It wasn’t just that I was leaving,
(For the 2:40 bus. For reasons thick in the air.
For reasons that lived beneath the house.
Forever this time.)
It wasn’t just that he said it,
(It was the way he said it.
Standing in the doorway, his mouth a thin
clothesline, eyes like two bloodless sunsets
It wasn’t that I didn’t say it back,
(Couldn’t soothe him one last time.
Wasn’t that girl anymore. Had a bus to catch.
It wasn’t that I didn’t,
(Though I had stopped breathing his name.
Stopped worshipping his mouth.
Didn’t know I still had years
of sweat dreaming his voice.)
It was the way he knew
I would not say it
(Knew I hated him for his weakness.
Knew his heart disgusted me. Knew I had caught
a butterfly only to rub it with my hands.
Remove the resin.
Leave it winged and without flight.)
Diahatsu UFE2, 2003. An ultra-lightweight hybrid which had an aerodynamic aluminium and resin body with gull-wing doors that weighed 570kg. It achieved an extremely low drag coefficient of 0.19. The hybrid system combined an Atkinson 660cc direct injection petrol engine with two electric motors running off a nickel-metal hydride battery