The more I thought about my life up to then, the more I hated myself. It wasn’t that I didn’t have a few good memories—I did. A handful of happy experiences. But, if you added them up, the shameful, painful memories far outnumbered the others. When I thought of how I’d been living, how I’d been approaching life, it was all so trite, so miserably pointless. Unimaginative middle-class rubbish, and I wanted to gather it all up and stuff it away in some drawer. Or else light it on fire and watch it go up in smoke (though what kind of smoke it would emit I had no idea).
“if you buy a rubbish car, what you’re saying is, i have no interest in cars. if you have no interest in cars, you have no interest in driving. and if you have no interest in something, it means you’re no good at it, which means you must have your driving license taken away.”