still lingered in the night air as we lied breathless, tangled within the sheets. But something was different. Y/N’s head wasn’t resting on my chest like she normally did, and her hands weren’t holding mine. She was distant, and detached as she lied there next to me, staring at the ceiling like she was watching the movie of her life, dreading the outcome.
And I said “What’s up?
What you been thinking?
‘Cause you been staring at that roof
So long, I swear it’s come alive.”
I shifted my body weight to one side as I propped myself up on my elbow, staring at her as she had an argument with herself within her tormented mind.
“Is everything okay?” I half whisper, knowing that the answer isn’t going to be something I’m going to want to hear. She hum’s softly, as if that was a response enough. I roll over onto my back and stare at the ceiling like her, the thoughts running wild through my head like different scenes from a movie. I think and overthink, all the possible reasons why she wasn’t okay, or what was bothering her.
And she spoke nine words,
And now we’re sinking,
But I can’t find it in myself to want to lie
To keep this thing from going down
“I think that we should stop this. For good” she mumbled as she flicked her legs over the edge of the bed and started to dress herself. I know what I should be feeling, and I know what I should say, but the words escape my lips.
“Why?” I choke out, acting unaffected by her decision, but we both know deep within I’m breaking every second this continues.
“I think you know why” she shakes as she slips her shirt on over her head, looking down at me with a cold stare. And I did. The agreement was no feelings, no emotions, no attachments, no strings, and I guess along the line we’d broken every single one of those rules.
“I just, I just want to take back the power and control that he stole you know? I feel like he manipulated and influenced every single decision I ever made whilst I was dating him, and I feel like he took my voice away. I just want to be able to control my own life again, and get what I want without feeling like a weak little girl that needs saving” she rushed as she ran her fingers through her hair in frustration, replacing her heartbreak with anger. I sat there looking at her in this state, wanting nothing else but to knock this kid out, and to fix her. But that wouldn’t help the situation, she had to fix herself. But there had to be a way that I could help.
“So why don’t you do just that. Take control of your life again” I smiled. She tilted her head at me in confusion, like she can’t understand my motives or intentions, and to be honest with you, I don’t even know them.
“I just, I don’t want to be that weak every again” she sniffs, a silent tear streaming down her cheek.
“So don’t” I say, as if it’s easy.
“It’s not that simple” she cried.
“It is Y/N. Fuck relationships, I mean look at us? What good have they ever done. You’re here, heartbroken over some douche bag that just used you to feel better about himself and I’m just completely numb because some bitch thought I wouldn’t find out she was screwing all of my friends” I hiss, the pain of the memory coming back to me.
“What do you suggest we do then? Because this obviously isn’t working out for either of us” she laughs sadly. I stand up abruptly, and pull her to her feet. I cup her petite face in my hands and search her eyes for the answer to what I’m about to do. And I knew in that moment, there was no going back. I crash my lips against hers in a quick second. She looked at me, no correction, she looks straight through me as she reattached her lips to mine, lacing her hands around my neck and pulling me closer to her. I lift her up off the ground as her legs instinctively wrap around my waist, her lips leaving sweet kisses along my jawline. That night it was almost as though we healed each other, and we both swore it was a one-time thing. There’s no way that you can be that vulnerable with someone and it not have consequences. But as time went on and we both grew hungrier for affection, we made a deal. But Y/N is the type of girl you just can’t help but adore
“Y/N, please don’t leave” I begged, feeling any strength that I had gathered over the last few months fade beneath her touch.
'Cause that girl took my heart
And I ain’t want it back
No, I’m laying down my cards
“Grayson, you know we can’t do this. We had an agreement and we can’t go back on it” she said strongly as she stood over me, with a sense of guilt spreading across her face.
“Don’t tell me I’m alone in this, we both know I’m not alone. You need me just as much as I need you” I break.
“Grayson, please” she says softly as she sits down on the bed, the mattress dipping beneath her weight. She cups my face as she places a soft kiss on my forehead.
“It doesn’t mean what you think it means Gray”
'Cause you said it meant nothing
And I should’ve kept my silence,
But I guess I’m too attached
To my own pride to let you know
That all these words meant nothing
And I’ve always been this heartless
And we were just having sex
No, I would never call it love
“What does it mean then huh?” I hiss, standing up to greet her as I slip my tracksuit pants on.
“Do I mean nothing to you? Did this mean absolutely nothing to you?” I start to feel myself getting worked up as I raise my voice slightly in anger.
“Grayson, this was your idea. You were the one that said no feelings” she reinstates, as if I’m to blame for this. I guess I was, but I have too much pride to go down without a fight. She took my silence as permission to keep talking.
“You were the one that said you didn’t feel anything at all. You were the one to say you were heartless and nothing I could do would change that. YOU, not me, YOU” she cries, finally breaking down in front of me. All I wanted to do was wrap her in my arms and tell her that everything would be okay, and that I would never be the one to hurt her like all the boys before me.
“I lied” I whisper.
“I lied” I say, louder this time.
“What are you trying to say” she softens.
“I love you” I choke after a few seconds of silent.
I think I’m catching feelings
And I don’t know,
If this is empathy I feel
Just hold on,
Remember why you said
This was the last time
“You what?” she stutters, as she starts to pace the room.
“This can’t be happening. It wasn’t meant to end like this” she says to herself. I stand there, the feeling of hopelessness consuming my chest, forcing my heart to pump louder and faster than it ever has before.
And what’s good
When both choices I’ve got
Have us staring down the barrel
To the bullets I can’t stop
“So where do we go from here. You know how I feel” I say coldly, looking down at the ground as I shove my hands in my pockets, awaiting her response like a puppy waiting for their owner to come home from work.
“There’s only 2 things we can do, and I don’t think that I can personally do either of them” she clenches her jaw.
“What are they?” I continue.
“We stop, or we start”
And so I stand off,
Like indecision’s Kevlar
'Til this fear of feeling stops
And I’m done with you
“I guess that decision lies in your hands now doesn’t it” I sigh.
Millie Bobby Brown Raps a Stranger Things Season 1 Recap
Millie Bobby Brown raps a recap of Season 1 of Stranger Things. Lyrics below:
Let’s go back to Indiana, circa Nineteen Eighty-Three Just four boys in the basement chillin’ playin’ D&D There was Lucas there was Willy Will and Dustin, there was Mike But one night Will goes missing while he’s riding on his bike – yikes!
That’s when they met me Elev I had no hair on my head I had been so close to dead Courtesy of Dr. Brenner who’s huntin’ me twenty-four sev
Joyce was hanging Christmas lights in the web Started hearing something Willy had said This could be a message from the beyond What happened to Barb? She’s just gone in the Upside Down
Hopper’s on top of the case I’m throwing vans into space I’m lying down in a tank Trying my best to find Willy and Dustin’s got pudding for days
Demogorgon’s getting’ all in my way Blast him to pieces just like a grenade Will’s now at home coughin’ slugs in the sink What happened to me? I’m in the Upside Down
What about now? The saga continues, tune in to see how Upside down. What about now? The saga continues, tune in to see how
All I need is my Eggo waffles, I’m in love with those What I’m left with when I use my powers is a bloody nose Bad news when you see that bloody nose Bad news when you see that bloody nose
Who is the maid with buttercup hair? Who sleeps on moonbeams and dances on air With tears made of honey, and a heart full of bunnies, Who’s infinite virtues are no near and far, It’s Mewni’s own sweetheart our dear Princess Star!
And under the shimmer of rubies and pearls, Lies hidden a fierce and adventurous girl! The forces of evil that lurk in the night will cower in fear when this shooting star Ignites!
Weaving magic like a born spell-caster And reaking havoc like a natural disaster, She rocks her Narwal Blast and Warnicorn stampede! She’s gonna earn her crown so hail to the queen!
‘Cause she’s a rebel princess, she’s the best! She’s a ball of lightning in a hot pink dress! She’s a thunderstorm through the night, She’s our shooting star and she’s lighting up the sky!
Shooting Star shining in the night so bright, She started to attract a pair of envious eyes The villain rose up from behind the jester’s cross, She drove him away but didn’t know what she had lost
Glossaryck and her book of spells, How could she know Ludo would take them for himself? She confessed to her parents, all full of dread The King and Queen exchanged a look and this is what they said This is what they said… This is what they said..
‘We will keep your silence for you, From the citizens of Mewni and the High Commission too To keep the peace we will play the game’ Royal secret from royal shame Royal secret from royal shame
Royal secret, one last to tell A princess under true love’s spell!
Who is the boy in the Earthly attire? The prince of the princess’s deepest desire I don’t need to show it (I think we all know it!) But just to be certain I’ll say it again! Star Butterfly is in love with her best friend! (And his name is Marco Diaz.) Forever more!
"This dream never ends", you said This feel never goes The time will never come to slip away "This wave never breaks", you said This sun never sets again These flowers will never fade "This world never stops", you said This wonder never leaves The time will never come to say, "Goodbye" "This tide never turns", you said This night never falls again These flowers will never die Never die, never die These flowers will never die, never die
You know living two hours away from the airport is something I regret not thinking about while we were looking for houses. “Babe you got everything?” Cristiano asked coming back inside
I just nodded my head, “Everything besides my sleep” I said
He chuckled, “Don’t worry we’ll hopefully get that on the plane” He said
I looked at him, “Hopefully?” I asked
Cristiano chuckled once more placing a kiss on my forehead, “Don’t worry I’ll make sure you get your sleep” He said
I sighed taking his hand and walking to the car. Today at 3:56 in the freaking morning we were traveling along with the rest of the Madrid Team to Singapore, for training before season and also so they could interact with the fanbase over there.
The ride to the airport was long and I was very thankful because I could get some sleep while Cristiano drove the car. And when we arrived, we parked the car and then headed towards the check in.
After getting our bags checked in, Cristiano took my hand in his and we walked towards our terminal. It was all peaceful and quiet for a while until we heard the voices of Marcelo, Gareth, Lucas and Marco.
“No ones sleeping with those four around” I said looking at Cristiano
He chuckled, “Aye! Ronaldo and Y/N are first” Marco said smiling
We both stood up giving the four a hug, “How long have you guys been here?” I asked
Lucas looked down at his watch, “Since about 2 something, I slept over at Marcos” He said
I chuckled nodding my head, “Are you guys excited?” I asked
Marcelo and Gareth shrugged meanwhile Lucas and Marco nodded their heads, “Practicing in Singapore, relaxing in Singapore doesn’t it all sound like some type of dream?” Lucas asked
I chuckled, “To bad there’s no relaxing time” Sergio said coming over
“Captains here fun time deactivated” Marcelo said jokingly
We all laughed, “I hope I don’t have to sit next to those two” Sergio said motioning to Lucas and Marco who were snapping pictures
I chuckled, it didn’t take long for the rest of the Real Madrid team to get here. And when everybody was here it seemed like that’s when the plane was ready. All of us boarded the plane, Cristiano and I were seated next to each other with Marco on the aisle seat.
Behind us was Sergio, Lucas, and Casemiro however next to us was the holy trinity of team no sleep. Marcelo, Gareth, and Mateo. In all reality i felt bad for the other passengers on the plane who thought sleep would be a factor in their trip to Singapore.
As soon as we took off and the signal light that indicates that the seatbelt needs to be on had turned off was when everything that was once quiet turned loud. “Y/N don’t tell me you’re going to try and sleep at this hour” Marcelo said chuckling
I looked over to him and chuckled, “Of course not I mean it’s only 4:20 in the morning why on earth would I sleep right now?” I said sarcastically
Marcelo winked and continued his banter on everyone trying to sleep. “You know quick question Y/N?"Sergio said
I turned to look at him, "You’re going to jump on his morning wagon too?” I asked
Sergio chuckled, “If you can’t beat it jump on it” He said shrugging
I shook my head, “What’s your question?” I asked
Sergio motioned between Cristiano and I, “How come you’re not pregnant yet?”He asked
We all looked at him, weirdly, “Sergio normally your questions are funny, and I can laugh at them but not this one” Lucas said looking at him
Sergio chuckled, “It wasn’t supposed to be funny Lucas, I mean think about it. They’ve been together forever and there’s never been a baby” He said
This caused the guys to think about it for a moment, “You’re right, and Ronaldo didn’t you say your swimmers could win the Olympics if they were allowed?” Marcelo asked taking a bite of an apple
I looked at them , “You said your sperm were like swimmers that could win the Olympics?” I asked turning towards Cristiano
Cristiano chuckled, “Something like that”
I shook my head, and the guys laughed, “ Could you imagine that kid?” Luka asked
“He’d be cocky and like to sleep a lot” Marco said bumping me
I chuckled, “You guys really are something else” I said
Afterwards the rest of the flight was obviously filled with their loudness and random questions.So you could pretty much guess that , that meant absolutely no sleep for me. As the flight attendants walked through the aisle with the food and drink cart that was the first time these guys were silent.
And since they were silent you know I had to at least attempt to get some sleep in, and just as I was going to close my eyes and finally get the sleep in which I so desperately wanted….Someone kicked my seat, I opened my eyes and stared at the seat in front of me.
“Oops sorry” Lucas said chuckling
I sighed, “You know what I knew it was too quiet to be true” I said
Lucas and Casemiro chuckled, “Alright alright we’ll let you get your sleep” He said
I nodded my head, “Sure you will”
“Aye Cristiano can you ask Y/N if she has any cute friends that are looking for-”
“Nope all my friends are looking for lazy men who enjoy sleeping all the time” I cut Mateo off
He pouted his lip, and sat down. Cristiano, and Marcelo laughed. “Why’d you have to shut the poor kid down like that?” Cristiano asked
“I love Mateo, I do but sleep is something that is desperately needed in my life at this moment.”
The guys chuckled once more, and soon after that I was finally able to sleep.
“How long do you think she’ll sleep for?”
“I don’t know, I mean we still have a good 4 hours to go”
“4 hours are you sure you’re reading that correctly?”
Opening my eyes, I was met with various different pairs of eyes. “What are you guys doing, you weirdos” I said
“Well we were going to draw on your face but, you looked so darn peaceful that we couldn’t disturb you” Gareth said
“Thanks I guess” I said to him
The boys nodded, “So now that you got sleep can you tell us about your friend group?”
I looked at them confused, “Friend group?”
Mateo nodded his head, “Yes the group of your single friends.”
음악 한다고 깝친지 몇 년 지나지 않아 대구에서 음악하면 잘되봤자 음악학원 원장이나 하겠지 란 생각이 날 빡때려 어차피 한번 사는 인생 뭐든 일등 한번 해봐야지
공부론 못하던 일등 음악으론 할 것 같았어 주위에선 십중 팔구 이 새끼 또 지랄병이 도졌네 도졌어 좆까 새꺄 잘 봐봐 니네는 또 졌어
여튼 좀 더 폼나게 음악 하려거든 일단 대구를 떠나야겠다는 생각 uh 빡빡이 고딩의 힘찬 발걸음 한 오디션 포스터 앞에 fade out
방시혁이 개최한 랩 대회 라네요 방시혁이라면 그 백지영 그 아 아 총맞은 것처럼 쓴 사람 아뇨 형님 그래서 크루 형들과 대횔 나가게 됐지
일단 결선에 가려면 예선을 통과 하라네 ok 그 정돈 밥이지 뭐 랩 하라고 줬던 비트를 싹 다 갈아 엎은 뒤 편곡을 하기 시작했어 봐라 어떤 이가
이렇게 하겠어 니네가 나라면 이렇게 했겠어?
그 어떤 회사가 말야 응? 이런 천재를 싫다고 하겠어
회사 입장에선 yo 복이 굴러온 거지 막연한 믿음 그게 내 성공의 본거지 지난 일이라 얘기하는데 예선 다음날 전화 한 통이 왔어 지역번호는 02
2010년 11월 7일 서울 입성 강남도 별거 없네 대구 촌놈의 기선 제압 그 날 저녁은 쿨하게 사먹었지 what the fuck 계산서에 눈이 돌아갔지 한달 생활비는 고작 30 shit 택도 없는 돈이란 걸 누구 보다 알기에 시작했던 새벽 알바 uh 때문에 등교시간은 매번 달라 uh 학교를 가면 다 돈 많은 집 자식들 내 한달 생활비 몇 배를 술값에 쳐박어 그리곤 시발 뭐 뭐? 돈 없다던 가식들 shut the fuck up 새꺄 너 아가리 쳐 닫어
성공이 궁해? no 난 그냥 돈이 궁해 폼나게란 말도 잊혀진 지가 오래 밤에는 연습하고 새벽엔 알바하고 그렇게 지친 몸 끌고 학교로 가면 잠만 자던 내가 20살이 되 버렸네 졸업실 풍경은 썩 구리네 밤새 도박하던 그 새끼들? 졸업선물로 외제찰 끄네 그건 좀 부럽네 부럽네 썅 세상은 불공평 하단 걸 진작 알았지만 누군 십오평짜리 투룸에 열 댓 명이 같이 사는데 누군 폼나게 졸업하자마자 외제찰 끄네
ok ok ok 두고 봐 데뷔는 하겠냔 말 두고가 일년 뒤에 봐봐 새꺄 내가 뭘 하는지
넌 그제서야 tv 보고 연락하겠지
Only a few years have passed since I said, like a know-it-all, that I’d do music “If I do well in music in Daegu, the farthest I’ll get is (becoming) the principal of a music academy or something” this kind of thought just hits me “I only live once anyway, I might as well be number one at least once for something”
The number one that I couldn’t be in academics I thought I could be it (first place) through music, the crowds of people around me (ten/hundred to one) said This idiot is suffering, suffering from the “bullshit disease” again Fuck up dickhead, look closely, you all have lost again
Anyway, in order to do music more stylishly/better, I thought I’d better get out of Daegu first uh The powerful footsteps of a pimple-scarred high schooler fade out in front of an audition poster
“It says it’s a rap competition by held by Bang Sihyuk” “If it’s Bang Sihyuk then it’s that Baek Jiyoung that, ah ah- Isn’t that the person who wrote ‘Like Being Hit By A Bullet?’” “No, hyungnim” And so I ended up going to the competition with my crew hyungnims
They say in order to get to the final round, you have to pass the preliminaries Ok well that much is just a piece of cake, whatever After plowing through the beat they gave us to rap on and turning it upside down I began to rearrange the beats, look here at what kind of kid I am
Would you have done this If you were me, would you have done it like this?
Listen, what kind of company would, huh? Say they don’t want this kind of genius
From the company’s perspective, yo, they got lucky My aimless faith, that’s the root of my success I’m saying this because this is all in the past but, the day after the preliminaries A phone call came, the area code was 02
November 7th, 2010 my entry into Seoul “There’s nothing much in Gangnam either,” Daegu country boy’s forestallment That night I bought my dinner coolly What the fuck, seeing the check my eyes popped out My monthly living expenses was only 300 bucks shit I knew better than anyone that the money would always be short so I started working the graveyard shift at part-time jobs uh Because of that the time I got to school was always different uh When I go to school, it’s all kids from the rich families They waste money that’s many times my monthly expenses just on alcohol And then fuck, what what? They say they don’t have money Shut the fuck up assholes, just shut your fucking mouth
Am I in need of success? No I’m just in of need money It’s even been a while since I’ve forgotten the word “stylish” Practicing at night and working part time at dawn Then I drag my exhausted body to school only to fall asleep there When I turned 20, the scene of my graduation was shit The assholes that gambled all night? They got foreign brand cars as graduation gifts so I’m a little envious I’m envious. Fuck. The fact that the world is unfair is something I already knew but while some people are sharing a 15 pyeong* two-room apartment with 15 people, Others are driving foreign cars around in style upon graduating
Ok ok ok just watch Leave your comments of “will you even debut?” behind Watch me a year from now, assholes, what I’ll be doing At that time you’ll probably call me after seeing me on TV