Forgive me for loving you. Forgive me for staying with you when you needed me the most. Forgive me for not being what I cannot be. Forgive me for loving you and only you. I’m sorry if this feels like a mistake. Forgive me but loving you was never a mistake.
لاتتردد في العوده الى الله
مهما لوثتك الخطايا والذنوب
فالذي سترك وانت تحت سقف المعصيه
لن يفضحك تحت جناح التوبه
Do not hesitate about returning to Allah
Despite your mistakes & no matter how sinful you might be
For if He covered (protected) you under the roof of sin
He will not expose you under the wing of repentance
Maybe repentance isn’t a threat at all; maybe it’s an invitation. Maybe, “repent for the kingdom of God is at hand” means “hey, walk away from that junk, because there’s a better way that’s here.” Maybe repentance is God’s way of saying, “I have such deeper waters for you to swim in.” Maybe repentance is Jesus’ way of saying, “Listen, you can live that way, but it’s just going to bring you pain. There’s life over here if you want it. There’s healing over here if you want it. Won’t you walk this way? Oh, I know, I know, I know.
I know your shame; I know your guilt; I know your despair; I know you think that I heal everybody else, but you’ve just gone too far; I get it. My yoke is easy, My burden is light. Come on. Walk away. Come to Me. Approach My power with confidence that it can heal you. Approach My power, knowing that that guilt and shame and despair that you feel, I felt, and I long to lift it from you. I long to lift it from you.” That’s the Gospel.
My ustadha said something really beautiful today. She said, “When you’re doing assignments on your laptops you can sometimes make errors, so to get rid of them you press the backspace. It would be as if you never made that error in the first place. And there’s no limit. No limit to how many times you can press it.
Repentance is just like that.
There’s no limit to how many times you can repent. And the most beautiful thing about repentance is that, just like the backspace, repentance erases your sins so that you have a clean slate again.”
Don’t worship anyone other than Jesus and the Trinity.
Don’t worship or believe in Buddha or Muhammad or many gods
Do not worship your possessions
Do not worship yourself
Do not worship money
Don’t envy what you are not
Don’t become another gender, be happy with who God made you, body, mind, and soul
Don’t have sex before sacramental marriage
Don’t cheat on your spouse
Don’t lust for other people
Don’t be greedy
Don’t be a glutton
Don’t slander The Holy Father, Bishops, Cardinals, and religious
Don’t slander each other
Don’t hurt anyone
Don’t destroy growing life in you
That’s how you avoid Hell
"For the people of sins there are three great rivers..."
“For the people of sins there are three great rivers with which they purify themselves in this world and if these do not suffice in purifying them, then they are purified in the river of Hell-fire on the Day of Judgement:
I. A river of sincere repentance.
II. A river of good deeds that drowns the sins that surround it.
III. A river of great calamities (that befall the sinner) that expiate (his sins).
Therefore, when Allah intends good for His slave, He enters him into one of these three rivers, so he comes purified and cleansed on the Day of Judgement, not requiring the fourth purification.
And the fourth purification:
The river of Hell-fire on Yawm al-Qiyamah.
So swim in the river of repentance and doing good deeds and have patience in the river of calamities. And do not neglect these before a day comes when you will be drowned in the river of Hell-fire whose fuel is men and stones.”
Alright. So, it’s time for me to be open about something that I haven’t mentioned to any of my close Christian friends. I’ve honestly been feeling so ashamed that I was afraid that I’d disappoint them. I’m writing this on here to ask for strength and healing during this time.
Well, here it is.
So, about a month ago my boyfriend, let’s call him Blake,and I broke up. Our break up tore me apart. 1. Because I thought he was the one that God picked out for me, and 2. Because I made some bad decisions in our relationship that I deeply regret. When I was about 12 or 13, I promised myself I’d stay pure until marriage. Now, here I am at 19 and during my relationship with Blake, I had premarital sex with him.
Yes. I know. The Bible says multiple times NOT to do this. Believe me. I’m having a really hard time forgiving myself right now, and I can’t even begin to explain how dirty and worthless I feel. I know what I did was wrong, and I wish that I could take it back. I really really do.
I loved Blake. A lot. So when we ended, I was destroyed. Still am. I didn’t realize it, but in the back of my mind, I had been holding on to the hope that we would get back together. Why? Because things didn’t end badly between us. He wanted to end things because he felt a strain on his relationship with God. He’d felt so before we started dating. I know a lot of you are going to think that this is a lie coming from him, but I know him well enough to know he isn’t lying. He’s never lied to me before, and I know he really cared about me, so I have no reason not to trust him. The other night, we were talking, and I got my heart broken all over again. He had asked me if I found anyone nice. When I told him no, he said “well you will”. He doesn’t want to get back together. So yeah…
The funny thing is, it was actually an answer to prayer. Just not in the way I expected it. I had been praying that he would draw near to God again. He had been drinking once in a while, plus our sexual sin, so I really wanted us to come together in Christ and repent. So in a way, it worked out. He seems to be a lot better, and we’ve been praying for each other. A small shred of me still hopes that we’ll get back together, but I’m really trying to focus on God right now, and not worry about that. Because if it’s really meant to be, God will work it out in His perfect timing.
Right now, all I ask of y'all is to pray hard for me. I’m being heavily attacked by the devil, and he is filling my head with all sorts of bad thoughts about myself. Nasty, worthless, wasted, slut, unforgivable, disgusting, dirty, used. These are all things that have filled my mind, and I really need prayer for strength and self-forgiveness. I would really appreciate lots of prayers right now.
Abu Musa reported Allah’s Messenger (Allah’s blessings and peace be upon him ) as saying that :
Allah, the Exalted and Glorious, Stretches out His Hand during the night so that the people may repent for the fault committed from dawn till dusk,
and He stretches out His Hand during the day so that the people may repent for the fault committed from dusk to dawn.
(He would accept repentance) before the sun rises in the west (before the Day of Resurrection).