said i wanted to and i meant it

mira-jadeamethyst  asked:

[eerily calm] Logic. If Morality had randomly come up to you and said "I don't want to be friends with you anymore", would you have thought "he wants to be something more" or would you have thought "he hates me"? That's what I meant when I said "bad choice of words". Please. *Please.* Say something more.

*logic actually thinks about what he said. Realization dawning on him. He gets up his legs are shaking, he goes over to where @morality-sanders is hiding* morality I love you *starts to cry* I didn’t mean it like you think

anonymous asked:

I wonder what JR is going to say after Bellarke happens, cos that man really made me think I was delusional and reading too much into the story

I TOLD you not to listen to him. He was playing a game. He was leaving everything “open ended” so we could interpret it any way we wanted. Oh I paid attention. I looked at what he said and even when it led the audience in one direction, I was like, “wait that could mean something else than what people are taking it as.” I literally googled “true love,” and spent half an afternoon searching all the different definitions of that phrase. The 100 fandom talking like that meant endgame, and I’m going….it’s an empty phrase. There are a million ways to take that statement. 

And the tricksy way he denied bellarke was always placed in the present. It wasn’t happening NOW. And frankly, he TOLD us that’s what he was saying. He said it would happen, he said he saw what we saw, he said they had chemistry, but that wasn’t the story YET. But everyone that wanted to believe bellarke wouldn’t happen IGNORED his prior statements and used the present “not happening” statements as proof that there was no bellarke ever. 

Y’all think I’m naive and ship biased. But it’s actually the other way around. I am extremely suspicious and I doubt everything the media says. When JR was saying all that and it didn’t match with the canon stories that were happening on screen, I started examining his words and motivations for his social media campaign and marketing, and came to the conclusion that it was all crafted to allow people to deceive themselves into thinking what they wanted to think but not ever actually saying it. 

Why do you think I started telling everyone to stick to the text? The text didn’t have that subterfuge. The show was being honest about the story. The show has ALWAYS been telling Bellarke, it just wasn’t explicitly romantic yet, but it was setting it up. JR was all smoke and mirrors. It was clever, but not to be trusted. 

ALWAYS be suspicious of the media, the internet, the news. Not just this tv show. Don’t assume just because someone has a voice or audience or title or fame that they know what’s right or don’t have their own agenda. QUESTION EVERYTHING. 

I feel so flat and lethargic today. (More M stuff. Scroll past.)

The emotional shit from yesterday really took it out of me in a big way. And even though lots of talking was done last night, I am gonna be treading really fucking carefully now. He apparently wants me. Or this is what he’s said to me. He knew what he means to me, but never realised what I meant to him. I’m so scared of being hurt again. I love him. This hurts. To be told that he doesn’t feel that way about me, and then 8 hours later, being told that he thinks he’s made the wrong decision. Why the quick turn around? I wish I could just understand what he’s thinking. What’s going on in his head. How he really feels. I don’t want him to come back to me because he feels bad about hurting me. I want this to be real. And if it’s not real for him, I’d rather take this heartbreak right now than any sort of false declarations.
I don’t know what to believe. I love him so much, but fuck I’m feeling nervous about everything right now.

anonymous asked:

If you're innocent and really didn't want to be homophobic you'd actually listen to people instead of defending yourself and saying the reason you're not homophobic is cause you're gay and you meant that "you weren't homophobic cause enough said in an au where Lenny is straight" like that's legit erasing her sexuality. But whatever

I’ve been deleting all the asks I’m getting but I’m going to answer this one.

But first “If you’re innocent” lol Am I on trial now? Do you want to send me to jail or smth? Jesus. 

Anyway… You know what, maybe I’m the one that needs to rewatch the show and try to make sense of it. Because my interpretation is that real Lenny was actually Benny the whole time and after she/he died there was the Shadow King with Lenny’s face, that was his own creation?? So everytime Lenny said something about being a lesbian in flashbacks, was in fact Benny saying he’s straight, right? Let’s forget about the stupid shipping thing and focus on this. Lenny was Benny the whole time? Lenny was Shadow King’s messing with David’s memory? Shadow King looking like Lenny makes him in fact Lenny and so lesbian even tho SK kisses David and gives him a lap dance??? Shadow King is gay then???  What is what??

Stop trying to insulte me for a second and think about this, if you can prove to me that Lenny was real and a lesbian woman then I’m wrong and that’s it.

I’m open to discuss the show and figure this out, if people can stop insulting me lol

And just one more thing, I don’t really care about ships… I mean it’s fun to talk about it but I don’t watch the show to “ship” and stuff, it’s just a bonus and it’s supossed to be fun… 

anonymous asked:

I feel like I'm never good enough for anyone. All I want is to make people happy and I feel like no matter how hard I try I can't even do that much. Like am I doing something wrong? Am I not trying hard enough? Am I just here for convenience? I feel so useless and unneeded. I don't want to seem attention seeking, because I'm not trying to be. I just feel really shitty about myself and feel like I don't belong anywhere.

Just remember that you are only human. Realize that you are not perfect nor is anyone else. We are not meant to be. We are supposed to help each other and grow together. Perhaps other people said or did things that you internalized as you not being good enough. You must realize you are unique and valued. Start to value yourself, build on your confidence and see that you have a lot to offer people. You are good enough. You are loved. You are not alone. You are smart enough. You are pretty enough. Please, take care, beautiful soul. I love you!

I know they meant well but a fb friend said ‘if I’m you’re darkest black friend you need to check your racism/internalized ____’ (they’re lightskin) and my first thought was, we pluckin up darkskin black people as tokens of allyship now? Like please leave me alone if you only want me in your circle to prove you’re all inclusive, this buzzfeed feminism/radicalism has got to stop

anonymous asked:

(*) I came out to my mom yesterday about being a lesbian and she just said I was confused and that my friends influenced me. I'm 17 years old and will be turning 18 in a couple of months. I know that my want can vary from time to time but I do know I'd prefer to date women than men. What I just want to know is how do I deal with this? My mom's ignoring me and it she doesn't want to see me around my friends and basically keeping me locked up.

ah im not sure if u meant this to be on anon bc of the * but i hope this is okay for me to reply to anyways

but im really sorry :/ that really sucks and i wish she had reacted better to that

im not sure how to deal with that bc i havent come out really so i havent been in that situation but is there anyway for u to get in contact with your friends or has she cut all contact with them? (like i know youd have to sneak around anyway but just did she cut everything off?)

-mod Casper

Piece

As Threshad and Joram baptized Elle, she stood at the North-face and chanted to herself. It was completed only when a low bass cut the room- a hard ripple as the sound bounced across the water’s still surface. The water stayed alive- jumping in time with the low booms of bass that radiated from Eilithe. 

 When she turned to look at Elle with her true eyes, she knew that the woman must be lying or ignorant to just what would happen from that moment on. “Take the east and west corners, assure that nothing else can break the circle once I leave.” She’d obviously meant leave her body- though only the boys would know that. 

Eilithe smeared the golden powder across her face and up her nose, breathing in the powder. The effects were almost immediate- her vision blurring hard as she took her place at Elle’s side. “I think you’d want to see– when it happens,” she said, lifting another handful of powder and blowing it across the woman’s face. Eilithe would took her hand- waiting for 

Her

 It took all of sixty seconds for the room to go completely silent– as if the sound had been sucked out of the room before another boom would cut. Cyhiraeth’s visage would appear above Elle, something that looked like a night elf– but certainly wasn’t anymore. Her eyes were shielded by a hard chitin that separated up the right and left sides of her forehead to shoot off into two massive horns. She was absent of color, like her very being had been purged of it. Her fingers her elongated claws and her body seemed to disappear into the ethereal fabric of a black dress. With her index finger she reached out for Elle’s forehead, pressure against the skin as she forced the woman’s most miserable memories to the surface. Perhaps the most disturbing though, was the thing’s maw– split from ear to ear, a never-ending smile- just for Elle.

Originally posted by godsnotlooking

@ellwelune @deadsunharbor @joram-kallar @threshadduskbringer

I want to clarify something really fast for those who read my post about that youtube comment last night. I added a comment on there a few minutes later that I think could imply something I don’t agree with at all (and it may have, I have not checked my notifications yet). When I said it’s okay to be ignorant in most cases, I meant that as lacking knowledge (specifically anatomy & sex ed in this context, but I was referring to stuff you learn at school in general) due to circumstances beyond your control, mostly due to not receiving a decent education. And when I say it’s okay, I mean that I wouldn’t make fun of someone for that. But that guy made a pretty typical sexist remark further down in the comments, which is why I decided to post what he said here cause he’s just a dick. Which is why I followed that up by saying, “being willfully ignorant and using that to spout hateful shit is not okay, which is what he did”. It sounded okay to me originally, but since I’m bad at explaining shit, I realized later that those two sentences together could definitely imply that I meant it is okay to spout hateful shit due to being -not willfully- ignorant. That is not what I meant at all! I’m just so terrible at explaining stuff and trying to get my points across clearly. So I apologize to anyone that I may have upset by saying that!

I took my father to see Rogue One today. I’ve wanted to take him for a while. I wanted my Mexican father, with his thick Mexican accent, to experience what it was like to see a hero in a blockbuster film, speak the way he does. And although I wasn’t sure if it was going to resonate with him, I took him anyway. When Diego Luna’s character came on screen and started speaking, my dad nudged me and said, “he has a heavy accent.” I was like, “Yup.” When the film was over and we were walking to the car, he turns to me and says, “did you notice that he had an accent?” And I said, “Yeah dad, just like yours.” Then my dad asked me if the film had made a lot of money. I told him it was the second highest grossing film of 2016 despite it only being out for 18 days in 2016 (since new year just came around). He then asked me if people liked the film, I told him that it had a huge following online and great reviews. He then asked me why Diego Luna hadn’t changed his accent and I told him that Diego has openly talked about keeping his accent and how proud he is of it. And my dad was silent for a while and then he said, “And he was a main character.” And I said, “He was.” And my dad was so happy. As we drove home he started telling me about other Mexican actors that he thinks should be in movies in America. Representation matters.

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when i said i wanted a supergirl musical episode i meant, a Supergirl. Musical. Episode. not a crossover with the flash where kara sings like twice. i want a karaoke episode, Kara and Winn singing duets and broadway musicals and then roping Alex into signing so she goes up and serenades Maggie and Maggie’s panties just dROP because ‘damn Danvers i knew you had some impressive lungs on you but not like this’ which ofc makes Alex blush 50 shades of red

and then James goes up and impresses tf outta everyone bc ‘oh my god james i didnt know you could sing!!’ 

j’onn softly croaks out some raspy martian song that has everyone in tears (he tells them later that it was a lullaby he sang many time to his daughters) and kara and alex sing together and lena and maggie are simply dying okay they’re so gay for the danvers sisters. 

maggie goes up and screams some rock anthem that she knows alex used to love and alex is so embarassed that maggie even knows that (eliza showed her the pictures of alex’s rebelious years and maggie thought it was adorable) 

lena and maggie then teaming up to sing some sappy love song to the danvers sisters and eliza thinks it just about the funniest thing ever, the way her daughters just melt

just, the supersquad having a good time and singing together

a softer world sentence starters.
  • ❛ some people are so good at disappearing that you start to doubt your memories that they were ever there. ❜ 
  • ❛ how do you say goodbye to someone who was never there? ❜
  • ❛ i don’t want a world without pain, or loss. i just want them to mean something. ❜
  • ❛ there are some people who believe a photo captures their soul. ❜
  • ❛ if you love something let it go. ❜
  • ❛ you were not the first, you will not be the last. ❜
  • ❛ there are some secrets i will take to my grave, but i don’t want loving you to be one of them. ❜
  • ❛ you can still back out before anyone gets hurt. ❜
  • ❛ i said i’d love you forever, and really meant it at the time. i guess that’s my problem. ❜
  • ❛ kindness won’t save anyone. ❜
  • ❛ for a long time i thought i deserved better. but the truth is we both deserve better than this. ❜
  • ❛ i wish there was a word that meant “goodbye” for someone who was already gone. ❜
  • ❛ i never meant to hurt you. you have to believe me. ❜
  • ❛ we’ll always have yesterday. ❜
  • ❛ hope softens the rough edge of every promise. ❜
  • ❛ love is stupid. happiness is admitting we aren’t better than stupid. ❜
  • ❛ you can’t always want what you get. ❜
  • ❛ i wish i had a dollar for every dollar’s worth of work i did. ❜
  • ❛ we are empty inside and hollow. hoping something sweet will make its nest in us. ❜
  • ❛ we’re too far from help. ❜
  • ❛ monsters are even more scary when you see them afraid. ❜
  • ❛ we carry our own loneliness with us. ❜ 
  • ❛ fake happiness beats genuine misery. ❜
  • ❛ they always trust me to be someone who i don’t even want to be. ❜
  • ❛ i cannot see where i want to go, only that i want the going.❜
  • ❛ you are never here. you are always almost there. ❜
  • ❛ you and me will die the way we lived, telling ourselves stories to make it mean something. ❜
I AM FUCKING CRYING

VIKTOR AND YURI STARTING TO RUN AS SOON AS THEY SAW EACH OTHER

THEY ONLY LOOKED AT EACH OTHER THROUGH THE GLASS WALL AS THEY RAN

THE WAY THEY FLEW INTO EACH OTHER’S ARMS

HOW THEY HELD EACH OTHER SO TIGHTLY

HOW YURI BURIED HIS FACE INTO VIKTOR’S SHOULDER

HOW VIKTOR KISSED YURI’S HAND

HOW VIKTOR SAID THAT IT WAS JUST LIKE A MARRIAGE PROPOSAL WHILE SMILING SO LOVINGLY BACK AT YURI

HOW YURI STEPPED CLOSER TO HUG VIKTOR EVEN TIGHTER THAN BEFORE

HOW YURI STARTED CRYING WHEN VIKTOR WISHED HE WOULD NEVER RETIRE

HOW THAT MEANT THAT HE WOULD WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF HIS LIFE BEING WITH YURI

THE WAY THAT THEY JUST STOOD THERE AND HUGGED FOR GOD KNOWS HOW LONG 

THIS ENDING SCENE WAS ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL CLOSING SCENES OF AN EPISODE I’VE SEEN IN SUCH A LONG TIME AND I AM JUST CRYING OUT OF HAPPINESS

OKAY SUPERCORP/KARAMEL RANT

**Please read** This all really needs to be said. However, before I go further I want you all to understand that this isn’t meant to be a hate paragraph or to purposefully put those who like Mon-El and/or Karamel down. At this point, all the disagreeing and fighting will do nothing. So I’m asking kindly that if you’re going to add something to this post- that it is filled with positive intent. 

 Anyhow, to my point:

I do watch Supergirl by the way, but I truly believe this concerns a wide variety of people. Whether you’re a fan of The 100, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, The Walking Dead, or just a person living your life… All I hope is that we all try to grasp the reality of what is truly going on. Now I will centralize this long rant towards Supergirl however. For those of you who don’t know what is going on there is a conflict between fans who ship this character, Mon-El, together with Supergirl/Kara and fans who ship Lena Luthor with Supergirl/Kara. Now, in my humble opinion, the big issue isn’t about straight v.s lgbt people and I will go on about that later… but the fact that she is with someone like Mon-El. Now what do I mean by ‘someone like Mon-El’… before certain people get mad I want to emphasize that I’m simply pointing out what happened in the show. 

This is long as hell just fyi.

1) The way Mon-El reacts to most things is through violence. In fact, the moment he wakes up he chokes Kara. And there’s this: 

(his words in white)

And the scene where Mon-El robs Brian; using his powers for selfish reasons.

He even calls her names. And notice how he does this the moment Kara disagrees with him. A reaction that does more harm than good. On the other hand, when Kara and Lena disagree on something (in ep. 2x03) they simply talk it out. They ask questions, explain, clarify, and come to an understanding.

Now, I’m not here to say that I have NEVER agreed with anything Mon-El has said, actually I applaud him for accepting Maggie and Alex’s relationship the way he did, but that’s just the thing. The opinions/beliefs he has don’t come from himself. Most of what he thinks is based off of what he’s seen on Daxam. He really isn’t at all mature. He isn’t by any means and it’s simply the truth. Now hear me out-

This is what I mean by he isn’t mature: How many times has Kara asked him politely and specifically not to do something but without hesitation still does it? And how many times has he had to beg for forgiveness? 

In addition, he doesn’t have knowledge of what respect truly means. What’s interesting though about this scene in particular- is how it’s supposed to be a ‘funny’ scene. Mon-El’s character is written in as ‘funny’ and ‘aloof’… but it sends a poisonous message- that Kara’s feelings aren’t to be taken seriously. And this show is literally supposed to be about her. Not a guy who thinks it’s his duty to ‘defend her honor’ and then complains about it.

Now I know that this was how people on Daxam acted and their way of life was for the most part, sexist, racist, etc. But that still doesn’t give him an excuse to act the way he does. 

2) Lena herself comes from a family with twisted values as well. She is adopted into the Luthor family and has had close to no friends most of her life. And yet she’s still capable of being a perfectly decent person. 

She does save the alien population not once, but twice. So not only is Lena proved time and time again that she’s a good person, but her relationship with Kara (btw I call it a ‘relationship’ just like the writers do)… is not even close to toxic, detrimental, or abusive. It’s the complete opposite.

Protect yourself”

“I can take care of myself”

3) Being in a healthy relationship is about the effort between two willing people… at the same time, knowing your boundaries whilst encouraging one another.

4) Kara deserves someone who fully acknowledges her efforts and is grateful for them



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in the aftermath of things, you never did come after me. we didn’t waste time with hopeful antics, never said goodbye. you just woke up one day and decided I wasn’t what you wanted and two weeks later I pulled myself out of bed to live and breathe in a world where I don’t end up with you. the realization that I could have never been what you needed- hurts. but I also know that the things meant to happen for me, will always find a way. when you didn’t call, when you didn’t fight for me, I realized there was no point in stepping foot out onto a battlefield where I’m outnumbered. and so I didn’t. i sold myself to the idea that I’m better without you until I started to believe in it. and today, I believe in it whole heartedly. it took me a long time to get here and maybe I could never get back who I was on the day I loved you the most, but I also know that better things are coming. and I’m finally brave enough to open my arms for new beginnings.

what Yuri really meant?

I just watched ep11 and can I just say something?

I don’t think Yuri wants to break up with Victor, why?

let’s leave all the negative emotions throughout the episode aside and focus on the last scene and preview

when he told victor that he wants to end it which could mean many things besides ending a relationship. In fact to break up is a whole different word which is ‘wakare’ and Yuri said ‘Owari ni shio’

what I think is that Yuri meant is either 

a. Them being a coach and student but they’d still be together. Maybe Yuri saw the way Victor watched the others skate and felt like Victor wanted to go back to skating? because just look at Victor’s face while he watched them skate! and Yuri probably can understand what Victor feels by now. So, when Yuri said it’s the final event, he meant the final show as them being a coach and student

b. this is a wild guess (but kubo sensei is full of surprises) and maybe Yuri meant coming out as a couple? because look at what he said in the preview 

now (if you watched too many animes or jdramas like you had no life like me) this would sound like something one of the couple saying before stepping into a more positive step in their relationship

ps. Victor’s face does not show a shocked expression of someone who was asked to break up but rather is surprised by the request. so It could be both theories 

also 

idk if I am looking too much into this but the curtains and light are a symbol to opening up to a better future.

I highly doubt the show would end with a break up, kubo had recommended watching the last episode after credits. so I am sure she has a great surprise for us 


edit: after coming to more realization, I remembered there is a duet version of stay close to me on the ost so maybe it is for them to skate to on the last episode and they decide to be a pair skating team instead of coach and athlete?

another edit: seems like pair skating for pairs of the same gender is not allowed but I still think that the after credit scene Kubo recommended us to watch is them pair skating to stay close to me. so maybe after GPF is finished and late at night they go in there alone and skate to it? 

I knew deep down that you never truly cared for me. You would string together beautiful words and tell me everything I wanted to hear but I knew you never meant a word of it. I think the reason I held onto you so tightly for so long was because you were the first boy to make me feel special and I refused to believe that you didn’t mean the beautiful things you said. I held onto the idea that one day you would wake up and realise that you did love me but you never did and it destroyed me.
—  and you don’t do that to the girl you claim to love.