repetition is holy

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Me: Now don’t be weird, Andrie, just make a post on your main about how excited you are to have a binder!! Write like a paragraph about how happy you are and how you hope your dysphoria in the future will be alleviated! And maybe add a picture if you really want
Me to me: take five selfies of you wearing your binder. and do finger guns in all of them.

anonymous asked:

I was wondering how you came to the decision that God doesn't see being LGBT as a sin. I've been trying to discern what I believe God says about it, but I can't. It feels like I've been running into a wall for years. I want to believe that it's okay, but I can't seem to let myself. I don't feel like I've ever heard God say it was okay. I've seen a lot pointing to it being okay, but I've also seen a lot pointing to it being wrong. (1/2)

(2/2) And I don’t want to disobey God, but if it is wrong I know I will be angry and bitter the rest of my life. I kind of think maybe God has told me, but I don’t want His answer so I decided to ignore it. Or that God told me, but I thought it was me being hopeful and that He would never actually say I was okay so I didn’t believe it. I just wondered if you could give me any advice on this.


Hey! Thanks so much for reaching out to me. I understand how difficult this question is; it took me five years of asking questions, listening to the lived experience of others, soul searching, yelling at God, furiously highlighting my Bible, and praying to come to my conclusion. Which is, just to be transparent, that LGBTQ folks are fully included members of the body of Christ who are held to the same standards and are invited to live by a Biblically-based sexual ethic. LGBTQ folks are no different from any other Christian; they are are gifted in unique ways by the holy Spirit, struggle with unique temptations, and work for holiness and justice in their own unique ministries. 

As mentioned, my road to this answer was long and fraught, but it coalesced around three distinct events in the last year or so of my life. The first was reading God and the Gay Christian by Matthew Vines. I had encountered plenty of arguments for the affirmation of gay Christians before, but they always either encouraged gay Christians to live permanently celibate lives, or they held such a loose view of scripture that they disregarded every passage they didn’t like and elevated sociology and scientific research above the Bible. Now I absolutely affirm those in the church, gay or straight, who have been called to a lifetime of celibacy, and I am a big advocate of bringing current research into conversation with the Bible, but neither of these arguments were sufficient for me. God and the Gay Christian was a game changer. It’s written by a evangelical gay man who holds a very high view of both Biblical authority, and he took a year off his studies at Harvard divinity school to thoughtfully and lovingly engage Biblical witness on the subject of sexual orientation, both on a verse-by-verse and holistic basis. I read it in one sitting on a summer day in my living room, then put the book aside and said to God “Okay. I’m done fighting. I’m on board.”

The second event had been in the works for a while. It consisted of my abandoning my need to theologically police others on the minutia of issues of sexual orientation, a practice I have seen wreak unimaginable harm in and outside of the church. I had enough evidence to finally decide which side of the fence I came down on, and surrendered the rest to the Holy Spirit. If an LGBTQ person told me they loved Jesus, I decided to trust them, to trust the Holy Spirit with them, and to treat them just like any other brother or sister in Christ. The third event was my starting seminary, in which I met a number of gay, bi, trans, and nonbinary people who took the Bible and sex seriously, who were in love with God and absolutely committed to serving the church as pastors, teachers, and deacons. They erased any other hesitations I had. 

That’s my story, but turning to yours, beloved child of God, I encourage you to continue listening to the Holy Spirit through prayer and attentiveness to your own heart. The Bible is an amazing, life-giving book, but it isn’t as neat as we would like. It’s colored by the politics and context of its time, and it doesn’t pretend to be the unfailing rule of life we want it to be. You need to keep the scriptures close to you as you discern the right path; you need to engage God’s story and the person of Jesus and the Bible’s opinions on spiritual and social dimensions of sex. But ultimately, it will not make your decision for you. Neither will Matthew Vines or Tim Keller or any theologian on either side of the isle. One revelatory moment won’t make the daily choice of how you live in your body go away, and weeks or months of being confident in your spiritual choices doesn’t mean that doubt does not creep in sometimes to try and dissuade you from the truth. Repetitive nagging can be the Holy Spirit tugging our heart towards something new, but those ugly waves of guilt or self-hatred that crash in are absolutely not. 

I am so sorry you are having to have this conversation with God (and God wants to have it with you! He loves your body and your mind and created you as a sexual being with delight! She wants to guide you in how to inhabit your body fully and ethically and with joy!) in a time where human sexuality is a warzone. I’m sorry your existence has been politicized and that your presence in the church is seen as a statement rather than a cause for celebration. If there is a Bible study or church community where you feel welcome near you, root yourself there, let those people pour love into you and guide you but remember that at the end of the day, you answer only to God. Other people’s opinions are immaterial, and gender or sexuality labels, which sometimes helpful, pale in comparison to your true identity as an heir of God’s kingdom. 

P.S. Queerly Christian is THE PLACE for Biblical scholarship and community building about this issue. Give them a follow!

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screeches

holy shit

sorry to vent about my own life on here but i’ve just experienced my very first “oh shit please don’t think i’ve been abused” moment

so i went to my psychiatrist today bc i’m depressed af and i need my meds increased and that was a mess bc i Cannot answer a question properly but i kept saying “i don’t like being home” and then finally she was like “is anything going on at home?” and i was internally like “HOLY SHIT NONONONONONO” but externally i was like “oh no i just miss my college friends!” 

honestly i have so much empathy for you guys who’ve had to go through that multiple times in your life. that was a scary moment and i didn’t realize how scary it is until today.

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Time to talk about Nedcy.

Alright. Sea of Darkness is out and many of us have finished it. I have seen a fairly polarizing divide within the fandom regarding Ned in this game. So I’m gonna talk about that (+ the series as a whole.)

It is… pretty clear from my blog that I’m anti-Ned most of the time. I just really dislike him. He irritates me and most of the time I feel like he’s a waste of space. So I know you all were expecting me to dislike his arc in SEA and yeah, well, I do. But it’s a lot more than just my personal character preference. It’s not like I think Ned is absolutely worthless. Like, I ship him with Deirdre and I really like the idea of them as a couple. I feel like Ned might actually be much more entertaining if he and Nancy were just buddies. When they joke around and just act like friends, I’m so much more at ease. And his character becomes infinitely more interesting to me when he’s pitted against anyone but Nancy (for example: when he was a joint phone character with Bess in Ghost of Thornton Hall.) But I hardly ever get to see him interact with ANYONE besides Nancy. When they are one-on-one I am infinitely bored, and 99% of the time, that’s all I get from him.

Part of me thinks that Her Interactive feels stuck in the Nedcy relationship. They kind of just… made him her boyfriend in the original games and didn’t think twice about it. Generally speaking, their relationship is not questioned and it is fairly unchanging. Take Phantom of Venice, for example: Nancy walks around toting this precious locket Ned bought her. Colin obviously has a crush on her but she brushes it off, telling him about her boyfriend and then calling Ned and having boring, amicable discussions with him. This is pretty much how it is for twenty. three. games. We had pleasant, calm, textbook adorable interactions between the two of them. Nothing happens. They just… are.

Until Captive Curse comes along and throws everyone for a loop. Nancy and Ned have… a… fight??!? Couples have arguments? What? Honestly, the argument between Nancy and Ned in CAP makes a lot of sense to me and they resolve it pretty well. The more interesting part of this game, in my opinion, is the introduction of Frank as a possible love interest for Nancy. This is emphasized even more in The Deadly Device. I think they have obvious chemistry. At the very least, the Her Interactive team was toying with Frank having feelings for Nancy. And it’s not a new idea for suspects to be romantically interested in her. Colin in VEN and Dave in SHA both express an interest in Nancy. She’s never been available to reciprocate but what if she was? I’m really in favor of this possibility!! But first we have to look at this Ned situation again.

The Silent Spy is probably the best Nedcy game out there. Again, I’m not massively happy about Ned’s existence but I will concede that their relationship is strong and this is truly the only game where I see them as a couple. They aren’t facing problems like in CAP and SEA, but they aren’t sitting in a static relationship either. Instead I actually feel growth and substance to them as a couple in SPY whereas in the other games I get nothing. I’d be more keen to the idea of Ned and Nancy dating throughout the rest of the series if their relationship was always like this, but it’s not. SPY is–so far–a one-time achievement.

If anything, I am usually noticing details about Nancy and Ned’s relationship that really makes me think they aren’t compatible. Ned tells Nancy in HAU that he literally can’t have fun without her. He depends on her in this weird, unhealthy way. And Nancy is not there for him. Not ever. There have been multiple games where she’s written notes to herself in her journal that she has to remember to call Ned. It’s like… he’s not a priority for her while she is everything to him and I hate that. I hate that so much. It’s not balanced and it’s not normal and it’s not healthy.

It needs to be said that Ned is not Nancy Drew’s boyfriend throughout all the books. I want to make that clear. She dates different guys throughout the original series as well as spin off book series. He’s often her main squeeze, so I understand why Her wrote him as her boyfriend in the games. I get that. At the same time though, it would not be going against book canon if Nancy dated other guys. Not at all. But I feel like Her has dug themselves into a hole.

It’s like… they have kept Ned and Nancy as a couple for so long that it would be weird if Nancy just started things with another dude. If Her wanted Nancy to explore any other dating scenarios, they would have to actually break Nedcy up and I don’t know if they are willing to do that. I think most of the fandom ships the two of them together and if they actually ended things, there would be outrage and rioting, etc etc.

What I’m kind of concerned about is why they are devoting so much attention to their relationship now. The Nedcy arc in SEA was a pretty decent slice of the game, all things considered. I guess I can finally talk about this now. Maybe you thought it was cute. I was profoundly uncomfortable. I think maybe the dysfunction in Nancy and Ned’s relationship is meant to be humorous, but I am always left feeling awful about them. Ned calls Nancy thinking they are about to meet up for an anniversary dinner and she literally forgot. Had no idea it even was their anniversary. She got the call to go to Iceland and left without telling him. If I were dating someone for years and they did this to me, I would be shell shocked, honestly. I would probably need to hang up on them and cry. Missing an anniversary, I can understand, but only if they told me about it in advance. And if I found out–at any point in time, let alone on our anniversary–that my long-term partner had left the country without bothering to tell me about it, I would feel betrayed and unimportant and unloved. That’s so fucked up. I get that it’s a running gag, but… the rest of Ned’s storyline in SEA is (I think) meant to be taken pretty seriously! He calls Nancy repeatedly and is genuinely panicked about talking to her and then gives this huge speech about being in love with her. Everyone who has played the game thought he was going to propose to her.

What the fuck??? Honestly??????

I have so many issues with this entire situation. First of all, Ned is getting hurt by Nancy and he represses it. He brushes it off like it’s no big deal. It is a big deal, Ned. In SPY, Nancy asks him if she’s ever missed a date. He responds, “yes all the time.” (again, oh ha ha ha Nancy is a flaky gf, how funny.) Then she asks “how about something really important to you,” and he says “no.” To me, Nancy has crossed that line now. This was obviously important to Ned and he just pretends it wasn’t. Maybe he was even lying about his answer back in SPY, who knows. Nancy has really fucked up her trust with Ned but he doesn’t really get upset with her. Instead, he does the exact opposite and tries to move their relationship a step forward. This is awkward and sloppy to me. It’s incongruous. And because of that, it doesn’t feel genuine. It doesn’t feel like it’s for the right reasons.

Ned’s speech to Nancy is this painful leap of desperation. It’s like Ned is trying to cover up Nancy’s huge misstep by just HURLING himself over this gap in their relationship and hoping he lands on the other side, effectively covering it all up and putting it behind them. But it doesn’t really work that way. There are so many wrong things about the way Ned interacted with Nancy in this game. He calls her completely on edge and then hangs up on her and won’t answer her when she tries to call him back. Nancy literally thinks someone is threatening him or trying to hurt him. Scaring her and then ignoring her is so manipulative and rude. I’m so angry that he did that to Nancy. He doesn’t even text her something like “I’m fine. Will call later.” When he finally does call her back, then he piles on this huge gesture about how he loves her?

It… I… what…? To me, it felt like he was cornering Nancy into the relationship. Like he experienced a flash of fear that he might be losing her and then felt like he needed to sink his claws into it. I think someone else (Basia maybe?) pointed out that the speech itself was actually pretty sweet, but the circumstances soured it a lot. I agree–I read the stuff he said out of context after I had finished the game, and I didn’t even recognize it. The words themselves were pretty lovely. But I wasn’t paying attention to the dialogue because it was such a weird and painful situation. The way Ned led up to this speech was wrong. The fact that he did this over the phone while Nancy was in another country away was massively wrong. (I’m not even going to go into the fact that they have used the L-word with each other before in other games and that if this is meant to be the first time Ned’s saying this to her, it should have happened probably years ago and in person. This has been discussed by other people. But yeah.

Here’s what I find interesting though– Nancy has the option to tell Ned she doesn’t know how she feels about him. This intrigues me. I’m wondering if maybe in the future, we’re going to have similar options?? Maybe in an upcoming game, we can call Ned and have decision to go on a break with him. Nedcy shippers can happily choose not to. But the rest of us could actually explore what it would be like for Nancy to admit to having feelings for another person. For Nancy to tell Dave “no I don’t have a steady back home,” for her to say “sure, Grigor, I’d be open to more than friendship.” The freedom for Nancy to have flirty banter with whomever she pleases? The option for Nancy to just be single and focus on her cases without romantic attachment whatsoever??!!? I would be so down for that.

Otherwise, I don’t know where Her is going with this. We’re stuck in this perpetual state of either getting a boring, stagnant relationship, or this new trend of having Nancy and Ned actually experience some sort of conflict and resolution–which, let’s be real, would also get tedious. I don’t foresee either lending themselves positively to the plot of the games. There is honestly not much more development they can give Nedcy and I’m confused about why they are starting to pay so much attention to adding forced plotlines of their relationship to the games. If they do decide to have Ned propose like we all thought he was doing, I will probably have to hurl myself into the void. I know couples who have been together since high school and have since grown too-comfortable and unconsciously disenchanted with their relationship. Those people don’t compel me in real life and they don’t compel me when it’s Ned and Nancy.

The Ascension of the Soul into Interior Regions of Light & Sound, Part One: Introduction to the Meditation Practice, And,The First Inner Region: Astral Plane: Sahas-Dal-Kanwal: Thousand Petalled Lotus


Unlike other yogic disciplines in India, such as kundalini, surat shabd yoga does not advocate breath control (pranayama) or a series of physical postures (asanas/mudras) as part of its practice. Rather, it is concerned with withdrawing consciousness from the nine apertures of the body (eyes, ears, nose, mouth, genitals, and alimentary canal) and transcending the corporeal frame and its limitations altogether. This is accomplished by attaching the mind’s attention to an inner light and sound which is believed to be radiating behind the proverbial “tenth door” (the “third eye” of the Hindus), anatomically located behind and slightly above the physical eyes (Shiv Dayal Singh, 1970). When consciousness becomes totally concentrated at this pivotal point “between the worlds,” the soul, according to the saints in this tradition, leaves the body and experiences in elevating degrees higher regions of bliss.


The distinctive characteristic of surat shabd yoga is its emphasis on listening to the inner sound current, known variously as shabd, nada, or audible life stream. It is through this union of the soul with the primordial music of the universe that the practice derives its name (surat – soul, shabd – sound current; yoga – union). To be able to achieve a consciously induced near-death state takes great effort. Hence, masters of this path emphasize a three-fold method designed to still the mind and vacate the body: simran, dhyan, and bhajan (Charan Singh, 1979).


Simran, the repetition of a holy name or names, draws one’s attention to the eye center, keeping thoughts from being scattered too far outside. Such sacred remembrance is similar in form to the use of a mantra or special prayer, except that the name(s) are repeated silently with the mind and not with the tongue. This stage, according to practitioners, is the first and perhaps most difficult leg of meditation.


Dhyan, contemplation within, is a technical procedure to hold one’s attention at the third eye focus. In the beginning this may be simply gazing into the darkness or re-imaging the guru’s face, etc., but it eventually develops into seeing light of various shapes. Out of this light appears the “radiant form” of one’s spiritual master, who guides the neophyte on the inner voyage and becomes the central point of dhyan.


Bhajan, listening to the celestial melody or sound, is the last and most important part of surat shabd yoga, because it is the vehicle by which the meditator can travel to exalted planes of awareness. Whereas simran draws and dhyan holds the mind’s attention, it is bhajan which takes awareness on its upward ascent back to the Supreme Abode, Sach Khand. Naturally, mastery of surat shabd yoga is not an overnight affair, but involves years of consistent application and struggle. The desired results, adepts in the tradition agree, being largely due to the earnestness and day to day practice of the seeker.


THE INNER ASCENT


In due time, if the process is complete, the individual spirit current or substance is slowly withdrawn from the body. First from the lower extremities which become feelingless, and then from the rest of the body. The process is identical with that which takes place at the time of death, only this is voluntary, while that of death is involuntary. Eventually, he is able to pierce the veil that intervenes – which in reality is “not thicker than the wing of a butterfly” – and then he opens what is called the “Tenth Door” and steps out into a new world. The body remains in the position in which he left it, quite senseless, but unharmed by the process. He is now in a world he never saw before… – (Julian P. Johnson, 1952)


Before the inner voyage of light and sound can begin, the meditator must become adept at withdrawing his/her attention from the world and concentrating one pointedly at the third eye center. Accordingly, when the neophyte has achieved even a modicum of success, having sensations of numbness just up to the solar plexus, flashes of light will begin to manifest. At first it appears that the light is coming and going, causing the phenomenon of bright sparks, but in actuality it is the mind which is ascending and descending (Charan Singh, 1958, 1967, 1973, 1979).


The feeling of physical insensibility is one of the important “acid tests” to determine if the mediation process is proceeding correctly. Starting in the feet, numbness rises slowly through the lower extremities, until the entire body feels like stone. When such a voluntary paralysis occurs, the meditator gravitates more to the inner universe than to the outer one. According to the masters (Julian P. Johnson, 1974), it is the function of simran to instigate this type of benumbing impression, which releases the mind from its constructing hold on the material corpus.


It is at this junction when the meditator senses an intense feeling of upward movement, as if being literally pulled by a magnetic force. This sucking effect is the direct result of one’s attention moving inward away from the outer orifices. Though it but a preliminary stage, the student experiences first-hand what it is like to have an out-of-body sensation. With practice, the meditator finally does achieve total out-of-body consciousness, traveling at immense speeds through regions of darkness, not dissimilar in content to reports of clinically dead patients who have been resuscitated (Raymond Moody, 1975, Kenneth Ring, 1980, Darshan Singh, 1982).


After complete withdrawal from the physical body, the neophyte’s capacity for inner sight (nirat) and sound (surat) increases tremendously, enabling him/her to see and hear clearly what was only thought before to be a figment of religious imagination. Accompanying this ability is also the realization of a super-conscious state of awareness, remarkably more vivid and lucid than the ordinary waking state (Sawan Singh, 1974).


To understand how such a new degree of consciousness can be awakened, it is important to see how awareness moves through various degrees of clarity. In the waking state, for instance, attention is centered behind the eyes at the back of the head. But, after eighteen or so hours, we notice a movement downward and inward from this station towards the throat (Jagat Singh, 1972) culminating in sleep. Likewise, after about eight hours, we sense a rising upwards to the eyes, with the final termination being, of course, our normal, everyday consciousness. In both of these cases, our common language expresses in a graphically simple way the process of awareness: “We fall asleep; we wake up,” “My eyes are heavy;” “I feel so awake and high.” In yoga psychology the farther down one’s consciousness descends the deeper the sleep (or unconscious) state; the further up it ascends the higher the awareness (super-conscious). The pattern is quite clear; clarity increases steadily the more one ascends (not vice versa). Ken Wilber (1979, 1981) has beautifully described this spectrum of consciousness as having a definite hierarchical structure, with the higher orders subsuming and transcending their lower counterparts.


The following account, primarily based upon Shiv Dayal Singh’s Hidayatnama is filled with rich mythological characterizations, metaphors, and illustrations. For anyone steeped in science, the account will sound too fantastic to be true. However, we should keep in mind that although Shiv Dayal Singh’s description may be limited to the analogies of the 19th century, his fundamental insights are consistent with mystics from time immemorial. When reading Shiv Dayal Singh’s descriptions of the inner regions we should always keep in mind that trans-rational experiences cannot be adequately contained by the inherent boundaries of human language. Let us not confuse a map for the real territory or a menu for the meal.


The First Inner Region: Sahas-dal-kanwal: Thousand petalled Lotus


THE FIRST REGION:


Sahas-dal-kanwal


“Thousand Petalled Lotus”


“When your eye turns inwards in the brain and you see the firmament within, and your spirit leaves the body and rises upwards, you will see the Akash in which is located Sahas-dal-kanwal, the thousand petals of which perform the various functions pertaining to the three worlds. Its effulgence will exhilarate your spirit. You will at that stage, witness Niranjan, the lord of three worlds. Several religions which attained this stage and took the deity thereof to be the Lord of All, were duped. Seeing the light and refulgence of this region they felt satiated. Their upward progress was stopped. They did not find the guide to higher regions. Hence they could not proceed further”. (Swami Ji/Shiv Dayal Singh, Hidayatnama)


[Astral plane; cluster of lights]


Although the wondrous journey out of the body in surat shabd yoga meditation begins in darkness, eventually the meditator glimpses keen points of light, much like stars filling up a black midnight sky. The student is advised to focus his/her attention on the largest and brightest of these “stars” (Kirpal Singh), which with repeated concentration will burst revealing a radiance similar to that of a sun (Sawan Singh). When this light explodes, a brilliance comparable to a full moon will pull one’s attention even further within. Out of that light, according to the masters (Julian P. Johnson), known as Asht-dal-kanwal (“Eight petal lotus”), the resplendent form of one’s guru will appear. This marks the half-way point in the disciple’s ascent, since from here on one is guided to the upper regions by the radiant form of the master (Sawan Singh). Hence it is by comparison an easier progression for the soul than the withdrawal of the mind current from the body.


Along with the seeing of light, consisting of different colors and hues due partly to a particular person’s karma (Faqir Chand, 1978), the meditator also hears a variety of different sounds. At first, as the concentration becomes finer it will assume a more distinct tone, not dissimilar to the tinkling of bells. Indeed, it is the bell sound which is to be held onto, as its melody will help lead the soul into the first region, known technically in Radhasoami as Sahas-dal-kanwal, but also termed in other traditions as the astral plane, turiya pad, etc.


Entrance into the pure astral plane, though heralded as a magnificent achievement, is, according to Sant Mat, but the beginning of the inner voyage. It is alleged by many saints in the tradition (Kabir, Tulsi Sahib, Sawan Singh, etc.) that several great religious leaders mistakenly believed that the light and sound of this region were of the Absolute Lord. Instead of realizing that the manifestations were partial glimpses of a higher reality, they worshipped them as the totality of God. This kind of error is perhaps the chief reason why the Sant Mat and Radhasoami movements stress so much the necessity of a living guide. Above all else, the masters emphasize, test thoroughly whatever appears inside meditation. [The main test advised by the mystics is to repeat slowly the holy name or names which were given at the time of initiation; also verify the authenticity of one’s experiences with the outer guru for his/her validation.]


Each major region of consciousness has its own center and guiding lord. In Sahas-dal-kanwal the ruler is known as the lord of light and is the creator of all the universe in its jurisdiction (Julian P. Johnson). However, the extent of each ruler’s power is limited and circumscribed by the next higher deity, who, likewise receives its creative energy from above, etc. This governing hierarchy, like the kundalini chakra system, is based on the concept that all spiritual evolution (and even material transformation) was preceded by an involution. Therefore, the meditator must pass through several regions of light and sound before attaining true enlightenment.


In order to overcome the many barriers and obstacles on the way, the guru instructs the student not to attach him or her self to any particular vision, as they are merely signposts along the way. In fact, all of the intermediary lords, or centers of power, are not to be venerated but transcended. It is for this reason that the Beas branch of the Radhasoamis and Sawan-Kirpal Mission in agreement with previous saints, give out five holy names as their meditation mantra. Each name represents the presiding lord and his relative spiritual energy; to the meditator they serve as passwords, so to say, to insure safe passage into the next level of consciousness.


Obviously, the concern here is that a student may get stuck or retained in one of the lower realms, believing that he/she has reached the ultimate, when, in fact, what they have attained is illusory and impermanent. Surat shabd yoga literature is replete with stories of would-be masters who have been duped on the inner journey (for instance, see the book Anurag Sagar which goes on in detail about sages being misled in their meditations).


(Above is from, Enchanted Land, by David Lane, MSAC Philosophy Group)


Huzur Maharaj (Rai Saligram):


“This discourse is intended for the benefit of those who, seeing the instability and transitory state of the things in this world, as well as its short-lived pleasures and greatness, have a craving for everlasting and unalloyed happiness and undisturbed peace in a realm which is not subject to change, decay or dissolution”.


Huzur Maharaj (Rai Saligram):


“The method of taking back the Spirit entity to its Original Source is to ride the Sound Current”.


“The method for taking back the spirit entity to its Supreme Source is first to concentrate at the eye-focus – the seat of the soul, the spirit entity and mind which are defused in our body and in a manner tied to external objects by desires and passions, and next to commence its journey homewards by attending to the Internal Sound, or in other words, by riding the Life or Sound Current which has originally emanated from the Supreme Source”.


“The Current which has been instrumental in having brought it down here must naturally be the Path for its return to the Original Source, and whoever finds this Current is on the Path of Emancipation. This Current which is the Spirit and Life Current is called in the Radhasoami Faith, "Sound” or “Word” or Holy Name". (Prem Patra Radhasoami, Agra)

Naturally I understand as little of reality as it does of me. In that respect we are quits. Yet it owes me no explanations for anything and I have paid it what it is due.

Of course it would be nice to simply be able to give Hegel’s answer when he was told that his theories were at odds with reality: ‘Poor reality, I really feel sorry for it.

That’s the sort of thing poets can write.

That’s the sort of thing philosophers can say.

But we who are committed to asylums and kept in institutions, we have no answers when our ideas are at odds with reality, because in our world other people are right and know the difference between right and wrong.

—  Angels of the Universe, by Einar Már Gudmundsson
The Heat Under My Palms [FanFic | English]

Fandom: Shingeki no Kyojin (© Isayama Hajime)
Character(s): Levi, Eren Yeager
Pairing(s): Riren
Genre: Slice of life
Rating: M
Wordcount: 1896
Note: Canon!verse (shortly before the 57th expedition), crushing-on-Levi!Eren, sort-of body worship, lots of touching, hand job

Summary: «Captain…» Said Eren, voice strained, «Can I… touch you?» his hand hovering between them visibly shaking with the effort it was taking to not move.

Written for aetheride and his need for bara!Levi~ and ‘comforting’ for the same-old issues of shipping and whatnot

ps. I used 'Rivaille’ here because Sam uses it and this is dedicated to him so why not. |D

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