I was putting my selfish desires and sins above what God had planned and desired for me. I was blinded and it showed that I wasn’t taking my walk in Christ seriously. I had God on the side and only ran to him when needed. I literally looked for every reason possible to do it and not feel guilty. I pushed him away as far as possible. To feel good about that sin and fulfill what desire I needed too in that moment. When in all actuality He was always what I truly needed all this time.
Sin will always lead you to something less than what God has for you. Sin leads you straight to hell. Repenting takes us off that path to hell. Please remember though that repenting means there should be change. Not us running right back to that very sin every time we feel the desire resulting in us repenting to make it okay to do it again.
What made me stop was I just thought about Jesus being beaten, mocked, spat on, hanging on the cross for me and my sins. Thinking to myself those sins that I am doing is it truly worth it? Is it worth the death of my savior who did no wrong, never sinned, didn’t deserve to die but still did? Those sins that are giving me temporary pleasures and is taking me to hell. Is it worth it? No it is not worth it. So I stopped. I died to myself that day and every day after that.
That’s what we have to do as believers of Christ. Everyday we are called to pick up our cross, die to ourselves and follow after Jesus.