rush of feelings

THE SWANQUEEN HUG


I completely understand why your upset Swen about this hug. Sur it was about the engagement, but it actually show us the dynamic between Emma and Regina. We know they are friends now…friends do hug.

Originally posted by mrsthompster

Nevertheless, I agree that the scene was off. Entirely. First of all, Emma seems more embarrass than anything when her mother looks at her ring, and even more when Henry asks her how Hook proposed. We all know he didn’t really do it, Emma pushed him to. She could have said she found the ring and then explain how it turn out, but she chooses to tell:

“I kind of say yes before he had a chance to.”

While saying it, she forced a smile. Note that this conversation happen with Henry and more importantly Snow, the woman who represents the fairytale world and so the Savior’s title given to the blonde.
The conversation feels rush, tense, like Emma doesn’t want to talk about it. Bravo for Henry ironic tone, by the way! Snow doesn’t even notice her daughter’s behavior, and the first thing she wants to do is planning the wedding. My bet, she would want for Emma to have the same kind of wedding they done in the Enchanted Forest. A fairy tale wedding.
Instead of being happy, the blonde cuts her and tell her mother, the wedding had to wait.

“We’re going to wait a little while before we start planning…”

Did you notice the chill in Emma’s voice… She doesn’t want her mother to freak out at this news, but she seems more in touch with herself than before while saying they want to wait to get married. Saying yes is one thing. Marrying the man is another.

“OH why?”

Ok it’s because of the Gideon thing, but did you see Emma deflecting eyes? BOUM, downcast, like she was sad to disappoint her mother and then she brings Gideon justifying the delay.

After, we have Zelena and Regina entering the loft. Zelena is the one noticing the ring. Why that? When they enter the loft, we can see Emma going to place her hand in her jean’s pocket, as she doesn’t want other to know. Except that when you’re engaged to the person you love, you want the world to know. Emma’s hiding it to Regina.
Zelena sees the ring and in a wicket smile exposes Emma to Regina.

“Is that an engagement ring?!”

Stop the video when Zelena pulls Emma’s ring to her eyes. Focus on Regina who is literally shocked to hear and see the news. The blonde is awkward in this moment and sad. She doesn’t even know how to respond. Emma’s attitude is worst than with Snow.  Zelena doesn’t say anything, not even congratulation. Nothing. Then we have this shot of Regina; open mouth, eyes cloud with tears. That’s not joy, that’s saddest.

“Hook proposed.”

Why saying this now instead of the conversation whit her mother?! The smile she gives is hypocrite, forced and a façade. So now Hook proposed. I thought she kind of say yes before he had a chance to… Way to go Emma. She chooses to say Hook proposed when Regina learns of the engagement. Really?!

“Oh… Emma…”

It sounds reprimanded no? Like she was going to add to this: “I thought I told you you’re too good for him…” Emma’s face after…Is she daring Regina to say something?! Chin held high, smugness. She is clearly daring her to say Something… and when the brunette says:

“I’m happy for you. I really am.”

It sounds like a goodbye. Regina is letting go. “Really” shows us Regina tries to convince herself. The hug was a way to feel each other close, one last time before letting go. Exactly as the conversation topic changes just after that. Remark Emma’s face in the hug. She is disappointed in the brunette, and sad that Regina didn’t say a word.

“That’s means a lot.”

Of course it does. For Emma, it means, Regina would not fight. But in reality, it means, the brunette cares so much about her that she rather watching the blonde marries a pirate than letting her know she has feeling for her. It means actions speaks louder than words. It means Regina is in love with Emma and chooses to sacrifice her happy ending in order for the blonde to have one. It means. Regina is Emma’s True Love.

anonymous asked:

eeeeek i love your writings thank god i saw your post! can you do ieyasu + “I don’t want to be your secret, anymore" please?

thank you so much! i hope this is okay.

She was particularly tired that day after trying to ration out food shortages since the oncoming winter. It hadn’t been much of a shock that they’d have to save up food when winter rolled around, but what what she didn’t expect was for their rations to already be that low. She couldn’t stand letting down everyone due to a shortage of food; it was entirely out of her hands, however. The day had left her feeling particularly frustrated, and it hadn’t been much help when Ieyasu came barging into the kitchen demanding that she go find him some herbs with himself accompanying her. 

There’s something heartbreaking about only being able to love your lover when you’re out of sight from everyone else. It’s only when they get far enough away from the castle that Ieyasu manages to reach for her hand to take in his, and somehow this makes her mood drop further. Only when they’re alone together can he hold her like this, kiss her like this, let alone be around her like this. Today however, felt entirely different, and she finds herself tearing up while he walks with her in complete silence. 

It was hard, being his secret. It was hard having to desperately pull away from him whenever Toramatsu or Tadakatsu came knocking, it was hard being unable to be near him when she pleased to, and it was hard having to be constantly denied by him whenever they were around other people. She wanted to be with him and she wanted him to stop hiding her like she was something to be jettisoned, if the situation called for it. She was, in comparison to everyone else, disposable. It was undeniable when Ieyasu told her she was a commoner girl, and it was understandable that he couldn’t let anyone know that they were together due to his status. That never meant it hadn’t hurt to know, however.

“You’re crying. Why?” He whirls around to face her, dropping her hand from his to move towards brushing away her tears. “I’m just tired, that’s all.” And he knows she’s lying, she can read that he knows in his face.

“Don’t go around thinking that you can lie to me like that, kitchen wench.” And he’s testing the damn, hear tears threatening to spill over along with her words. Words she had kept long to herself dared to come forward and curl out of her lips like smoke, and she wasn’t sure if she could brace herself to stop it if he kept going. She wasn’t sure if she even wanted him to know. “Now what’s actually wrong?” He tests her again.

“I already know I’m a kitchen-wench and a commoner,” she quietly cries out, desperately holding the sleeves of his kimono with her eyes to the ground. “but I don’t want to be your secret anymore.”

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.