I hope fat lesbians know how incredibly strong and stunning they are. I know that standards are set so much higher for us compared to thin, especially straight people, but take a deep breath and remind yourself that you are allowed to exist for yourself. Remind yourself that your size and your attraction to women do not make you lesser in any way. You are amazing. Keep doing what you do, keep being you, whether you want to be out there and break the mold or just stay casual, nothing can undermine your greatness. Fat lesbians are stellar and so worthy of love.
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couldn’t believe you had convinced him into doing this.
want me to what?” he’d asked, not sure if he’d heard you correctly.
just need you to pretend to be my boyfriend for this event since… I kinda
already told everyone that you’re my boyfriend and you were coming. There’ll be
free food and alcohol and you won’t even have to talk to many people!”
had naturally intrigued Derek but there had been something that he couldn’t
help but ask you.
You picked me for your big fake boyfriend plan? You know I don’t… get along
well with people around here. Why not Parrish?”
could see Parrish pulling up now at the event in his police uniform. Parrish
wasn’t a bad guy but Derek couldn’t help but clench his fists at the sight of
him. He wasn’t one to get jealous easily but this guy just put his teeth on
Parrish! Why didn’t I think of that?” you’d said angrily, shaking your head,
“well, it’s too late. Will you just please go with me, Derek? It’s just one
night. We can fake break up the next day.”
had then thought for a moment, making sure to avoid your eye. You had a
particular pleading look that you often gave him that made it hard for him to
ever say no to you. But he couldn’t resist and looked at you, and it was then
that he decided that he was going to be a part of your fake dating charade and
he was going to be the best fake date there ever was.
was pulled out of his trance, turning to see you hurrying towards him with a
grin on your face.
said I would, didn’t I?”
shook your head, “I just wasn’t sure. Wow, you look really good, you should
wear suits more often.”
always look good,” he offered his hand, smiling a little as you took it. Your
hand was so tiny compared to his. “You don’t look too bad either.”
was an understatement. Derek always thought you looked gorgeous but right now,
he was so blown away by how beautiful you looked that he had to remind himself
“Gee, thanks. We’re running a bit behind
– I’d planned to have at least 2 drinks by now.”
event was in full swing and Derek felt like he was in high school again. First
of all, the event was being held in
the school’s hall as the community one was under construction and second of
all, he found himself watching protectively over you as he heard several greasy
men comment on how good you looked.
was wondering when the two of you were going to get together,” Jordan Parrish
congratulated the two of you, avoiding Derek’s intimidating stare, “all (Y/N)
ever talked about was ‘how hot Derek is’.”
eyes widened, taking a rather large sip of your drink as you elbowed Jordan
throughout the night people had approached you and Derek and gave similar
comments (minus the snarky one Jordan gave), saying that they’d seen the two of
you out on dates and were wondering when you were going to call it official. In
all honesty, neither you or Derek had considered your outings to be dates but
now that he was thinking back on it, he wondered if he should start considering
them as just that.
proceeded to smile as Jordan winced from the hit you gave him, “well, it was a
surprise to me actually. I had always thought the two of you were going to get
(Y/N) has only ever had eyes for you!” Jordan glanced at your now nearly empty
glass, “want a refill?”
yes please. I’m gonna be needing something heavier at this rate.”
agree with you.” and with a wink, Jordan disappeared back through the crowd
towards the bar and Derek shifted his focus back to you.
feel a bit stupid for being jealous of him now,” he admitted, smelling the
embarrassment on you which only caused his smile to widen more. Derek honestly
couldn’t remember smiling this much since he was a teenager and it turned out a
lot of people at the event were being a lot kinder to him because of it.
well, I picked you as my fake boyfriend for a reason. It’s believable and
everyone seems to already think it was happening.”
wished Jordan would hurry up with that drink.
could hear your heart racing and you glanced up at him, something seeming to
occur to you as a surprised expression dawned on your face.
shit – you don’t actually like me, do you?”
leaned closer to you, his grin seeming rather wolfish now.
the sounds of it,” he pointed to your heart, “you feel the same way.”
was now the one taken aback as very quickly, you closed the gap between the two
of you and pressed a hard kiss against his lips.
werewolf powers.” Was all you said as a low growl came from the back of Derek’s
throat, Jordan now walking up from behind you with drinks in his hand. Derek
wanted to desperately kiss you just a little longer but as his eyes met briefly
with yours, he knew the whole dating charade was going to become a lot more
realistic and there was going to be endless amount of time to kiss you.
man. You probably won’t have a lot to contribute to the conversation
considering you’ve never had a girlfriend,” Stiles teased for what felt like
the millionth time as he and Isaac stood by the lockers waiting for the rest of
the group to arrive.
had just asked him for advice for an upcoming date but then took it back
quickly saying he probably would just ask Scott about it in the car. A low
growl escaped Isaac’s lips as he tried to remind himself that Stiles just
wasn’t worth it as the idiot seemed to get off on annoying him. And
unfortunately, it was working and sometimes Isaac was just a bit impulsive.
not one that you know of.”
eyebrow quirked up and a Grinch like smile came across his face, wondering if
he was hearing this right.
girlfriend in fourth grade doesn’t count,” he reminded and Isaac’s hands balled
not supposed to talk about it.” Because
it isn’t real, Isaac thought.
nodded, “oh, yeah right, sure, sure.”
tone in his voice was enough for Isaac to glance around and see you and Lydia walking
in the opposite direction of where he was standing. You and Isaac weren’t close
but you got along like a house on fire, regularly working together on pack
‘missions’ or sometimes you just studied together in the library. He’d been
asked several times if he was interested in you, all those times he just
shrugged as an answer but if anyone was to believe he was dating someone, you
would be a good candidate.
Isaac said, “(Y/N) and I have been dating.”
looked as if he’d just discovered gold.
You want me to believe that? She’s way out of your league!” and then he was
shouting, “(Y/N)! Are you and Isaac dating?”
and you stopped your walking, Lydia raising her eyebrows at you as you turned
around slowly. Everyone in the hallway seemed to go quiet, interested in this
little bit of gossip and you met with Isaac’s horrified eyes.
yes?” was all you said before continuing on your way, Lydia beginning to smack
you excitedly at discovering this information as Stiles turning back to Isaac.
can’t believe you weren’t just fucking with me. You should invite her to come
bowling with all of us tomorrow night – Lydia will be there so she won’t feel
so weird. I seriously can’t believe you landed a girlfriend like that, fuck.”
couldn’t believe that he’d landed a fake girlfriend like that either.
night, Isaac found himself climbing into your bedroom and nearly scaring you
half to death.
the shit?” you hissed, pausing the show you were watching, “first you say we’re
dating and now you’re climbing through my window? Did I miss something?”
smiled sheepishly, brushing off a few sticks that got caught in his sweater
while trying to climb up through your window.
I know normal people just text but I thought I should just ask you in person. I
didn’t really think this through –,”
cut him off, “yeah, I can see that.”
fuck this is stupid. Stiles was being a dick and I kind of just said you were
my girlfriend so he’d leave me alone. I didn’t think he’d actually, uh, ask you
about it but do… you wanna go bowling with the group of us tomorrow?”
always had a crush on Isaac. He was one of the first guys to ever really notice
you and see you for more than just your looks and you wanted to throw one of
your pillows at him and demand he take you out on a proper date because you
genuinely liked him. But even though he freaked you out a bit by abruptly
climbing through your window at that time of night, you couldn’t resist him.
But before you leave, I already answered a bunch of our relationship questions
to Lydia so you’ll have to learn them. And you’re paying for my shoes and games
for bowling. Oh, and when we fake break up, it’ll be a mutual break up and it
can’t be weird.”
weren’t particularly eager to be out bowling with the group. You got along well
with everyone and they were being overly nice to you ever since they found out you
and Isaac were ‘dating’. A few times Stiles had said to you ‘really, Isaac?’
but other than that, no one really questioned it. The people in the group who
were wolves didn’t even suspect that the two of you were faking the whole
ordeal because they could hear how fast your heart rates were when you were
around one another, which made everything much easier.
said she invited you to come earlier in the week but you said no.” Isaac said,
his arm wrapped around you rather lazily as you watched Scott get up for his
first go. It felt rather natural for the two of you to be like this, having
small touches here and there and sneaking each other little glances. It was
comfortable and you had to remind yourself that this was all supposed to be a
did I forget to mention that I can’t bowl?”
know you’re up next, right?”
nodded, “yeah, that’s why I’m just a bit nervous.”
got a strike, grinning as he turned to the group who were all rolling their
eyes at the unfairness of him having werewolf abilities which were a rather big
help in the situation. You wished you had the abilities because you had no idea
what you were about to do.
Isaac helped you to your feet, picking up your ball for you and beginning to
walk towards your lane.
What are you doing?”
handed you the ball, smiling a little and back at the seats the two of you were
already earning a few ‘awes’.
help you, it’s the least I can do,” he handed you the ball and you held it in
the hand you were most comfortable with as he began to help line you up
correctly, “aren’t we just relationship goals?”
laughed rather nervously and Isaac stood behind you, his back pressed against
yours and you did your best to concentrate on your bowling but it was proving
to be difficult.
move sort of like… this,” he murmured into your ear and as he showed you the
throwing movement the second time around, you released the ball and it went
flying down the middle of the lane, hitting all the pins except one.
my god,” a grin came across your face as you turned around to Isaac who
couldn’t quite believe it either, “oh my god!”
flung your arms around his neck, kissing him excitedly and Isaac nearly fell
backwards at the sudden action. Eagerly though, he kissed you back, enjoying
the feeling and hoping that you’d do this every time you did well in the game.
come you don’t do that when I do well?” Scott asked Kira from their seats and
she nudged him playfully.
that you had to bowl once more and everyone was watching the two of you with
stupid grins on their faces, you shyly pulled away and began to walk back to
get another ball. Triumphantly, Isaac walked back to the group who might as
well have been clapping for him and Lydia patted his arm.
about time the two of you got together. (Y/N) always talked about how much she
liked you but you just ‘didn’t like her back’. I swear if you break her heart
I’ll break you.” She smiled sweetly and Isaac, who had to admit was a little
intimidated, smiled back as you successfully knocked down your final pin.
planning on it, Lydia.”
think I left my lacrosse jersey at your place,” you were startled by your
ex-boyfriend who was now standing beside your locker, an annoyed look on his
face as if it were you fault that he’d misplaced his belongings.
never took any of your lacrosse gear to my house.” You told him coolly,
shutting your locker which you weren’t actually done looking in and attempting
to walk away from him. To your annoyance, he followed.
if you see it then tell me,” he said and you rolled your eyes. The two of you
had been broken up for 3 months, you were certain you would have come across it
by now. “How’re you going anyway? Any new guys in your life?”
last bit he said with an amused tone, causing you to clutch your bag just a bit
tighter. You knew if you said no that he’d proceed to tell you the long list of
girls that were in his life now – some of which were in his life while the two
of you were dating.
believe it or not I actually have a boyfriend.”
saw a group of guys up ahead being rather rowdy and spotted Liam Dunbar, the
guy you were planning to find just earlier because he’d promised you his
research notes from one of your classes.
really? Do I know them?”
knew you should’ve just made up a name of some guy that went to another school
but because you just happened to be looking at Liam, you couldn’t help it.
ex looked surprised, “Dunbar? Seriously?”
that moment, Liam looked up, having been listening in on your conversation and
he was just as confused too. You couldn’t believe you picked someone so obvious
– and someone that was on the same team as your ex as well. You weren’t going
to get away with this.
sensed your embarrassment and excused himself from the group of friends he was
talking to. It was well known that he hated your ex and any opportunity to
annoy him was valuable.
babe!” he said cheerfully as he approached you, trying not to laugh at how red
you went as he placed a kiss on your cheek, “everything alright here?”
ex, to your relief, stepped away, “everything’s fine, man. (Y/N), if you see
the jersey let me know.”
your ex was safely out of sight, you turned to Liam who had a smug smile on his
– why?” you stammered, not really sure how you’d just managed that.
hate that guy,” he said, “don’t worry, I won’t tell anyone we’re not really
dating. We make a cute couple anyway, even if it’s fake.”
Liam, you don’t have to do this. I was just being stupid.”
shook his head, “he’s just told about 5 people that we’re dating. It’ll be fun!
We can get back at that guy all while doing our assignments. It’s a win-win
so the fake relationship began. To your surprise, you greatly benefited from
the situation. Creepy guys stopped bothering you, if you ever needed to get
warm Liam was perfectly fine with you just walking into his arms while he
talked with some friends and you ended up making more friends of your own. Some
of the seniors he hung around became protective of you and Lydia Martin, of all
people, started casually talking to you and giving you advice whenever you
needed it. You often forgot that you weren’t really dating because whenever you
were around Liam, your heart raced and you got butterflies as if you were
actually hanging out with someone you had feelings for. It wasn’t until you
sometimes saw your ex around the school who made snide and rude comments about
the two of you that you remembered what was going on.
all sweaty,” you laughed as you and Mason went onto the field after one of the
lacrosse games to congratulate Liam. He had a large grin on his face, pulling
off his lacrosse helmet and Mason gave him a high five.
after sports people get sweaty. Weird, isn’t it?” Mason said as you gave Liam a
short congratulatory hug, “poor Devenford Prep though… I should probably go and
see if Brett’s alright…”
I’m sure you’re really concerned about his feelings,” Liam said sarcastically
as Mason ignored him, walking over to the opposite (and losing) team.
how does it feel to win against your old school?”
amazing, actually,” he paused, “he’s watching again. Doesn’t he have anything
better to do?”
shrugged, knowing exactly who Liam was talking about, “maybe we should give him
had been joking – kind of. And Liam knew that but he couldn’t resist. He
dropped his helmet, cupping your face and kissing you passionately. You no
longer cared about how sweaty he was as you kissed him back, a part of you
relieved that you were finally getting to do this.
pulled away slightly, smiling like an idiot and Liam began to lean in again.
not even watching anymore,” you told him and he shook his head.
just really like kissing you.”
then you kissed him again.
is just relationship…ist,” you said angrily as you and Scott sat in the library
working on an assignment together. Scott raised an eyebrow, half listening as
he was actually working while you were flicking through a free Beacon Hills
magazine that you could always find lying around the town in random places.
have no idea what you’re going on about.”
put the magazine down in front of him so he had to actually look away from what
he was doing, pointing to the ad on the page.
get a 50% discount at the Canary. Couples are the ones that can actually afford
to be there, single people should be the ones getting the discount.”
pushed the magazine back towards you, amused by your reaction.
so good about the restaurant, anyway?” he asked and you looked at him in
– how could you ask that? The food is the best food I’ve ever eaten. It makes
you want to cry rainbows it’s so good.”
snorted, “if you let me do my work I’ll be your fake boyfriend and go with
know the way to my heart, McCall.”
told maybe one person that you and Scott were going for the discounted food and
the word got out like Chinese whispers. Soon, everyone ignored the fact you
were just going to a restaurant together and were talking about how the two of
you were now dating. Both of you, even with Scott’s werewolf senses, were
oblivious to the rumours and were sitting at lunch together when Stiles was the
first person to sit down with the both of you.
can’t believe you two,” he said, you having your mouth full with your lunch but
raising an eyebrow at him, “you’re dating and you didn’t even tell me.”
nearly choked on your food.
you hear that?” Scott asked casually, not denying the claim.
fucking Lindsay of all people! She wanted to know how long it’d be going on –
how come everyone knew before your best friend?!”
looked at Scott and to your surprise, he shrugged.
were going to keep it a secret.”
was when the rest of the group sat down at the table.
it’s true then?” Lydia asked, looking between you and Scott and he took your
hand, giving it a small squeeze.
we’re dating,” and then he looked at you, “and we’re going to get a discount at
the Canary. I want to cry rainbows.”
knocked at Scott’s front door on Saturday night, ready for your fake date. The
two of you had found the whole fake dating thing to be rather amusing,
promising each other to keep it up until after the restaurant date and then
saying that you would break up afterwards because you realised you were just
‘better off as friends’.
Scott didn’t have a car you said you’d drop by his place after he was done
practicing lacrosse with Stiles and Liam that day. Usually you didn’t mind just
going on the back of his motorbike to places but tonight you actually got
dressed up a little bit and you couldn’t risk having helmet hair or your makeup
Melissa grinned as she opened the door, “come on in. Scott got home later than
expected and he’s nearly ready. God, I’m so glad he finally got the guts to ask
you out. He’s always gushing about his feelings for you and how he just doesn’t
know what to do about it. He adores you, really.”
mum?” Scott said, knowing he was too late in defusing the embarrassing
situation as he came walking quickly down the stairs.
your mother, it’s my job to embarrass you,” Melissa teased, “I guess that’s my
cue to leave the two of you alone. Have fun – be safe!”
only managed to yell a goodbye because Scott was pushing you out of the door,
eager to get out of the situation.
he warned, knowing you were ready to mention what had just happened, “you look
amazing, by the way.”
not often I dress up like this so you better appreciate it. So should the
discounted food, which I’m highly looking forward to.”
Canary was filled with couples of all ages and you and Scott fit right in as
plates of food were being placed in front of you.
we going to be able to eat this all?” you asked.
I’m a guy who also happens to be a werewolf. I could finish all of this on my
had a fair point.
two of you were complimented several times by waiters for being such a cute
couple, you both accepting these compliments graciously but with bright red
faces. Ever since Melissa made the comment earlier about the two of you, you
couldn’t help but wonder if she was joking because you’d always thought it was
just you that liked him.
is it?” Scott asked, noticing your wondering expression. You gave a small
shrug, feeling awfully shy which you weren’t usually like around him.
you really gush about having feelings for me?”
time, he was the shy one. Scott poked at his food, his cheeks reddening which
they had been on and off throughout the night.
wouldn’t say I gushed about it,” he finally admitted, “but I do talk about
liking you a bit.”
night had been a blur. The last memory you had was agreeing to do shots with
Stiles and the next day you woke up safely tucked in bed (thanks to Scott) just
before you launched yourself to the toilet to begin your day of being hungover.
You felt like shit. And even on Monday morning as you walked into school you
had a faint throbbing in your head and you were drinking more water when Stiles
never drinking alcohol again,” was the first thing you said to him, noticing he
looked a similar way to you.
me about it,” he agreed, “but we say that all the time.”
leaned against his side, waiting for the others to arrive when you got your
first ‘congratulations’ from someone. Neither of you were sure what the person
was congratulating you on but you thanked them anyway. Then it happened again
when a girl from your English class walked past, lifting her hand to high five
heard about Saturday! It’s about time you two got together!” she said excitedly
before walking into school.
you have any idea what’s going on?” you asked, confused as to what you just witnessed
as Stiles shook his head.
spent yesterday in the toilet. I didn’t even turn my phone on because the
brightness made me sick.”
waited a little longer and then Stiles suddenly perked up.
there’s Theo. I saw him at the party on Saturday with that guy – I think he’s
trying to get him to join his weird ass pack,” Stiles tried to tell you
quietly, hoping that Theo was listening in.
he could be into guys?”
you two were certainly a sight for sore eyes,” Kira suddenly said, appearing
beside the two of you and making you jump. When she noticed the confused, she
elaborated. “On Saturday, I mean. I didn’t know that getting the two of you
together meant getting you drunk and having you confess your love to one
another but man, it worked. That was gross.”
and Stiles nearly had a heart attack. Quickly, you stepped away from one
another, sharing a confused stare just as the bell went. Kira looked between the
two of you but didn’t say anything, leaving you two alone as she entered the
school on her own. Rather than say anything, you and Stiles went your separate
second period, your phone buzzed in your pocket. You glanced at the message
from Stiles which simply read to meet him at your spot. Your teacher was
reluctant to let you leave but when you did, you nearly sprinted to the spot
under the third floor corridor staircase where Stiles was waiting clearly
agitated. It seems you weren’t the only one having people come up to you and
congratulate you on officially dating Stiles and that many people saw your proclamation
of love which neither of you can remember.
you remember?” you began but Stiles suddenly pulled you to him, putting a hand
over your mouth. You were confused, only to hear Theo’s voice echoing the
corridor and you got the idea. You tried to listen in with him but Theo stopped
talking and soon you heard footsteps coming towards where the two of you were
swiftly kissed you, causing you to freeze up. You weren’t sure whether to pull
away or to kiss him back, only to understand what he was doing when Theo
finally stopped in front of the two of you.
“Whoa, Theo!” Stiles pulled away, “can’t a
couple just have a few moments of peace?”
eyebrows furrowed, “so the rumours are true.”
rumours? Didn’t you see us at the party?” Stiles wrapped his arm around you and
you smiled sheepishly. Your teacher was gonna be pissed at how late you were
going to be.
left by then.”
your guy friend?” you blurted out and Stiles tried to stifle a laugh. Theo
decided it was best to ignore you – which it was – and began to walk back to
class that he was obviously avoiding as well.
looked at Stiles with a questioning expression but he shook his head, “we’ll
talk about this later.”
never talked about it later but you had a silent agreement to continue the fake
dating. Both of you watched one too many movies and had the idea that if you
did the couple getting caught making out when you were actually searching into
something you shouldn’t be then it was a win-win deal. You were just too nosy.
basically detectives,” Stiles said, the two of you hidden in a corner of a club
watching a group of suspected chimeras. The two of you had been awfully touchy
the past few days, both of you trying to convince yourselves it was all just a
charade but it wasn’t. If you were able to convince your friends that you were
dating, the people you were closest to, then it wasn’t really fake.
you wanna go home and watch Star Wars?” you yelled over the music and Stiles leaned
his forehead against yours.
are perfect for me.” He said, grabbing your and leading you out of the club.
Your heart was racing and even when you got to the car, Stiles continued to
hold your hand on the drive back to his place.
our detective work, right?” you said jokingly to him when he pulled into the
driveway, Stiles walking quickly around to your side of the car to open the
door for you.
leaned in and kissed you, “this has never been about the detective work.”
me alone,” you said for the third time to a guy that hadn’t stopped trying to
chat you up during the last big lacrosse game. You looked around, trying to
find someone you knew to go to for help but the crowds of people all looked the
You got a boyfriend?”
should that matter? Leave me alone.”
tried to remember how to throw a punch – you even considered making a scene by
yelling loudly for the creep to get away from you. But your rescuer stepped out
of the shadows, wrapping their arm around you and you nearly punched them in
the face until you saw who it was.
guy bothering you, babe?” Theo Raeken said sternly and the guy put his hands in
No problem here, Raeken!”
Theo stepped towards him, “because you better not be bothering my girlfriend.”
how scared you were, your heart was filling with butterflies for all the wrong
reasons. You had Theo in a few of your classes and god, you found him insanely
attractive. He was always sweet towards you and now you were never going to be
able to thank him enough.
not! I was just leaving, I swear!”
never seen someone move so quickly.
he disappeared into the crowd, Theo turned to you and gave you the most
charming smile. You knew about his powers and was fully aware that he could
probably smell your lust and nervousness.
mention it,” he winked before disappearing as well and you couldn’t help but
smile like an idiot.
next week you were sitting in the library on your own when Theo sat down beside
you again, putting his arm around you. Your heart got caught in your throat as
you glanced up at him, Theo seeming very comfortable and casual with the
you hear?” he said with an amused tone, “everyone thinks we’re actually dating.
I want to make sure they continue to think that so those guys will leave you
there. They’ve been saying some disgusting things about you and either I beat
the shit out of them or they just get too freaked out to do anything in the
first place,” he paused, “you’re cute when you’re nervous.”
ignored him, “so, what? You’re fake dating me now?”
you mind? I think it’d be fun.”
took your answer as a yes when you blushed and look hastily away.
next few weeks went past in a blur. It all started out as a bit of fun and
eventually you were comfortable enough with Theo to get a bit into it as well.
He never did anything beyond holding your hand or wrapping his arms around you but
soon you were beginning to realise you wanted more – and so did Theo. He tried
to convince himself that he was just doing this as a nice gesture because he’d
thought you were vulnerable but he came to realise that you were stronger than
even he was. You impressed him and Theo found himself lying in bed at night
wishing you were there and he got excited whenever he knew you were nearby.
was another big lacrosse game and Theo was finishing up some personal business
when he saw a guy attempting to take the seat that Theo had originally be
sitting in and chat you up. He clenched his teeth, storming towards you and his
heart jumped when you made eye contact and you smiled at him.
babe,” Theo said, leaning down to where you were sitting, cupping your cheek
and kissing you hard on the lips. You froze up but kissed him back, the guy
that had been attempting to hit on you moving far away as possible.
a room!” someone yelled and Theo moved away, brushing his thumb against your
have no idea how long I’ve wanted to do that.”
soulmate au: you and your soulmate have tattoos that represent the others interests that tingle when you two are close to one another
word count: 2,273
A/N this is honestly written for @parkerbpete, since she inspires me to write so much, like i love her work and ugh, she is my writing senpai. i love her and yea, hope you all like
Ink stained across your arm forming an intricate sleeve, a
tattoo filled with things your soulmate was interested in, that would fluctuate
from time to time. You remember that before it was filled with electron
diagrams, pi and other math symbols, chemical structural formulas, and things
you couldn’t recognize, all coming together to form a science themed tattoo
sleeve, but now all that changed. Some tattoos fading to make space for your
soulmate’s newest interests, which mainly consisted of the newest superhero to
join the scene, Spiderman. Spidey’s logo was now on your bicep, a small
avenger’s logo on the base of your wrist, a crest that matched the iron man
suit, and spider webs lacing the new tattoos with the old. But the one thing
that never changed was the writing that surrounded your wrist that was written
in their writing, “always be yourself”
You had the vague idea that your soulmate attended
Middletown with you, since the only time the writing on your wrist seemed to
tingle, was walking down the corridors of school. But you always thought
against finding them, having the idea that they were better off without you. Plus
after spending hours staring at your tattoos, you felt that you two would have
nothing in common. You may have been smart enough to attend Middletown; however
your interests were more inclined to herbs and plants, not science.
So you made the decision to not look for your soulmate, because
if they didn’t bother looking for you, then it only proves they didn’t need you
in their life. So you would just continue walking down the halls, knowing that
someone at school could also feel the tingling sensation on their arm.
You were gathering your supplies to tend your rooftop garden
before you headed to sleep, however the last thing that you expected was to see
Spiderman on your rooftop. The red and blue hero was resting against the brink
ledge, as he clutched his arm, seeing a few gashes on the suit.
“Spiderman are you ok?” setting down your supplies.
A groan escaped his lips, his body trying to become alert,
but couldn’t with how tired he felt. He shook his head, “no, but I’ll be fine
in a bit” trying to sound heroic but failing in the process.
You quickly went over to the small first aid kit, knowing
that although it wasn’t built for serious injuries, there were still supplies
for simple cuts and injuries from when you would nick yourself while tending
your garden, “I seriously doubt that.”
As you approached Spiderman, small tingles ran up your arm,
as the writing on your wrist started to feel warmer with each passing step. Your
heart sped up knowing the reason why your arm was tingling, but right now his
injuries mattered more than asking him if he was your soulmate. You gently set
your supplies down, being mindful of where he was hurting and ignoring his
intense gaze. Your hands were slightly trembling, anxious of being so close to
him that you started to question if you could do this. You weren’t sure if you
were nervous because you were near Spiderman or near your soulmate. Your licked
your lips and emptying your thoughts, reaching out for his right arm, and the
moment you touched it, you felt the warm spark run across your arm, confirming
the small doubts in your mind, this really was your soulmate.
You didn’t do anything to call attention to it, and focused
on the gashes on his suit, seeing the scarlet liquid staining not only the suit
but the pale skin underneath. You reached for gauze and peroxide, “this may
sting a bit,” the bottle still trembling in your hand, reminding yourself to
You looked up at Spidey, wanting some sort of confirmation
that he was ok with this. He nodded, and you started to pour the liquid over
his wound. A hiss escaped his lips, as the water met the raw skin. You gently
started to pat the area dry, making sure that the wound was clean before you
moved on to the next. Your whole right arm never stopped sending the small sparks,
that you wondered how he could keep his composure, when you were almost a
nervous wreck. You looked up at him, meeting the visors that covered his eyes,
but it didn’t lessen the speed of your heart or the warmth that was spreading across
“That’s a nice sleeve,” his voice finally filling the
silence that surrounded both of you.
“Thanks…it’s based on my soulmate,” your voice coming out as
His gloved hand traced over the writing, before he started
to travel up the rest of the sleeve, making your heart go into overdrive and
your skin so sensitive to his touch, making you bite down on your lower lip,
but you didn’t dare ask him to stop. “I know,” his voice no longer sounding
hurt, “my arm is filled with flowers,” his hand now tracing over one spider webs.
You are more than just a jumble of muscle, skin, and other bodily tissues. You are more than the colour of your hair, eyes, and finger nails.
You are more. Much, much more.
There is a beautiful complexity that lies deep within you; the source of your very being.
Your body is your vehicle, your voice is your speaker, however there is so much more that lies within.
“Y/N?” A knock at the door accompanies the voice that just spoke, bringing a smile to your face. It’s a welcome distraction from staring at the wall, which you’ve been doing for four hours straight. There’s not much to do when you’re not allowed out of your bed. “Are you awake?”
“Come in,” you call back, propping yourself up against a few pillows. It takes some effort and your body rebels against the movement, but you grit your teeth and swallow back your groans. All the aches and pain are worth it. They prove that you’re okay. That you, unlike Antoine, are still alive.
I was doing well, and then one thing hit and after that I can barely lift my head up from everything thats crashed down onto me.
And half of it is because of you.
After you left, I hid my feelings so well that I even forgot I felt them. I used forgetting as a way to heal, I forgot to feel the emotions that come after a breakup and I was doing so well because of that.
But now I’m remembering. And since I’ve started I cant stop. I remember being there the first time our hands intertwined and I remember the way it felt to be so close to you. and I remember every single phone call that we had. And all that may sound nice, because it did make me smile, it did make me laugh thinking about the things you’d say but then it just hurt because your not here. none of that is here anymore.
You use to text me in all caps saying you loved me and now you don’t even look in my direction. You can’t even say hello anymore..
And it hurts, because now that I remember how it felt to be there, to have you, to love and be loved, I miss you.
I miss you so damn much and I can’t breathe because suddenly I’m reminded of when you ended things. and then the picture flashes through my mind of you with her.
And now I can’t even get out of bed anymore because life hurts too damn much.
Because I’m reminded of how people can wake up one day and decide that they don’t love you anymore. and I’m so scared that everyone I have ever known will leave.
Request from the lovely @crystalbaby12 for a Jax x Reader based on the following prompt:
#78 - “I need you to be my girlfriend for about 5 minutes.”
Sorry I didn’t include both prompts that you originally asked for!!! Hope you still like it x
A whistle catches your attention, Jax smiling widely at you from across the room. Getting up, you move over to him, eye brows raised in question.
“Last time I checked, I’m not a dog. My name will do if you need my attention.” He continues to grin as you eventually end up smiling, a common reaction when faced with the man you love.
“I always need your attention, darlin.” he flirts, the playful banter a daily occurrence for the two of you. Though you expect it’s harmless on his end, you can’t help but fall deeper and harder for him, him having no idea about your feelings.
“Doesn’t everyone?” you ask sarcastically, moving to stand beside him, the two of you watching as Gemma and some of the others set the table, a family dinner about to take place. You had of course been invited, Gemma loving you like her own, you and Jax being as close as can be since the two of you met each other four years ago.
“You know how you love me?” Your heart stops for a moment, until your mind catches up and realise he’s just talking platonically, your face flushing all the same. “I need you to do me a favour.”
“Is that so? What’s in it for me?” you question, lifting your bottle of beer to your lips, Jax watching you intently. He continues to smile at you, the look of pure adoration as clear as day to outsiders. But not to you.
“Can’t you just help me out of the goodness of your pretty, pretty heart? You wound me.“ He places his hand on his chest, faux offense on his face. Rolling your eyes, you nudge his body with your own, your skin tingling at the connection.
“What do you need?” You wait for him to respond, genuine curiosity on your face. You had no idea what he needed from you, but knowing Jax, it wouldn’t be simple.
“I need you to be my girlfriend for about five minutes.” The alcohol gets stuck in your throat at his request, an unattractive cough breaking out as you try to recompose yourself. Jax chuckles, shaking his head as he watches you with amusement, liking that he can catch you off guard after all this time.
“No way! I refuse to put myself through such torture.” you say, covering up for the fact that you’d actually love to be his girlfriend. Not just for five minutes, though. For a lot longer.
“You haven’t even heard my reasons yet!” he laughs, used to your stubborn behavior. He grabs your hand, his huge one covering your smaller one so perfectly, his skin warm and comforting as he leads you outside the back, the others not noticing as you slip away.
Once you’re outside, Jax pulls a cigarette from his pocket, offering you one in the process, you declining. “Those things’ll kill you, you know.”
“I’ve heard there’s quite a queue, they’ll have to get in line.” Jax jests, his lungs inhaling the nicotine before the smoke escapes from his lips, your fingers tightly gripping your bottle as you remind yourself to breathe.
“So, please entertain me. Why do you need me to fake date you? I’m sure you’re not short on potential candidates.” You hike yourself up onto the brick wall, your boots just about touching the floor.
“Straight to the point, as usual.” He takes a seat next to you, your thigh brushing his in such a delightful way. “My mom has invited some chick round, thinks we’d get on well.”
You feel like you’ve been punched in the gut, the thought of Jax with somebody else so painful even though you should be used to it by now, females seeming to be everywere he goes.
“You never know, you might like her. Your mom has good taste.” you encourage, trying to keep your expression as natural as possible, not wanting to let on how you really feel about this idea.
Jax shrugs, taking his last drag before throwing the stub to the floor, his eyes finding yours, you looking down from the intensity of his gaze. “Of course she has good taste. She’s been trying to hook us up for years.”
You smile into your lap, a red hot blush covering your cheeks as butterflies flutter in your stomach as Jax gauges your reaction.
“Is that so?” you challenge, the tension between the two of you rising as you look up at Jax, determined to hold his gaze as your faces stay only inches apart.
Jax hums in confirmation, his tongue running over his bottom lip. You break away, your eyes moving in front of you. His thigh moves from yours as he pushes himself off the wall, his body coming to stand in front of you as he pulls you up, you letting him.
“This is new.” you say as Jax pulls you closer to him, his hands resting on your back to keep you from moving away, not that you would. Nevertheless, you remain stiff, not wanting to make a move incase it’s too much.
Jax senses this, rolling his eyes dramatically, huffing as he leads your arms, placing them around his neck, his hands going back to where they were before as you’re pressed up against one another.
“Does that bother you?” he mumurs, the distance between you so small that even if he whispered, you’d hear it as clear as day. You shrug your shoulders shyly, your cheeks definitely a bright shade of red. “You’ve gotta get used to this if you wanna be convincing.”
You can’t control your change in moods as you realise Jax is only doing all of this so you’ll help him get rid of some chick, a sigh leaving your lips as you push at his chest, a confused expression on his face as he removes his grip from you, you stepping back to create distance.
“Is that all I’m useful for, hm? Helping you make excuses so your entourage backs off?” Jax goes to defend himself, you stopping him with your hand. “Save it, Jackson. Thanks for making it clear.”
“Making what clear? What are you talking about?” He grabs your wrist as you turn away, you snatching your arm back as if you’ve been burnt by his touch. He looks completely clueless as he studies you, you trying to compose yourself before you start blubbering in front of him.
“I’m talking about us!” you say, gesturing between the two of you. Sighing, you run your hand through your fringe, trying to think before you speak. “I get that I’m not enough for you, that all I’ll ever be is a friend. But really, asking me to be your girlfriend for five minutes before you drop me again? I’ll pass, thanks.”
“I didn’t think you’d mind! You’ve done it for me before-” Jax stops mid sentence, realisation hitting him in the face like a bus. You frown as he begins to smile, his tongue slipping out of his mouth slightly as he nods towards you. “You’re jealous aren’t you?”
You freeze for a moment, shock on your face, before you feign disgust. Scoffing, you cross your arms defensively. “You wish.”
“Don’t try and lie to me, don’t forget I know you better than anyone.” You curse under your breath as you realise you’ve stepped in a big pile of metaphorical dog shit, and you’re unable to see a way out of it. “You like me.”
“Obviously. You’re my best friend.” you say, trying to remain casual. Jax slowly moves closer to you, you moving backwards until you come into contact with the side of the house, the brick firm against your back. Jax continues to move as you stand, trapped, your palms sweaty due to your nerves.
“That’s not what I mean and you know it.” he teases, his hands being placed either side of your head as he boxes you in, his face hovering just above yours. “You like me, like me.
“What are you, twelve?” You keep your eyes focused on his, your anxiety almost getting the better of you. Your stomach flips when you see his gaze flick to your lips, you swallowing nervously.
He moves even closer to you, your eyes fluttering closed as he brushes his nose against yours, his breath fanning onto your lips. “I don’t hear any denial.”
“Just kiss me if you’re going to, you idiot.” You open your eyes quick enough to catch Jax with slight shock on his face, before you close them again at the feel of his lips upon yours. You grip his shirt in your fist as you enjoy the moment you’ve been dreaming about for years.
Jax sucks on your bottom lip teasingly, a moan erupting from inside of you. You’re embarrassed for a moment, that is until Jax moans in response, his hands sliding to your ass as he squeezes, lifting you up and pushing you against the brick.
“Guys-” Chibs’ voice interrupts the two of you, his sentence cut short as he sees how you’re occupied. He smirks, you red faced as Jax remains calm and collected. “Gemma is looking for you. No rush, though, take your time.”
He winks at the two of you before disappearing back inside, Jax still holding you as you wiggle to get down. Chuckling, Jax complies with your request, placing you carefully back on the floor. “Continue this later?”
You hum, slipping your fingers up his shirt, his skin warm as he flexes under your touch. Leaning up, you move to his ear, your hand drifting to the waistband of his boxers.
“We’ll see.” With that, you separate from him quickly, slipping back inside with a parting wink.
A/N - Longer than usual but I hope you guys liked it anyway! Xxx
@avengerstories - The messages you sent me after editing this part let me know that I had successfully tugged on all of the right heartstrings, so thank you for that.
Whenever an uncomplicated task arises, people say it’s as easy to accomplish as breathing. The adage always made perfect sense to you whenever you heard it. Breathing is second nature. It can be done without having to think twice and, sometimes, it feels like certain tasks are the same way.
Today, that’s not the case. Standing here across from Bucky for the first time in weeks, you find that breathing is anything but easy. The air was knocked out of your lungs as soon as you stumbled upon the note he wrote on the canvas and you haven’t yet recovered. You have to keep reminding yourself to breathe, just breathe. But it’s hard. How are you supposed to remember to inhale and exhale in a moment like this?
“Are you going to say something?” You press, once the silence of the room becomes too unbearable. Your fingers curl tightly around the canvas as you wait for Bucky to speak. “Anything?”