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*Quick one at work on a slow day*

They crave your attention, 

they yearn for your affection, 

yet it is solely their intention, 

for your mental apprehension. 

You felt the affliction, 

remembering their diction, 

in the hopes you dont give in to your undeniable addiction. 

They desire to be respected, 

but at the same time it was you that they neglected. 

So maybe it was their poison they injected 

because they are so unaffected 

leaving you stripped and unprotected. 

You used love and youth as an excuse 

now are faced with the truth. 

You feel like a contradiction, 

watching the eviction of some of your beliefs, 

but you are released. 

Though time and time again, silly little feelings may linger, 

I am no longer wrapped around your stupid fucking finger… 

September 20, 2011

-Yours Truly, Ruu.

My Closest Enemy.

*Everyone has that friend that as close as you may be, you’ll always feel some sort of tension, an inner unrest, where each other’s pride collides and though you may never understand what triggers such negative emotion…deep down inside you know that every aspect of your lives is in some way a subliminal competition.*

It’s like your my shadow,

It’s like your my clone,

So fixated with the thought of taking my throne.

Tryna steal my crown, 

Tryna bring me down, 

Tryna do anything and everything to be like me now. 

The way that you talk, I hear myself when you speak, 

Though I still acquire more attention, you can’t copy my technique.

You can replicate every aspect of me but you’ll never get the same admiration,

cuz nobody likes a despicable imitation.

I gave you people to associate with, i gave you class,

You talk so much shit, though you still kiss my ass.

You look into the mirror and I’m your reflection, 

Tryna be like me as if it satisfies an obsession

but honey I do me and I do it to perfection.

What separates you and me 

Is that your heart has too much pride and your body lacks dignity

So determined to outshine me, 

But you’re not even close to my vicinity. 

I’m not cocky, I’m just tryna be real, 

Tryna define who you are, and explain how I feel.

You’re not independent, just you hide your emotional insecurity,

Bury your vulnerability, and mask yourself with a facade of ‘maturity' 

Use my past against me and use it as your excuse, 

to be someone of importance and let your body loose. 

Heart full of animosity, 

Mind filled with jealousy, 

Soul consumed with envy 

And yet you still claim that you’re a friend to me?

I’ll just call you my closest enemy.

November 14, 2011

-Yours Truly, Ruu.

How I See The World.

*Those nights when you can’t sleep and you think about all the things that are fucked up in the world. Lol*

I toss and turn in my bed, 

sorting the thoughts in my head

because for many nights I haven’t slept. 

Haunted by the promises not kept, 

having trouble distinguishing between fact and fiction

discovering the truth covered by the front people put up through tone and diction.

Although we live in a society where we put on a disguise,

we have yet to realize that we are fools;

fooling no one but ourselves,

putting our hearts on the shelves,

being reckless with our body, and giving up on our dreams.

Transfixed by the thought that we live in a fucked up world, or so it seems.

Losing ambition over pleasure,

losing friends over the pride we can’t swallow,

forgetting the compliments, scarred by the insults we can’t measure. 

Not learning from our mistakes, 

regretting the chances we didn’t take…

just breathe , we are only human.

This is how i see the world, this is how I see you. 

May 21, 2011

-Yours Truly, Ruu

friender asked:

awww yeah

:D !

❤ fave male: Hmm. A tie between Sho Minamimoto and Koki Kariya ;n;
❤ fave female: Eri. Shiki’s annoying hurp
✖ least favorite: Probably Pinky I dunno
✔ who resembles me: Neku ohgod. Sad to say but yeah; we both hate the world so IT FITS I GUESS also maybe Joshua a bit, because we’re both insensitive pricks and we’re both ~*FAB*~
❤ most attractive: Hanekoma unf unf why
❤ three more characters that i like: Rhyme, Neku, Konishi~

Peter Pan Facing Reality.

*When the world goes a little too fast sometimes that you can hardly keep up.*

A boy going through a midlife crisis at such a young age, 

choosing fantasy over reality, living in a cage.

Multifaceted personality, simpleminded heart.

Boy got talents and dreams with nowhere to start.

Caught between the young man he’ll soon become and the boy he’ll forever be,

Peter Pan facing reality.  

He dreams of it all,

the way their lips shook hands in a handshake only he could understand,

conflicted by the thought of who should he choose,

but either way he will lose, because he knows he cannot have both.

He sacrificed everything using love as the excuse,

his heart is beaten to submission, barely beating; bruised.

Lost in his thoughts, looking forward to the future, 

mind is about to explode, he may need a verbal frontal lobe suture. 

Antagonistic mind, with a hero’s heart filled with compassion,

he tries his best to be all he can be,

chivalry is his sense of fashion.

Hoping to live day by day, and learning from his mistakes,

no longer regretting the chances he didn’t take,

he has no clue as to who he will be, 

lost in this world of controversy. 

Gifted with the power to see the beauty within in the flaws,

because it is that in which character draws,

stepping a little closer, and who he is becomes clearer,

who I really am, as I look into the mirror.

May 21, 2011, End of the World … my ass ;)

-Yours Truly, Ruu

:: Chef Ruuruu’s Chicken Meatballs were such a success we’re having them again today… But this time over rice with cream of mushroom gravy :3

Mr. Monopoly Guy

*When you’re tired of being used and abused by some dumb hoe, that always tries to ruin shit*

I’m not an item, or a piece of your property,

you can’t buy or rent me, 

this aint monopoly. 

You can’t fill my head with empty words,

because you’ll be just like the other biddies & the birds,

who never say what they mean,

who pretend to love you, but it’s all part of their scheme,

just for them to get your undivided attention,

but I forgot to mention,

that this guy’s property value just got raised,

and whatever you now say, I’m not phased.

Cuz I’m stronger,

& I can’t take these games any longer.

And you say all these things you want and need, but you’ll never be contented,

and all along I was misrepresented,

as the guy who was your only safety net,

well you must be the most demented

brunette, I’ve ever met.

So you can now drown alone in the sea

cuz this time i wont be 

the lifeguard of your misery.

It’s safe to say that imma chuck the deuces up,

cuz there are finer things in life than you sugarplum, buttercup.

So stop tryna drive out the people who actually make me happy,

something I haven’t truly been in awhile,

cuz this girl right here, 

actually makes me smile. 

February 12, 2011

-Yours Truly, Ruu.

Young Girl Forever Engraved In My Memory.

*dedicated to my Best Friend in the world, who I’ve seen turn into the most beautiful and most amazing girl ever* 

A young girl that is forever engraved in my memory,  

who deserves the highest recognition,

because she gave up everything for love,

unaware of the “L” word’s definition. 

Because there are two different words & meanings and she got caught up in both, now her heart is

covered by a wall,

but she has grown to become a strong individual, one who was once torn, now stands tall.

Not phased by the words of little boys, wants no part in their games,

consumed by the thought that they’re all the same. 

Did a lot of things, some of which she wishes she hadn’t done;

but baby we were young - no one thinks of the consequences when they’re having fun.

I see past your wall and I see your flaws and all and listen when I say that you are beautiful.

A woman with the biggest heart who still has her share of innocence, you may look at your past

and reflect,

but no matter what you’ve done & what you will do, you will always have my respect.

May 21, 2011

-Yours Truly, Ruu.