runner fears

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                  even heroes know when to be scared,

                                                                and I’m no hero.

2/5/17


Good morning.


Mean girls suck– so do mean boys in a position of power telling you that you aren’t welcome.
I’m telling you that you are wanted. I want you here. As the great-granddaughter of Irish immigrants, I’m telling you that you can sit with me❤️

Love,
Haruko

@anaalice
And then they were kissing. Something exploded within his chest burning away the tension and confusion and fear. Burning away the hurt of seconds earlier. For a moment it felt like nothing mattered anymore. Like nothing would matter ever again.
—  The Scorch Trials by James Dashner

When the effin movie is not out and I have come up with a fic… Whaaaat?!

Is it- is this normal? I don’t think so, nope but- but it’s the author and fangirl in me just going crazy and yeah there comes that. Yet another one to obsess over, alright this job is really tiring to be honest… but also looots of fun.

Send a number and character.

Fandoms: The Walking dead, Teen wolf, Maze Runner, The outsiders,Harry Potter, Shameless US, American Horror story, I do many more just ask and I’ll see what I can do.


1) When are you going to see that I’m in love with you?!
2)“Don’t you get it?! I want you, not her!”
3)“Your the one that walked away! So don’t put that on me!”
4) “Just kiss me you idiot”
5) “This was a mistake”
6) “Don’t you get it? I’m tired of loving someone that can’t love me”
7) “She only sees me as a brother”
8) “I thought you loved me”
9) “I hate you” “You love me”
10) “Please don’t go”
11) “Don’t you ever do that again”
12) “May I have this dance”
13) “I’ll always have your back”
14) “You’re Jealous”
15) “Promise me”
16) “Your not the only one suffering”
17) “Your not the person I fell in love with”
18) “I can protect myself”
19) “I don’t need you to be my body guard”
20) “if you love me, let me go”
21) “I’m sorry, I just can’t do that” “why” “Because I love you to much”
22) “I can’t be with you anymore”
23) “I miss you, before all of this crazy drama started”
24) “I still think your perfect”
25) “Don’t touch me”
26) “You can’t keep protecting me”
27) “Are you kidding me? We are not okay!”
28) “Stop laughing and help me for God’s sake!”

1/25/17


Good morning.

“The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing.” -AE

If I didn’t have a natural curiosity for things that scare me, I wouldn’t be here.

Xx

Fears - Newt (Part 2)

A greenie arrived today. Yesterday, Newt avoided me after the medhut incident. So, we were having a bonfire. I sighed, sitting in the back, facing away from the fire.

“You alright?” Gally asked, sitting beside me. I put my hand out. He sighed, giving me his jug and I took a big gulp out of it. I gave it back to him. I had a high alcohol tolerance. “I’ll take that as a no.” He shrugged, taking a swig. “So,” He began, “What happened?” He asked me.

“What do you think?” I rose my eyebrow. He scoffed.

“You know, you have a strange taste for guys.”

“You can say that again.”

“So, what? He’s been avoiding you since yesterday, what happened?”

“I don’t even know.” I admitted. “I was taking care of him in the medhut and he started acting weird.”

“Did you do anything out of the ordinary?”

“Wow, you think it’s my fault?”

“No, but it could be.” I looked away from him.

“You’re right, it probably is.”

“What did you do?” I hesitated. 

“Uh… uhm, well, I… uh…” I gulped. “I may or may not have kissed him.” I said, more quietly.

“You what?!” He yelled loud enough for the whole glade to hear, and they did. They stared at the two of us. I glared at him. I grabbed his jug and looked at the others. 

“He’s a bit tipsy.” I explained, they nodded.

“Am not!” He yelled. I shrugged like the others.

“Let me rephrase that: He’s very tipsy.” I explained. They all looked away and lost interest. I smirked at him. “That’s what you get for putting me in an awkward situation.” I stood up, he stood up as well. 

“Well, you might hate me a bit more.” He smiled. I furrowed my eyebrows and he turned me around and pushed me forward. I was caught so off-guard, that I tripped over my own feet and fell.

Luckily, I fell on Newt.

Unluckily, I fell on Newt.

I blushed, standing up and dusting myself off.

“I am so sorry, I didn’t mean to-”

“Whatever.” He responded. I offered my hand to help him up, but he got up on his own. I cleared my throat, scratching my nape.

“Are you okay?” I asked, only to have him ignore me and walk away. I sighed, closing my eyes.

“Are you okay?” Gally asked me. I opened my eyes.

“I’m fine.” I sighed. He stepped in front of me. “Newt and I are never going to be the same again, are we?”

“I don’t know.”

~*~

After a while, I was alone again. I had drunken enough courage to talk to Newt, but not enough to be classified as drunk. Just enough to get a drop of courage. I walked to Newt, grabbing him by the arm and bringing him to the deadheads.

“What do you think you’re doing?!” He asked. I let him go.

“Me?! Oh, I don’t know, Newt! Maybe trying to get my best friend to bloody talk to me!” I explained. “God, all day and all night long, you had been avoiding me! Ever since the medhut!”

“Can you blame me?”

“Actually, I guess I can’t. It was me. I was stupid. I made a mistake. So, I’m sorry, okay? Kissing you? That was a mistake and, you know, I wish I could take it back, Newt! But I can’t! I can’t take it back, so I’m sorry!”

“What?”

“That’s why you’re not talking to me, isn’t it? Because I kissed you yesterday.”

“No, Y/N, that’s not why I was avoiding you-”

“For god’s sake, it was just a kiss!” A pause.

“Just a kiss? That’s how you feel?” No, it isn’t, but I’d rather hide the way I feel than loose you. 

“Of course it was! You asked me to distract you-”

“So you thought kissing me was a good idea?!” He started to get angry.

Wait, now he was angry at me?

“What else was I supposed to do? Newt, it was just a kiss!”

“It wasn’t just a kiss, Y/N!” I was shocked. “Not to me!”

“Wh… What?”

“You continue to blow me away, every single day, Y/N! I love you! But you just keep pushing me away. It wasn’t just a kiss to me! I thought that maybe, just maybe-” I kissed him again. He kissed back. I wrapped my arms around his neck, one of my hands, lightly tugging his hair, he deepened the kiss, pushing my back against a tree. We pulled away.

“I love you too.”

“Then why the-”

“Because you and I are incredibly thick.” He grinned, kissing me again.

So, I was right, we would never be the same.

We would be better.