restoring force tour

“Why didn’t you tell me sooner?” - Austin Carlile imagine

Hey guys! First I want to say I’m sorry for not posting any imagine in ages… I’ve been really busy with uni, exams and then work, but I’ll try to write more now.

So here’s an Austin Carlile imagine that I had started writing before my big “break”, I hope you’ll like it! :)

It all started when my boyfriend Austin and I went to the beach a week ago. I was wearing my favorite bikini which usually fitted me perfectly, when Austin made me notice that the top looked smaller than usual. No big deal, I thought at first. But it all changed one night, a few days later, when I realized how tired and moody I was, and finally remembered that my period was late.

Now I sat on my bathroom floor with a plastic stick in my hand, waiting for the timer on my phone to ring. After a 3-minute wait which seemed endless, it finally rang and I gave an anxious look at the test. Two bright, pink lines were staring directly at me. No, it cant be possible. I cant be pregnant, no.

At that moment, I realized how the situation must have looked like from the outside. It looked so much like a cliché  movie scene that it almost made me laugh for a second, but reality soon washed over me. What was I going to do? How was I supposed to tell Austin?

Of course I loved him, and I was sure he loved me too. We had been together for 3 years and I could easily picture myself starting a family and growing old with him. The problem was: not now. It wasn’t planned, we were in no way ready for a baby and I didn’t even know how we could do it. Austin’s band had just released a re-release of their album Restoring Force, and they were touring non-stop all around the world to promote it. I barely got to spend time with him between his tours and my studies in college, so how could we take care of a baby?

I needed to let it out, to tell somebody about it. I instantly thought about Alan, we had been close friends for years and he actually was the one who introduced Austin to me, so I knew I could always count on him. I washed my hands and hid the test in one of my drawers before grabbing my phone and clicking on Alan’s contact. He picked up after 2 rings and my nervousness level immediately increased.

“Hey Y/N, how are you?” Alan asked cheerfully.

“I’m- I’m fine, what about you?” I tried to avoid the question.

“You don’t seem too sure about that, and there’s certainly a good reason for you to call me at 1AM instead of your boyfriend…” He retorted. “So tell me Y/N, what’s the matter?”

“Well I kind of have a problem right now…” I trailed off. “And you can’t tell Austin for now.” I warned him.

I needed to have my best friend’s support first, I was too worried about Austin’s reaction.

“You know you can tell me anything and I’ll help you no matter what, so what is it Y/N?” He asked again.

“Ok so… I’m pregnant.” I blurted out.

“Oh. Well, that’s big news. Congratulations!” He said, shocked at first but his tone soon became enthusiastic. “Austin is going to be thrilled, when are you going to tell him?”

“That’s the problem, Alan.” I sighed. “I don’t know how to tell him, and more importantly I don’t know how he’ll react. I hope he won’t get mad at me-“

“Y/N, you know Austin could never be mad at you, and especially not for that!” Alan cut me off. “He loves you, and he’s always wanted to have kids!”

“Yes, I know that…” I nodded even if he couldn’t see me.

“We’ll be back home in 2 days, so between now and then you’re going to relax and stop worrying about his reaction. And when he’ll get home, I want you to tell him the big news.” He told me calmly. ‘No avoiding allowed, ok?” He reminded me again.

“Yes Alan, I’ll do it.” I breathed out.

“Look, I have to go for sound check now or the guys, and especially Austin, are going to get suspicious. Text me if you need anything, Y/N.”

“Thanks for everything Alan, see you soon!” I said goodbye to my best friend and hung up.

I sighed as I placed my phone on my bedside table and let my body fall on the bed. It was going to be a long two days before Austin came home and I finally announced him my pregnancy. In the meanwhile, I wanted to plan how to make the big announcement: I had always pictured myself discovering a pregnancy with my boyfriend, and I had never thought about how to announce it.

– 2 days later –

Today was the big day. Austin would be home in less than an hour, and soon our lives would officially be changed forever. Despite Alan’s comforting words, I was still a bit worried about Austin not wanting this baby and leaving me to raise a kid by myself, but I tried to keep that kind of negative thoughts away.

The previous two days had allowed me to think more about how to tell Austin, and after thinking about many ways to do it I had finally found the one: nothing fancy, nothing extravagant, only something nice that we could still remember in the future.

I was currently in front of our closet mirror with a black marker in my hand, my short folded up so that my still flat stomach was exposed. And let me tell you, trying to write something on your own skin while looking at it in a mirror isn’t an easy thing to do. After several attempts, I finally got the result I wanted: on my skin was now written “AUSTIN + Y/N = ME” in big capital letters and with a heart underneath.

Just when I put the sharpie back in the drawer of my desk, I heard the door open downstairs: Austin was home. I put my shirt back down, checked my reflection in the mirror once again and took a deep breath. I rushed down the stairs and smile as I saw my boyfriend his bags on the floor in the hallway. A big grin appeared on his face as he saw.

“Y/N, come here!” He smiled as he opened his arms and engulfed me into a tight hug.

“I miss you so much Austin.” I mumbled against his chest.

“I miss you too Y/N, but now I’m home.” He said before kissing the top of my head.

I looked up and my Y/E/C eyes finally met his brown ones. We stood there for a while, smiling lovingly and just enjoying each other’s presence. After a few more minutes, I remembered the “little surprise” I had for him: I had to do it.

“Austin, I have something for you…” I started.

“For me? You know you don’t have to get me a present every time I come home from tour, even if I love surprises.” He smiled, getting curious.

“Well it’s not exactly a present but… Follow me.” I told him as I took his hand.

I led him into the living room and toward the couch. I sat first and he sat next to me, bouncing his legs up and down impatiently. I took his hands in mine and placed them over the hem of my shirt. He gave me a questioning look, definitely not having a clue about what was going on. I took a deep breath and look him in the eyes before speaking up.

“Lift my shirt up, Austin.” I told him shyly.

“Okay…” He was now even more confused.

He finally lifted my shirt up and exposed my stomach, his face blank. After ten long seconds of me holding my breath, He finally looked up at me and the biggest smile I had ever seen appeared on his face.

“Is it for what I think it is, Y/N? You’re pregnant, for real?” He asked eagerly.

“Yes I am, Austin. I found out two days ago.” I explained, relieved.

“Oh my God Y/N, this is amazing!” He beamed before crashing his lips against mine. “Why didn’t you tell me sooner?”

“I didn’t know how to tell you as first, I was worried you were going to be mad and…” I trailed off.

“Oh Y/N, did you really think I was going to leave you?”

I nodded shyly in response, now embarrassed at how stupid I had been when thinking Austin wouldn’t want this baby.

“Look at me, Y/N.” He ordered seriously, placing a finger under my chin to make me look at him. “I would never, ever leave you. And I couldn’t be happier about having a baby and finally starting a family with you, ok? Please never forget that.” He whispered the last words.

I sighed, definitely relieved that all went perfectly. Austin loved me and we were going to have this baby together.

“So, when are we going to tell everybody?” He spoke happily, back to his normal self.

“Well, doctors say it’s safer to wait until the end of the first trimester to tell everybody.” I explained. “But… I might have already told Alan though.” I confessed shyly.

“What? So Ginger princess get to know I’m going to be a dad without the father knowing himself? That’s not really nice of you, Y/N.” He acted falsely hurt, a hand placed over his chest.

“Sorry I couldn’t help it.” I laughed. “But you’re going to be the best daddy ever, and that’s what is important!” I smiled before smashing my lips against his again.

I got the chance to meet the band that means so much to me! Anyone of my friends know how I find a way of covering my face in photos but this didn’t go down well with the guys! Austin asked why I did it and i said i thought i was ugly and I said i just wanted my photo with them but he got angry and was telling me that I’m beautiful and never think differently, he then made it clear I wasn’t leaving until we took one where I wasn’t covering my face. Their TM tried to say the photos were fine but austin again said to him i wasn’t leaving until i got one without covering my face. This whole situation really boosted my confidence and put a huge smile on my face and I can’t thank the guys enough 💞