returning to a failed relationship


2046 dir. Wong Kar-wai (王家卫). 2004.

A loose sequel to Wong Kar-wai’s award-winning films Days of Being Wild and In the Mood For Love, 2046 is a sci-fi romance drama following the aftermath of Chow Mo-wan’s incomplete affair with Su Lizhen. Heartbroken and unsatisfied after the failed relationship, Chow returns to Hong Kong as a debonair womanizer to hide his pain. Three story arcs of the film cover Chow’s successive romances with three women who move into room 2046, next door to Chow’s rented apartment. The fourth arc concerns the life of a character from Chow’s science fiction serial, 2046, a Japanese man named Tak. Set in the far future, Chow’s tale describes a mysterious realm known only in theory as “2046,” where heartsick individuals journey to find love.

2046 features a number of renowned actors, including Tony Leung Chiu-wai, who reprises his role as Chow; Gong Li, who plays a gambler nicknamed “Black Spider” who Chow met in Singapore; Faye Wong, who appears as the oldest daughter of owner of the hotel were Chow stays and a gynoid Tak meets on the train to 2046; Takuya Kimura, who stars as Tak; and Zhang Ziyi, who plays a cabaret girl who falls in love with Chow. The film performed remarkably well in box offices worldwide and received considerable critical acclaim. It won multiple awards, including awards for Best Art Direction and Best Original Film Score at the Taiwanese Golden Horse Film Festival.

The year 2046 is politically significant for Hong Kong, as it is forty-nine years after the 1997 Hong Kong handover. The mainland government promised fifty years of self-regulation for the former British colony, and 2046 represents the last moment before the period ends.

In the year 2046, a vast rail network spans the globe. Once in a while, a mysterious train will leave for 2046. Every passenger going to 2046 has the same intention: to recapture lost memories. Because nothing ever changes in 2046.

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Reverential Working for the Indwelling Powers of a Place: For the Securing of Their Favor, Acceptance, Communion, and Aid in Sorcery; or Else for the Winning of the Necessary Warning That They May Be Hostile or Unwilling to Tolerate Human Presence.

Sincerely offered by the hand of
Malmath DeSavyok
Serpens Est Dux Meus

For the Covenant, and for all else of Reverential Heart.

I. The operant must have a stretch of isolated or semi-isolated land upon which to work. One need not own the land in any ordinary legal sense, but one must spend much of one’s time there. It is best if the operant sleeps there, and dreams there, most of the days of the year. If the operator intends to assay the Sator Table rite in a strange place, a place she is visiting, it would be best if she could sleep on that land for at least three nights before, but again, this won’t be strictly necessary, as all reverential offerings given with an attitude of proper respect should be received by the powers indwelling a place.

II. This ritual working is intended to demonstrate respect on the part of the operant to the range of non-human Persons that indwell any given or discreet region of land. This region will not be a large one; it will extend to small woods or forests, small or large properties that have well-defined boundaries, or areas of land that have become separated from surrounding areas by other boundaries, structures, rivers, streams, barriers, or such factors that have forced the area to become thought of and perceived as a distinctive area.

III. The purpose of this rite is to show respect, and win favor from the indwelling and chthonic powers of a place. That is the primary purpose; the secondary purpose is to increase understanding of the nature of those entities via their communications with the operant in dreams, or in visionary states. The tertiary purpose is, for those who will dwell upon that region of land for a lengthy period of time, to secure the acceptance of the chthonic powers for the operant’s other works of sorcery that will be done on the land, and to secure their active aid with those works, or at least their lack of interference.

IV. The operant will select a place upon the land which is as far out of the sight of human eyes as possible, and which bears as little malformation or deformation of the land by the workings of man as possible. The place should ideally have a sense of peace about it, a stillness or a quiet that is obvious. A natural beauty or features of natural beauty are likewise to be preferred. At that place, on bare earth, a small offering pit is to be dug, with non-metal digging tools if possible, though this is not an absolute. Three well-smoothed or peeled branches, or just very straight branches, each at least 2 feet long, should be placed around the pit in a triangular shape, with the pit being close to the bottom-most of the three branches, the branch which is the base of the triangle. Refer to the diagram that accompanies this working. With flour, white sand, or corn-meal, a mawkin-form is drawn above the pit (as in the figure) and three Saturnian sigils are drawn around the three sides of the triangle, again as depicted.

V. The operant should not create the Sator Table while bearing a heavy heart due to recent negative interactions with other persons. They should not assay the operation, nor create the Table until they have washed their hands, face, neck, and chest with a water made of Birch bark and leaves that have been steeped in boiling water for nine minutes, or utilized some other form of ritual purification that will suffice to satisfy this requirement.

VI. The rite can be prepared at any time, though a properly liminal time will increase its effectiveness, and make communing with the indwelling powers easier; dawn and twilight are the preferred times. Lamps of Art, or a nearby small fire, can be built and used if extra light is desired. Any light so used must be of a natural source, never a mechanical one. The hour between midnight and one o'clock AM is also a potent time for the performance.

VII. When the operant is ready, standing before the table, she must utilize an opening or “breaching” charm to formally ask the Master Spirit who conducts souls from our world to the Unseen, and who facilitates spiritual communication between this word and the Other, to support this work in that manner. Those who have the Elphillock Charm will use it now; those who do not will either create their own spoken charm to this end, or use this one:

“These words are the wind of my body
Turned to sound by my soul’s will.
They will make open the invisible way
Between Seen and Unseen.
It is the Gudeman (Good Man),
The Green Warden of the Given-Ground,
That I celebrate with words.
It is His attention I seek,
His presence I desire.
For His Deathless Spirit is merged
With this Good Earth;
This I celebrate.
Master of the Daimons,
Of the Earth and of the Underworld,
Ancient Serpent supreme in wisdom,
Forever friend of Man,
Helper of all in the Inhabited World,
I beg for your kindness and aid.
Vouchsafe me the boon I require:
Make open the Way between this place
And the Unseen.
Support my Good Working here:
For true respect for the spirits of this place
Underlies my ambition.
Protect me and all the powers of this place,
And let no unwisdom of mine
Ever hinder me nor offend the powers here.
Kindly Folk in the Unseen, Good Neighbors All.
Harm me not, nor wish me ill.
By the beneficent and powerful name
Let this be so!”

VIII. At this point the operant must quiet their mind and body, and strongly enter into the sensation of their body, and feel how that all-around bodily sensation merges with the sensation of the land below them and all around. When enough time has passed for this subtle re-focusing, and without losing that subtle sense, the offerings brought for the offering pit are to be poured or placed inside it. Whole cream, melted or solid butter, tobacco, honey, or fresh-shed blood from your left hand— any of these things singularly, or any combination of them, should be the primary offerings, before any others that might be respectfully given. As the offerings are given, the operant should declare this or something similar to it:

“For the spirits that indwell this place, I give this X. It is for their increase, given to them with respect and reverence.”

The sincerity that stands behind these words must be real.

IX. Now the operant must return to that bodily sensation, and to the peace within, and speak from the heart directly to the powers that indwell that land aloud: the complete certainty that the powers can hear all words said- and the complete certainty that they can detect any dishonesty, and can easily see the sincerity of the heart that speaks the words- must be foremost on the operant’s mind. What the operant says will be governed by the wisdom and discretion of the operant, but the message spoken here must be spoken over the triangle, and “into” or near the offering pit. The message must always be respectful, and always contain a strong indication that the operant understands that the indwelling powers of that land are both venerable elders, and that they exceed the power and understanding of the operant. This position of humbleness or humility is not an empty platitude; these powers, whether they be autochthonic spirits, or the merged spirits of formerly living beings that became interred in the land in times before, have attained a status of great power and inconceivable wisdom from the perspective of modern persons who live daily in our disconnected world. This assumption must be foremost in the operant’s mind.

The operant must display a desire to not only show resect for the Powers there, but request, if they will honor the operant so, to appear to her in dreams, to reveal things about themselves to her, and help her to learn of their nature and learn of their desires, if they have any. The operant must display honest curiosity about the Persons that indwell that land. It is for the growth of her own wisdom that she should learn anything at all from them, even if they appear in some terrifying form to warn her away or reject her and other human presences sternly, as they sometimes can.

This should suffice for the initial performance of the rite. If contact in dreams or visions is made, the rite should be considersd especially successful, though any sincere giving of offerings to the Powers in any place is already a success. If contact is made through dreams, and the dreams are of a friendly or positive nature, further performances of this rite can be done to ask for other boons, such as the permission of the Powers to perform acts of sorcery in their presence, on that land. Permission might be asked the first time the rite is done, if not enough time exists to perform the rite again later, but that is less than ideal. However, one must never let the perfect become the enemy of the good. All acts of sincere reverence are good things.

If a positive relationship is created between the operant and the host of spirits or dominant spirit in a place, acts of sorcerous art dealing just with them can be done in the future; the local Powers or Power can be a potent divination-ally for certain acts of divination regarding the local area or its history, or a potent ally for many kinds of workings. But for any successful working done with the aid of the local Power or Powers, many grateful offerings have to be returned. If one were to fail in that duty, the relationship formed can be degraded. It is important to consider the local Power or Powers to be (in essence) like the “God” of the area, to possess that kind of power within the area.

X. This rite has no technical “finishing flourish.” When the operant has spoken all that needs to be spoken, she absents herself from the Sator Table, leaving slowly and feeling thankful. If the Sator Table rite was done at night or twilight, the offering pit must be closed by returning the earth that was dug out of it to it. If it was done at dawn or during the day, it can be left “open” until night comes, when it must be closed. If a “solid” offering was given to the pit- like butter- it should never be re-opened, for that will expose the butter’s remains. If only liquid offerings were given, within a day another pit can be dug in the same place, for a second performance of the rite. If the rite is successful to a goodly extent, try to utilize the general area where the first Sator Table was made for all future performances of the rite.

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anonymous asked:

Any easy too read bedtime fics? 😂

Oooh very hard good question !! (basically it’s gonna be fics around 10k I loved, okay?)

- Coming Up For Air  : It’s a long plane ride to LA but sitting beside Harry makes time fly. (11k)

- Now I’ve Got You In My Space       : Harry Styles and Louis Tomlinson almost met on X-FactorThey meet on Dancing With The Stars insteadAn Au (10k)

- Unraveling : Harry sat there with his head in his hands trying to figure out why he knew these types of things. He thought over the past few weeks, how he’d just known at certain times what Louis had been thinking or feeling, needing or wanting and it didn’t make sense to him. Until he had the wild thought, “Can I read Louis’s mind?” (10k)

- Just Think of Me As The Pages In Your Diary  : Harry, and Louis’ friends set up a blind date and they hit it up pretty well when they first meet, immediately planning a second date.  But then their friends asked them why they didn’t go on their respective dates, and it turns out that Harry was not Louis’ blind date, and vice versa. They don’t know that the other person knows that though, so they just kind of awkwardly go on dates while falling for each other.  (10k)

- I Love You Most  : Friends with benefits has always been enough for Louis. Until, of course, it isn’t. (12k)

- Worlds Away  : astronaut au fic where Louis is staying on the international space station and Harry is on earth working ground control and he and Louis have really quiet late night chats after most of the workers are gone and get to know each other in the biggest long distance relationship u could ever have…then eventually Louis comes back to earth and they have a beautiful meeting (7k)

- no good unless it grows (feel this burning, love of mine)  : it wasn’t until they were settled in and lying idly on the couch with their bodies intertwined that Harry whispered, holding back tears, “I’m not who I want to be.” Louis leaned down, lips close enough to graze Harry’s cheek, and asked simply, “Well, who do you want to be?” (6k)

- Second Time’s the Charm : Louis’ mother is convinced she met her son’s soulmate at the market. Louis is extremely hesitant to go on the blind date she’s set up, but she’s persistent, begging and pleading, pulling out all the stops. After all, mothers do know best.(Or maybe they don’t.) (8k)

- One day to believe in you        : A mysterious force compels Louis to tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. Even when it’s really inconvenient.  Harry blinks and has the nerve to look surprised. “You think about me when you get off?”  “Yes,” Louis says. He wonders how hard he’d need to punch himself in the face to knock himself out.  “Often?”  “Yes, Christ, Harry,” Louis groans. “Probably eight times a week for going on six years now. On average, you know. More when we were touring, less when I’ve been visiting family. Anything else you’d like to know?”  (8k)

- on a thousand miles and more  :  "That’s why, after Granada, they decide to stick to the places they went to together.  Retrospectively, maybe that’s when it becomes less of a holiday and more of a pilgrimage. Louis thinks he’s beginning to understand what they’re searching for. It’s something akin to closure, but not closure exactly. Something more tenuous than that. More difficult to put into words.  Something like the first exhalation you take after a particularly horrendous nightmare and you think god, it wasn’t real, it wasn’t real, it wasn’t real.   Except that, in their case, it was.“[Harry and Louis go back to the places that made them who they are.] (12k)

- Oh, Fortuna  :  “Hey, Louis,” Eleanor says suddenly, “wasn’t Harry Styles on X-Factor the same year you auditioned?”  “I didn’t know you auditioned for X Factor!” Perrie gasps, as Louis sends a death glare Eleanor’s way, who at least has the decency to look apologetic. “Oh my god, did you meet him?” “Right, I need another drink.” Louis gets up heavily, ignoring Zayn’s concerned look and Eleanor’s guilty one. His head is still fuzzy, but he doesn’t feel warm anymore.
(Or, three years after Louis is sent home at the Judges Houses stage of X-Factor, and Harry finds international fame as a solo artist, they meet again at a local pub in London.)

- What A Feeling To Be A King Beside You  :  “Tomlinson. Louis Tomlinson, Duke of Wellington, your highness,” the man, or boy considering he seems to be around Harry’s age or slightly older, says with a wink and a quick bow.  Huh. Duke of Wellington. Harry recalls once meeting the Duke of Wellington. He probably wasn’t a day over 7 years and honestly only remembers a mischievous boy with blue eyes that poured gravy on him. But now that he thinks about it, the Duke in front of him does have pretty, blue eyes as well. He’s also got a nice smile and a beautiful jawline covered in short stubble. His chestnut hair is done up in a perfect quiff and his dark navy suit is perfectly tailored to his body. He’s fit.(Basically: Harry is the Prince of Wales and Louis is the Duke of Wellington. They fall in love.) (17k)

- A Case of You        : Louis lives his life around photographs, and Harry’s a picture he can’t figure out AU where there they all live and work in LA, and the story’s in a song (12k)

there was a reason i collided into you  : AU where Louis and Harry are neighbors who meet in the elevator of their apartment one morning and it becomes a routine for them. Louis pines a lot. Then one day, Harry doesn’t show up at the elevator like he usually does, and well, Louis might panic. (9.5k)

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Sterek AU: While Derek is perfectly used to their odd brand of unconventional dates, he is a little perturbed that Stiles’ version of a “movie night” has turned out to be just another rescue mission debacle. That is, until Stiles carelessly lets the words Scott and brother-in-law slip out and doesn’t seem the least bit embarrassed about what that would make Derek to be in this relationship.

(And teasing Stiles in return never fails to be amusing.)

“…[Paul] Wesley also infused a powerful presence into his portrayal of the equally determined and commanding Gideon. Even though Richie’s boss at the bowling alley is presented as a supporting character throughout the mesmerizing story Christensen penned for ‘Before I Disappear,’ Wesley powerfully commanded the few scenes he’s featured in.

The actor, who also served as a producer on the drama, initially unveiled Gideon as being concerned about Richie’s well-being, and sent his lawyer to help Maggie as a favor to his employee. His inspiring concern was intriguingly introduced after he had an intense conversation with Richie about his heartbreak over his girlfriend not returning his calls. Gideon’s failing romantic relationship is an underlying, yet motivational, situation the troubled protagonist had information about, but was afraid to reveal. While Gideon is happy to continue to help his employee and his troubles with his family, in part to forget his own grief over his girlfriend, Wesley powerfully transformed his captivating character’s personality after he received troubling information about the situation.” - Before I Disappear Review (

anonymous asked:

Hi!! I hope this isn't a weird request, but do you know some fics where L & H aren't in the typical locations (LA, UK)? or if you've already done a fic rec like that, could you please link me or tell me how have you tagged it? Thanks in advance!!

I’m sorry I’m so so so late to answer you. Anyway, i tried !

Take a look at my Farm/ranch AU fics , Travel fics , and  Road-Trip AU too !

- I’ll Fly Away : Harry and Louis grew up together in Lake County, Harry with his mom and stepdad in a tiny cottage on Edward’s Lake and Louis in his family’s farmhouse a few minutes down the road. But after high school, Louis stuck around and Harry did not; Harry went to Chicago where he found a boyfriend and couple of college degrees. Six years later, Harry ends up back in Edwardsville for the summer and he and Louis fall into old patterns and discover new ones.ft. One Direction, the local boyband; Horan’s Bar and Grill; families, most especially children and babies; Officer Liam Payne; many local festivals and fireworks displays; and Anne Cox, PFLAG President. (122k)

- To the Ends of the Earth: During a yearlong hiatus, Louis visits Harry at his cabin in Idaho, where long-buried feelings ignite like the fire keeping them warm. (55k)

- Coup de Foudre; Harry moves to the front door accompanied by insistent lightning flashes. He acknowledges it could also be a murderer on the other side and that he will likely be dead in five minutes.It should stop him. It doesn’t. Harry decides not to waste another second and calls through to the other side, “Just a second.” He turns the key in the latch and opens it and—everything around him drops away in one long cloud coming into another cloud. (15k)

- Running Over Thoughts : Harry returns to the beach town where he grew up, only to find that his ex-boyfriend Louis has moved back too. Co-starring Liam as the best friend and roommate that Harry could ask for.  Featuring brunette Niall. (6k)

- In From The Cold : Louis is a hurricane who won’t stand still, but Harry thinks maybe Ireland has this way of changing priorities. A B&B au in which Harry and Zayn run an inn in Ennis, Ireland, and Louis comes to review it. Liam is their handyman, Niall absolutely doesn’t work there, and home is most definitely where the heart is. (47k)

- Every Arrow That I Aim Is True : “I can see you don’t believe me,” Harry says, pretending to be stern. Louis chuckles a little but doesn’t get out of the bed. “Anyway, I texted Liam and told him you’re with me. He said to stay here as long as you need, and he’ll deal with the show over there until you want to come back, all right?”Louis doesn’t say anything again so Harry whispers, “Just stay here with me for a while, yeah? I’ll take care of you.”Louis is quiet. He never picks his head up, but Harry can see the pillow move from where he’s nodding and his fingers tighten around Harry’s. “Yeah,” Louis says. “Yeah, all right.” (24k)

- Into The Blue : AU. In which Louis is Harry’s scuba instructor and quite happy to provide the requested special treatment, pun fully intended. It can’t be all that difficult to convince Harry that they’re on the same page, right? Also, Niall and Liam may or may not be dating, and Zayn is surrounded by emotionally stunted idiots. He bears it with dignity. (117k)

- devil town : a southern us au  “Mmm,” Louis hums, tipping his head slightly in acknowledgement. “You know what I reckon all the baseball games you’ve seen have in common?”Harry rocks on his heels, uncertain, drifting. If it were daylight, if he could see Louis’ face, maybe he’d see where this was going. As it is, he hazards a guess, smiling beseechingly even though Louis probably can’t see him very well. “That I didn’t know what was going on?”“I reckon,” Louis says, taking the cigarette from his mouth and flicking the ashes to the ground, “you only ever paid attention to baseball when it involved paying attention to me.” (50k)

- You’re the Light : Before beginning a new graduate school in the fall, Louis Tomlinson decides to spend the summer working in Chicago as an editor’s assistant for the Chicago Tribune newspaper and staying with his old college roommate.  What he finds on his first day of work is a tall, gorgeous editor named Harry who has the most beautiful green eyes he’s ever seen—and who also happens to be his new boss. (31k)

- no matter where you are (no matter how far) :  "You kind of have to be a little bit dumb to decide to climb Everest, I think,” Harry says. “Like at some point you should probably say to yourself, ‘Hey, this is really dangerous and expensive and stuff, and maybe I should just, like, become an architect or something.’”  Louis cocks an eyebrow. “An architect, Haz? Is that your secret dream? You want to build –”  “Shh,” Harry says, holding a finger up to Louis’s lips. “I’m trying to make a point. Just that, like, at some point, we all make a stupid choice to put our lives in danger, but that’s just part of why climbing this mountain is such an accomplishment, right? Because most people aren’t dumb enough to try.” Or: An Everest AU where Louis sets out to climb the tallest mountain on the world and meets a curly-haired guy named Harry who worms his way into Louis’s life. It’s not long before reaching the summit becomes the least of Louis’s worries. (35k)

- Sail away with me : “It’s inhumane putting four blokes in one cabin.” Louis stripped off and climbed up into his top bunk. “And why did we get the smelliest twat on the whole ship and bore of the century?”Harry shrugged. “We clearly pissed someone off along the way.”Louis snorted softly. “Who do I have to bend over for to get us an upgrade?”Harry barked out a laugh. “If only it were that simple.” He rolled his eyes wistfully at Louis.“The only way I’m going to get a two berth is to throw Payno overboard and be next in line for the deputy cruise director’s job.” Louis leaned up on one elbow to look over at Harry.
“Would you help me weigh his body down so I don’t go to jail?”“Only If I can share your cabin.” Harry shuffled about, tucking the duvet between his legs, sweeping his hair up into a bun and securing it in a band. “I’m not being an accessory to murder and then still having to share with them two, no fucking way.”OrLouis and Harry are part of the entertainment team on board a luxury cruise liner. They hate sharing their four berth cabin with two other guys and would do anything to get a cabin of their own. One drunken night the solution was simple. They’d just get married…

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- in this tire swing: There’s a crunching sound disturbing the silence, drawing closer. Louis keeps his eyes closed, determined to hold onto the peace that’s hanging in the air of his childhood home. The snap of leaves underfoot continues, and Louis quietly murmurs, “Mum, please, I’m trying to enjoy my afternoon.”“It’s uh, not your mum.”-or, the one where louis comes back after moving away and harry has got new boots. (2.2k)

- Oh, Fortuna : Hey, Louis,” Eleanor says suddenly, “wasn’t Harry Styles on X-Factor the same year you auditioned?”  “I didn’t know you auditioned for X Factor!” Perrie gasps, as Louis sends a death glare Eleanor’s way, who at least has the decency to look apologetic. “Oh my god, did you meet him?” “Right, I need another drink.” Louis gets up heavily, ignoring Zayn’s concerned look and Eleanor’s guilty one. His head is still fuzzy, but he doesn’t feel warm anymore. (Or, three years after Louis is sent home at the Judges Houses stage of X-Factor, and Harry finds international fame as a solo artist, they meet again at a local pub in London.)  (14k)

- Untangle Me : Louis finds himself out of place in LA, unable to get at an itch that’s been bothering him for years. He supposes back in the early days, home hadn’t been a place. It’d been a person. He’d etched it permanently into his skin for fucks sake. It was always him and Harry. Stuck to each other like super glue. Pulled together by some magnetic force, existing in their own bubble. Everyone could see it, but that was half the problem, wasn’t it?It’s not like Louis can pinpoint the exact moment in time when him and Harry fell out of sync. There wasn’t really one at all. It had been a gradual slip, like the tide wearing away at a sandstone cliff. Chipping the solid foundations until there was nothing left to stop the structure falling to the waves below. It’s not like he spends all of his time sitting around moping over a lost friendship, he’s good at distractions. But LA only seems to accentuate the distance between them. Two separate planets, not even in the same solar system. (103k, one of my fav fic ever)

- Four Houses Away : “Hey, Ash. What are you doing here?”“Lucy went grocery shopping and I thought we could play FIFA?” Ash blinks his big, green eyes. “I’m tired of playing alone and Daddy said you used to play with him?”Harry told his son about—again, it doesn’t mean anything. “He told you I beat him every time?”Ash laughs. “Yeah. He said he sucked.”“I don’t have an Xbox, though. You’ll have to bring yours.”Ash does a little victory dance and starts running. Louis stops him before he reaches the stairs. “I need to call your dad. D’you his mobile number?”“He made me memorize it.”That’s so Harry. Louis fishes his phone out and hands it to Ash. He types his dad’s number and starts running away. “Don’t run!”Ash jogs. Or, having Harry back in his life wasn’t in Louis’ to-do list. (23k)

- through the jungle through the dark : Louis and Harry were best friends, until they weren’t. Five years after they last spoke they’re forced to drive cross-country to visit an injured friend. If they can’t get over the past, it will be a very long week together. (12k)

- Home To You       : “If someone wrote that for me I’d probably be a crying mess before it was even over. I’m crying a little right now actually.”It’s about you, Harry’s brain screamed. I wrote it about you.Gemma appeared in the doorway then and dragged Louis away. With one winking smile he was gone. Harry curled up and stuffed his face into his duvet so he could cry with no one hearing.**** At fifteen, Harry wrote his first song for an oblivious seventeen year old Louis Tomlinson. Ten years later he’s a singer/songwriter who cant find any words for his second album and Louis is a closeted actor tired of LA. They both try to run from the things weighing them down and in the process, they find each other. (54k)

- Never Too Late : Harry’s confused for a moment before it hits him:  the little boy is signing.  Harry squats down to get to the boy’s level again and mirrors the same action.“Dad?”  He inquires.  Harry learned basic sign language after having met a fan who was deaf.  He made it his mission to learn signing so that he’d be able to communicate with other fellow hearing impaired fans.The little boy smiles brightly, his tears now long gone. He goes on to extend both hands, palms up as if he’s asking where? Followed by the previous sign which means Dad.  Harry smiles to himself at the amazing little guy standing in front of him. He stands up taking the boy’s hand, “Let’s go find your dad,” he tells him making the motion with his hand.Just having come out of the closet and recovering from vocal surgery, famous recording artist Harry Styles needs to get away from LA to work on new music needing to prove to his label that his career isn’t over.  Little does he know that his life is about to change forever when he runs into an old friend at the city he’s decided to escape to. (18k)

- You Drive Me Crazy (but it feels alright) : Bridget Jones’ Diary AU.“Harry is not short for Harold,” he corrects, his voice as thick as molasses. He lowers his eyes to Louis’ sequined lapels, rubbing one between two fingers. “Is this small or extra small? It looks lovely.”Louis breaks away from his grip with a petulant huff and pushes him back with two fingers.“You’re mocking me. Again.”Harry smiles and it’s a real honest swoop of his lips this time. Louis’ stomach swoops with them. (102k)

- Whirlwind : AU. Acclaimed actor, Hollywood heartthrob, and Oscar nominee, Harry Styles, seems to have the world at his feet, but seeks out an old friend when he needs a date for his big night. (21k)

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anonymous asked:

Do you not see Neal's attitude towards Emma in S2 as very degrading and condescending? I mean, he was basically putting her down for being so emotionally scarred by his betrayal. Also, I'm just curious if you ever thought they were endgame before S3, because 2x06 laid down a path for a different person in Emma's life (aka she remembered Neal bc Hook and left him before he could leave her like Neal did). Speaking of, IMO, the writers very deliberately parallel Hook/Neal , what do you think?

Thank you for approaching me with your opposing views in a polite manner. I appreciate it. I apologize for my late response; I am on a stringent study schedule. As such, I also had to omit quite a lot of other points that I wanted to make.

Do you not see Neal’s attitude towards Emma in S2 as very degrading and condescending? I mean, he was basically putting her down for being so emotionally scarred by his betrayal.

No, I don’t. It seemed like Neal was shrugging off Emma’s feelings in 2x14 when, in response to his comment that he wouldn’t do to Henry what Rum had done to him, Emma retorted, “Or what you did to me?!” since he smiled at her and said, “Alright, I get it; we’re all messed up.” It seemed mean, given what he put her through. But since that moment, Neal apologized sincerely on several occasions, like at the beach in 2x21. He knew what he had done was wrong (3x01- he told Mulan that his abandonment of Emma was the greatest regret of his life) and he did not expect Emma to forgive him (3x03- “I’m going to save my family, but getting back together…we’ll see” ; 3x06, after they come out of the cave – “That’s alright Emma. After what I put you through, you never have to apologize to me for anything.”) So no. He did not put Emma down for being so emotionally scarred by his betrayal. He put his hands up and took on the onus for his actions. He showed remorse and tried to atone for his actions. Those are the ingredients for redemption.

Now, a lot of people hate the way that Neal talked to Emma when she was trying to convince him of Tamara’s guilt. It’s important to recognize that although we knew Emma was right and were rooting for her to catch Tamara, Neal did not know, and Emma had no proof with her as she was volleying these accusations at Neal’s fiancee. Emma was actually wrong to bring Henry into this (well, he would’ve gotten involved anyway, so I don’t blame Emma), and she was absolutely wrong to break into and search Neal’s room without a search warrant. Like…she’s the sheriff. She can’t just go around breaking a law she’s supposed to uphold. Emma was operating solely off her conviction that Tamara was guilty. However, her lie-detector ability is fallible when she’s emotional. Even Snowing didn’t believe Emma. Even though I wanted to break through the TV and shake Neal, screaming, “YOUR FIANCEE’S EVIL; LISTEN TO EMMA GODDAMNIT”, I understood his perspective. Emma really was acting like a jealous ex.

Neal was very patient as he walked around with her trying to find evidence. And after putting Henry to sleep, he told Emma that if there was one thing he knew about her, it was that she always found what she was looking for. When they finally figured out Tamara and Greg’s secret location, Neal assured Emma he had her back.

 Also, I’m just curious if you ever thought they were endgame before S3

I’ve shipped Emma and Baelfire together since season 1, when Emma told Henry his father had been a firefighter who had died heroically. That was the instant that I knew Bae was Henry’s father. One thing that was striking to me was that Emma, Baelfire and Henry were all original characters with no fairy tale counterparts. They all spent most of or all of their lives here in the real world. They all experienced parental abandonment and hopelessness at some point in their lives. The story that I wanted to see was that of these three characters learning to love and forgive each other. The story that I wanted to see was that of the Lost Boy and the Lost Girl, who represented both the dark and the light and had conceived the Truest Believer. I wanted to watch these three find the idea of home in one another and get to Tallahassee as they would have, had it not been for August’s intervention. I thought it was alluded several times that the happy ending was Neal, Emma and Henry in a castle. As Henry said, “We could get a castle. You, me and Neal.”

2x06 laid down a path for a different person in Emma’s life (aka she remembered Neal bc Hook and left him before he could leave her like Neal did).

There were other reasons why Emma could not trust Hook. When she met him, he was lying beneath a pile of corpses, claiming to be a blacksmith who had survived a mass murder. The reality was that he had abetted and/or aided Cora in this mass murder. He either stood by to let Cora slaughter people who had accepted him and worked alongside him in their camp, or he, too, killed some of them. How could Emma possibly trust someone who had just been working for an evil sociopathic witch? How could she trust a man who turned on his friends and watched them get murdered?

Yes, she saw a bit of Neal in Hook, but she didn’t just leave him at the top of the beanstalk because she was remembering what Neal had done. Logically, no one in their right mind would trust Hook if the first words he uttered to them were lies from beneath a pile of corpses.

 Speaking of, IMO, the writers very deliberately parallel Hook/Neal, what do you think?

I do not think the writers deliberately parallel Hook and Neal; I think they deliberately juxtapose them. In 3x07, Neal was focused on getting Henry back; Hook instead decided to bring up a “one-time” kiss and turn it into a bigger deal than it was (a “dalliance”, which denotes a casual sexual relationship) to wind Neal up.

Neal and Hook both acted like immature idiots as they fought over the lighter, but when Emma berated them for their childishness and told them she chose Henry, Neal apologized and said she was right, while Hook smirked.

Neal told Emma in 3x06 that he would never stop fighting for her (meaning he’d always love her, support her and defend her), and in 3x10, he said that if she didn’t meet him at Granny’s, it was okay, he wouldn’t harass her with his feelings—it didn’t mean he would stop loving her; he was merely respecting her agency and giving her space to deal with her conflicting feelings for him. Meanwhile, in 3x05, Hook flirted with Emma moments after she’d had an emotional breakdown over Neal, and he went as far as asking for a sexual reward for having saved Charming. Even after Emma told him the kiss was a one-time thing, he told her in 3x07 that he would “win” her heart in a “contest” (thereby objectifying her.) He also gave her an ultimatum at the worst possible time of having to choose between him and Neal. He pressed her with his feelings. He pressed her with his feelings. In 3x10, he said he would back off and let Neal have a chance to talk to Emma, but seconds later, he was drunkenly hitting on Tink in an effort to forget about Emma (thereby attempting to use Tink as a mere comfort woman, which is very misogynistic) and then make Emma jealous. He didn’t back off at all. He didn’t respect Emma’s space.

In the lost year, Neal fought hard trying to find a way back to Emma and Henry. By contrast, Hook abandoned Emma’s family immediately and returned to drinking and piracy.

With regards to Emma’s failed relationship with Walsh, Neal told Emma he was sorry that it didn’t work out because he cared about her happiness, even if it wasn’t with him. Hook told Emma he was happy her heart was broken because it meant it worked. This line makes no sense because it was always obvious her heart worked when it wasn’t broken! She genuinely loved Walsh. She genuinely loved Henry. To me, it just seemed like Hook was happy that Emma was now “available”.


Whew! There’s more that I’d like to say. But for now, I’ll just leave you a link to one of my first Tumblr posts, which details the hypocrisy of Hook: 

(Warning: my tone is very unpleasant, especially for Hook fans, and I use vulgar language.)

If you have further questions, please feel free to send me another message. I will respond when I get the time.