sac face

Holy crap, so I went to the trigger-point reflexology place tonight for a cheapo half-hour head-and-feet massage to see if that would help the headache. It was great; IDK if trigger-point or reflexology actually work but a super hardcore focused massage definitely does something.

But he was about five minutes into the head massage when he pressed his thumbs down on my jaw and something on the left side of my face BURST. Like, that side’s been sore for a week, but he pressed on it and it was like there was a teeny tiny water balloon in there somewhere. We both felt it pop.

The rooms are not entirely private, because you don’t undress for the massage, so there were two other people also getting massage work done, which meant we had to keep quiet. But he froze, and then leaned over and whispered, “What just happened?” and I was like “I don’t know!” and he was like “Are you okay?” and I was like “I don’t know!” but I wasn’t bleeding or, like, leaking anywhere, so eventually he just kept going.

My headache isn’t gone, but it’s a lot better, and it has shifted around, so I guess there’s that. Also my nose is running like crazy. 

Maybe there was a poltergeist in my face

graham writes the best songs about being pissed off

like the best pissed off songs.

examples: 

If you’re gonna leave me behind. You don’t have to talk so kind. If you think I’m gonna lay down and die. Baby, you’re out of your mind.

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I hope you hear this song boy
‘Cause I want your life to end

You stabbed me in the back
You’re lower than a snake
Your brains are in your sac
You two faced fucking fake

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Life, it sucks, sucks, sucks so much
The slowest way to die
Life, it sucks, sucks, sucks so much
The slowest way to die

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Wadanohara pics from sacanime! The meet up was super tiny but everyone was great and awesome so it was really fun! (If you see yourself either reblog and say its you or message me, and I’ll credit you)

Samekichi (first 2 pics) - orangeblackbird

Wadanohara (regular) - hedervary

Wadanohara (sea of silence) - ladymanatees

Samekichi (last pic) - shayanri

Meikai - wadamon

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Spirited Away stationary now available in my store!

You can pick up these notebooks with interchanging characters at any Artist Ally I am attending for $15! They are each 85 pages long with perfect binding to easily rip off used pages and a hard backing.

Unfortunately, my online store is currently down, but if you are in a rush to do your christmas shopping please message me. Same costs apply + shipping over PayPal only. Hopefully my store will be online by January.

anonymous asked:

Prompt: Amelia is concerned she is pregnant. Arizona sees her distressed and after initially saying she is fine, Amelia confides in Arizona

Sorry for taking so long to answer this prompt- I was busy preparing for exams. But now that the exams are over- I am writing again  :) Enjoy!

The Hole In My Heart

If Amelia Shepherd could play a game of whose life sucks the most, she would win against anyone she could find on the street, hands down. She always did. Except, maybe against her sister in law Meredith Grey. Throughout the course of her life- she had so many terrible things happen to her, that she was immune to it by now. She had lost her father, lost her best friend, lost her fiancée, lost her unborn child, lost her brother and now her supposed boyfriend wouldn’t even speak to her. Actually, come to think of it, was he even her boyfriend at the first place? She wasn’t sure. Not that it matters- actually, it did matter, because right at this moment, she was sitting on the toilet bowl in one of the washroom stalls in the hospital,  while waiting for the pregnancy test results to appear, to confirm her suspicions that she was indeed pregnant with his child. Each second seemed like hours to her as she waited.

She remembered when it happened, during their last sexual encounter in the trailer, a couple of weeks before Nathan appeared and turned Owen into an angry person who would barely speak to her. He bought sparkling water, which they pretended was wine, and toasted to it. They ordered pizza, him macaroni, her Hawaiian, which was left only half eaten as they both simply found each other’s bodies more tempting than the pizza itself. They made tender love the whole night, as if afraid to let go of the other, as if it would be their last time together. And it was, up to now.

They had fought the week after that. She remembered the screaming match they had in the trailer.

’ Why are you ignoring me Owen?’ Amelia confronted him as they were in the trailer. We were all fine and dandy last week, but since Riggs turned up, you’ve been ignoring me for days! We don’t even speak anymore. Since he turned up in the hospital, you’ve become this angry person that I don’t know. Tell me Owen, what’s wrong? Is there anything bothering you?

’ There is nothing wrong with me. I’m fine.’ Owen answered blatantly.

’ Are you sure?’ Amelia looked at him directly in the eye, making him uncomfortable.

She knew him well enough to know that his answer was far from the truth and he was hiding something deep and personal from her.

’ Yes I’m fine’ Owen repeated clearer this time.

Amelia tilted her head to one side, refusing to give up. ’ You can tell me anything, you know’ she said.

’ You can confide in me, you know….’

’ I said I’m fine!’ Owen yelled suddenly, causing Amelia to retreat in shock. ’ What part of I’m fine don’t you understand?!’

The silence that followed Owen’s sudden outburst was so tense that it could slice through the air in the trailer. They both stood rooted in their spots in stunned silence- both in shock at his sudden outburst.

’ Ok, fine’ Amelia said finally, in a calm tone. ’ You’ve made it clear that you want me to steer clear of your life. So that’s exactly what I’m going to do ok? You need space, I’m going to give you space. But please don’t call me to come back. I guess I’ll leave now.’

She hurriedly threw the clothes she had hanging in the small wardrobe , which weren’t that many and grabbed a few toiletries. Owen stood stunned wanting to stop her but not being able to find the right words to say. He opened his mouth several times, but no voice came out. After a few minutes, Amelia was already putting on her coat with her bag slung over her shoulders.

’ Bye’ she muttered and walked out of the door of the trailer, slamming the door. Something, maybe pride, kept Owen rooted to his spot for a few more minutes. Finally, he opened the trailer door meaning to call her back, but she was already gone.

In the days that followed, they managed to avoid each other. Owen sent Amelia a few messages initially, which were left unanswered. They avoided eye contact at work and avoided paging each other at work. They didn’t even utter a single word to each other. Amelia went drinking at Joe’s every night, sometimes by herself, sometimes Riggs was there to keep her company. But they never went further than being drinking buddies. The brutal attack on Meredith only worsened things further between them. Amelia was blaming herself for the attack and it caused her to resort to drinking for solace. She would get so drunk until she couldn’t turn up for work for several days.

And now, in one of the hospital washroom stalls, she sat in stunned silence as all 5 pregnancy tests showed the clear ‘Pregnant’ sign. Amelia groaned internally as she slid down the floor of the washroom, feeling even more hopeless than she had when her father was shot in front of her when she was 5 years old. Just when the situation between her and Owen couldn’t get any more complicated , this had to happen. The universe must really hate her so much to always be playing cruel jokes on her. All the throwing up and dizziness that she had been experiencing every morning for the past week or so had been due to morning sickness, not due to hangovers as she had initially assumed them to be. How was she going to tell Owen? She wasn’t even in talking terms with him at the moment.

’ Umm…. Hi… I just wanted to let you know that our second last time together resulted in a baby so I was just wondering whether you want to be a part of the baby’s life’,  Or   ’ Hi… I just wanted to let you know that you’re going to be a dad. Kthx bye’.

The entire situation seemed so ridiculous to her. She must’ve missed a day of her pills due to her busy schedule for this to happen. And now she was so screwed. She could never be a good mother. She had given her kid a bad headstart already by drinking everyday while carrying him/her.

She suddenly felt a new wave of nausea overtake her as she emptied her guts contents in the toilet bowl.

She could hear a knock on the door of the stall.

‘ Are you ok in there?’ a chipper voice asked from the other side of the washroom stall door. It was unmistakably Arizona Robbin’s voice.

‘ Damn you , Robbins’ Amelia cursed inwardly. Why of all places in the hospital, she had to bump into her in the washroom stall of the west wing of 4th floor of the hospital. She had hoped that she wouldn’t bump into anyone she knew today, as those who knew her better seldom worked in the 4th floor. But she forgot all about Arizona Robbins, who is also working on Obstetrics cases besides her usual Paeds cases.

‘ Hello- are you ok in there?’ Arizona asked once again, before Amelia finally realized that Arizona wasn’t going to give up without getting a reply.

‘Yes’ she replied meekly, flushing the toilet and unlocking the door, stumbling out of the stall.

Arizona had a concerned look on her face as she studied Amelia from top to toe.

‘ No offense Shepherd, but you look like crap’ Arizona pointed out.

‘ Geez, thanks for the compliment’ Amelia replied sarcastically as she rinsed her mouth.

‘ You sick?’ Arizona asked in concern. ‘ You want to call in sick for the rest of the day?’

‘ No- I’m not sick’ Amelia answered, a bit too harshly than she intended to come across.

Arizona however didn’t buldge. She stood rooted in the spot, as if waiting for Amelia to continue.

‘ I’m just pregnant’ she finally said, taking out the pregnancy tests from her labcoat pocket.

Arizona gasped in surprise.

‘ Oh wow- that is great news Amelia! We need to run some tests to confirm and I’ll do an ultrasound on you.’ she said excitedly, grabbing Amelia’s hand and leading her to the nearest ultrasound room.

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‘So your HCG levels are elevated, which confirms pregnancy’ said Arizona in her usual cheerful manner.

’ Now let’s do an ultrasound to confirm the viability of the pregnancy ok? You said your last menstrual period was on the 1st January- which makes you about 5 weeks along.  

Amelia nodded, her heart suddenly racing. Without realizing it, she was suddenly excited to meet the baby. She was going to see her baby and hear the baby’s heartbeat for the first time. She crossed her fingers subtly- hoping that this baby would have a brain.

‘So’ Arizona continued as she spread the cold gel on Amelia’s abdomen causing her to wince a little.

’ Have you told Owen yet?’

’ He and I are not in talking terms’ Amelia answered bluntly, causing Arizona’s face to fall.

’ Oh I’m sorry’ Arizona said softly. ’ Neither are Callie and I’

’ It’s ok, I’m going to raise this child by myself’ Amelia said. ’ I’m not going to lose another child’.

This piped Arizona’s interest as she stopped maneuvering the ultrasound probe and looked at Amelia in the face. Amelia looked solemn.

’ You don’t mind telling me what happened to your child? It is important to disclose your obstetrics history’ Arizona said seriously.

’ I had a child with my previous fiance, who is dead now. He was born full term, but he died after 43 minutes. Anencephaly.’

Arizona drew in a deep breath as she heard the word anencephaly. She had personally seen a few cases of the condition in unborn and newborn   babies before and it was devastating whenever she had to deliver the news to the expectant parents. Little did she know that her friend here had experienced the same thing. And with the baby’s father dead. Her heart really went out to Amelia.

’ I’m sorry’ Arizona muttered a sincere apology as she returned back to maneuvering the probe.

’ Don’t be’ Amelia brushed her off lightly with a gesture of her hand.

Arizona was taking a longer time than usual to detect the presence of the intrauterine gestational sac, her face drowning in concentration. She was finally about to give up and conclude that it was too early in the pregnancy and to ask Amelia to return for a repeat scan in 2 weeks time, when she spotted something that caught her attention. There it was, the gestational sac, not implanted in the uterus as it should be, but in the left Fallopian tube. It was still too small to be causing a rupture, but if left untreated and let to grow further, it would finally rupture and that would be disastrous. Amelia was so lucky she had the scan as early as she did.

’ Do you have any abdominal pains? Or bleeding?’ Arizona asked suddenly.

‘Nope, just slight cramps and spotting- which I think might be due to emotional stress.’ Amelia answered. ’ Why?’

Without uttering a single word, Arizona turned the ultrasound screen towards Amelia and pointed at the left Fallopian tube. Amelia gasped as soon as she saw it. She knew what it was, she had been a medical student, intern and resident in Obstetrics and Gynaecology posting before.

In an instant- she felt her world collapsing around her once again. After having lost so many loved ones throughout the course of her life- she thought she would be immune to the pain and emptiness that ensued, but no- each time- it hit her like a fresh new wave of angst. The universe is laughing at her again- by giving her something to hold onto for a mere few hours before cruelly snatching it away from her once again. She could just nod numbly as she barely heard Arizona telling her that she needed to sign the consent form for an emergency left   salphingoopherectomy and that she was going to call Owen to come too for support. As Arizona left the room, she finally allowed herself to dissolve into full fledged sobbing. Why did it take her another tragedy in life to realize that she really wanted Owen’s babies?


Don’t kill me please :p  I wrote this on my phone during a 90 minute flight, so pardon me for any grammatical or spelling errors. 

I have a part 2 halfway written - hopefully I can post it within the next few days ;) I also have a few more prompts to answer.


p.s.  I can’t think of a suitable title for this 2 parter, I am open to suggestions!  And as usual, reblogs and comments are very welcome! :)

anonymous asked:

A female Irken peered at an off house set in the middle of a cul-de-sac, her face scruntching slightly at the sight of the gnarly metal tubes and wires that looked parasitic to the scene. She slowly walked up, ringing the door bell. ~ she-irken

-Upon the bell ringing, two robotic figures answered quite fast. Both shouting at the small Irken ‘Welcome home, son!’. Behind them stood a green boy, Zim, his disguise on and all. His gaze fixated upon the other.-

“M-.. My. What is this?.”

-He stood only inches away from the doorway. Considering Taks earlier appearance, he doesn’t trust many Irkens on Earth anymore.-