sad shawn mendes

Never//Shawn Mendes

I tried my best, this isn’t edited oops:)

Requested by: @letsstarsfalling

It had been years since you and Shawn had first got together, yet those butterflies from when you were a teenager still linger in your stomach, Shawn truly was the one for you, you two were the perfect match, but someone lit a flame and everything went up into smoke.

You knew the consequences of serving your country, you knew there was always a chance you would never come home, you could handle it but Shawn couldn’t.
He couldn’t see why you were so desperate to save people, if others could risk their lives to protect the ones they loved why wouldn’t you? It was your duty after all.

When you were called back to go fight in Iraq Shawn didn’t speak to you, maybe it was out of anger or possibly fear but in the weeks leading up to your reparture he only spoke to you when you had to say goodbye, leaving him was your first mistake, not telling him how much he meant to you was your second.

“You’re seriously going?.” Shawn asked, while you drove to the airport. It was clear he was hurt by this, you could see it on his face. But you needed to go and serve your country and save people. It’s your job.

“What do you expect me to do Shawn?” You sighed, an argument was bound to happen soon, this wasn’t the way you wanted to leave things

CHOOSE ME!“ He screamed, the anger in his voice made you jump, Though he wasn’t angry, he was distraught. There was a chance you would never return home and that scared Shawn more than anything.

You did the only thing you could in that moment, you
wrapped your arms around him and he hugged back tightly. His head flew to your shoulder in hopes of being closer to you, and maybe just maybe you wouldn’t leave him. You ran your hands through his curly hair, You placed a chaste kiss upon his forehead and prayed to god that you never had to loose this boy.

That day at the airport was the last time you saw Shawn for 7 months, the worst 7 months of both your lives.

When you and your team didn’t respond back to the calls your commander knew something was wrong, you had been gone for far too long and it never registered in her mind that you could’ve been dead, you weren’t though. But nobody knew that, they didn’t Know where you were or if you were okay. They had no choice but to declare you missing in action and leave it at that.

Shawn was the first person to be told, two tall broad men knocked on the door of his condo, Shawn opened the door with a kind smile, not knowing he would Receive the worst news of his life. But he wasn’t alone, Karen manny and Aaliyah had come to visit Shawn, they could hear the conversation and Shawn’s blood curtling scream, it wasn’t an angry scream, more of a plea for help. At first he thought it to be a sick joke, but nobody was laughing. Tears fell from his eyes and found Home on his hardwood floors, the floors you picked out..

Nobody spoke. it was so silent you could hear a pin drop, the silence was eating him from the inside out. But he had nothing to say. Tears fell from his eyes like waterfalls. Yet he had no energy to stop them.

The words played on a continuous loop inside his mind, mocking him. Making him into a fool.
“Y/n L/n never came back to camp. We spent a fortnight looking for her and the rest of the missing soldiers. There was no sign of them anywhere. I’m sorry to announce but she is MIA.”

He wanted to scream, to shout and to cry. But he didn’t.
It felt as though he world had drained him of everything, leaving nothing but a broken heart behind.

“is y/n ever gonna come home?” aaliyah’s worried voice rang in Shawn’s ears. If his heart wasn’t already broken he swore he heard it crack.

He wanted to say yes, he wanted to believe that She would come home to him. Fuck, he wanted that more than anything but he knew the chances of her still being Alive were slim to none, but he didn’t want to lie to Aaliyah either.

“We don’t know love. All we can do is pray and hope for the best.” Karen’s voice piped up. Rubbing her hands along Aaliyah’s back, they were worried. Not only for y/n’s safety but for Shawn’s sanity.

Time ticked by and people stopped wondering if y/n was ever coming back and started moving on with their lives, the only people who wouldn’t were the ones who desperately wanted too. Months had past but Shawn never thought of anything other than his lover. He went to bed every night without her and awoke without her.
Everyday was the same draining cycle. Until one day it ended.

Shawn had been on tour for 2 weeks, it had been a good distraction so far, it was your 5 year anniversary and Shawn wanted to give a big speech about how much he missed you. Tonight was not only special because of that but because you finally came home, Karen manny and Aaliyah greeted you at the airport with tears and hugs, Aaliyah didn’t want to leg go of you, Incase you left again but that wouldn’t happen. Your commander had granted you leave, you would never have to be put into that danger ever again.

It felt so good being home, but you missed Shawn more than anything, you would finally be with him again after so long.

The plan was simple, you would wait backstage for Shawn and when he was done his set you would surprise him. The thought of being in Shawn’s Arms again made all the time apart worth it.

Though Shawn has no idea you were safe and okay, his day so far had been painfully slow. The same old routine, he ate, showered and rehearsed. Put on a few fake smiles and shared some fakes laughs, thought about you and went to sleep. He wasn’t sure how much more of this he could take.

“You alright man?” Geoff asked Shawn, as he helped him with his mic, knowing it was your 5 year anniversary he didn’t want to sadden Shawn with too many questions.

Shawn replied with his usual fake smile. “Yeah I’m fine. Just nervous about tonight.”

Geoff pat Shawn on the back, bringing him into a short hug. Shawn wanted to fucking cry, he needed a hug so badly yet nobody once offered to hold the sad boy.

“Go out and do her proud.”

Cheers erupted when Shawn stepped out on stage, he gave a smile smile and looked around, all these people were here to see him. That made his heart swell.

He looked up to the sky and smiled, hoping that wherever y/n was that she was safe and happy. Silent tears made their way from Shawn’s tired eyes gliding down his cheeks and wetting the fabric of his favourite dress shirt. The one she loved so much.

“Hey guys! I need to ask for silence-thank you! I just wanted to say thank you for coming out it means the world to me that you all support me even after all this time, as most of you know today marks 5 years that I’ve been with my beautiful girlfriend Y/N. unfortunately she can’t make it tonight because she’s MIA. Although she isn’t physically with me she will Always be a past of me. So I dedicate my first song "never be alone.” To her.“ Shawn paused and looked up to the sky. "Baby where ever you are just know I’ve never stopped loving you. I adore you with my entire soul. I love you more than words can anything.”

a series of awhs and “I love yous” echoed through the gigantic arena, and for the first time since he lost y/n Shawn smiled a genuine smile.

Not knowing you were backstage crying your heart out into Karen, you were just so happy to see him again. You were terrified of loosing Shawn, he was your everything. You’d go crazy without him.
Time seemed to be ticking away slowly, each minute longer than the last. Shawn was so close you could smell him, that familiar scent you loved so much mixed with sweat and emotion.

Once he finished the last song he handed his guitar uncaringly to Geoff and walked into his dressing room.
He picked up a picture of you while you were in Paris last summer. He ran his finger over the photograph, it held so much meaning to him. He Hugged the picture frame so tight. “Wouldn’t you rather hug the real deal?” An oh- so familiar voice said.

Shawn thought he was going crazy, there was absolutely no way you could be here talking to him, though he wished you were. Arms wrapping around him pulled him from his thoughts, his eyes widened and his heart started beating like mad.

“y-y-y/n? Shawn stuttered, he could barely speak, so he did what he always did when words failed him, he Hugged the shit out of you.

You were both sobbing messes, Shawn had placed his head in the crook of your neck, his sweaty hair tickled you and you giggled like a school girl. You forgot how much you had missed Shawn’s warm embrace.

"I missed you so fucking much please never do that to me ever again, I wouldn’t be able to live without you.” Shawn choked out, his eyes were red and puffy but you knew he was crying happy tears.

“Never.”

Masterlist

TV Shows

Winchesters x Sister!Reader (”We lost her Sam!”)

Peter Pan (His untold story)

Theo Reaken (Teen Wolf x Supernatural x Reader | “I don’t want to go to heaven. None of my friends are there.”)

Isaac Lahey (Secret love song)

Stiles Stilinski (”But I’m mad!”)

Liam Dunbar (The wolf and the vamp)

Winchesters x Sister!Reader (Untitled)

Winchesters x Sister!Reader (Different for girls)

Scott McCall/ Liam Dunbar (Colors)

Jughead Jones (Would you please stop being a pain in the ass for a few seconds and let me help you?)

Jughead Jones (Right where she belongs)

Archie Andrews (One step at a time part one)   (One step at a time part two)  (One step at a time part three)

Jughead Jones (My little Serpent)  (My little Serpent part two)  (My little Serpent part three)

Jughead Jones (Punk Babe)  (Punk Babe Part Two)

Jughead Jones (Lights and Shadows)

Archie Andrews (Perfect timing)  (Perfect timing part two)

Jughead Jones (Breathtaking) 

Jughead Jones (Rebels)

Jughead Jones (Feelings)

Clay Jensen (Goodbye to yesterday)

Justin Foley (I am alive)

Jeff Atkins (Never give up on you)

Stiles Stilinski (Superpowers)

Jughead Jones x FtM!Reader (I’m yours, no matter what)

Jughead Jones (Whenever you’re feeling blue)

FP Jones (Teasing has consequences)

FP Jones (ft Reggie Mantle / Just take care of her)

FP Jones (Yes, I’ll pay for your food)

Peter Pan (A flight to neverland)

Joaquin DeSantos (A girl like you)

Sam Winchester (Concert)

Actors

Thomas Brodie Sangster (”Kissing on the roof top”)

Cole Sprouse (Requested| Untitled)

Cole Sprouse (ft Riverdale cast | Introductions)

Dylan Sprayberry (”He’s so whipped for this girl”)

Tyler Posey (Nightmare)

Cole Sprouse (”You can’t prove anything!”)

Cole Sprouse Smut (Lights on)

Cole Sprouse (”You’re short.”)

Dylan O’Brien (”Had a nightmare?”)

Tyler Hoechlin (The Superman to my Lois)

Cole Sprouse (First Times)

Cole Sprouse (Introductions)

Cole Sprouse (Last night part one)  (Last night part two)

Cole Sprouse (You sound so hot)

Cole Sprouse (Fangirls)

Cole Sprouse (We’ll go through this together)

Singers/ Band members/ Djs

Calum Hood (”We can be alone together”)

Martin Garrix (Ruin)

Martin Garrix (Treat you better)

Ashton Irwin (”It’s the darkness mate. Didn’t you see it?  Someone has to take her out of it. She won’t survive.”)

Jack Johnson (Movie night)

Shawn Mendes (This is my version of heartbreak)

Michael Clofford (Don’t let me treat you better)

Skate Maloley (”You’re beautiful and you all mine”)

Derek Luh (”How can you love something so broken?”)

Levi Jones (Jet Black Heart)

Shawn Mendes (Mondays)

Martin Garrix (”It’s been a while”)

Shawn Mendes (She didin’t wanna be sad)

Shawn Mendes (History)

Shawn Mendes (Birthday Sex)

Movies

Newt AU (”I like him. I’ll keep him!”)

Newt (You are mine)

Clint Barton (Falling)

Peter Parker (Peculiar and Beautiful)

Youtubers

(Conor)/ Jack Maynard (All over again)

Joe Sugg (”That’s all I needed blondie.”)

Jack Maynard (”What’s the matter with you?”)

Joe Sugg (”I’m not leaving you!”)

Joe Sugg (”Stay over. I’m alone.”)

Kian Lawley and Jc Caylen (”But I love you!)  (”But I love you!” Part Two)  (”But I love you!” Part Three)

Jc Caylen (”Well, too bad!”)

Kian Lawley (Christmas Surprise)

Kian Lawley (I find peace in the rain)

Kian Lawley (Ignoring the signs)

Dating…Would include

Joe Sugg

Cole Sprouse

Fake Texts/Text Posts

Cisco Ramon (NERD) 

Jack Johnson (Food)

Luke Hemmings 


Imagines from the blog I co-own

Isaac Lahey (Summer Memories)

Isaac Lahey (Let’s dance in the dark/ Paris)

Dating Isaac Lahey would include

Isaac Lahey (Don’t come easy)

Isaac Lahey Series (The break up part one)  (The make up part two)  (The split part three) (The forever final)

Isaac Lahey (It’s a promise not a threat)

Isaac Lahey (The little Mexican Girl)

Isaac Lahey (Little Vamp)

Isaac Lahey (Well ok mr Crying Wolf)

Isaac Lahey (How can you love something so broken)

Isaac Lahey (Panic Attack)

Isaac Lahey (Mercy)

Come back//Shawn Mendes

Pain and utter heartbreak was all Shawn could feel. It as felt as though the heavens were punishing him, for loving her too much.

He had gotten a call, a call he never wanted, a call he wished he could erase from his brain, but he couldn’t.

His girlfriend was in a car accident, Her wounds are fatal, she’s in agony, and Shawn is Half-way across the world. He needs to be with her, to take the pain away. Make sure she’s okay. That she won’t Leave him. It would break his will to live if Y/N were to die, he needed her. Now more than ever.

He screamed in frustration, pulling at his hair with warm tears cascading down his now damp cheeks, his manager runs in, alarmed.
“Shawn bud whats wrong?.” He asks, placing a hand on Shawn’s shoulder.

“I NEED TO LEAVE ANDREW Y/N IS DYING I-.” He yells in frustration, barely able to breathe, but he didn’t care, the burning pain in his Lungs could never overpower the pain he felt knowing Y/N could die at any moment.

“What- Shawn, bud calm down we’ll get you a flight okay? Just relax and breathe.” Andrew Said worriedly, he cared for Shawn like a little brother, he had never seen him this upset in his 3 years of knowing him.

Shawn forced air into his lungs, he felt like he was drowning and all people could do was watch.
“I- I need her man, she’s- I love her, can’t- can’t do it without her.” He sobbed.

Normally Shawn hated showing too much emotion, but right now that was the least of his worries, he just let It all out. All the emotions he kept inside, the tears just kept on coming, until there was nothing left.

Morning finally came, it was time to board the plane and see Y/N. no matter how much he prepared himself for what he was about to see he knew It would kill him to see her like this, so dead, so lifeless. So pale. He pushed those thoughts away. Just wanting to be with her. The woman he loved.

Shawn ran into the waiting room of the small hospital, there he saw Most of Y/N’s close family. Her brother, her sister, mother, father and Grandparents. He was immediately engulfed into a hug by her mother who was a sobbing mess.

He went around the family. Sharing sympathetic words and warm hugs, one by one the family left to give Shawn some time to talk with her, except her father.

Y/D/N was a tough man, he never liked Shawn. Always thought Y/N was too good for him. Shawn agreed, they both thought she should have someone who could always be around, but that didn’t stop Y/N from loving him.

“Shawn…” her father starts, dryly.
“Y/N. loves you, so much. I wish she didn’t, she deserves better, someone who could always be there for her when she needs them, Someone who could protect her. Someone who would drop everything for her.” He paused, taking in a sharp breath. “That person is you. I’ve never liked you dating my daughter, could never see why she loved you so much. But when you dropped everything for her and came today. That showed me something. If you were willing to end your tour short and come to be her side when she needed you most then you deserve to be with her. I approve.” He clapped Shawn on the back and left to be with his family, leaving Shawn confused but with a small smile playing on his lips.

He turned to Y/N’s sleeping body, leaving a chaste kiss on her pale lips, “You gotta wake up bubs. I can’t do this without you-.” His voice cracked, “can’t- can’t live without you. I need you to come back to me okay? I’m gonna marry you one day, we’re gonna have children and live together until we’re old and grey, I love you, so so much darling. Please don’t leave me Baby. You need to come back.”

She's gone//Shawn Mendes Shawn

“She’s Gone Shawn. You have to move on at some point. You know it’s what she’d want.” Geoff sighed, Shawn had shut everyone out and locked himself in his room, everyone tried to help but nothing worked. They just couldn’t heal his broken heart.

Shawn was lost without her, he lost his world. Y/N was his everything and he needed her. More than anything. He just wanted to run to her and let her hold him in her arms, running her fingers through his brown locks and whispering soothing words. But he couldn’t do that anymore.

“No I don’t know what she’d want because she isn’t here to tell me. I miss her man. So much, my heart feels like it could burst from all the pain. I-I wanna be with her.”

Geoff gasped, “Shawn you don’t mean-”

“I do.” Shawn cut his sentence off, He wanted to be with Y/N. to end it all. All of the pain, the heartbreak. The Devastation. But he had people to look out for. He knew he could never Commit suicide, there were people who depended on him, needed him.

“Shawn man, you can’t think like that. It’s not healthy, I don’t know what you’re going through but you have to understand there’s so much life ahead of you. Please just hold on.”

“I-I can’t. She was my everything, life just seems pointless without her.” Shawn’s voice Cracked, he didn’t want to cry in front of Geoff. Or anyone for that matter he wanted to seem strong. He knew Y/N was gone and that she’d never come back. His mind had accepted it, his heart did not.

His mother had told him it would take some time, that the wounds would heal and everything will go back to the way it was before, Obviously she had never lost someone who meant as much to her as Y/N did to Shawn. His heart was in shambles. He couldn’t fix it even if he tried, he was in love with Y/N and has been since they were both 14. Shawn has never known a life without her in it. And he was certain that he never wanted to.

You know when you loose something with sentimental value, and you try to replace it to make the pain go away, but you know it’ll never be the same no matter how much you pretend, Shawn was trying to replace the hurt in his heart but it didn’t work.

He didn’t even feel like He had a heart anymore, she had taken it with her when she left.

You can be sad // SHAWN MENDES

Overview: Y/n starts crying childishly after having a super small argument with Shawn when she steals the remote from him, and he realizes shes just sad her husky died and that’s why she’s all childish and moody 

Requested: Yes

Author’s note: I’m SO sorry I haven’t wrote in ages- I have exams (starting tomorrow wish me luck!) so I may go AWOL for a little while


“I don’t want to watch the freaking national geographic channel Shawn!” I groan, raising my arm up higher as his body slumped against mine, hand reaching for the remote.

“Then ask nicely and I would have changed the channel, you didn’t have to steal the remote,” he huffs, just falling short of the remote.

“You never would have changed it,” I argue back, struggling to get out of his hand.

“How would you know?” He disagrees, glaring at me defensively. 

“I know you!” I shout, squirming even more.

“Obviously not very well!” his voice was stern, something I wasn’t used to in our relationship but suddenly I was crying.

“What are you doing?” Shawn asks shocked, loosening his grip on me as more tears spilled onto my cheeks.

“I just-” I start sobbing again, not able to speak a coherent sentence. 

“Y/n, sweetie,” Shawn takes a different approach this time, softly pulling me onto his lap so that my head rested on the right side of his collarbones and my legs were draped over his lap. 

“Its nothing,” I sniff, wiping my eyes.

“What’s wrong baby?” He questions gently, his hand tracing a pattern on my back where my shirt had lifted slightly, causing shivers to run up my spine.

“Henry died,” I whisper, the news still hard to think about. He tightens his grip on me.

“When?” He murmurs, moving my hair that covered my eyes out the way. 

“Last week,” I say, fiddling with the hem of my sleeve.

“Oh baby,” Shawn kisses my temple, pulling closer if that was even possible. “Why didn’t you tell me?”

“If I told you it just would make everything seem so real,” I laugh awkwardly, “I’m so emotional I’m sorry,” 

“You don’t have to apologies Y/n,” His eyes held a certain warmth that made butterflies erupt in my stomach. “Your dog died, you can be sad,”

I let my head fall back on his shoulder again. I grab the remote that was sitting near Shawn’s thigh, offering it to him. 

“You can watch National Geographic,”

Originally posted by smendesgifs

so i keep seeing this everywhere and it’s hurting my heart. i will say tho in all honesty, i feel like any normal person would take a photo with a celebrity even if they didn’t like them, because they’re a celebrity. i mean right? i don’t know i could be wrong but that’s just me. BUT still the fact that this chick would say that, is rude. and it hurts my heart so much to know that there are so many people out there who only like shawn for his looks. and it’s very unfair that those people get to meet him and the real fans seem to have more trouble meeting him. idk man i’m just kinda sad

pretty boy

Every single time he ever attempted to speak to someone he found remotely attractive, he would stutter. Or ramble, or trip over his shoelaces even when they’re tied. Either that, or he just didn’t speak at all. He got pretty good at following around the friend group she was in, just so he could be around her even if he didn’t talk at all. He was lucky, that one of his friends happened to be her friend, making it easier for him to follow that group around. He had talked to her a couple times, but the last time he did, he ended up trying to be funny by talking loudly and pretty much just making a fool of himself. She was sweet, and she would never hurt anyone’s feelings, so of course she still laughed at his awkwardness, just so he wouldn’t feel bad.

Tonight was different though. Normally, she’d walk around with her group of friends, all of them following her like lost puppies. She was literally the queen, not only of Shawn’s world, but of everyone else’s too. And that was just another reason why he thought she’d never even look at him. But she was kind, so she always acknowledged his existence which was nice but of course it was never enough for Shawn. He wanted more than that. Tonight, felt like maybe, he might be getting more. Shawn liked to dance, and he loved being with his friends, but parties weren’t always his thing. Lately the only reasons he’d go to these parties was to see her. He lived for moments like now, sitting in a circle of people he enjoyed being around, people who made him laugh so hard his stomach hurt. And of course it was all 100 times better when she was in that circle too. And it was even more exciting when she was sitting right next to him.

The music was loud and he could barely make out what she was saying but he didn’t care. She kept looking at him, straight in the eye, and touching his shoulder every time he nodded and pretended to understand what she said. Her hair was curled, and it framed her face perfectly. She was soft, and smooth all over, and he only figured that, because each time she touched his shoulder, her hand would slide down his arm past his sleeve, skimming across his skin before snapping her fingers away and putting her hand back into her lap as she started a conversation with someone else. So, if her hand was smooth, why wouldn’t the rest of her be? She looked smooth. She looked stunning. She had big jewelry, around her neck and on her wrists, and sometimes Shawn would notice the bracelets get stuck on her sleeve. Each time, he’d tap her wrist and she’d quickly look down, only to laugh and say thank you, and then fix them.

Shawn tried his hardest not to stare, and he tried so hard to talk to someone else but every time he did, he would find himself ignoring them just to look over at her. Some of his friends even snapped at him saying, “Dude, I’m over here. If she’s that great to you, then talk to her.”

Shawn simply apologized for not listening to his friend, and then just shook his head.

Just as Shawn’s stomach stopped flipping, and he turned his head to say something to her, she got up. She got up and left the room, alone. Maybe she was going to the bathroom? No, usually girls go to the bathroom together right? Where would she be going by herself? And why was no one following her? Questions flooded his mind, and he got up too to follow her. He carefully walked behind her, hoping she wouldn’t exactly notice. After walking past several people making out against the wall, and drunk girls on the floor, Shawn was outside. And she was sitting on the curb of the road, looking at her phone. Was she okay? Shawn wasn’t sure if he should tell her he was following her, or if he should just leave. Maybe she wanted to be alone.

“Come sit.” She put her phone in her back pocket, and her head spun around and she looked straight at him, patting the curb, motioning for him to sit next to her. She knew he was following her. Crap. That’s embarrassing. Shawn walked over though, sitting right next to her, his face bright red.

“Sorry. I just wanted to make sure you were okay.” Shawn spit out the words fast and awkwardly, scratching the back of his neck.

“I knew you’d follow me. That’s why I came out here.” She smiled at him, her head titled. She was so freaking perfect, yet not perfect at all. Her teeth were crooked and not the brightest white either, but she was still gorgeous. How is it possible for someone to make you feel this way? Shawn thought to himself as he stared at her.

“What?”

“Look, I know you like me. Word gets around you know? So, you see this curb we’re on? I hate it, with everything in me. But I don’t wanna hate it. So I thought I’d try to fix my anger toward it, by bringing someone cool out here. Someone I don’t hate.” The words came out of her mouth fast, and her cheeks were flushed. Her eyes were glossy, like she was going to cry and it looked like she was nervous. Was she nervous? About talking to me? And why does she hate the curb? Shawn had millions of questions, but he only got a few things out.

“Sorry if I made things awkward by liking you. But thanks for not hating me. Anyway, why do you hate the curb?”

She threw her head back as she laughed, and her hair went in all kinds of directions from the wind.

“A couple years ago, there was another party here. And I was with this guy. And.. I was crazy about him. And I thought he was crazy about me. That’s what he said to me at least. He told me, on this curb. He told me he loved me. Sad story short, this curb brings back horrible memories. And each time I sit here with someone else, and try to make new memories, I still feel pain. And I don’t wannaaaa! I don’t wanna be that girl that’s still sad about her ex, telling other pretty boys, stuff like oh listen to me tell you about my sad story! Make new memories with me! Even though that’s exactly what I’m doing. Sorry.”

She was right. She was sad, and she was trying to fill herself with other people to not be sad anymore. But Shawn didn’t know if he should feel upset, or flattered about the fact that she chose him to try and make new memories. He didn’t care that she was rambling about her past, he liked it. He wanted to know everything about her, and now he wanted to know who her ex was so he could kill him.

“Don’t be sorry.” Was all Shawn could say.

“You don’t talk much.” She giggled and leaned her head on his shoulder.

“That’s okay though. It’s nice to have someone that will listen.” She said, and looked up at him. His heart was beating ten times faster than normal and he hoped she could hear it. Maybe then she’d know how just how crazy for her he was, and he could be more than just a pretty boy she told her sob stories to.

“So thank you. For listening.” She lifted her head from his shoulder, and leaned into him close, their noses almost touching. Before Shawn could even say you’re welcome, her mouth found his and that was it.

There was an alarm in the back of Shawn’s head going off, telling him to pull away. She’s using you dude!! She’s using you as a replacement for her ex!! She doesn’t even like you!!

But the part of him that was in love with her, the part that had wanted this moment since he first saw her, said otherwise. And so, his hands found the back of her head, and he deepened the kiss. The air was cold, but it felt nice. Both their bodies were warm with excitement, and infatuation.

Her lips slowly detached from his but their foreheads were touching.

“I promise I’m not using you. I won’t do to others what he did to me. You’re different than other pretty boys.” She laughed a little, as she spoke under her breath. It’s like she read his mind.

Shawn placed his hand on her cheek, and kissed her again. Slower this time, more meaningful. He wanted to make sure this memory they were making, could fix her anger toward the curb, and he wanted to make sure she felt safe. The type of safe that he felt now, after she promised she wasn’t using him. Could she be lying though? Maybe. But Shawn didn’t care either way, because he cared about her, and even if she was using him, at least he was being put to a good use. At least he was helping to make her less sad.

Act Like You Love Me {S.M}

requested//imagine based off of Shawn’s song, Act Like You Love Me

author’s note// act like you love me is my favorite off of Handwritten Revisted so i’m p hype for dis my loves!! enjoy!!

masterlist

So you leave tomorrow, just stay the night

I promise I will make things right

You were about to leave, but you couldn’t bring yourself to pull Shawn’s arms from around you. 

“Please stay, just tonight.” He muttered into your hair, squeezing you tight. You couldn’t say no. You loved him more than anything, and you wanted more than anything to stay, just for one more night.

“Shawn, that’ll make tomorrow harder…” You gave him a firm squeeze, never wanting to let go of him. So you stand together, your arms wrapped around one another in the middle of Shawn’s living room. 

“I know, but I can say goodbye and drive you to the airport and…” He trailed off. You knew it was going to be hard for him leaving you. Dropping you off at that airport, never seeing you again… it’ll be hard. “It’ll make it… better for me.” He sighed. You couldn’t say no. 

“Okay, i’ll stay. Just for tonight.” 

I’ll make you breakfast, the way you like

Before you leave tomorrow, just let me try

“I can make you breakfast too. Your favorite. Scrambled eggs and pancakes.” He pulled away a bit, his hands still resting on your waist, supporting you. 

“Shawn then-” He cut you off, knowing exactly what you were going to say. 

“I will make you leave. You need to leave. It breaks my heart, but you need to go.” He smiles at you, his eyes watering. He hadn’t cried when you told him, he just asked why you didn’t tell him you were given an opportunity at your dream job in your favorite city in the world. 

“Shawn… I….” You start, not being able to finish. This broke your heart. Because you couldn’t do long distance. You wouldn’t do long distance, even if you loved Shawn. 

“You can’t not go. It isn’t an option.” He stated, his hands still firm on your waist. 

“I know. It’s just… we’re over once I leave. I can’t go knowing you’re back here, waiting on me. Missing out because of me.” You looked down, snaking your hands onto his neck, looping around keeping you upright. 

“I know. But just… just let me try and make this easier. Make me aware of this being our last night together.” He pleaded, his brown eyes becoming blurry with the tears pooling in them. 

“Okay.” 

Before you leave tomorrow, before you say goodbye

Before you leave tomorrow, before you leave

His eyes lit up, and a couple tears fell from his eyes, and he even smiled a little. 

“I couldn’t function if this was goodbye.” He pressed his forehead to yours, more tears falling against the hardwood floor. He pulled you close to him, closing the small gap that was there only seconds before. His scent was clean and lemony. You were gonna miss it. It always calmed you, just knowing he was there, holding you. You felt your heart breaking as he held onto you tighter. You were about to leave him, probably forever. You knew the second you got on that plane, you weren’t going to see him again. You weren’t going to hear from him again, due to the fact you didn’t want to continue any sort of relationship, even if it is platonic, long distance. After this moment, it was goodbye. 

No, it wasn’t a ‘see you later’, or a ‘bye for now.’ This was a complete goodbye. You were never going to see Shawn again except through tabloids and ET news. You had to learn to accept that. 

Stay here and lay here right in my arms,

It’s only a moment before you’re gone

“What time is it?” You sniffled, your tears leaking onto Shawn’s grey cotton shirt. He sighed, pulling one arm from around you and lifting it up to look at the time. 

“Twelve thirty.” He responded simply, the depression seeping from his voice. You let out a sigh of your own. You had been here for two hours, arguing and talking and crying with Shawn. 

“I really should sleep, my flight is early.” You state, knowing it was the last thing he wanted to hear. You knew he didn’t want to spend his last moments with you sleeping, but you needed it. 

“Yeah.. You wanna borrow one of my sweatshirts, so you don’t have to wear a t-shirt to sleep?” You pulled away and looked down at your clothes, black leggings and a flowly top you wore to your goodbye dinner with your family. “You can even keep it… so you don’t forget me.” He looks down at his feet, and you nodded. 

“I would love that.” You smiled a little, taking his hands in yours. He looks up at you, his eyes pooling again. “As long as I can keep the really soft one you never let me borrow.” You laugh a little. He looks at you with a small smirk. 

“Okay, but you have to be in my arms all night… These are the last moments I ha-” You cut him off, knowing you’ll cry if he finishes the sentence. 

“Just get me that sweatshirt, Mendes.” You keep your right hand interlocked with his as you led him (even though it was his house) up the stairs and into his bedroom. You let go of him, so he could go get the sweatshirt of course. Which he did, rather quickly, taking the sweatshirt you always wore when you slept over, but Shawn never let you actually borrow and handing it to you. “Turn around.” You muttered, and he did, turning around and folding his arms. You swiftly rid yourself of the flowey top you were wearing and put it on. “Okay.” You stated and Shawn turned back around, a sad smile on his face. 

“You look better in that than I ever did.” 

And I, am keeping you warm

Just act like you love me, so I can go on

“You wanna go to sleep?” He asked, looking down at his feet. You nodded. 

“Yeah.” You both quickly got into Shawn’s rather small bed, spooning rather closely, your small body fitting into his muscular frame like a slightly misfit puzzle. His strong arms wrapped firmly around your waist, your hands intertwined. His head rested in the crook of your neck, and you felt a couple of tear drops fall into your hair. You were going to miss his touch, his comforting air, the way he makes you feel a million times better just by holding you close. 

“I miss you already.” He whispered, kissing your neck through your hair. You felt a small tear sneak out of the corner of your eye, falling onto Shawn’s pillow. 

“Shawn…” You started.

“Shhh… Just…” He pulled you closer. “Act like you love me, so I can go on.” 


author’s note// i dun got a surprise for ya’ll soon im p excited yeet and I am so sad right now because of another stUpid boy he said last night “we’ll talk tomorrow” and it’s almost ten o clock tomorrow and he hasn’t texted me im sad