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“Stop disrespecting Aslaug” I’m not, i’m calling her out on her shit

Shes a home wrecking bitch.

She almost let baby Ubba and Hvitserk die because she was off fucking some dude who claimed he was a god, (i.e. Cheating on Ragnar) and Siggy died trying to save them.

She let her Step grand daughter die, Who was named after Siggy for having saved said baby sons.

She never took care of or loved her children aside from Ivar. We know this because only Ivar really cared when she died and Sigurd literally said she was a horrible mother.

Maybe Lagertha shouldn’t have shot her in the back after having renounced the throne, but the bitch stole her husband. 

I hated her character from the moment she showed up and i cheered when she died. 

I was tagged by @erisfulgora to write ten facts about me this is gonna be terrible

Warning: I am not interesting

1. I was an atheist for 23 years but now I would probably die if you made me renounce witchcraft

2. Going vegan changed my life

3. I’m an anarchist who has worked and probably will work again for the State

4. I am white passing!!!! I think a lot of my mutuals don’t know that

5. I’m a very aggressive person but I pull off the “deep down she’s sweet” vibe vr well. Narrator: she was not sweet in any depth

6. I cry extremely easily

7. I love jonghyun

8. Taemin’s Move album has defined my fashion sense for the next years

9. I am Scorpio dominant. Saturn dominant. Mutable dominant. Earth dominant.

10. Everyone I know is a Gemini they’re everywhere

11. I’m single please introduce me to girls

12. I used to be super into Cinema and once I watched like a thousand movies in a year.

13. I have an obsessive personality in case that wasn’t clear

14. I don’t really keep track with any series or shows at all. I just don’t care

15. I see dead ppl. And have premonitory dreams.

16. I hate Anime and storms.

I tag @ryneidai @aurinkoinenvarjolapsi @not-her-e @holdinghim @conceal-your-life @lexilovechild @cyberrainbows @shineewlw @lesbianblossomjimin @goatcheese-perfumes @dark-willowrosenberg @spicyveganfun @shawolesbian @agustdior @trashboatsweatymonkey @limboliving

anonymous asked:

is funny how the principal aspect of this chapter that readers disliked this chapter is that "mutsuki's redemption was too fast, his problems where solved with magic hugs" but...i didnt see mutsuki be healed this chapter, i felt he was just so damn tired that he just renounced to his plan plan to make others kill him and end things himself,he is not ok, if he sees kaneki and touka again it wont go smooth bc mu could easily put haise in a ccg level of abuse bc of the abandonment

I both agree and disagree. Mutsuki isn’t fixed. It’s a process. But he has started on the path to healing. I think his friends’ love and how they saved him from suicide showed him that they want him around.

He’s not going to attack Kaneki or Touka again, though. That’s narratively impossible. But yeah, I agree about Haise as part of the CCG’s mistreatment, though I wouldn’t use the term abuse. He did to the Qs what Arata did to Touka and Ayato, what his mother did to him, etc. Yes, the Qs were adults, but they were child-coded adults and Kaneki referred to them as his kids, so. Which is why I think the Qs are vital to holding Kaneki accountable and showing him his flaws. Mutsuki’s already called Kaneki out as a liar, Urie and Saiko need to do likewise with their own respective flaws.

15 And the kings of the earth, and the great men, and the rich men, and the chief captains, and the mighty men, and every bondman, and every free man, hid themselves in the dens and in the rocks of the mountains;

16 And said to the mountains and rocks, Fall on us, and hide us from the face of him that sitteth on the throne, and from the wrath of the Lamb:

17 For the great day of his wrath is come; and who shall be able to stand?

Transiting Saturn in Capricorn ♄  ♑

Saturn transit contract for Rising signs  
December 2017 - March 2020

“It’s time to repay your debts. I hope you were sensible enough to take out insurance. But then you were senseless enough to trust your energy in other people’s hands.”  

Astrological tradition marks the significance of Saturn’s transits across the horoscope as distinctive life epochs. This is especially so if Saturn is crossing one of the angular 1st, 4th, 7th, and 10th houses. Capricorn is the astrological sea goat. The goat climbs up the mountain to symbolise the rise of the sun. The mermaid tail is residual of the water that fell as rain in dark winter. The day is now longer to accomplish the task. But the memories and reminders of the darkness are never forgotten. The birthday of Jesus was thus associated with the birth of Capricorn and the birth of our highest selves. Saturn slow blooms priceless wisdom and awareness in the area of life where this energy is felt. And it’s often the force of Saturn, rather than the inner development and change taking place that commands the attention. Sometimes years can pass before it begins to make sense 


Saturn has come home in Capricorn. If you were born with Saturn in Capricorn, you are venturing into your Saturn Return, an astrological rite of honour and passage of time. This is not a transit to be feared but rather fill you with a sort of readiness and will that anything is possible. Saturn is where we face our obstacles, karma, and tests of resilience. There is no better place for Saturn to be than in its own sign where your greatest potential, resolve, and wisdom resides. You don’t have to merely survive Saturn in Capricorn, you can absolutely master it. Saturn is a slower moving cosmic energy. This change is like walking from one room to another. In this room, you will meet parts of yourself that you don’t like in circumstances you don’t like. Demands, unconscious resistance, and severe responsibility comes with  the agreement we made with Saturn for all-round physical, emotional, psychological, and spiritual development. Saturn rules mortality, its areas of influence can accelerate to such a degree they can seem to become life or death matters in our perspective. In this room, you will also meet a part of yourself that you will relish in, one wise beyond your earth years, with the resolve and qualities you never imagined yourself containing.

It’s important that you check your own transit chart for confirmation of Saturn’s position, because some people have signs close to the house cusp and intercepted houses that change the position of the planets, or have transiting Saturn making significant aspects to outer natal planets

🗻 Aries rising - Saturn in or entering the 10th house and crossing the midheaven 

🗻 Saturn supplies his most exhaustive, powerful, and quality resources for a mountain peak ascension so profound it will feel like flying  

🗻 Saturn has been reunited with its progeny, and you Aries rising have the gift of this as well as the assets that only Saturn knows how to find in his own house. This is the first time Saturn has been back in 30 years, so be prepared to start straight away. Saturn is crossing an angular house in your horoscope - the midheaven, so expect an extensive, vigorous, and uncontrollable change in the dominant focus of your life, the way you perceive yourself, and the way you construct your ultimate reality

Failure is no longer an option, and overused self-deceiving excuses are no longer tolerated. There is the pressure to become the ultimate authoritarian of their own life. Saturn here stimulates the desire to make an impression on the world and give a face to the name that has worked its way toward success. There is a harsh realisation of passing time and unmet potential. The can be a haunting awareness about unrealised dream and potential. The individual is primed to be unwilling to accept anything less than the best from and for themselves. Success will be very real and substantial, following only extensive hard work and sacrifice. There may be a promotion, advance in title, or goal accomplishment. A promising opportunity, long term position, or stable stream of can be interrupted by Saturn here. This is ultimately the case of one door shutting to make room for another, but this room can take significant time in construction. This will be especially relevant if the individual has become stagnated, dissatisfied, or lost sight of vision and goals. The 10th house is a family house so family issues or the birth of a child can interrupt the pace. However Saturn is the father, so this unveils a whole new dimension of  wisdom because it accomplishes the task in the form of responsibility, accepting and growing into self-sufficient maturity. The trigger may also sense of being undervalued or accepting less than they are worth. This can be directed to the profession, but also inward themselves as they contend with harsh and epiphanic reality checks about their actions and choices until this point in time. Self-excuses and blame that once worked fail to hold up to any weight or variable, they are no longer permitted to sacrifice their potential and birthright gold for the cruelty they have experienced at the hands of others and giving into the setbacks that control them.There may be intimidation, severe criticism, or tense relationships with superiors, teachers, and one of the parents. The power struggles confronted with superiors may be rooted in the feelings of inadequacy, shame, and disapproval conditioned in childhood. There may a resolution of long term parental disputes, or the resources to confront residual childhood parental issues and criticism. This is the time to relinquish the pursuit of their expectation or approval. There is intense scrutiny placed on social conduct and impressions. The grand question is, “If I died today would I be proud of what I have accomplished?”

🧙 Taurus rising - Saturn in or entering the 9th house 

🧙 You are free to roam but the flight schedule is painfully strict. Be cautious of arriving on time, because Saturn won’t wait for you  

🧙 The awareness of this transit is extremely beneficial, because much of this activity is covert and unclear in its ultimate message 

The mind has the will for development, expansion, and acquiring the cosmobiological range of vision. The critical task is the constructing the foundation that can pursue and develop an authentic philosophy based on personal experience and truth. Truth and inner realisation must be acknowledged and integrated. The person can obstruct this spiritual and cosmic realisation with great resistance due to their attached beliefs that  provide a a source of comfort, safe framework of reality, and fleeting self-gratification. This sense of comfort eventually dissolves beneath dissatisfaction along with a sense of loss inherent to retaining self-deceptive beliefs. The provocative pressure to find and see something more, that they are something more can trigger one’s active quest for the first time or relentless experimentation with teachings. An atheist may have a vision. It may also cause a renouncement in one’s long term faith. An evangelist may have a disenchanting realisation. This transit can be a painful betrayal, epiphany, or liberation in the realisation of religious and spiritual deceit from trustworthy figures, family, or teachers. This realisation not only undermines religious beliefs but also the way they view their existence. It may trigger identity crisis or psychological overload. They can begin questioning every aspect of the reality they have accepted. There are substantial reconfigurations and re-orientation in perspective, the conscious experience, interpretation of reality, and universal frame of mind. There is a need to integrate dual identities that have become trapped in the unconscious. The unconscious roots that produce behavioural patterns of excess and immoderation are revealed. The 9th house deals with matters of the higher mind, law, and psychiatry. The individual can approach their own mind with the tools of this great mental philosopher. Deep and purposeful self-reflection is pivotal to this transit. There can be personal enquiry regarding the true meaning behind their thoughts, responses, beliefs, and actions. The larger context of this is discovering the higher purpose of their existence and their function in the greater universal operation. Sagittarius energy inflates on contact. It’s possible for mental activity to shutter into paralysis. Saturn is the materialiser, and it brings the fruits of the higher mind into the experience of reality. Ancient symbolism and spiritual law take the place of minor details and physical time. You can see how this can make it easy to lose touch with responsibilities and commitments during this period. There may be the desire to pursue higher education or continuing education masters or doctorate study. Abundant resources are in supply for research, expanding the knowledge and perspective base, and gratifying the acclaim that the mind desires. Teachers can become close mentors. And these teachers are very adept at re-directing the individual back to the true teacher - the spirit inside. Possible obstruction to the study period, there may be course changes to better realign with values, renewed perspective, or disillusionment. The study course may not reflect the greater goal. There may be a long drawn out process due to challenging course content or lack of will and focus to attend and study. There may be issues with mobility surrounding study. The 9th house is the card of fortune and the individual may receive some backpay from the karmic bet. Saturn offers little indulgence to those who choose to trade resources with thieves, so testing their luck comes with consequences. But this is not unlucky by any means, and the fortune bestowed by Saturn will be in the form of resource, wisdom, and a lifelong renewal in self and universal perspective. If traveling, it’s possible the person will find a place to settle down in for a while

🐍Gemini rising - Saturn in or entering the 8th house

🐍You won’t feel young again until this is over. You will feel like you have aged a lifetime. Approaching an 8th house is always daunting, but Saturn has just finished crossing your 7th house - an angular house in your horoscope so the intensity of Saturn is rather less severe 

🐍Yes you are dying. No you are not dying any physically quicker than you were before, but your old self, and all those hiding inside that are dying. Arenas of Focus: Unconscious activity, Destructive patterns, Resources, Relationships

The Devil is waiting to have his debts repaid and you cannot die until you pay him back. There can be pressure to financially self-sustain, repay loans, and surrender reliance on other people’s resources. No transit of Saturn or the 8th house is unchallenging. Survival instincts are activated, along with self-destructive tendencies. All enemies are unseen, parts of yourself, or haunting memories. Traits and behaviours that are disadvantageous to spiritual ascension and preserving the physical body become these toxic forces to be excised. This poison is also distilled with the unconscious suppression and  activity containing experiences of violated boundaries and psychic, psychological, or emotional intrusion and invasion. Internal toxicity reveals itself by unleashing a furious wave of self-destruction that threatens the individuals goals, relationships, resources, or reputation. Partners can also be the psychic punching bag in the place of inner demons. One critical lesson is the awareness and development of coping mechanisms that were once useful to the person’s environment, and have now become insufficient, defective, regressive, destructive, and inappropriate to their environment. This is largely when both survival and self-destruction converge. The Survival instinct provokes self-destructive behaviour in a survivalist response to expose disarray of this behaviour and capture the exorcising light of consciousness. Remember that it was only the light, the light of consciousness that could slay the Hydra’s heads. This initiates the desire to confront and change behaviour. Someone who is at the end of their life may prolong or exist comfortably for a longer period. Death is typically a taboo for people and their families, it’s something people would rather not talk about. This transit may stimulate the first circumstance where the subject of death is present, becomes a reality of life, and a subject that can the person can no longer hide from. This dynamic and unconscious gravity can increase fears regarding mortality, the resources and heritage left after death, the type of death one would like to have. The critical task is ultimate acceptance of this life, death, and rebirth cycle that is inherent to their existence, and the evaporation of identification with ego. This facilitates the individual’s capacity of surrender the ego to invite sacred transformation and spiritual evolutions and preparation for living this out and experiencing this in the 9th house. Part of this absolving of ego is active in the intimate experience. There may be a substantial growth in one’s understanding of intimacy, its power and significance is revealed. The body and spirit resists to superficial, emotionless encounters, or more than one sexual partner. Instead of satisfaction there can be the sense of internal contamination and disgust. The ego is sacrificed to vanish the physical and converge two souls into one. The sexual appetite can be difficult to stimulate and arouse, it seems to operate through very covert and subconscious activity, so they are only provoked. The partner’s finances can be stimulated, the partner may have a family death or revelation, the person may financial support the partner. Family secrets and skeletons that have directly affected the individual unconsciously can reveal themselves. 

🎭 Cancer rising - Saturn in or entering the 7th house and crossing the descendant

🎭 You will come face to face with shadows cast over the faces of those who hold your heart in their hands. Saturn is crossing an angular house in your horoscope - the descendant, so expect an extensive, vigorous, and uncontrollable change in the dominant focus of your life, the way you perceive yourself, and the way you construct your ultimate reality

🎭 Arenas of Focus: Relationships, Psychological awareness, Subconscious behaviour, unconsolidated qualities

The 7th house is the house of marriage so it can solidify the commitment of relationships and indicate marriage or long term allegiance. Relationships that enter this transit embark a shadowy hall of mirrors. Some who walk in as a pair emerge out on their own. There will be significant tests of commitment, it can arouse the darkest and most difficult characteristics of both partners. Saturn honours time, and Saturn is questioning the viability and potential of this relationship outlasting the trials of life. You love your partner at their best, but the relationship will only endure for the long term if you are willing to accept and still love them at their worst. Relationships survive this transit are therefore primed to outlast the odds. Sometimes it can evoke the feeling that ‘something is missing’ and evoke one’s desire in having a relationships that may have seemed unimportant or unnecessary until this point in life. There may also be an active decision to rely on self-sufficiency, single life, and to gratify the independence and personal growth that takes place when there is nobody in the background to impress. Because the Saturn standard is real and meaningful, the individual may have a difficult time finding a person who moves the spirit. Or there may be disillusion following a mirror merry-go round of incompatible encounters. This act of relinquishing the fulfilment of a partner is the very process that can invite a valuable relationship because the person is capable of giving their whole selves and not depending on another source of completion. Partners may become very demanding, projecting, critical and persistently frustrated at the individual. A disadvantageous relationship is often too unsatisfying and detrimental to keep participating in. The individual becomes strongly sensitive to their unmet needs, feeling emotional, desperate, or hollow around the partner. Relationships are stimulated to reveal hidden and unacknowledged parts of the self. The partner and loved ones can become open enemies that provoke them in the subconscious spots that force the surfacing of internal personalities or undeveloped qualities they have never met before. It means that relationship conflict can trigger extreme, regressive, and undeveloped, uncontrollable behaviour. It will also be where their contaminated self-consciousness is demonstrated through other people. There may be initiation of a new relationship, possibly involving an older partner. It is also possible for supportive relationships to resolve childhood emotional and bonding issues with one or both of the parents. The decision to leave a relationship may be extremely challenging, highly pressured, come with a grief process and fear of future regret. Breaking a heart can hurt as much as having a heart broken. There may also be a return and regression to the most primitive and unresolved personal needs that manifest as re-enacting destructive relationship patterns. This transit may stimulate the desire to change a repetitive cycle of broken relationships and become more aware of what they are willing to offer and what they authentically need from a partner so they can welcome the right person in. One of the tasks is identifying and establishing what they are prepared to accept for themselves in relationships. There may be the establishment of a long term and beneficial business partnership or agreement. These are primed for success enabled by a proficient display of competence, negotiation, and collaborative values. One of the critical lessons is developing awareness of the responsibility and inherent power beheld in relationships, and that this area of life has a profound influence over their own lives and sense of internal completion. There may be instances when the individual is confronted with the profound effect of their actions, behaviours or intentions on loved ones in a way they have never been before. They will see just about everyone at their worst. Loved ones may become tired of repetitive or lack of changing behaviour. They can become very tiring also, because it can feel like being blamed for everybody’s bad day.  If you wouldn’t accept hearing that from somebody else, why do you allow it from yourself? 

“You know when the time is right. You have to learn to let go, and reject the ways they have left you feeling like you won’t exist without them. You existed through all of those demands, undeserved hostility, and being a psychological punching bag. So you really are more capable of existing alone. Actually, you are deserving of it, because you will love yourself again for being capable of letting go”

💊 Leo rising - Saturn in or entering the 6th

💊 What is toxic to the mind will be felt in the body, what is poison to the body will contaminate the mind. The 6th house has a dreary reputation, but Saturn prefers this earthy rhythm and active energy supply for personal development more than most places 

💊 Arenas of Focus: Daily routine and working life, Pets and domestic animals, Health and link between Body and Mind

All matters of work and working reputation are stimulated. It means that the fear of loss of employment or purpose can become an anxiety. The desire to commit to a role with long term viability that provides development into the greater purpose become matters of importance. The loss of job can be self-induced. These unmet conditions can force the decision of resignation or job change pressured by intensive dissatisfaction, limitation, melancholy, and depleting energy and self worth. Fear of job loss can also be the resulting of self-devaluation and concerns about incompetence. This transit can provoke the question of being good enough. They can begin to feel dispensable and replaceable in their role. Nerves can compromise the position due to self-conscious preoccupation and uncharacteristic behaviour or mistakes. This can also generate the pressure to practice and advance the skills and qualities that can make a larger contribution. The energy supply is responsive to repetition, learning with the hands, and focused on turning the skill into an automatic process. The working life and employment schedule can also be disrupted by mental or physical health matters. The body has an increasingly vulnerable response to workplace stress, self-sacrificing in or responsibilities, burn out, and inadequate rest and recovery. There can be evasive aches and pains, digestive changes, and somatic symptoms. It is critically important for the person to realise that they can only offer and expect their best when they are restored and feeling their best. There are generous resources for constructing a health, physical activity, diet, and well balanced daily routine that provides long term sustenance and the re-engagement and communication of mind and body. Saturn is also an obsessive energy, so it’s possible that health anxieties activate and previous health anxieties accelerate. The appearance of physical symptoms and panic can initiate or exaggerate this. It may generate a fear of visiting the doctor regarding the outcome or the denial of symptoms. On the other hand, it may cause the individual to adopt health practices that can advance into extremist and fanatical rituals. There may be punishing or restrictive eating or exercise patterns, a dangerous intake of supplements, frequent doctor visits and invasive procedures, and fear generated decisions that ultimately put their physical, psychological, and emotional wellbeing at risk. This excessive behavioural pattern can be more pronounced or present in perfectionist types. But everybody experiencing this transit will be directed by the pursuit of perfection active in the unconscious. Often this area contains immense shame, guilt, and unworthiness. A life circumstance can also activate change in the approach to health and diet. Something like a pregnancy, health scare, or job change may do so by forcing a detox to substances and moderated awareness of physical intake. Just as a cleanse in the body must occur, there must also be mental purification. The mind is highly focused during this period and it can eventually distil into paralysis. A regular routine of meditation, breathing techniques, and mental relaxation is pivotal to wellbeing. Organising and refining the surroundings is a tidy out for the mind. There can be a kind of satisfaction and sense of tranquility when they get into the rhythm of re-arranging, de-cluttering, and purging what is no longer necessary. The individual can substantially minimilise their environment, belongings, and no longer require what takes up space. Problems with nerves or mental distress that have been self-managed or dismissed can reach a threshold or breaking point. It does so with the purpose intent that they no longer accept this for themselves, refuse to be defeated, and make the active decision to overcome or confront this experience with the best resources they can acquire. There may be increasing agitations in the immediate environment and a loss of internal control that can generate compulsion to control their external environment. There is emphasis on identifying and refining the psychological source of somatic symptoms, appetite, and digestive upset. It is also critical that professionals are the first point of consult with any health concern. This may be a beneficial period for finding a trustworthy doctor and allied health team. The individual has tremendous will and resolve to take control of their health and confront chronic health concerns. This transit can stimulate and surface unconscious ideals manifesting as personal expectation, unconscious activity and residue that reveals itself as attachment to routines and coping mechanisms that become ritual, and the powerful wisdom that conducts their instinct toward making the contribution that they ultimately desire

💎 Virgo rising - Saturn in or entering the 5th house

💎 Rise and shine even when you haven’t slept all night, the producers have become delirious and unraveled… but the show never ends and you are the star. The dark and coldness of Saturn is never welcomed by the 5th house, but Saturn has just finished crossing your 4st house - the imum coeli in your horoscope so the intensity of Saturn is rather less severe

The immediate experience can become very shadowy with Saturn consuming the solar light. The mood can descend. The response and recognition that they receive from other people can seem to change. Long lasting, residual personal issues regarding self value, self-respect, and cruel self talk are surfaced and projected in the performance around them. There can be experiences with people who embody these inner shadows. When these demeaning aspects of negative self-talk are heard said aloud by another person, or becomes enacted on them, the task is to realise they don’t willingly accept hearing this from another person, so why do they tell it to themselves? This transit can activate increasingly excessive desire for attention, possibly from the form of parents, superiors, teachers, coaches, and romantic lovers. There may be elaborate or extensive measures undertaken to gratify this. This may further associate with search or attachment to parental figures or lovers that provide the individual with unmet childhood needs. There is stimulation to construct an authentic identity display, and remove anything that is occluding the genuine visual definition. And additionally, to relieve the self-imposed limitations built by self-consciousness, perceived lack of ability or talent, and internalising other people’s expectations or what they believe is expected. This process can allow for the unregulated experimentation and pursuit of natural bliss, pleasure, and therefore talents. Creative skills and talents that have are stagnated as unregulated hobbies are supplied with the resources to focus, practice, develop, and materialise these qualities. There will be an increased desire to acquire recognition, commendation, or constructive criticism for creative and ego demonstrative pursuits. This is also the period significant for relinquishing the approval that is desired from others. The process of doing so can sublimate the attention that the ego demands. Vain and fleeting sexual encounters can fail to provide the same climax of satisfaction. There may be an increased desire to make a commitment with exclusive intimate partner. Self-gratification will be less instinctual and viscerally satisfying than respecting, honouring, and creating something meaningful with the other half. The individual may sense strain or tightness around the heart. Tension and stress directs here. Despite the lack of vitality and energy that seems available, a commitment to routine physical activity, contact with sunlight, playing with their children or pets, and practicing mindful breathing techniques nourishes, rests, and relieves the heartbeat, mood, and inner pressure. There may be strange experiences with the parents. One of the parents could get a promotion, have a change in fortune, make a big life decision, put their reputation at risk, or even exhibit strange behaviour. The parent even conduct themselves in a way or choose an avenue that can give the individual the impression that they have been neglected, overlooked, or forgotten.The relationship with children is stimulated with this transit. There is no better development point for wisdom in this transit than in the company of children. There may be a great longing for a child that finally eventuates. There may be the surprise birth of a child that the individual never realised was so essential to their growth and existence. There may also be the surrender of the dream of a child after extensive obstacles. The maternal love never dies and still longs to be given. When this is re-directed through to children of friends, nieces, nephews, cousins, and in inspiring, germinating and an authentic creation which is ultimately themselves. It’s possible that in this very act of inner fulfilment and peace they unknowingly develop into the parent that their future child is waiting for. 

🌒 Libra rising - Saturn in or entering the 4th and crossing the imum coeli 

🌒 The lights are on, but nobody is home

🌒 Saturn is crossing an angular house in your horoscope - the imum coeli, so expect an extensive, vigorous, and uncontrollable change in the dominant focus of your life, the way you perceive yourself, and the way you construct your ultimate reality

Nowhere feels safe, nowhere feels like home, and nowhere seems to want them. There can be a lack of dream, or dreams that involve significant and forgotten memories or family members. Taking their problems to bed only causes nightmares. There can be a resistance or difficulty with sleep.  Unresolved issues can surface at this time. They may overthink or worry about the issue of falling to sleep or getting enough shut eye. There can be extensive wakefulness and then long periods of what seem to be hibernations of physical and mental exhaustion rather than regenerative sleep. A well-balanced sleep schedule is very beneficial. The individual may be forced to learn how to develop some way of closing or alleviation residual anxiety and emotional and psychological discomfort before trying to sleep. Enduring anguish, pain, and unresolved childhood issues with one of the parents can surface. It can create the experience for validation and reconcile to finally be offered, although a little late it is constructive, substantial, and enduring. One of the parents may become very demanding or controlling in some form. The response and management of emotion and residual reliance on primitive conditioning is tested and dissolved beneath relentless weight. One critical lesson is the awareness and development of coping mechanisms that were once useful to the person’s environment, and have now become insufficient, defective, regressive, destructive, and inappropriate to their environment. This is largely sourced from cultivating emotional self-sufficiency, not practicing coldness and discipline as you may expect from Saturn. It is rather nurturing, recognising, and responding to the needs of the inner child with the archetypal parent inside who now contains the capacity for self-expressing these desires. If the contract is followed, this transit facilitates the inner child’s reunion with the inner mother and father. This is a resourceful convergence of powerful internal polarities. It is enlightening in a spiritual sense, but in a physical sense, it may dilute fears of abandonment, aloneness or separation, emotional intrusion, and the dependance of external sourcing of emotional recognition and dependency. Self-sufficiency and emotional development is ready to be attained. The person can spend a lot of time seeming to float in the ether, unsure of where they have gone and what they are doing there 

🔬 Scorpio rising - Saturn in or entering the 3rd house

🔬 The author in the mind seems to have fallen asleep, but who is awake in there? 

🔬 Arenas of Focus: Communication, Interactive Environment, Education, Brothers and Sisters 

One of the primary expectations is developing mental maturity. The mind can seem paralysed. This is a symptom of under stimulation and lack of progressive activity. The mental resources are supplied almost exclusively for intellectual development, focus for meaningful pursuits, and practicing and advancing mental talents. The individual is equipped for rapidly conceiving the worth and advantage of information. There can be an intolerance for material that lacks depth or resourceful intellectual assets. There may be some form of communicative disruption and preference to silence. The person may have to overcome tremendous internal resistance to actively participate in conversation. It can result in some form of social exclusion or withdrawal. Thought patterns, psychological conditions, and mental behaviours are tested beneath significant weight. The structure of reality in the immediate environment undergoes powerful changes. This transit can profoundly change the way a person perceives and thinks about the world. One of these changes may be provoked by increasing and commanding self-criticism regarding the mind and common mistakes. There can be a loud replay and intrusive memory of criticism and sense of intellectual inadequacy they were made to feel as children. This is  largely present to promote self-reflection and thorough mental analysis regarding resources acquired across life and contained in the mind. These are not solely academic credentials but also powerful experiences, relationships, the intelligence applied at work, the natural qualities that you express automatically, the same ones that other people spend hours or even lifetimes practicing and perfecting. This deep sourcing of resource makes slow but resounding long term changes in terms of mental confidence and pride. Education is stimulated. There may be a great desire to begin a course of study. Accelerated focus, organisation, and mental will provide assets for success. There may be an encouraging, supportive, and beneficial rapport from a teacher or an older mentor. Because education is focused, there can also be obstruction in this area. A course of study may be prolonged due to challenging content, lack of mental inspiration, psychological stress and burn out, or re-arranging the course outline due to disillusionment or renewed perspective and appetite for something greater. There may be issues with mobility surrounding study. There may also be tension or unfairness with strict teachers and academics that leaves a lasting toxin. It’s possible for one of the siblings to move away or become very distant or unwell. The individual may become the pillar of support for siblings due to some form of parental discord or issue. Drawn out sibling rivalry, separation, or conflict may be resolved with maturity, or the realisation of the possible long term loss that will incur. The mind and pressure of reality can feel like a suffocating force with Saturn transiting the 3rd. The individual has an increased vulnerability to chest colds and sinus problems. It’s important that deep and mindful breathing is undertaken on a regular basis

💸 Sagittarius rising - Saturn in or entering the 2nd house

💸 Money feels better in the hands than the object being exchanged for it. Saturn has just finished crossing your 1st house - an angular house in your horoscope so the intensity of Saturn is rather less severe

💸 Arenas of Focus: Finances, Resources, Internal Value, Creative Capital

There can be tension surrounding self-worth and internal value when Saturn moves into the 2nd. Regardless of the circumstance, the sense of failing to make progress or stagnation is stimulated. The body can become heavy, listless and demand the establishment of an adequate rest and regeneration schedule. There may be an increased or decreased self-conscious with the body and physical appearance. The financial situation is highly focused, there is strenuous tension to ensure long term security and institute sold financial and resource management. There can be a great suspicion that something is about to collapse from right beneath of them. The individual may become the sole financial supporter, or issues may arise with dependants.  There will be a pressure to ascertain resistance to material urges, and learn how to say ‘no’ to providing loans and financial supplements that won’t be repaid. This is a favourable period for repaying debts and devising creative personal business plans and capital. There is a good rationality and sense of preservation when approaching financial and business resources that can pour the foundation for developing something significant. The individual will begin comprehending the value of money in its respective relevance. For instance, someone who has been quite lavish and wasteful with large amounts of money may be forced to experience the value of $20 to someone who has little. Momentary, impulsive expenditure no longer provides the same gratification. The internal value system and sense of power in the world can undergo extensive growth changes. There is a need to demonstrate authentic values through the body, work, and the surroundings. Extensive practice, application, repetition, and energy can be directed into developing the capital of natural assets and resources. There may be dietary or metabolic changes, unusual sensory experiences, sensitivity to noise, light, and environmental chaos, the person may also need a lot of body and neck massages

🤦 Capricorn rising - Saturn in or entering the 1st house and crossing the ascendant 

🤦 There is a stranger staring back in the mirror

🤦 Saturn is crossing an angular house in your horoscope - your ascendant, so expect an extensive, vigorous, and uncontrollable change in the dominant focus of your life, the way you perceive yourself, and the way you construct your ultimate reality

Self-image becomes shadowed, the individual can become very self critical, self conscious, and identify with dark moods and inadequacies. Severe questioning regarding existence, place in the world, and the matter of internal values and qualities being authentically expressed. Disadvantageous personality traits and shadows can be relentlessly active, consuming, controlling, and destructive in order to provoke awareness and change in behaviour. For example, the individual may disregard a promising opportunity out of self-conscious anxiety and lack of confidence only to find out that a colleague much inferior in experience and education received the promotion. The intense discontent that can rise from letting themselves be overcome and directed by emotions, attitude, or false fear can bring about this focus on the need to change self-talk and behaviour. A critical task is surrendering the desire for approval and acknowledgment and allow themselves to spontaneously express the genuine energy that flows naturally through the identity. This is no longer so easy with Saturn pervading the interface between spirit and reality. The vitality can seem weakened and preferable to fading into the background. Resistance is met with sourcing the energy for conducting and interacting with the self-expression, it can seem like there is barely enough energy for anything. This is where the lessons of the 12th house come into focus and source from the light and presence that was formed from the waters of darkness and solitude. People in their lives can become very resistive, oppressive, and rejecting. It can feel like everybody is against them, or that they are too loud or too quiet, getting in the way, agitating everyone, or just an indispensable entity. Social encounters provide opportunity to test the strength and substance of identity growth and development. Patterns of self-deception and and incompatible goals and desires can be abolished. This can become an opportunity to see who in one’s life has unconditionally sincere concern and the individual’s best interests at heart. 

🧘 Aquarius rising - Saturn in or entering the 12th house

🧘 Where did you go? Did you vanish down a rabbit hole? Have you ever heard so much noise and sound in silence?

🧘 Arenas of Focus: Solitude and privacy, Psychic and Dream experience, Empathy and Compassion

Saturn in the 12th ignites substantial desire to absolve from the world and be alone. There can be resistance or acceptance to seclusion. A critical task is learning to be alone without being lonely. This generates from the active will to enter the shores of solitude barefoot and alone. Intense, relentless, and receptive emotional conduct can sweep the individual into states of immense guilt and mixed emotional states. There may be an increased need for rest and sleep and a heightened dream state. The feet can become very sore and suffer unusual pain and strains. There can also be trouble sleeping and lack of dreaming, also an increased sensitivity to their environmental stimulus, like becoming very disturbed by loud noises. This convergence can cause a weak grasp of reality, there can be confusion surrounding what is real and what is not. There can be a consuming sense of emptiness, and that something is missing. It is not the energy and feeling they know and they can explain. It’s another force that seems to have drained a part of existence from them. There may be increasing occurrences of sadness or emotional experience that seem to arise suddenly out of nowhere. There is desire to unfold and enhance undeveloped empathy, psychic receptivity, selfless compassion, and identification with something larger-than self. The task is to find and foster unity with the soul of humanity. But much of this process is undergone in solitary. The difficulty is forming a powerful connection without anybody else there, so the energy is internalised into the personal sourcing of light and re-connection with the source. Reconciling this private relationship between outer self and inner spirit ultimately conceives reunion with the collective unconscious. Karmic debt is repaid by your hidden enemies. There will be a desire to use harsh experiences and pain as an opening for empathy and guidance for other people. Another critical task is the development of empathy and responsiveness. There will be forced reliance on internal, invisible support networks. Most of this transit’s energy is directed into cultivating the necessary inner growth that is clear of outside forces and influences in preparation for Saturn’s following transit across the ascendant. When this occurs, the lights will switch off this darkness blooming over you, and reveal the quality of the work you have been doing alone over this time   

🧚 Pisces rising - Saturn in or entering the 11th house

🧚 You were just primed to establish and achieve your goals, now are you ready to see your dream?  

🧚 This, along with the 10th house is another conditioned primed for rich spiritual and physical value during this transit. Saturn is at home with Aquarius and exclusively available for personal, essential, expert sourced Saturn mentorship 

Friendships are highly stimulated, and the ego is better gratified by the re-direction of energy into social, charitable, and humanitarian avenues. There may be desire to re-engage with social circles to facilitate real and meaningful connective experience. There may be a substantial loss of contact with friends. One of the friends may relocate, or there may be difficulties with parents of friends. This is the development and conservation period of deeply intimate, solid, and lifelong friendships. The individual will discover through their own and other people’s behaviour who their true friends are, who can be relied upon, and who can be trusted. The person can withdraw from social groups and online interaction. There may be a dark feeling of rejection, exile, self-consciousness, or disillusion. Unresolved unconscious matter is projected onto their social circle, culminating with great need to make a substantial contribution to the inner circle and the larger circle of humanity. The pressure of this can raise discomfort in group situations, the individual can become preoccupied with the sense that they are unwanted, being excluded, or indispensable. This is the case where online interactivity can seem increasingly safe and preferable. Saturn’s active pressure and relentless desire for the unity relative to the 11th house can self-sacrifice through exhausting the social calendar. One of the critical lessons in this transit is developing self-awareness and responding to the substantial responsibilities, accountability, meaning, and personal contributions that friends have in one’s life. This is also applicable to the individual’s community, and participation in groups and social causes. There may be a great desire to actively contribute, advance, or leave a lasting legacy in these organisations. There can be the sense of lacking inspiration, being overly confined and pressurised with no avenue for outlet, extensive day to day monotony deprived of stimulation, animation, and its element of surprise and shock. The individual must disregard what the world expects out of them and focus on making the world inside them an ultimate reality. There can be a loss of faith in authority, information, media, and cultural conditioning. The individual may become obsessed by strange or unusual intellectual interests that provoke their unusual and eccentric side. There may also be a deepening interest, maturity, activity, fanaticism, or shift in political and ideological dynamics. Saturn here can associate with a growing desire to catalyse mass institutional change. Social encounters take on a whole new importance and provide a domain to experiment with personal conduct, style, and modes of operation to discover the authentic self expression. In the pursuit of the title, acclaim, and rise of success in the 10th house, there was a dream peeking behind that, and a utopia envisioned for your life. This transit can make the wish you have done with hard work come true. Just know the right time to shut the door. Saturn is the benefactor that can supply the resources, networks, and support that brings the dream into life

-C.

anonymous asked:

So since you've drawn characters from the great comet. Can you draw me a little Spot Conlon from Newsies

pal you are in luck not only have i drawn spot conlon before Here but here is a brand new lil mr brooklyn just for you:

anonymous asked:

What are you top 10 favorite Greek myths?

  1. the creation of the universe by eurynome and ophion.
  2. the era in which nyx was the queen of olympos before the patriarchy took over among the gods and of how she was its only ruler to renounce to the scepter willingly when her time as queen of the gods was over as the fate foretold.
  3. how the wolves helped leto and the baby artemis and apollo to get safely to lycia - and of how leto probably turned into a she-wolf to trick hera.
  4. the killing of python and the origin of the oracle of delphi.
  5. the six wishes baby artemis asked zeus sitting on his lap.
  6. how hermes spent the first day he was born - from the stealing of apollo’s cows to them becoming best friends.
  7. artemis and actaeon.
  8. the sacrifice of iphigenia and iphigenia in aulis.
  9. how apollo tricked artemis into killing orion.
  10. the rape of persephone.

can i add some? i am not done with my most favorites!!!

  1. how persephone gave back to alcestis her life after having witnessed her sacrificing it for the sake of her unworthy husband.
  2. how the sirens killed themselves after failed to take the lives of odysseus and his companions - and having failed their queen, persephone, in always taking new souls to the underworld.
  3. ariadne and asterion.
  4. the murder of the baby dionysus.
  5. the second birth of dionysus.
  6. dionysus becoming a god again.
  7. the end of orpheus, teared apart by the maenads.
  8. the fact the zeus, poseidon and hades actually flipped a coin to decide who was going to rule what portion of the world.
  9. hermes and the golden axe.
  10. the fact that zeus actually turned into a naked artemis to seduce callisto (and that says all).
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@skyguy95 : because we need to delve into feels, more than SW already make us do?

AU where Padme either has enough strength to wake up after Vaderkin lashes out at her (she still believed there was good in him, the only one, even in her last moments in Rots) or arrives after they have been duelling. But she has some issues with Obi Wan.

I have no clue for what happens after

If people absolutely must let someone but Finn define Finn, why is it that they’ll go for Kylo Ren’s opinion - the actual villain of the story - and that of random Stormtrooper #357 - who only exists for Finn to fight him and then get killed?

Why not Poe Dameron’s opinion?

Or General Organa’s?

Why is it ‘traitor’ and not ‘good man’?

Why is it ‘Finn ran away’ and not ‘Finn was brave’?

Why is it ‘Finn committed treason’ and not ‘Finn renounced (or rejected or rebelled against)’?

Why is it that this fandom insists that very people and mindset that Finn rejects, the actual bad guys, are the ones who still have a right to define him and not the people Finn chooses to associate with?

Is it because ultimately to this fandom Finn’s choices doesn’t really matter?

Because they sure as hell won’t let him define himself either.

His proposal. A deeper look.

Just got back from seeing the movie a second time. And holy cow. I got a whole new interpretation:

When Ben proposes to Rey, his speech leading up to the “Please” was him basically renouncing the First Order. He wanted to LEAVE EVERYTHING. He tells her we need to leave it ALL behind, the Sith, the Jedi, the First Order, the Rebels, the Rebellion. ALL OF IT. And rule together in a new age. You guys…I think he was proposing a GREY way. He wanted them to MEET IN THE MIDDLE. Leave both of their sides behind!!!! Yet…Rey took that as, if you’re not with the Rebellion you’re against it. So she shot down a chance at BALANCE. When he then yells at her that she’s NOT GETTING IT, he is completely right. She is not getting the concept of there cannot be light and dark separate, that’s not how the FORCE WORKS. 

Let’s go back to her first lesson with Luke: 

Luke asked her to reach out and describe what she saw. Light, darkness….and Luke explained that yes, there has to be a balance and without darkness there can be no light and visa versa. A PEACEFUL EXISTENCE. Rey has not grasped this concept yet. So she sees anything other than the light as WRONG. It is not. Ben is not wrong.

So, then we see the unspiraling of Balanced Ben (because it is true, he does not belong on the Light side, but somewhere in between). She rejects him, and he completely flips. REY IS THE ONE TO TURN BEN BACK INTO KYLO. Rey’s rejection caused Kylo to become the new Supreme Leader. Just like how Luke’s betrayal turned Ben into Kylo Ren. Ben did not want to be the Supreme Leader when he proposed to her. He literally says let’s leave it all behind. He-hem, listen to ‘Satellite’ by Rise Against, literally: 

“We’ll sneak out while they sleep and sail off in the night, we’ll come clean and start over, the rest of our lives. When we’re gone we’ll stay gone, out of sight out of mind. It’s not too late, we have the rest of our lives.”

This is Ben’s proposal. He can see what Luke has been seeing. The Jedi have to end, and so does the First Order. Rey doesn’t see it.

After her rejection to his offer to run away with him, he completely loses his shit. (I mean it’s fricken hilarious and I love hissy fit Kylo tbh) Hux plays the role of highlighting just how deranged Kylo has become. Let’s flash back to The Force Awakens when Hux says, “Careful, Ren, that your personal interests not interfere with orders from Leader Snoke.” Well, who is the Supreme Leader now? Kylo. He is letting his personal interests (Luke and Rey) interfere with the plans. That lingering shot of Hux as the First Order marches in to the Rebel base at the end is very telling. Hux is taking in just how insane and unthinking Kylo is. Something tells me that Hux isn’t going to let Kylo rule for long…Kylo is going to fall from grace. 

In that Rebel base, after Luke has fallen, in a single moment…we see Ben. This is not Kylo. This is not the man we just saw try to kill a man in cold-blood. He is looking up at Rey as she is boarding the Falcon…not with hate. But with regret. Adam Driver says everything with his eyes. He is begging her to forgive his actions. He is now alone. He feels that loneliness…as showed by the camera shot as he stays kneeled, broken and alone in the room. Flash back to the hut scene

“You are not alone.” “Neither are you.” 

Well….that moment resonated with Ben as they touched skin and he finally felt for the first time companionship, or at least the start of someone who relates to him. She was confiding to him what she saw in the dark place on the island. She was telling him something she could never tell Luke. When he is with Rey…he is Ben. He is whole. He sees their purpose. But Rey does not see it…not yet at least.

What do you all think?

anonymous asked:

Why do you assume that Daenerys will be happy to learn that Jon is a Targ? She is determined to destroy anything and anyone who dares to thwart her passage to the throne. She has been able to kill family before, even when he raised her and was teh only reason she was alive. She will burn people who dare to resist her. Why would Jon fare any better? If he doesn't immediately renounce as the Dany x Jon fandom wants, won't she kill him?

Anon, everything about this is wrong. And I’m sure this ask is also just you trolling in response the post I made complaining about undercover!Jon theories. But I’m going to address all of this anyway because it’s been awhile since I’ve gone to the mat to defend Jon and Dany, and I’m grateful for the opportunity to set the record straight. Using a cut because with pictures and everything, this is a huge answer.

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Rey and Ren = Shiva and Parvati of Star Wars

posted this elsewhere but I wanted to share it here:

In my opinion, and I know someone made a meta about this ages ago and I can’t find it, but The Last Jedi, and this video done by Wayward Jedi: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wXTjsLLK9_Q&t=2038sI,  has reintroduced the idea to me that Rey and Kylo are the Shiva and Parvati, or the benevolent Father-God and mother-goddess, of Star Wars.

I suppose the sexual organ symbolism is the most obvious here connecting them with Shiva and Parvati (the yoni and linga-or the vagina and phallic symbolism are commonly seen with these two deities). I think of the phallus as the lightsaber, and there have been so many posts on this site about the vaginal imagery of TLJ in the Reylo fandom that I won’t get into that here. Suffice it to say that these images are very prevalent with Parvati and Shiva, the mother and father deities (fun fact: it gets pretty sexy sometimes).

Yet there is also the reincarnation, introduced by the video I linked above by Wayward Jedi, where he argues (and I agree) that Kylo and Rey are like the reincarnation of Padme and Anakin, reborn to make it right, to make them equals. For Shiva and Parvati, Parvati was the reincarnation of Shivas wife Sati, who sacrificed herself to fire when her father wouldn’t let her marry Shiva. Parvati, also forbidden to marry Shiva was determined in her pursuit of Shiva and he finally renounces his asceticism and marries her. I am trying to learn more about Shiva and his reincarnation aspects, I need to do more research though :P

There are also many of their other symbols that ring true. For Parvati, these would be the bell (which is seen in rey’s At-At in TFA), the mirror, the lotus or the padma (Padme) lotus also meaning rebirth, and the crescent moon as seen in TLJ shining above Rey. For  Shiva these are the three-pronged weapon or trident (representing how he is creator, destroyer, and preserver, to me this is Kylo’s lightsaber),  the ashes (seen in TFA in the interrogation scene), the snake (there is lots of snake imagery with Kylo Ren that was explored in Star Wars Connection video on Adam and Eve here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8MnYSctj1RM&t=2139s and https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xyEUSld-aa0&t=761s,), the matted, longish hair, the crescent moon, and the red sun (Kylo in both movies is kinda the “sun/son” reborn, which is the sun that was reborn out of Star Killer Base in TFA, and the sun that is hidden that Luke refers to in TLJ, “Ben” meaning “son” in Hebrew).

Also, Parvati and Shiva are often seen visually split in half, combined to make one. 

ANyways, my knowledge of Hinduism is rudimentary, but I thought this was all interesting :P 


Mary, The Once-King

On September 17th, 1382, Mary the daughter of Louis I, “the Great,” of Hungary, of Croatia, and of Poland, was grieving. She was eleven, and her larger-than-life father had just died seven days before. But Mary was a princess. And she was her father’s eldest daughter, and his heir. So on September 17th, 1382, Mary was crowned King of Hungary.

Unfortunately her reign was short, bloody, and filled with twists. Unhappy noblemen did not want a woman on the throne, and supported her distant cousin Charles III of Naples. Meanwhile, Sigismund of Luxembourg invaded Upper Hungary (today’s Slovakia) in September 1385. By October, Mary and Sigismund were married, pretty much at sword-point.

Charles III also invaded that autumn, took Buda, and forced Mary to renounce the throne. He was crowned in December 1385. Then Charles III was assassinated, likely on Mary’s mother’s instigation, in February 1386. But the dead king’s supporters captured Mary and her mother, and held them until 1387. That’s about two years longer than their king had reigned! The mother was executed but Mary was let go, and officially became co-ruler with her husband Sigismund. In reality, she had little power. Mary died eight years later, at age 23 or 24, when thrown from a horse.