the calendar // panic! at the disco

Portrait of singer Nina Simone. Stamped on back: “Publications of this photograph must include by-line Gerald Simmons/Ulozi Photographics.” Handwritten on back: “Nina Simone, 7-69.”

  • Courtesy of the E. Azalia Hackley Collection of African Americans in the Performing Arts, Detroit Public Library
a playlist: mainstream bangers from white boys experiencing heartbreak that highlighted my adolescence

(and looking back in hindsight are actually problematic because they promote the Nice Guy mentality and/or demonize their significant other by placing themselves on a pedestal in a situation where that kind of victimization is unnecessary ala aubrey graham) 

breakeven - the script
apologize - onerepublic 
everything you want - vertical horizon
it ends tonight - the all-american rejects
down - blink-182
my friends over you - new found glory 
someday - the strokes 
hate - plain white t’s 
mr. brightside - the killers 
makedamnsure - taking back sunday 
seventy times seven - brand new
i write sins not tragedies - panic at the disco 
running away - hoobastank

anyway, maryse has been everything but supportive of alec and his sexuality and his relationship with magnus and still, when she has been hurt, it’s alec’s instinct to comfort her. the boy really is loyal to the fault and he has such… deep and complicated relationship with his mother. it’s fascinating. 

he’s literally her soldier, a child always trained to be the leader and to follow rules and he has loyalty towards her instilled into the every bone in his body and she has used that over and over to her advantage and she has been emotionally abusive towards him - whether she realizes it or not - and alec still manages to stand up for himself, but mainly for others, against her even if it’s against his every instinct, but at the same time, it’s clear that he has a soft spot when it comes to her and he would protect her no matter the cost. it’s all incredibly fascinating.

  • Riley: This is Maya, my best friend and life partner, and the one I trust with everything and whom I adore above all others, my dearest most precious person, who can do no wrong in my eyes because she’s so brave and dedicated and smart, and we have so much in common. I just adore this girl, look at her, isn’t she beautiful? Isn’t she swell? Yeah my girl Maya, she’s the best, I love her.
  • Maya: I guess Riley likes me, yeah? But I don’t want to assume or anything, you know.