rock crawl

In The End It Will Always Matter Chester Bennington

Chester Bennington, lead singer of Linkin Park has sadly died at the young age of 41. The band is best known for hits such as One Step Closer, In The End, Somewhere I Belong and Crawling, my personal favorite which won them a Grammy for Best Hard Rock Performance. The Hybrid Theory album, named after their former band was 2001’s best-selling album selling almost 5 million copies reaching the Nu-Metal genre’s highest peak.

The son of a police officer, brutally beaten and molested at the age of seven and having his parents divorce at the age of eleven, it wasn’t long before Chester found drugs of every kind. He eventually kicked the habit in 1992, formed the band and the rest is history however; with the tours the addiction reared its’ ugly head once more. Chester became sober again in 2006 and was quoted as saying in 2009 that “It’s not cool to be an alcoholic, it’s not cool to be a dumbass”, however it was not to last as yet again the addiction he had fought all his life took hold in the past few years.

Currently in the midst of their One More Light World Tour which includes both Canadian and American dates, this news has become a devastating blow to fans and celebrities alike worldwide.  

I remember rocking out for the first time to One Step Closer in my room, head banging as I went back and forth from one end to the other, singing and screaming my lungs and how it great it felt to release all that anger I had. Not to mention to countless times I reverted back to that album, especially Crawling to help me through my tough emotions.

To quote his lyrics from In The End: “I tried so hard, and got so far, but in the end, it doesn’t even matter, I had to fall, to lose it all, but in the end, it doesn’t even matter” But it does matter Chester, to all of us who had your music to help us through our darkest times, it does matter and it always will. Thank you for sharing your battles with us and may you finally rest in peace, drug free.


I’m just speechless.

My first run-in with Linkin Park was unusual. I didn’t grow up listening to anything even close to their genre. As a matter of fact the first I ever even heard LP was because my brother took off my N'sync CD that I had been playing for the past few months in repeat and told me to listen to something new for a change. I was maybe 6 at that time. Obviously I didn’t understand the story behind the lyrics or even the lyrics themselves but I learned every song in Hybrid Theory.

As I grew older and with my brother being a huge LP fan I started understanding more and more, but still didn’t figure it out. I’m sitting here in middle school thinking, “What are they talking about?” Nonetheless, I still loved all the songs and continued listening to them throughout the years.

Now as a twenty-two year old that’s been through hell and back, that’s been an alcoholic, that’s been sexually harassed, that’s been locked up, that’s suffered through depression, that’s contemplated suicide, and that’s managed to somehow live through it all and still smile at the world… I can finally say I understand. I understand the anger, the hate, the vengance, the need to escape. I finally understand what Chester Bennington has been saying all along. I’m not sure if I’ve beaten my battle or if I’m still in the middle of it but I sure as hell am sad you decided to end yours.

You were and will always be an inspiration to me, you’re music will always be a part of me. Anyone who knows me knows that although I’m a huge fan of reggaeton, regional Mexican music, and R&B, I’m always down to just take long drives along PCH bumping Linkin Park to relax myself.

May you rest in peace, and my sincere condolences to your friends, family, and band members. #Somewhere I Belong

“It’s Been a Long Time” Sentence Starters

Muse A and Muse B haven’t seen each other in years.  Put one of these sentences in my ask to have your muse react to seeing my muse again after such a long time.

  • “It’s been awhile.”
  • “I can explain.”
  • “You’re supposed to be dead.”
  • “How did you get here?”
  • “Please don’t leave me again.”
  • “I need you to tell me the truth about where you’ve been.”
  • “I never thought I’d see you again.”
  • “I’m so glad I’ve finally found you!”
  • “Whatever rock you crawled out from under, you should crawl back.  Now!”
  • “Well, look what the cat dragged in!”
  • “I never thought I’d be so happy to see you.”
  • “Do you remember me at all?”
  • “Why didn’t you let me know you were okay?”
  • “Well, fancy seeing you again!”
  • “I never stopped looking for you.”
  • “What are you doing here?”
  • “I know you said you never wanted to see me again, but - ”
  • “Please don’t pretend like you don’t know me!’
  • “How dare you show your face around here!”
  • “What are you doing in a place like this?”
  • “You haven’t changed one bit.”
  • “Why did you just walk away like that?”
  • “Did you even stop to think about what your disappearance would do to me?”
  • “I know, I know - I’m supposed to be dead.”
  • “It’s a long story.”
  • “I-I’m sorry I left without saying anything.”
  • “I’m sorry I never contacted you.”
  • “Do - I know you?”
  • “Please don’t ask where I’ve been.”
  • “Miss me?”
  • “Please don’t let this be a dream.”
  • “How long have you been here?”
  • “Did you ever even try to look for me?”
  • “You said you’d never come back here!”
  • “Thank god I finally found you!”

Don’t you know
Know my art
(Art of war)

i replayed p5 and im so emotional, again ?? idk,, they beat god and then akira has to go to jail AND THEN HAS TO LEAVE.. like can u not?? he didn’t deserve any of this, hasn’t he suffered enough

I’m absolutely terrified of posting this, but here is a link to the first writing I’ve publicly shared in over two years. 

a short one shot from ChurchTale- the official name of my ‘Fell bros run a motorcycle shop/Kedgeup project. 

Soulmates (continuation of 4x08)


So this is just a quick little fic I’ve written about how I think a yousana conversation would’ve been today after Sana read those text (aka the cutest texts ever)

It’s really short and not really good but I hope you like it :)


“So, who’s that?”

She had been so focused on watching Noora and William leaving the party together so they could talk that she hadn’t heard Yousef approaching her. She turned around and looked at him

“Um, that’s Noora’s ex-boyfriend” she explained

Yousef nodded with an unimpressed expression.

“It’s okay if you’re jealous” she said


“I mean, he’s her one true love and so on, no one will judge you for being jealous”

She tried so hard not to laugh at his confused look

“But why would I be jealous?” he asked

“Because you have a thing with her” she said shrugging

“I, what?” he widened his eyes in surprise “No, no, no. We don’t have a thing”

“Well, you seemed really into her when I saw you kissing at SYNG”

“You…you…?” he stuttered

“Saw you? Yeah I did” she said as if it was the most obvious thing in the world

“No, no, no.” he said shaking his head more to himself than to her “That’s not…we didn’t…Noora and me…”

“Yousef, breathe” she said

“I can’t believe this is happening, I can’t believe I screwed up like this” he muttered

“I’m not following you” she frowned “Look it’s okay, you like Noora and well she’ll probably get back with William but you’ll get over here”

“I won’t get over her because I’ve never been under her” he blurted out

“Wow, that’s too much information” she said biting her lip

“No, no, that came out totally wrong” he took his snapback off and brushed his hair with his fingers before putting it back on “Let’s start again”

Sana just looked at him waiting for him to talk

“Okay…Sana, Noora and me, we’re not…we never were…I mean she’s not…but you are…and me. I told her and she told you but you told her…and…”

“Yousef you’re not making any sense”

“I know it’s just…this is really difficult for me to say…Sana I think that you…that you and me…”

“That we’re soulmates?” she finished raising her eyebrows at him with a smug smile

“What?” he said blinking way to fast.

Sana tried to hold the laugh but she couldn’t manage to do it and burst out laughing.

“Sana?” Yousef asked still trying to understand what was happening

“Noora let me read your texts” she said biting her lip

“No she didn’t” he said panicking

“Yup, she did”

“I…I…I just…” he tried to speak but he was too flustered to even say a word.

He felt his cheeks blushing, his heart pounding fast on his chest, if there were a record for most embarrassing moment this would be the number one followed by the one time she had caught him dancing in her living room.

You just…like me” she said smiling

“I can’t believe she showed you those texts” he said shaking his head

“And I can’t believe you asked her for advice” she chuckled

“Yeah…I did…and now if you’ll excuse me I’m going to find a nice rock I can crawl under” he said turning around to leave

“Wait” she said grabbing his arm to stop him

He faced her again but he closed his eyes too embarrassed to look at her

“Yousef, look at me” she said

He opened his eyes and looked at hers

“Are you looking into my eyes now?” she said quoting him from that afternoon they spent together

“I am” he said in a low voice

“What was I going to say?” she joked

He squinted his eyes at her and she laughed

“Oh, yes I remember now…I was going to say that I like you too Yousef”

“Yeah?” he asked with a goofy smile

She just grinned and nodded

“That’s cool” he said

“That’s cool” she repeated

They would’ve kept talking to each other but they were soon pulled into the improvised dance floor by their friends.

Anyway, they would have a lot of time to talk in the following days, but in that moment, the important things had been said and that was all that mattered.


This is it

Hope you’ve liked it

Thanks for reading


anonymous asked:

I kinda laughed when Bex made that comment about how Aaron should realise what a pathological liar he is (or something along those lines, can't remember it word for word). Like, Aaron already knows this? He knows Robert completely. Knows all of his good parts and bad parts and she acts like Aaron doesn't know the real him but she does. Umm, hello Bex, nobody knows Robert better than Aaron.

of all the things she can’t possibly understand, robert and aaron’s relationship is right at the top.

i mean, it’s not like anyone has told her about the shit robert and aaron have been through. she doesn’t realise that aaron has seen darker sides of robert than she ever has and they’ve somehow pulled themselves past that - that robert’s change has been because he’s hurt aaron, that it came from rob knowing that his choice was to either change or lose aaron forever and aaron was the only person who ever made that feel possible.

this is the problem, really - rebecca spent so long thinking she was the only one who knew robert’s dirty secrets; chrissie and lawrence never knew half of it back then. it’s just - neither did rebecca. rebecca didn’t know he was sleeping with other people, with men, while he was fooling around with her. rebecca doesn’t know about katie, about the things he’s done to andy, anything about his history - she thinks she knows him but she doesn’t at all.

she was never and could never be a catalyst for robert to want to make his life better - she represents the exact opposite for robert in a lot of ways. a solid representation of all the ways he’s fucked up before and now and all the things he needs to leave behind.

rebecca doesn’t understand that robert has put aaron through hell, that aaron knows robert far more intimately than she ever could, that aaron is the only person robert could tell his every fucking secret to, that aaron has spent years watching robert hit rock bottom, crawl back up and then plummet back all over again. aaron loves every stupid part of him - despite everything - because aaron knows and has seen first hand, far moreso than anyone else on this planet, that robert’s change, his growth, comes from a very real place, that he is a better man now, despite everything.

he fucked up and hit another rock bottom and that still doesn’t negate just how far he’s come and that was the whole flipping point of this episode. robert isn’t the man rebecca thought she knew anymore. robert is…. very much not there yet (😂), but oh my god, he’s not who he was two years ago, not by a long shot.

and aaron is the one who knows that.