5. Part 2
I paused thinking “Jay, this photoshoot includes an interview?” I swear I thought it didn’t “you knew this” he said pointing, I swear I didn’t. Sitting back in the director’s chair “can you all give us a minute” I can’t do this, I can’t have an interview when I know what they will ask. I just don’t want it, Yusef rolled his eyes walking off “is something wrong?” Jay my manager asked me, he sat down on the chair at the side of me “something is very wrong, Adam and I have split. I am not with him, I never wanted to get engaged and I felt pressured, it’s over. I don’t want it to be bought up in the interview” Jay looked away in annoyance “I saw the tears in your eyes and I knew it was doomed” he said as he sighed out “put a statement out, on your Instagram now. I will let the interviewer ask you questions on the split, just a few ok? I will sort it out, just do that” he got up from the chair “thank you for telling me, finally” grabbing my phone from the side of me, I was going to use Adam as a cover up but why should I, I find it creepy he is still trying to claim me. He is even liking my pictures still, he sent me flowers to say sorry and I don’t like it. Staring down at the Pandora bracelet, I do not take this off at all. It makes me feel close to Chris, he is not around but he is. It was so hard to drive by him in the SUV, I wanted to hold him so bad.
I really didn’t know what picture to use so I just took a picture of the wall, I didn’t want to put a picture of Adam and I, Chris wouldn’t appreciate it at all. I won’t be mean in this ‘I like to be private, I like to keep things private in my life but this wasn’t so much. The whole world knows I am ‘engaged’ and honestly it was something I didn’t want, they say you find your soul mate and you just know but with Adam, I didn’t feel it. I decided to end that, maybe I am running from myself but I wish nothing but the best for Adam and thank you for all the good times we had’ I want to write more but if people really know me, if they know me that well they will see that my heart screams Chris, pressing send on my Instagram. I feel like a weight has been lifted, I needed to do that because I felt like Adam had a hold of me.
I feel so damn tired, photoshoot over and now I am doing this god forsaken interview “where do you see yourself five years down the line?” the interviewer asked, I paused smiling to myself “erm, married?” I said, but we both laughed “but I need a man for that of course, I just hope I find the right man. I just want to be loved, just like any girl. If I am thirty-five and not married with kids then you will see a very depressed bitch, oh god” I laughed at my own pain “but you’re so beautiful, I don’t see you having trouble?” she said in shock, I shrugged “clearly I am just not the girl or….” I drifted off “or my heart is somewhere else, I loved once. I just pray to god that I do become a mother and a wife, I don’t want to be married to this life. I want my own mini Robyn Rihanna Fenty, I want to show my daughter or son the world, I want to be a mother and if any man is willing then you know where I am. I want a baby too” I laughed, I think I am doing well playing this all off.
I am so very tired but also very excited about this surprise but I need to lose my team, they are literally not leaving me “what are we doing today?” Jen said, staring at Mel. I hate lying to Jen because that is my best friend and I am just lying to her “nothing, just going home” I lied, Mel shrugged at me. My phone screen lit up “who is cheesecake?” Jen questioned pointing at my screen “oh it’s just a friend” I have no idea what to say, that is Chris but I can’t say that “you have other friends? You hear this Mel!?” unlocking my phone to read the message “y’all dramatic” opening the message.
How long? I am waiting, it’s already late
I feel like we are going to a club, it is very late and where else can we go. I am confused though “so what did cheesecake say?” I need to get rid of Jen “nothing, I am tired tonight anyways. I am going to bed” I do feel bad for lying but I cannot help it, replying back to his text.
I am coming, I need to get dressed. How do I dress?
I never asked him at all “you both being so boring, honestly. I am going home” that is what I thought, now I can go and do my thing, seeing Chris has replied.
Come to my home, nobody is here. Just Mijo and I, I got you an outfit. Come
I cooed out “he got me an outfit” I said a loud and then realised what I had just said “what was that?” Jen spat, my face dropped “Rorrey, he said he got me an outfit. I am going Barbados tomorrow” this lie is becoming deep for no reason, Mel looked at me disgust “well I want to see Monica, I will join” Jen is clocking me “great, see you tomorrow” I shrugged, I am not even going Barbados. “Bye bitches” Jen walked off, she knows something is going off and I feel bad. I breathed out placing my head in my hands “we both know you will be in his bed, you’re getting dick” lifting my head up “does this really mean I have to go?” I said, Mel shook her head “just say plans change, you’re Rihanna but you need to become better at lying. I hope she don’t come to the crib, you will be in his bed and we both know that” waving Mel off “you’re very concerned about my sex life, what about yours?” getting up from the chair “it’s great, now” I knew it, I just knew it “he has kids” picking my bag up “and I don’t, who cares, let’s just go” I am finally seeing Chris’ home which is exciting.
“This place looks very nice you know” Mel said looking around the area, it looks like a nice quiet place “have you not been here before?” the driver asked, these SUV drivers never talk but this one is “erm no” I said looking at Mel “you both don’t live far, I have come here before to drop Chris off” this guy talks too much “that’s nice” I shrugged, I look a mess and I am going to see Chris. I hate it because I wanted to look all pretty for him but no, shamefully he said to get ready there “this is the home here” seeing this very well-lit home just at the top of the hill, this is a nice place he has “shall I drop you off outside the house?” he asked a stupid question “yes please” why can’t he just do his job “did you get my makeup bag?” I asked Mel, I don’t remember if I did or not “this is Chris’ home, look at his cars everywhere” damn right it is, he loves his cars.
I cleaned the home before Robyn came here, I didn’t want her to come to a dirty home at all because then Robyn would judge me “I hope Mel got her legs out today” jumping off the kitchen counter “nigga, you thinking about Mel. I am thinking about Robyn, I am hoping to get my dick wet. Well not wet just want to lay the pipe, want to have sex with my baby. Doing it all night” touching my hair “well I am wanting it too” I hope I look good for my wife anyway “you already had sex with Mel?” turning around to Mijo, hearing the doorbell “well I want it again!” I am so excited, she is here to see me. I hope this is a surprise she likes, I mean she knows I am a little childish but it’s fun and I have spent a lot of money on this.
Pulling back the door “woah! Jesus Mel, don’t stand in the dark” holding my heart “nigga fuck you” opening the door wider seeing Robyn, smiling wide at her “hey?” I breathed out saying “hey Chris” Robyn said in a whisper, hugging Mel “I like your home though Chris” she walked in, Robyn is still stood here, why is she not coming in “this is so weird to me, coming to your home” nodding my head “I understand, I hope you come to my home more often” holding my hand out “I missed you so much Robz” Robyn placed her hand in mine, lightly pulling her inside my home “welcome to the home of Chris Brown” pushing the door shut “I missed you too Chris” wrapping my arms around Robyn “oh Chris” she held my shoulders, squeezing her close “I hate being so far away from you” inhaling sharply, she smells so sweet. Pressing a kiss to Robyn’ cheek “surprised you ain’t kissed my lips” she added, intertwining our fingers. Pulling Robyn into me, pressing a kiss to her lips “Chris, seriously. We will be late” rolling my eyes at Mijo “I guess you need to get dressed” pulling Robyn along, I hope she likes my home.
Smiling at Robyn as she looked around my living area “you like it then?” she is amazed “it’s so you Chris, I didn’t expect anything less. Even the car in the home” I chuckled “I erm got you a spot upstairs where you can get ready, come” waving them both over “oh yeah, you got me a dress? I am scared now, you still remember my size?” she said while I walked up the stairs “yeah I do babe, why wouldn’t I” Mel and Robyn both made their way up the stairs “are we going to your room?” Mel asked, shaking my head “y’all wish but only Robyn can see that, one day” walking to the room I put her things in, I got Munchie to help me but I picked it out “can I see the room now?” Robyn said “only if you giving me head?” I busted out laughing “I am playing, erm you can but it’s a mess” I don’t really want her too just because I haven’t cleaned it, opening the bedroom door “let me know if you like it, I will go downstairs and wait” I don’t want to see her reaction just because she may not like it, and then what.
Fixing my ring on my finger “you ready now or not?” Mijo asked in annoyance “why are you annoyed for, yes take it” Mijo and I busted out laughing “trust this song to come on now” Vybz Kartel – Romping Shop came on “she going to think you did it on purpose” shaking my head “just take the picture” I said to Mijo, he took the picture and passed me my phone “y’all planned this song didn’t you both?” Mel said laughing, where is Robyn “before you ask, she has just gone to the bathroom” looking down at my phone, uploading the picture to Instagram ‘Tonight is the night #OHB’ pressing send on the picture, walking over to Mel “you telling me you don’t like this song” walking behind Mel “don’t you bother, save that shit for Robyn” she pushed me away “when you come inna mi romping shop” I sang putting my phone in my pocket.
Robyn is finally here “did you stank out one of my toilets nasty ass!?” I shouted over the music “you took your time” she looks so beautiful in the blue miniskirt and completely unbuttoned shirt, that was supposed to be buttoned but I accept this “I was looking in your bedroom” my eyes widened “that is rude” I retorted “Mel did look but I dragged her back out, we just saw nothing” I don’t really have anything wrong in there I don’t think “we saw your condom draw” I do have that, thanks Mel “I am joking Chris!” Mel laughed at something so true “do you like the dress? I chose it, you made it look better and I like the open buttons” tilting my head to the side, I see side boob “she is making it easy for tonight” Mel said laughing “shut up” Robyn said “well I ain’t complaining, anyways can we just go. The driver is here” I want to get out of here already.
I was about to walk off but Robyn grabbed onto my wrist pulling me back “we will see you in the car” Robyn spoke, have I done something wrong now “is there something in your bedroom that you are hiding?” chewing onto my top lip “honestly” I said rubbing the side of my face “there is nothing, you can look in there. I just, I have had other women in there and I feel bad. Like I wouldn’t have you in there” Robyn let out an oh “I understand but we have both had other partners, no need to hide it. This is your home so who am I to judge” this is awkward “I just thought you had something way worse, like a whole girl hiding in there” shaking my head “nah, nothing like that. I never changed and this home is a constant reminder of the life I wanted, party and girls. You ain’t realise when I came to your crib, shit was like a breath of fresh air. I be having niggas and hoes come to this home like a revolving door, the only reason nobody is here now is because I said nobody will be home. Actually, even then they can come, this place is a mess. I have shit everywhere, I just be looking around and I remember everything that went on. I just feel bad because that room is just, a mess” I shrugged, Robyn is ever so silent “you have demons in this home Chris? You know my family don’t fuck with that shit, that is something you need to do, you need to help yourself because I can’t do it” she said “I know but I can’t, where am I going? Do you know where you are going? You’re going to New York, for now this is my home and I am just going to have to deal with it. I don’t know where we are or who we are, I am not even bringing you back here tonight” Robyn raised an eyebrow and I couldn’t help but laugh “I mean no, I don’t mean anything like that. Just, I don’t know. Look we will see ok? Friends can stay in the room together” turning around, she is judging me “sure they can” she looks so damn beautiful too, she is making me nervous, damn.
Making my way out of the home, I forgot the gift I got for Robyn so I had to go back into the home. I am not sure if Robyn is annoyed with me or not, I just want to be truthful with her but I be getting myself in trouble. Pulling open the SUV door “y’all switched seats again?” I am not sitting next to Mijo “we switching again, what is this? Robyn is supposed to be next to me” I refuse to get into the car “I told you this, they ganged up on me!” Mijo spat, shaking my head waiting for them to go back to the normal seating I arranged “fine” Robyn said making her way to the front with me “y’all keep fucking around, just Mijo sit in the back of the SUV so we can go” this why I know Robyn is annoyed with me, she switched seats.
Robyn frowned looking at me “we are flying?” she said confused “yeah, it’s quicker to get there” the SUV stopped outside the jet “who knows where we are going? Mel?” Robyn turned to look at her “I have no idea bitch, I am just as clueless” Robyn looked at me “it’s the middle of the night, where are we going” getting out of the SUV “you will see, it’s less than an hour to get there. The only thing, you cannot look out of the windows. They are covered, when you get off the jet you will be blindfolded” Robyn stared at me “do you trust me?” I don’t think she does “I do but like, I am nervous” holding my hand out to her, she took my hand “I am just so confused by this, what could you be possibly be doing” I shrugged helping her down, she need to hide her breasts because I cannot deal “so are we staying wherever we are?” she asked “yes we will, don’t worry about clothes” if we drove then we would never get there and that is pointless.
Mel keep giving me a nervous smile and I don’t know why “why are you nervous? You think Mijo and I are kidnapping you?” Mijo laughed which made me laugh also “you know what, we actually could be doing that. Did you tell anybody about this?” Mijo said glaring at both Robyn and Mel “no nigga, I swear to god Robyn will kill you both” Mel pointed at us both “you two would be the last people I would kidnap, y’all would drive me crazy” that is the damn truth “we will be landing” the flight attendant added “ok great, so Robyn. Blindfold” I held it out, she really thought I was joking about this “my makeup will get a mess Chris, no” letting out an oh “well then nobody will be getting off this jet, we might as well go back, I have seen you look worse” she snatched the blindfold from me “just because it will shut you up” I knew I would get my own way.
The jet came to a halt finally “have you stared enough at my friends boobs?” dragging my eyes away from Robyn’ side boob, I can actually see her nipple from here “is he doing that?” Robyn asked, she can’t see shit “ignore her, shut up Mel!” I spat, Mel grinned at me “I caught your ass negro, you enjoyed the view” getting up from the seat “seeing as Robyn doesn’t trust me, please help her down” she clearly doesn’t, walking by her “I do! Why are you saying this?” Robyn perked up saying “uhm Robz he walked off, he is not sat there” rolling my eyes “oh but why? I do trust him, Chris. Stop being like that” getting off the jet, let her argue with the empty seat.
I can’t stop laughing at Robyn being blindfolded “this is so kinky” I couldn’t help but say it “I swear, I hate you. Why do I need to do this” watching Robyn move her hand to the side trying to touch my leg, she finally found my knee “because I want it to be a surprise, I think you will be very surprised when you see, trust me I have spent a lot of money. You will see why and this is only for you” smiling wide, we are here “seriously?” Mel said, Mijo shushed her “how?” I shrugged, we are finally here at Disneyland, I paid a lot of money for this because of the staff and them having to keep part of the place open for me. We have like four hours we can be here, just us and the staff. It’s going to be lit, I can’t believe I made it happen. Opening the car door “shuffle over to me baby” she touched the seat at the side of her “this is so weird Chris” she said smiling “I know it is, come babe” she keeps on smiling so wide, she is excited deep down.
“How much walking are we doing” Robyn complained, we are actually here inside the building. Looking at Mel she looks so impressed, I am more excited seeing Mickey myself, that is my nigga “ok, are we inside then?” stepping back from Robyn, if she don’t get excited about this then she is boring because I am “uh yeah, you can look” I got like every character here for her birthday, I don’t care how old you are these are the ones “don’t scare me” Mel and Mijo stood at the side of me, they decorated the Cinderella castle nice. I did pay well. Robyn slowly pulled off the blindfold off, squinting her eyes. Mickey and Minnie both held either side of the banner saying Happy Birthday as Robyn jumped at the sound of confetti falling “oh my god! What!?” she spat looking around “oh my god, what is this?” she placed her hand over her mouth “you hired this for me? Only us” Goofy walked over to Robyn and placed a crown on her head “this is actually so amazing Chris, how the hell you pull this off?” I shrugged not saying a word.
Robyn rushed over to me and hugged me tight “thank you so much, this is so beautiful. How? You got them to open this for me?” getting the charm out from my pocket “this is to add to your bracelet, remember I said I will fill all of this. Well I am starting, I got this made. It’s Minnie” Robyn placed her hand over her heart “oh my baby, oh my god Chris” she took off her Pandora bracelet “you thought it through, I feel so emotional” she passed me her bracelet “of course I did baby, we get to be us in this place, nobody knows. And look” turning around “this is all for you” Robyn wrapped her arms around my arm “this is so cute! Who the hell hires Disneyland? I am shocked, this must have cost you” holding out the bracelet “it’s whatever” I shrugged “we can go on rides without people knowing” feeling Robyn press a kiss to my cheek.
Robyn looked around the scenery “I am just in shock Chris, you really went all out for my birthday. This is something I will never forget” it looks so dope, the whole place being lit up with nobody here but us on this Ferris wheel. Robyn shuffled over to me, placing my arm over her shoulder “the world knows I am not with Adam anymore, I am just single. In my heart, I am taken though” she looked at me “really by who?” I said acting dumb “the love of my life, a guy that has a heart of gold. Some goofy nigga from VA” she rested her head on my chest “that goofy nigga from VA wants to date you” pressing a kiss to the back of her head “I want to date him too” I have another surprise for her “that’s official then, I am so stupid Robyn. We belong together but yet we ran away from each other, we are so stupid” we really are stupid “well I am stupid” let me rephrase that.
Robyn sat across me eating, she is loving the food and I know it’s late at night but we were hungry. Mel and Mijo did their own thing and sat away from us “you’re drinking enough” I mentioned, she has got issues with that. Smiling at Minnie behind Robyn “what’s funny?” she asked so I pointed behind her, she turned around seeing the sign Minnie is holding “let the fairy tale begin” she read aloud “what does that mean” she turned back around to me and Mickey stood right next to her “woah!” she spat in shock, he placed his hand over his mouth. Licking my lips taking in a deep breath. He bought his hand out from behind him and placed it in front of Robyn, Minnie rushed to the side of Mickey “say yes?” Robyn said staring at me all wide eyed, getting up from the chair “I let another man propose to you, I let another man try and claim you and I will never allow that to happen again. He didn’t know you the way I do, I don’t want nobody else but you. I know we are just starting again and we can still do that” taking the ring from Mickey’s hand, getting down on one knee “you the only man I wanted to marry” Robyn choked out “I fucked up, I am sorry. Please don’t cry” licking my lips feeling so bad “I don’t even want you to ask me, I say yes. I want to marry you Chris” she spat, she didn’t even let me put the ring on her finger she grabbed my face kissing my lips “yes my nigga!” Mijo half shouted clapping.
Smiling at Robyn ahead of me, she showed off her ring to Mel again “I can’t believe how big this ring is Chris, wow!” Mel complimented “this is what I wanted to see, this is the smile, when I saw your face that night. I knew you didn’t want it, look at my girl. She is engaged” Mel gushed “thirsty and engaged now, no depression from you. You about to get dick too, life came at you fast” laughing aloud at Mel “we need a picture though, this is going to be some lowkey shit” Mel held her phone up “come, let’s get a selfie” coming up from behind Robyn, wrapping my arm around her shoulder. She held her hand up to show off the ring off “this makes me sad, I can’t post it but when I can I will” pressing my body up behind Robyn “stawp!” humping the back of her “you ass” moving back from Robyn laughing.
Looking down at my watch “you’re engaged to me now, I know we have to keep shit quiet but I am always there for you in your heart. Shit is going to be the biggest test for us, time is so precious” holding Robyn’ hand between my hands “I can’t stop looking at my friend, she is glowing. True happiness” Mel beamed “because I got engaged to the man I want, the man I craved. I just feel like I am on cloud nine, I am going to get some dick too” Robyn openly said “I swear to god Chris if you fall asleep on me” she pointed at me “Mijo, you hear what happened. This nigga fell asleep on me during Netflix and chill, I had my legs out and everything. The movie barely came on, I look and he fell asleep” rubbing the side of my face smiling “look, I was tired and I didn’t want to be disrespectful, how did I know she wanted the D?” I defended myself, feeling a slap on the back of my head “how did you not know? That is a damn lie, you knew” I shrugged smiling at Robyn “are you happy?” she asked me “yeah I am, I am just thinking on when we will get to see each other again and all that” I keep on thinking she will get too busy for me, smiling at Robyn “this is a big fuck you to that guy, Adam thinking he could marry the love of my life. Fuck him” shaking my head, he tried though.
Leaning over the reception counter “yeah, Chris Brown” I flinched, reaching down grabbing Robyn’ wrist, looking over at her “stop it” I said smiling “great, your room is ready” he placed the key card on the desk, moving my hand away from Robyn’ wrist and grabbing the key card. Robyn went straight back to rubbing my crotch “you’re so fucking bad” I said in a whisper “I will have a suitcase coming in the morning” I paused, Robyn really is making me hard “send them to my room, thanks” moving back “I will do sir” shaking my head at her “you’re a mess, come” she looked down at my bulge “I can’t wait to have you, it’s been so long” placing my arm around Robyn, pulling her closer to me, the lobby is dead “it’s like me doing this” slipping my hand under her unbuttoned shirt, touching her breast “that feels so good” she bit her bottom lip, moving my hand away “wait till we get in that room ma’am” she going to get some tonight.