restoring love

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It’s love. We first met when we were 15. It took another 15 years for us to sort it out. She’s an incredible woman, very special. So the fact that she said yes was a huge deal. I was in a boys’ school and she was in a girls’ school. They were doing a charity fashion show. They brought some guys over. I will never forget I was this pasty boy with freckles. I had to walk topless in the show for this school of girls. As I walked off the stage, the entire school erupted [in applause because] the best-looking guy in the school walked on. It was a very scarring moment. But afterward at the party, I saw Hannah across the room. She was very beautiful, kind and very funny. [I learned that] we had similar interests, that she loved the arts, theater…all the things that were important to me. When Hannah and I finally got together years later, I had finished rehearsing ‘Les Miserables’ and was about to start shooting it. I had four days off, I was going to Florence by myself—slightly sad. Hannah and I went on a date just before I was to leave. We had known each other for a long time, but not closely. I was like. ‘We had a wonderful evening. You wouldn’t want to go to Florence next week, would you?’ She was like. ‘That’s absurd.’ I was like, ‘No, no, no.’ She said, ‘You don’t mean that.’ I was like, ‘I do.’ The next morning, I sent my easyJet booking form to her. She let me stew for a few hours, and then she sent back her easyJet booking form. So our first proper date was in Florence, and that felt quite crazy.

Sometimes you just have to let things go. Maybe… maybe he wasn’t the right guy or maybe he really was and you’ll meet again when both of you are not as broken as right now. Maybe he crossed your path for a reason and broke your heart for a lesson. Maybe he was someone temporary to help you fix your aching heart for a little while. Maybe he’s just the guy who’ll restore your faith in love and make you feel that, for the last time in a long time, the world was alright.
—  excerpt from a book i’ll never write #6 // R. L.
God saved you by his grace when you believed. And you can’t take credit for this; it is a gift from God. Salvation is not a reward for the good things we have done, so none of us can boast about it.
—  Ephesians 2:8-9 (NLT)

It’s the beginning of a new year again, it’s the beginning of the third new year I’ve not felt like myself. Yes, I’ve allowed myself to suffer through three years of struggling with pain, heartache and emotional numbness.

No new resolutions of trivial things for me this year though. No boasting about the small amount of people that entered into 2017 with me. No dire need of expectations either.
No, this year for me, will be about healing. Rediscovering myself again-
Finding peace, love and happiness.
Regaining strength, inspiration and passion.
Restoring my faith, self love and self confidence.

This year I will try to cover my heart in love and not darkness.

This year will be about letting go, moving on and acceptance.
This will be my year of solitude and growth.

I hope some of you will follow me on my journey through my very own happiness project.

Who knows, it just might work in bringing back my peace of mind.

—  A year of healing - emmaliaarneaud 
  • me: okay i have to listen to what this person is saying it's important
  • inner me: ask them if they saw moana
  • me: wha-no we're not even talking about moana
  • inner me: do iT
  • me: NO
  • inner me: .........
  • me, interrupting like a heathen: .........--okay but SHE WAS LEADING BEFORE SHE EVEN LEFT THE ISLAND SHE WAS ALREADY RESPECTED AND SHE WAS THE NEXT CHIEF THEY KEPT SAYING THAT IT WASN'T EVEN QUESTIONED AND SHE SAVED TE FITI AND THE GODDESS FOREHEAD TOUCH AND HER GRANDMOTHER AND THE MUSIC DID YOU SEE HER HAIR AOIDHOAPSIHSDIOHFAI

bless the restoration queen hack bless bless, i got two more gay pairs on my plane ride

Neimi/Amelia: Oh my god they’re adorable, this is so cute and it’s gonna kill me. 

Marisa/Tana: Looooooooooooooved this, especially as the most explicitly “hey yeah why don’t you go out with me” one yet, they are so cute and marisa’s design + personality have catapulted her up my fe8 faves list 

also i heard the old lady sitting next to me on the plane casually mention “my wife” and it was so cute i love old lesbians

Did we talk about the moment when Shiro got back the bayard for the black loin and he said “I got Zarkon’s bayard” and Keith was like “You mean YOUR bayard”??….cause that moment restored me for so many reasons. One i love how we get to see a complex leader. Like shiro is a textbook definition of a leader but he also have insecurities and the writers allow him to be more complex that just the “strong one”. Two you got Keith the kid who’s not the most openly sentimental person reminding and reassuring Shiro that that bayard is HIS. And I was just like!!!! Look at this little brother bringing comfort to his big bro!!!