ribcage heart

Sometimes when I’m down, I remember that scene at a convention when Leonard Nimoy and De Kelley are reading fanfiction to the audience, and they pause at a scene to remember the destroyed Enterprise and place their hands over their hearts

and De does a double-take, skips over to Nimoy, and fixes his hand so it’s on his lower ribcage, where the vulcan heart actually is, and then goes back to his spot and remarks something like “I should know I’m his doctor” and continues on.

“"It can’t last,” Emma said, staring at him, because how could it, when they could never keep what they had? “It’ll break our hearts.”

He caught her by the wrist, brought her hand to his chest. Splayed her fingers over his heart. It beat against her palm, like a fist punching its way out of his ribcage. “Break my heart,” he said. “Break it in pieces. I give you permission.”“
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Concept: Lord of Shadows Mood
The Dark Artifices

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1 day till LoS
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LoS Part 1: Snippets from Tumblr

From tumblr:

1.  “Actually, it’s short for Maximum Lightwood,” said Magnus. “As in the most amount of Lightwood you can have.”

2.  Far below them the world spun by, a patchwork of summer-gold fields, green hills, and luminous, winding rivers of blue and green. It was beautiful, but Julian could not take his eyes off his brother. So this is the Wild Hunt, he thought. This freedom, this expanse, this ferocity of joy. For the first time, he understood how and why Mark’s choice to stay with his family might not be an easy one. For the first time he thought in wonder of how much his brother must love him after all, to consider giving up the sky for his sake.

3. And even odder, when Mark and Kieran had come into the library, Kieran had gone immediately over to Max and picked him up, delighted by his blue skin and his tiny horns.Max had stuck his hand into Kieran’s wavy hair and pulled. Kieran had just laughed. “That’s right, it changes color, little nixie-like warlock,” he said. “Look.” And his hair went from blue-black to blue in an instant. Max giggled.“I didn’t know you could do that on purpose,” said Mark, who had always thought of Kieran’s hair as a reflection of his moods, uncontrollable as the tides.“You don’t know a lot of things about me, Mark Blackthorn,” Kieran said, setting Max down.Alec and Magnus had exchanged a look at that, the sort of look that made Mark feel as if they had reached a silent and agreed-upon consensus …

4.  “You’re going to have to learn to live with it,” Jules said. “Even if it horrifies you, Emma. Even if it makes you sick. Just like I’m going to have to live with whatever other boyfriends you have, because we are forever no matter how, Emma, no matter what you want to call what we have, we will always be us.”

5. They threw their weapons down and hurled themselves toward the row of horses, one after the other — Livvy leapt at Julian, throwing her arms around his neck. Mark flung himself from his horse and landed to find himself being hugged tightly by Dru and Tavvy. Ty came more quietly, but with the same incandescent happiness on his face. He waited for Livvy to be done nearly strangling her brother and then stepped in to take Julian’s hands.And Julian, who Kit had always thought of as an almost frightening model of control and distance, grabbed his brother and yanked him close, his hands twisting in the back of Ty’s shirt. His eyes were shut, and Kit had to look away.He had never had anyone but his father, and he was sure beyond any words that his father had never loved him like that.

6. “Clary, what are you not telling me?”There was a long silence. Clary looked out toward the dark water, biting her lip. Finally, she spoke. “Jace asked me to marry him.”“Oh!” Emma had already begun opening her arms to hug the other girl when she caught sight of Clary’s expression. She froze. “What’s wrong?”

7. There was a long silence. Magnus sighed. “I have to hand it to you,” he said. “I never thought Jace and Clary would be topped by anyone else in terms of insane, self-destructive decisions, but you all are giving them a run for their money.”“I really had nothing to do with this,” Kieran pointed out stiffly.“I think you will find many poor decisions led you here, my friend,” Magnus said. “All right, you — all of you — wait here. And don’t do anything stupid.”He strode out of the room on long, black-clad legs, swearing under his breath.“He’s getting more and more like Gandalf,” said Emma, watching him go. “I mean, a hot, younger-looking Gandalf, but I keep expecting him to start stroking his long white beard and muttering darkly.

8. There was a commotion atop the pavilion, and a single blast from a horn shattered the murmuring quiet in the clearing. The gentry looked up. A tall figure had appeared beside the throne. He was all in white, salt-white, with a doublet of white silk and gauntlets of white bone. White horns curled from either side of his head, startling against the blackness of his hair. A gold band encircled his forehead.Cristina exhaled. “The King.”Emma could see his profile: it was beautiful. Clear, precise, clean like a drawing of something perfect. Emma couldn’t have described the shape of his eyes or cheekbones or the crook of his mouth, and she lacked Jules’ ability to paint it, but she knew it was uncanny and wonderful and that she would remember the face of the King of the Seelie Court for all of her life.He turned, bringing his face into full view. Emma heard Cristina gasp faintly. The King’s face was divided down the middle. The right side was the face of a handsome young man, luminous with youth and beauty. The left side was an inhuman mask, gray skin tight and leathery over bone, eyesocket empty and black, mottled with red scars.Kieran, bound to the tree, looked once at the monstrous face of his father and turned his head away, his chin dropping, tangled dark hair falling to hide his eyes.

9. When Emma came out into her bedroom, wearing sweatpants and a tank top and rubbing her hair dry with a green towel, she found Mark curled up at the foot of her bed, reading a copy of Alice in Wonderland.He was wearing a pair of cotton pajama bottoms that Emma had bought for three dollars from a vendor on the side of the PCH. He was partial to them as being oddly close in their loose, light material to the sort of trousers he’d worn in Faerie.If it bothered him that they also had a pattern of green shamrocks embroidered with the words GET LUCKY on them, he didn’t show it. He sat up when Emma came in, scrubbing his hands through his hair, and smiled at her.Mark had a smile that could break your heart. It seemed to take up his whole face and brighten his eyes, firing the blue and gold from inside.“A strange evening, forsooth,” he said.Emma put her hands on her hips. “Don’t you forsooth me.”

10. “It can’t last,” Emma said, staring at him, because how could it, when they could never keep what they had? “It’ll break our hearts.”He caught her by the wrist, brought her hand to his chest. Splayed her fingers over his heart. It beat against her palm, like a fist punching its way out of his ribcage. “Break my heart,” he said. “Break it in pieces. I give you permission.”

11. “I have always needed you, Kieran,” Mark said. “I have needed you to live. I’ve always needed you so much, I never had a chance to think about whether we were good for each other or not.”Kieran sat up. “That is honest,” he said, finally. “I cannot fault you there.”

12. Cristina spread her hands apart in bewilderment, and winced. Mark’s expression turned to one of concern.“You’re not in pain?” he said.“No,” she said. “Are you?”“You’re near me,” he said. “There is no reason for me to hurt.”

13.  “I know.” Mark brushed his lips across her forehead. Cristina could feel his heart pounding. “We’ll figure it out. We’ll fix it.”

14.  Kieran sat up rather reluctantly. The waves of his hair had lightened to blue; he turned around, and leaned back against Mark, rather as if they were on horseback and Mark was behind.

15. Kieran shook his head. “I cannot do it,” he said.“Kier —“ Mark began angrily, but Kieran had his head down, like a beaten dog. His hair fell, sweat-tangled, into his face, and his shirt and the waist of his breeches were soaked in blood. “You’re bleeding again. I thought you said you were healing?”“I thought I was,” Kieran said softly. “Mark, leave me here —“A hand touched Mark’s shoulder. Cristina. She had put her knife away. She looked at him, levelly. “I’ll help you get him over the wall.”

16. “Not one of my best,” said Magnus, to Kieran. “I apologize — I’m not a big fan of your father’s.”“My father does not have fans.” Kieran leaned against the edge of the table. “He has subjects. And enemies.”“And sons.”“His sons are his enemies,” said Kieran, without inflection.

He caught her by the wrist, brought her hand to his chest. Splayed her fingers over his heart. It beat against her palm, like a fist punching its way out of his ribcage. “Break my heart,” he said. “Break it in pieces. I give you permission.” 

• Inktober n°5 : Emma Carstairs & Julian Blackthorn (The Dark Artifices) • 
I’M SORRY

Dear future lover,

I don’t care about what’s between your thighs

I don’t care about what others think of you.

I only care for what’s inside your ribcage
Because your heart is what I fell for.

But that’s not all I fell for.

I fell for your smile,
your unconditional kindness.

You’ll forgive someone a million times even when they don’t deserve it.

You overplay Mac demarco songs because we both love the nostalgic feel his music gives us.

You always pause before kissing me because you want to admire every strand of color in my eyes.

You tell me how beautiful I am when the sun creates a hair light behind me.

You’re always slow with everything, and that’s never bad.

Because you cherish everything.

You’re all I’ve ever wanted to have.
one word frees us from all the weight

Written for Day 5 of NurseyDex Week 2017 - “Hurt/Comfort”


The uber pulls up to the curb outside the Haus, and Nursey braces himself for the chaos he’s sure’ll be waiting for him inside.

Three cracked ribs and some bone-deep bruising, the medics had told him at the game, and the doctor at the ER had confirmed it. Coach Murray had gone with him to the hospital from the game, stayed until pretty late, but Nursey had eventually convinced him to leave, that he could get home on his own.

“You need to call someone to help you?” his driver asks him 

“No, I think I’m okay.” Nursey tries to reach for the door handle, but the twist sends a sharp spike of pain through his chest. “Jesus fucking Christ,” he hisses, and then, guiltily and because he was raised not to curse around people he doesn’t know, adds, “Sorry.”

“Shit, bro, I’ve heard worse.” The guy turns in his seat to look at Nursey, his face concerned. “You need a hand?”

“No, thanks, I’ll–I’m gonna call someone.” He’s got his phone out anyway, he flips to his favorites and hits Chowder’s number.

C picks up on the first ring. “Nursey? Are you okay? What did the hospital say? 

“I’m–” He doesn’t say yeah, but he has to cut himself off to keep from it. “I’ll live,” he says instead.

(read the rest on AO3!)

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Lord of Shadows snippet:

Jemma Blackstairs art by the wonderful CASSANDRA JEAN and for M & R

“It can’t last,” Emma said, staring at him, because how could it, when they could never keep what they had? “It’ll break our hearts.”

He caught her by the wrist, brought her hand to his chest. Splayed her fingers over his heart. It beat against her palm, like a fist punching its way out of his ribcage. “Break my heart,” he said. “Break it in pieces. I give you permission.”

a letter to capricorn

You don’t have to be so brave, baby. I can see the trembles in your heart and in your mind. It’s not when, it’s always if, and every worse case scenario erupts fear and anxieties inside that pretty head. Your backbone is not as sturdy as you would
have us all believe. You lay your head on the pillow, and feel unfulfilled, like there is
so much more
you could have done. But I have seen you move mountains and inspire change and release the serum of astonishing inspiration.
To be exposed, you feel vulnerable, and you lock your inner world away. Some day, I’d like to be let in, and watch your mind dream the days away. You are a royal figure, a cosmic crown is rested upon your head,
and you diffuse the majesty of being human, and everything we can achieve if we follow Saturn’s lead. Your bones are guarding, and the ribcage around your heart is bolted - padlock and key. Within stirs tremendous vision, and images that won’t always be make believe 

cherry

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“It can’t last,” Emma said, staring at him, because how could it, when they could never keep what they had? “It’ll break our hearts.”

He caught her by the wrist, brought her hand to his chest. Splayed her fingers over his heart. It beat against her palm, like a fist punching its way out of his ribcage. “Break my heart,” he said. “Break it in pieces. I give you permission.”

Marauders Era Headcannons

Ok so no one asked but these are mine. It’s really long, so sorry about that. A lot are based on inspo I’ve seen on Tumblr, tweaked to my liking, which is probably wrong but I just have all these feelings that I’ve gotta get out so here goes. If you see an idea that’s originally yours/you know who’s it is, please message me and I’ll credit your genius.

Peter

  •  Shortest marauder. like hella short. 
  • He wasn’t visibly muscled bc he liked food so damn much, but he wasn’t a creampuff either
  • preferred coffee over tea, and was the person who introduced coffee to Marlene
  • Funniest marauder. Could spin a tale/tell jokes like no one’s business. 
  • Towhead, tanned up nicely, brown eyes
  • was actually very particular about how his hair was combed/parted, but didn’t fuss about it openly *cough cough Sirius*
  • just didn’t get the hype behind Quidditch. sure, he liked it, but he couldn’t imagine letting a sport take over your life like James always did and even Sirius did during season
  • was actually hella perceptive and good at figuring things out about other people
  • like for real I think he was the first one to notice a lot; Remus’ condition, Sirius’ abusive home situation, when Lily’s feelings for James started to change, how James himself started to change
  • Was also the swiftest/sneakiest of all the marauders (rat!) and collected all of their intel
  • didn’t much care about school, and wanted to open a cafe in Diagon Alley after school
  • Had something of a talent for Divinations. Like, wasn’t a seer or anything, but he understood the theory and appreciated the art
  • fell in love with Marlene McKinnon in their 6th year, and her death in the first wizarding war (Mentioned in Lily’s letter to Sirius) is what pushed him over the edge and away from the Order. he was already struggling before then, but she grounded him and gave him something to fight for, and without her he just couldn’t handle anything. grew angry, bitter, resentful, flipped on the order and tore apart his friends. yuck.

  Remus

  • V tall. Tallest Marauder. Tallest student. certified tallboy.
  • Tea and chocolate and jumpers
  • smoker, but only right before and right after the full moon. it helps him cope
  • only swears when he’s well and truly angry
  • Brown hair with hints of copper that grows into a kind of mop. He manages it, somehow, even though it’s way out of style, and it just works
  • pale, brown eyes with gold in them
  • Messy to a fault, but somehow always has what he needs in the moment
  • LOVES quidditch, and attends every match especially because Sirius is a beater and damn just look at his arms
  • is the strategic brains behind the marauders operation. as much of a strategist as Ron is, Remus was too, and he was very good at planning things, especially things like breaking into filches office or putting potions in the Slytherin’s morning pumpkin juice that makes them all turn red and roar spontaneously  
  • Always studied, because if he didn’t put in the work he wouldn’t pull good grades
  • Forms a very close relationship with Lily in their 5th year when they’re both prefect
  • realized he was bi (and totally in love with Sirius) in his 4th year
  • Refuses to come out to his parents because they already have a broken son, and he didn’t want to expand on those feelings
  • tutors kids for chocolate bars or spare change whenever he has the time
  • was terrified of being made head boy, because he just knew he couldn’t handle it, and was relieved when it was James (bc he just knew Lily was a shoe-in for Head Girl)
  • Is the first person Lily actually admits her confused feelings about James to

Sirius

  • Second-shortest Marauder (much to his chagrin)
  • has excellent posture as a result (because if he slouches he’s the same height as Peter)
  • Long black hair, grey eyes, regal/sharp features. 
  • has a leather jacket that he picked up at a muggle consignment store when he was 14. it’s worn & covered in patches, and when his mother finds it in his closet his father uses the cruciatus on him
  • speaks excellent french. a side effect of Toujours Pur
  • Always paints his nails black or grey. When they chip, he paints over them, so it’s just layers and layers of paint
  • Starts to grow his hair out in the summer before his third year. Keeps it roughly shoulder length, and trims it himself after he had Emily Tefty teach him how
  • Incidentally, the summer before third year is when he stopped believing he could ever make amends with his parents. The only reason he went home after that was for Reg
  • Wants to live in London and work in a muggle garage
  • Is very smart, but doesn’t try. can ace every test though
  • is particularly gifted at CoMC
  • Smokes way more than he should
  • gets his first tattoo (a lion, what else) in Knockturn alley when he was 15. it paces and roars depending on his mood, and is on his ribcage, protecting his heart because he’s so afraid that one day he wont be able to protect his heart from his parents ideology 
  • realized he was Gay (and in love with Remus) in the start of their 5th year
  • was so terrified of that fact that he went on a year-long dating extravaganza, in which he dated and snogged every girl he could get to agree to go out with him (which was, of course, almost all of them) in an attempt to find someone he liked better than Remus. It failed.
  • Ran away from home for good after a particularly brutal beating between 5th and 6th year
  • cried for days when he heard about Reg getting marked
  • hates Snape because snape doesn’t have the shackles of a pureblood fundamentalist family, but actively seeks that lifestyle, while he would give anything to be free of it

James

  • Gets up every morning and goes for a run around the grounds, no matter how cold it is
  • eats healthy, but he’s a growing boy so a second helping of pudding isn’t going to kill him
  • Lives, breathes, eats, and sleeps quidditch. Wants to be a professional player someday and probably could have
  • half-hindu, so dark complexion, dark eyes and dark hair
  • keeps said hair wildly messy in a lighthearted rebellion against his family
  • has a massive soft spot for the house elves, and sneaks into the kitchen more often to visit with them than he does to get remus and himself a cuppa
  • is the literal life of the party
  • Has loved Lily since 2nd year
  • doesn’t understand why she doesn’t like him for a long time, but eventually he gets it   
  • is naturally smart/gifted, and doesn’t understand why Remus has to study all the time
  • Disliked Severus for a multitude of reasons; his closeness with Lily, his inclination towards the Pureblood agenda, the fact that he was a Slytherin and was proud of it. This made him an easy bullying target for James, but he only started to truly hate Severus after the mudblood incident 
  • is very careful with his belongings
  • Dated a cute Ravenclaw for the first 6 months of his 6th year, but eventually broke it off because Lily was single again because they just didn’t have that spark 
  • Was terrified when he was made head boy, just like he was terrified when he was made Quidditch captain the year before
  • Is literal Mr. Oblivious. Doesn’t realize the wolfstar situation, doesn’t realize that what he says has an impact on people, doesn’t realize how many girls are interested in him, doesn’t realize that not everyone is as smart as he is, doesn’t realize when Lily’s feelings change.
  • literally peter has to spell out the wolfstar thing to him 
  • Is terrified of the mermaids in the Black Lake

Lily

  • the most feminist feminist who ever feministed 
  • Kept a muggle record player from her father that Remus helped her charm to work in Hogwarts during 4th year
  • Was definitely very close to being in love with Severus before the mudblood incident. He was her first kiss
  • she and Severus both made up their own spells, and correct their potions books with better instructions. Muffiato was her creation
  • Smart, but studies very hard nonetheless, Bc in the back of her mind she was terrified that someone someday will take away her wand
  • Actual queen of sarcasm
  • knitted in her spare time (the muggle way)
  • Long (like, can tuck it in her waistband) red hair, creamy skin (burns like a lobster in direct sunlight)
  • Cuts her hair after the mudblood incident because Severus always loved to play with it
    • this is 100% someone else’s idea, but i cant for the life of me find the post. If it’s your’s, or you know who’s it is, PLEASE message me and let me know and I’ll give them all the credit 
  • Ends up with a bob and scraggily bangs. Keeps it for a month, then magically grows it back out until it’s below her shoulder blades. Keeps the bangs, because she likes them
  • Figures out Remus’ secret after 3 months of prefect duty in 5th year. Tells him, just to make sure he doesn’t feel like he has to lie or hide from her.
  •  can banter back and forth with Peter so well that they leave the others in stitches every time
  • Loved her parents, but never had much of a relationship with her mother
  • Officially gave up on trying with Petunia in the summer before 4th year, when she threw a scarf Lily had knitted her for her birthday in the bin immediately upon opening it, because she was convinced Lily had knitted it with magic
  • fell in love with James somewhere in the middle of 6th year, and was terrified of it, because they had managed a truce/friendship and she was so afraid to mess that up
  • legitimately doesn’t believe she’s good enough to be Head Girl
  • Fierce protector of all the muggleborn students 
  • Retreated into a shell of a person early in 6th year when her dad died of cancer. the marauders and Marlene took 2 months to try and get back to being herself
  • Dated Amos Diggory for the first 3 months of 6th year, but ultimately broke it off because of James because they just didn’t have that feeling
  • when Severus started sending her letters threatening to harm himself if she wouldn’t talk to him, she stopped opening them, and reported him to Slughorn as a suicide risk
  • Wanted to become a healer and totally could have

Marlene

  • Best friends with Lily since the first night of first year
  • Sucker for a funny guy
  • Talented artist, terrible in all of her courses (she only passes because of Lily)
  • dyslexic as hell
  • hated tea with a passion, but fell in love with coffee after Peter introduced it to her during their 2nd year
  • now she buys it from columbia (that and art supplies are the only things she shamelessly splurges/spends her family’s vast wealth on)
  • Is a pureblood, but her whole family rejects the doctrines, and she’s very proud of that. Especially after seeing what its like for Sirius to fight his family.
  • wants to become a wizard tattoo artist and totally could have
  • has a floral ½ sleeve she designed herself
  • short stature, wavy blonde hair, blue eyes
  • does commission work for students and faculty 
  • By 7th year, starts giving illegal frowned upon tattoos to students in her dorm (but only those of age). Lily turns a blind eye to this because she knows Marlene is clean and safe and damn good at what she does, and she feels the need to support her best friend’s dreams
  • Started to fall for Peter in 6th year, because he made her laugh
  •  See’s the good in (almost) everyone
  • original queen of the bat bogey hex
  •  Went on one date with Sirius to Hogsmede in their 5th year, during which they talked about tattoos and neither of them felt anything other than friendship
  • Keeps lots and lots of plants in her room (if she was ever good at any class, it was herbology. She just couldn’t take the tests/do the readings/write the essays)
  • had multiple piercings all the way up her ears
  • once hexed Lucius Malfoy’s hair off of his head for sneering at her for spending time with non-purebloods
  • served almost as many detentions (almost) as the marauders
  • commentated quidditch matches

Severus

  • Loved Lily since they were 9 and he saw her first do magic on the playground
  • He had pretty regal features, if he would just get his hair out of his face
  • he wasn’t really greasy, thats just something the marauders called him
  • Dark eyes, light complexion, long, straight, black hair
  • Was a very talented student, but really only cared about defense and potions
  • secretly hated the slug club and all it stood for, but was a member because he saw the value of networking
  • loved pepper imps, and would buy them whenever he had any extra money
  • was very good at budgeting
  • Had an abusive father who used to beat him, until one day when Severus was 7 and his father was chasing him with a belt. He made the china cabinet unscrew from the wall and crash down on his father
  • Refuses to let his mother buy him new clothes until he desperately needs them, because he knows how expensive they are and can’t stand the thought of her going without because of him
  • Hates James from the moment he shows any interest in Lily
  • See’s Lily as a possession to be hoarded 
  • Refuses to acknowledge that his love for her conflicts with his pure blood agenda
  • legitimately believes he can have both, even if that means hiding her away. He even draws up plans of how he would accomplish this
  • Loves to play with her hair
  • Wrote Lily letters following the incident in which he threatened to harm himself if she wouldn’t talk to him. She never did, and neither did he.
  • Figured out Remus’ secret in 5th year after Sirius gave him a huge hint, and was basically forced to make an unbreakable vow with Dumbledore that he would never tell anyone