I wake up to collar bones and a rib cage digging into my back.
For some insane reason I roll over to think it’s you and of course it’s not you.
The last time I felt your rib cage in my back was a year ago.
I crave your rib cage in my back.
When I roll over I find it to be my guy of the week.
The guy that I’m screwing to get the pain that you left implanted in my brain to try and go away again and to be honest it doesn’t quite work.
This guy is actually great for me but one downfall is that it’s not you.
It’s not you. It’s not you. It’s not you.
I have tried to love another soul besides yours and it’s not working.
When I kiss this guy of the week I pray to god when I open my eyes that yours will be there and of course they aren’t.
I will try and love another but we all know that it will never happen.
I will never crave another’s touch like I crave yours.
I will never want to help someone as much as I want to help you.
I will never want someone between my thighs much as you.
I wish we weren’t so broken.
I wish this was an easy fix.
I just want to feel your rib cage up against my back.
It’s really hard to help someone that doesn’t want help, especially someone you love.
Whether its a feeding tube through their nose, a needle into their veins, or a blade to their wrist.
You can’t help someone who doesn’t want to be helped, especially someone you love.
People say that “pop punk bands can’t help people.” Because their genre they can’t help people. But this band, these 5 little shit heads have helped me so much. They’re music really speaks to me and I relate to it so much. They’re on the playlist to what music made me put myself back together. They’re the main band on the playlist. They’re who I listen to late at night when I’m sad and they make it better. I don’t care what anyone says, Real Friends has really had an impact on me. And I didn’t really get to say thank you because I was crying when I met Dan and then I was really scared talking to Kyle, Brian, and Dave. But they’re all really, really sweet. This band is my heart, soul, and my happiness. I’ve honestly never felt so connected to a band in my entire life. realfriendsband
Just because you pried me open with that rusty routine that you know will work on me doesn’t mean I will give into you.
I will not let you sink your teeth into my veins and use your poison as a way to get my heart to open up again.
I will run steel and copper though them so they are sealed tight and will never open for you again.
I will tell the voices in my head that this time you will not be able to pick and prod at this thing that controls my body.
I am universe. I have galaxies waiting to come pouring out of me. I will not let you seal them shut like you did before.
Honestly, real friends make everything so much better. They make my life so much better. I honestly have no idea where I’d be without them. I love them so fucking much. Their stupid sad songs make me feel like I’m on top of the world. They’re only reason I got through my finals today. They’re the reason I get out of bed every morning. I know that’s a lot to put on five random guys that just want to make music but it’s true. They make me so unbelievably fucking happy and no one will ever understand my love for the 5 shit heads in real friends. I’m crying right now writing this because they make me believe that I’ll be okay. They help me put myself back together and they continue to do so every damn day. So real friends, thanks for all the sad fucking songs you write. realfriendsband
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I met every single one of them. I don’t care if I’m annoying or not but these guys are my everything. I owe the past year of my life to these guys. They’ve given me a lot of strength and happiness. They’ve made me the person I am today. I’m so thankful. They all loved my tattoo and they were all so thankful for it. I got so many hugs and love and lots of tears but that’s okay. They were happy tears. Dan also have me a shoutout on stage because I turn 18 in a few days so he said happy birthday. I’m so thankful for these asshole. I love you all so much. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you realfriendsband.