rose's room

[translations] 2017.03.25 NCT DREAM fansign at Daegu fan accounts

1. OP asked if Jeno has other wishes, Jeno says he hopes to win number 1 on Music Bank [JENOLEE423]

2. OP wanted to say many things to Haechan but she was flustered and forgot everything. OP told Haechan she would be going overseas for some time, so she won’t see him and will miss him a lot, please cheer for me. And he said,”Do your best alone!!” [livluve]

3. Chenle has mentioned that Mark and Jisung are both cute, so OP asked whom Chenle thinks is cuter, Chenle said it’s Mark hyung. [NCT_YOON5959]

4. OP asked Haechan what kind of scent do they use in his and Mark’s room recently. Haechan (shyly): Rose, rose scent. OP didn’t get to ask for the brand they are using T_T  [99markleemh]

5. OP: You once said if there was a middle school rapper you would like to appear in it right?
Jisung: …. yeah haha
OP: Who would you want as your mentor if that really happened? (OP thought Jisung would choose a non-idol rapper)
Jisung: Mark hyung!!  [hixiu0326]

6. Jeno mentioned when DREAM went to the filming site for High School rapper he was more nervous than Mark.. Donghyuck was about to faint, Mark didn’t even cry but Donghyuck almost cried  [DongMark_HAE]
-i’m fainting too-

7. OP asked Mark who in Gangseo team is he closest to. Mark,”Uh… No matter who it’s Yoonho?” [dearmymark0802]

8. OP: Jeno what are the merits/demerits of having Renjun as the roommate? 
Jeno: He’s quiet
OP: Is that a merit??
Jeno: ^^
OP: What snacks do you like?
Jeno: Gummies.

9. OP: Jisung aren’t you the tallest in NCT Dream. *Jisung smiled* Any secrets to your tall built?
Jisung: You just need to reborn [JENOLEE423]

10. OP asked Mark if there’s any rapper he would like to produce songs with, Mark answered Gaeko [nct_sidoo]

11. Jeno said that he looks old/mature. Because OP was too nervous all she did was stare at Jeno. After Jeno signed the album, she realized Jeno wrote “XX-Noona”. OP,”But I’m the same age as you..” So Jeno erased the Noona and wrote XX-ah~  [yellowmark802]

12. OP: Mark says you cook well
Haechan: (Shrunk a little and laughed)
OP: What are you the most confident in cooking?
Haechan: I make really delicious ramyeon! (suddenly became confident and sat upright hahaha) The secret to a delicious ramyeon is bean sprouts.. [nnaximin]

13. OP: Song you been listening to recently? 
Jisung: (BTS’s) Spring Day 
*Jisung wrote noona on the post it note when he was supposed to write it on his photo*
OP: Ah! Don’t write it there (post it)!
Jisung: Ah! Gosh (ERASES IT)
OP: ???? [HAECHANO6O6]

14. OP: What if the younger members aren’t listening?
Renjun: (looks at Chenle and did a thumbsup) They are obedient! [saltXcaramel]

15. OP: If Jisung is going to sell Bungeo-ppang in the future, would you sell cream puffs too?
Jisung: Nope~
OP: Just red beans?
Jisung: Yeah, everything else are just so-so (shakes head)
OP: How about pizza?
Jisung: Not my style either [saltXcaramel

16. OP: If you had to give a Korean name to a cat or a dog, what name would you give it?
Chenle: Uh………………………. Jisung!! (and he laughed) [nnaximin]

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
8

This episode for me really highlighted and then in its dramatic finale brought to an extreme the use of perspective that Rebecca Sugar has often talked about during panels. In her rare appearances, we are almost always looking up at Rose Quartz, or she is leaning down and over our POV - be it Pearl kneeling before her hologram in Rose’s Scabbard

or Greg on a number of occasions during the early days of their relationship (We Need To Talk is a really interesting watch with regards to camera angles and how they change - Greg literally climbs a stack of crates during his attempt at communication and, well, seeing eye to eye)

or Garnet after her fateful fall in The Answer

or, hey, Buddy Buddwick collapsed in the desert in Buddy’s Book

She even has magical floating powers. It all fits, of course, with the entire running theme of the (unattainable/unmaintainable) pedestal. And even when she is not directly present, and even when it’s not the focus of the shot, her portrait can be seen overlooking the familiar setting of the beach house.

Storm In The Room certainly was an emotional roller coaster, but not in the way most of us were expecting. You have to know whenever you see one of the rooms of the temple appear, we’re going to be in for emotional whiplash.

Doubly so for Rose Quart’s room.

The one thing we have a tendency to forget is that the room seems to have one purpose: to show whoever possesses the Rose Quartz gem (aka Steven at this point) whatever it thinks they want. 

The room can only work with the information Steven already knows. Steven knows this. He says it several times. But given the circumstances, it’s easy to become overwhelmed and forget that. And the room? Just keeps on doing what it was designed to do. Steven wants to meet his mom?

Steven gets to meet his mom. 

Steven wants to play games with his mom? Steven gets to play games with his mom.

Steven needs reassurance? He’s told he’s wonderful the way he is and that his mother has been with him the whole time.

And it’s beautiful.

But it’s empty. 

Rose’s room holds no answers for him. It can’t tell him anything he doesn’t already know. The sudden reminder that his mother isn’t actually there is jarring. 

And the room, struggling to keep up with the sudden shift in Steven’s thoughts makes Rose dark, threatening and distant. She doesn’t answer any of Steven questions about Bismuth, Pink Diamond, the rebellion or her plans because the room simply doesn’t have the information to do so with.

Maybe they didn’t matter to you as much as hiding from the mess you made. And that’s why I’m here, isn’t it? Did you make me just so you wouldn’t have to deal with all your mistakes?

Steven is smart. Steven is perceptive. He was born into a situation that no one, let alone a child, should have to deal with. He’s strong, he’s capable, but in so many ways he has no one who truly understands what he’s going through. He’s human and gem, and while this gives him the strengths of both, it also makes him totally unique and new. He has an amazing support system, people who would do anything in this universe to help him. But in some ways he will always be alone. 

He’s never met Rose Quartz, the one individual that was the catalyst for the rebellion and its aftermath. Steven is going from the bedtime story/ fairy tale Rose Quartz presented to him from Greg and the gems to the reality behind the legend- something decisively less fairy tale like. That’s something that happens to a lot of us growing up, but in Steven’s situation it’s so much worse.

He never knew the Rose Quartz everyone idolized, but grew up knowing that everyone expected him to be just like her.  But as he learns more about her, he finds that there was so much more to her. She wasn’t necessarily the kind, generous, wise, strategic genius warrior she was painted as. She lied. She didn’t think things through. She made mistakes. She ran from those mistakes.

Everyone around him expects him to grow up to be just like Rose, and he’s not even sure he likes her. Turning into her is both his dream and his worst nightmare. 

We don’t know all the reasoning behind why Rose decided to become/create Steven. I have no doubt that it was definitely a strategic move on her part. She knew that Steven would be capable of doing things she never could, that in whatever was coming from Homeworld, she herself would not be able to do what was needed to save both Earth and whatever gems would come their way.

But I also have no doubt that it was a labor of love, that she absolutely would want Steven to exist without having to deal with her problems, IF that was possible. Steven had watched the tape his mom made for him, so the room? It knew what Steven needed to be reminded of.

I get it. I know you didn’t want me to deal with your problems. But you’re a part of me now. I have to deal with what you left behind. 

Whether Steven’s creation was a strategic move on Rose’s part or not is a moot point. He’s here and he has to handle the problems she left in her wake. He’s growing up and he needs answers. And as he’s coming to find, those answers aren’t necessarily easy to deal with. 

But, when it comes down it, Steven isn’t alone. Maybe his support system isn’t perfect, but it doesn’t have to be. They love him, they love each other, and they’ll get through this together.

Sometimes what’s let behind isn’t so bad after all. 

Looking back, I can’t remember the truth. I blew everything out of proportion so I could feel the hurt and betrayal and write about it in vivid detail. It was my own method of torture. My own undoing; and I enjoyed every second of it.
—  c.j.n.