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Home At Last

Request: “Is that my picture as your home screen?” With Lafayette
Requested by: @hanakatsumi
Pairing: Lafayette x Reader
Word count: 1,167
Tag squad: @musicalmoriarty @imagineham @imaginebeinghamiltrash @butlinislin @drugsdiggs @secretschuylersister @icanneverbesatisfied @daveedish @diggs4life @americanrevelation @tempfixeliza @patron-saintof-sluts @adothoe @shamagangster @crazypurplebananas @chloehamiltonn @getupoffathathang @wolfphantom-m @y-lue

You stared at the calendar on your phone and let out a sigh.

“Only two more weeks to go,” you lament.

Lafayette had already been gone for two weeks, off visiting his family back home in France. When you closed the calendar app you stared at your home screen for a few moments. Lafayette’s handsome face stared back at you with his wide smile. You loved how he got little crinkles around his eyes when he smiled like he was in the picture.

He was a central member of your small group of friends and while their shenanigans kept you busy things just didn’t feel quite the same without the Frenchman. He texted often, but you found yourself missing his voice.

Tonight was group movie night and everyone had piled into your apartment with various snacks, throw blankets, and drinks. The genre that had won the vote for tonight was romantic comedy. It was barely halfway through the movie that it dawned on you that even though you were surrounded by your best friends you felt alone. Laf was always the person you sat with, the person who comforted you during sad movies, made you laugh when you were scared during horror night, shared a blanket with you, and he always brought those sour gummy worms and let you have the blue and red ones.

Looking around the living room you saw Alex and Eliza cuddled together, finger woven together as they watched the movie, John was shamelessly flirting with Peggy while Herc distracted Angelica by throwing popcorn on her. You smiled at their antics and sank lower under your blanket and unlocked your phone and looked and the picture again. It made you feel warm.

-(Y/N) 8:30pm: You’re missing movie night.-

-Laf 8:35pm: Is that so? What genre is it this time?-

-(Y/N) 8:36: Rom-com. I didn’t think you’d be awake. It’s 5:30 in the morning isn’t it?-

-Laf 8:38pm: Yes it is. I wasn’t sleeping well so I got up.-

-(Y/N) 8:40pm: I miss you Laf.-

-Laf 8:41pm: I miss you too ma chère.-

Ma chère… he had never called you that before. You felt your cheeks heat up and a giddy feeling filled you, but the more you thought about the butterflies you were feeling the more nervous you became.

Three weeks. Three weeks of Laf being gone and you had come to the conclusion that you were hopelessly in love with him. Angelica was quick to point out when you confided in her that she had already known that and it has been obvious long before he had left.

“Please you have been in love with him since that first stupid party my family threw at Christmas. You looked like some cartoon with hearts for eyes when he danced with you,” Angelica quipped.

“That isn’t true… I just thought it was sweet of him to ask me to dance,” you countered.

“Keep telling yourself that,” she scoffed.

She was right though, the more you thought about it. You had stamped down those feelings quickly when they had first appeared, ignored them completely, and instead of going away they had come back stronger than ever. His absence had shown you how much you truly depended on him and how happy he made you day in and day out and you had one week to figure out what the hell you were going to do.

So here you were sitting in the apartment Hercules shared with Laf. It was Herc’s turn to host movie night, tonight’s theme was 80s slasher.

“Hey (Y/N) I’m going to run to the store and replenish my candy and booze stock,” Herc said cheerfully, “you’re welcome to tag along or just kick it here.”

“I think I’ll just stay here and hold down the fort.”

“Sounds good. I’ll be back in twenty.”

Hercules has been gone for roughly ten minutes and you sat quietly with your legs tucked under your chin. Just one more week and Laf would be here. You unlock your phone again and look at the background and smiled.

“What am I going to do?”

You mulled over how to proceed after Lafayette got home. What if he didn’t feel the same? Angelica and Eliza both had said it was obvious he felt the same, but if that was true then how come you both hadn’t realized it?

“Is… that my picture on your home screen?”

You slowly turned around at the sound of his voice, it couldn’t be. As you look up Lafayette was leaning slightly over the back of the couch, jacket still on, his bag in hand, the same kind brown eyes and curly hair piled on the top of his head. You stood up quickly and ran around the couch.

“Laf? What are you doing here? You aren’t supposed to be back until next week,” you say in a rush.

“I had to come back early ma chère.”

God you had missed his voice.

“Is everything alright? Did something happen?”

“Oui, you could say that,” he said with a nervous smile.

“What’s wrong Laf? You can tell me what happened,” you say concerned.

“I missed you (Y/N)… I missed you so much,” he said closing the distance between you.

“Laf… I don’t see why you left early… that doesn’t…”

You were struggling to figure out the right words to say when he was this close. He reached up and gently brushed his thumb along your jawline. You had a million questions that were erased when his lips met yours. When he pulled away his forehead rested against yours, he looked so at ease and you felt like your heart was about to beat out of your chest.

“I couldn’t sleep. I was alright at first and I was so happy to see my family and be home, but after a week I missed you. I missed everything about you (Y/N). You consumed my thoughts and all I wanted to do was get on a plane. I wanted to come home and see your face and hear your voice,” Laf’s voice was barely above a whisper.

You weren’t exactly sure at what point tears has begun to flow when he had been speaking, but you felt his fingers brush them away. You quickly pull him into another kiss and wrap you arms around him tightly.

“Je t'aime,” he mumbled against your lips, “je t'aime tellement.”

“I love you too Gil.”

“Well, well it’s about God damn time!”

A startled yelp escaped your lips as you look over and saw Hercules standing in the kitchen with an arm full of groceries. Lafayette’s chest rumbled with laughter and it didn’t take long before you joined him. Today had definitely taken an unexpected turn.

“It’s good to have you back,” Herc said.

“Oui… it’s good to be home,” Laf said meeting your gaze and planted a kiss to your forehead.

Good to be home indeed.

Why is it essential that we leave everything in the hands of our Sovereign God?
“For from Him and through Him and to Him are all things. To be Him be the glory forever! Amen” (Rom. 11:36)
Do not resent the fact that you are unable to make sense of everything that is happening to you? Take comfort in the fact that God’s sovereign power is able to help turn any situation into a greater triumph for your good.
God sees the bigger picture and always knows what is best. For this reason it makes perfect sense that we are to trust and obey God regardless of our questions and doubts. He is God and we are not.
Do not demand to understand everything that is happening to you. Joyfully leave everything in the hands of the God and you will see His hand in every area of your life.

Piensa por un momento por qué fuiste enviado al mundo. No sólo para comer y beber, ni para entregarte a los deseos de la carne, ni sólo para vestir tu cuerpo y darte gustos, sin importar a dónde te lleven, no sólo para trabajar, dormir, reír, hablar, divertirte, y no pensar en ninguna otra cosa más que el presente. ¡No! Fuiste creado para algo más alto y mejor que esto. Fuiste puesto para capacitarte para la eternidad. Tu cuerpo sólo tiene la intención de ser la casa para tu espíritu inmortal. Hacer que tu alma sea el siervo de tu cuerpo es una afrenta a Dios como muchos la hacen, en lugar de hacer que el cuerpo sea el servidor del alma como es el propósito de Dios. Nuestro catecismo empieza con una pregunta y una respuesta: “¿Cuál es el fin principal del hombre?” “Glorificar a Dios y disfrutar plenamente de él para siempre.” (Rom. 11:36, 1 Cor. 10:31; Sal. 73:24-26; Juan 17:22, 24).
—  J.C. Ryle [Pensamiento para Hombres Jóvenes, p.22]

anonymous asked:

Is it true that our going to heaven and hell is already predestined?? Because honestly the thought of that gives me anxiety and kinda makes me angry? If I'm already destined or god already planned on sending me to hell or knows I'm going there, then what is the point of humanity really? I mean are we just some game? I don't understand how we're given the gift of life & everything is already planned out & no matter how great we lived or how we loved or what we believed or didn't, we end up there?

Friend, I have felt the same way about predestination – confused and upset, anxious but also skeptical. Back when I was Catholic, I didn’t worry about it, but I just became Presbyterian last year and predestination is a part of our doctrine. So I’ve been reading up on it, asking folks about it, and I’ve gotten no satisfying answers – until, luck would have it, yesterday, while doing some reading for seminary.

At last, this reading gave me an explanation of Predestination and the idea of some people being “elected” or chosen for Heaven that made me feel better about the whole concept. This reading assured me that Predestination is not about God arbitrarily dividing people up before eternity and already knowing who’s going to Hell; rather, it’s about how God has elected or chosen all of humanity to share in community with God. It’s about God’s freely given grace to all of us, fulfilled through Jesus’s sacrifice on the cross and offered to everyone who does not choose to resist and reject it themselves.

Before offering you the full passage from the book I was reading, I want to make it clear first that you do not need to accept the doctrine of Predestination to be Christian. If you are a member of a Reformed tradition such as Presbyterianism, the doctrine of Predestination is emphasized, but even so, it’s up to you to research and reflect on what you think of it.

Below is a passage from Daniel Migliore’s Faith Seeking Understanding on the doctrine of predestination. I’ve broken up larger paragraphs for easier reading, and bolded the beginning of key sections in case you prefer to skim it; you can also scroll to the last two paragraphs of the passage for a sort of TL;DR):

Few doctrines in the history of Christian theology have been as misunderstood and distorted, and few have caused as much controversy and distress, as the doctrine of the eternal decrees of God, or double predestination.

…The Westminster Confession, for example, states that by God’s secret decrees and for the manifestation of God’s glory, from all eternity “some men and angels are predestined to everlasting life, and others foreordained to everlasting death.” Thus stated, the doctrine of election seems to make God an arbitrary tyrant and an enemy of human freedom. …Far from good news, the doctrine that from eternity God has decreed some to salvation and others to damnation is “dreadful,” as Calvin himself described it.

According to the biblical witness, the electing grace of God is astonishing, but not dreadful. In the Bible election means that the God who freely chose Israel as covenant partner and who freely established a new covenant in Jesus Christ with Jew and Gentile alike is the God of free grace. Just as in the Old Testament Israel is chosen to be God’s people not because of their power or virtue but solely by God’s freely given love (Deut. 7:7-8), so in the New Testament the favor of God is surprisingly directed to sinners, the poor, and the outcast.

The mystery of God’s will is that in Jesus Christ, God chooses to be freely gracious to both Jew and Gentile (Rom. 11:25-36). Even the faith by which this grace is received is considered a free gift of God (Eph. 2:8). Thus the biblical theme of election…praises the free grace of God as the only basis of creation, reconciliation, and redemption: “God chose us in Christ before the foundation of the world to be holy and blameless before him in love” (Eph. 1:4).

The development of the doctrine of election in Christian theology went awry when it was made to serve purposes that it was never intended to serve. The doxological [praise-focused] intention of the doctrine has been obscured by a variety of motives: the desire to explain why some hearers accept while other reject the gospel message (Augustine); the determination to follow rigorously what appeared to be the logical implications of God’s omnipotence and providential governance of the world (Aquinas); the insistence that the righteousness of God is evident in the damnation of the reprobate just as God’s mercy is displayed in the salvation of the elect (Westminster Confession). 

Within a trinitarian context, however, the doctrine of election has one central purpose: it declares that all the works of God – creation, reconciliation, and redemption – have their beginning and goal in the free grace of God made known supremely in Jesus Christ. It affirms that the triune God who lives eternally in communion graciously wills to include others in that communion.

A trinitarian doctrine of election would therefore include the following affirmations:

1. The subject of election is the triune [three-in-one: Parent, Son, and Holy Spirit] God. The electing God is not an arbitrary deity who exercises naked power and whose eternal decrees unalterably fix human destiny in advance. …God’s election of human beings to be covenant partners corresponds to God’s eternal triune love in freedom. It is the decision of the triune God to be God for the world, the divine determination to be God in relationship not only in God’s own being but also in relationship to creatures. Election means that God chooses to share with others God’s life in communion. God’s decision to be God for us and with us, to come to us in the superabundant grace (Rom. 5:20) of Jesus Christ and the renewing power of the Holy Spirit, is no divine whim or afterthought. 

2. Our knowledge of election has no other basis than the unfathomable love of God for the world in Jesus Christ that we share in the communion of the Holy Spirit. What is the content of the knowledge of election when it is riveted in this basis? Having been chosen in Christ “before the foundation of the world,” we know that we have no claim on God, that our salvation depends solely on God’s grace, and that we can live in the confidence that nothing can separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus (Rom. 8:39).
Moreover, because the subject of election is the triune God who loves in freedom, and because in Christ we are called to freedom (Gal. 5:13) and given the Spirit of freedom (2 Cor. 3:17), we know that God’s election, far from negating human freedom, intends our free service of God and our glad participation in the new life of communion with God and others. In addition, because God desires that everyone be saved (1 Tim. 2:4) and commissions the church to proclaim the gospel to all peoples (Matt. 28:19), we know that we must not set any a piori limits to the electing grace of God. 

3. The goal of election is the creation of a people of God and not simply the salvation of solitary individuals or the privileging of particular nations or ethnic groups. The doctrine of election is not intended to cater to excessive self-concern or fuel arrogant national, racial, or ethnic aspirations. Rather, God’s electing grace aims to open human beings to the blessings and responsibilities of life in the new community of God’s own making. Election is the expression of God’s will to create a community that serves and glorifies God. …God purposes a new humanity in Christ in which individuals and entire peoples are free from preoccupation with themselves and free for thankful service to God and solidarity with others.

4. The electing grace of God is accompanied by the righteous judgment of God, but these are not related like two parallel lines as has been suggested in many traditional doctrines of double predestination. In the biblical witness election and rejection are not timeless divine decisions and are not independent tracks of the divine purpose. Rather, God’s judgment operates in the service of God’s gracious will. If this is the case, we must not separate God’s grace and justice, and certainly must not posit and eternal decree of rejection alongside God’s electing grace. God’s Word to the world in Jesus Christ is not ambiguous: in him all of the promises of God are Yes and Amen (2 Cor. 1:20).
But neither are we allowed to reduce the message that Jesus Christ lived and died and has been raised for all into an abstract guarantee of universal salvation. Grace is not cheap, and faith can never be separated from obedience. …At the same time, God’s judgment, while always serious, is not necessarily final, for God wills to have mercy on all (Rom. 11:32). If any are excluded from the community of grace at the end, it is because they have persisted in opposition to God’s grace, not because they were excluded before the foundation of the world (cf. Matt. 25:34, 41). 

[A TL;DR of sorts:] …This is why Barth can say of the doctrine of election that it is “the sum of the gospel” and that it is the best of all words that can be said or heard: that in Christ, God elects humanity as covenant partner, that apart from any need or constraint the freely gracious God chooses to be God for humanity.

When the doctrine of election is rethought in a trinitarian context, the meaning and goal of election are clarified. The content of this doctrine is not the “dreadful” news that the purpose of God from all eternity is to save a certain number of elect and condemn a certain number of reprobate. The mystery of election is the mystery of God’s will from the foundation of the world to share with others God’s own life in communion to the praise of God’s glorious grace.