remember when i used to be good at this

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Asher: “As the eldest son, it is up to me to say a few words about my Dad. But how to do you sum up in a few paragraphs how much someone means to you? I have asked myself that a hundred times over the past few days and I came up with, you can’t. You can’t do most people justice in so few words, and that is certainly true about my Father.

He was the kind of person I hope that I can be, the kind that loves his family and works hard for them and for himself. The type of person that knows his limits and does his best to stick to them and most of the all the kind that knows his flaws. And doesn’t shy away from them, but tries to correct them as best as he can. 

What I remember most about my Father is how much he wanted his children to be good people. He always instilled in us the importance of being kind to those around us, and to help them when they are in need. He always made sure we knew the value of family and the importance of being there for each other in both times of happiness and in times of sorrow. He always told me ‘Asher, be sure to take care of your Mother and the twins when I am not here’. And I always told him that I would. And I will, Dad. I promise we’ll take care of each other now that you’re gone.”

Having nothing left to say, and not trusting himself to speak much longer, Asher motioned to his mother to take over if she was ready…….

anonymous asked:

what do you think of Uta? I feel weird after this chapter

We need to remember that is Uta we’re talking about. I know that many of us love him because we got to see his “nice” side, hanging out with Yomo, being nice to Touka and going to :re occasionally apparently. But I personally don’t trust him and I can literally expect anything from him. He’s a clown, we like it or not. He was laughing and making fun of the situation when Kaneki “died”, and I don’t think he’s honest most of the time? I love him but I don’t expect good things from him. The clowns just want to have fun, I think Uta knew that this could happen and he wanted to enjoy Mutsuki’s crazy reaction. It’s fucked up but I can’t expect a good Uta trying to calm down Mutsuki or something. Many people said that maybe he’s not the person underneath Mutsuki? I don’t know that, we’ll find out in the next chapter, but I don’t forget what Uta said about Kaneki being “his special costumer” and saying to Yomo that he didn’t know what plans the clowns had for Kaneki when he’s an active member of the clowns, and he hangs out with Donato and Furuta. If Uta really cares about Kaneki, he would know that Mutsuki and the rest of the quinx squad are important to him, so he wouldn’t play with Mutsuki this way. I’m not trying to say that Uta is bad or that a character has to be black or white, but it just doesn’t surprise me when he comes up with crazy shit like this, because I know he’s not one thing or another, he’s many things at the same time and he’s unpredictable. 

Update

So I know I kinda ended all of a sudden a long time ago, but I’m sorry the whole roommate problem was kinda a problem. So she got me to go into trance, and I guess she had me under for several weeks, because I just had that waking up feeling about 12 hours ago, and couldn’t remember anything. Apparently she made me regain my old intelligence, and also caused the file I was using to not work for me anymore. I still feel dumb and horny, but not as much anymore and I can think kinda clear now, and when I tried listening to the file I didn’t go blank like before and didn’t feel any dumber. But spirals still work so that’s good. And remember when I put the bimbo file on my roommates phone? Well its definitely been working, because shes wearing stuff a prostitute would wear and shes getting giggly and starting to sound like a valley girl, but I guess because she doesnt know the file is playing and because she doesnt want any of it to happen it’s taking longer to work.

So I need your guys help, because my old file doesn’t work anymore and I’m too smart. So please send me any spirals or files or anything because I don’t wanna be stuck between smart and dumb forever. And if anyone has any ideas about my roommate then let me know too because I need to get her to where I was before.

I’m so sorry for the big wait but now that I’m back I’ll post more, and you guys can ask me questions or anything so I’ll answer anything you guys send me!!!

pedoseidon  asked:

HI YOU ARE LITERALLY THE ONLY PERSON I'VE EVER SEEN THAT KNOWS ABOUT AND ENJOYS "HELP IM A FISH" AS MUCH AS I DO AND I JUST WANNA SAY THAT THAT FINAL SCENE FUCKED ME UP TOO. THIS IS MY FAVOURITE CHILDHOOD MOVIE AND I WAS SCARRED FOR LIFE WHEN I WATCHED IT. but like in a good way. anyWAYS NONE OF MY FRIENDS - IRL AND ONLINE - KNOW ABOUT THIS MOVIE AND I JUST!! HMU IF YOU WANNA TALK ABOUT IT/?? I GUESS?? fuck. okay. BYE! THANKS!!

DUDE YES

I STILL REMEMBER THE WHOLE “WHO WAS FIRST, THE CHICKEN OR THE EGG?” SCENE AND I WAS OMG IT MAKES SENSE (AND THE WHOLE TRANSFORMATION SEQUENCE, LIKE, FLY WAS SUPER BRIGHT USING THE FORMULA)

AND THEN IN THE END, THE SCENE WITH CHUCK’S MOM.

I WAS SUPER SCARED AND ALMOST SCREAMING BECAUSE HOLY SHIT THEY WERE GOING TO DO THAT IN A KIDS MOVIE???!!!

But srsly the movie was great with good and touching moments it’s sad not a lot of people knows about it

I was tagged by both @missjanedoeeyes and @butterfliesforchubbyguys, so I guess I better get to it.

5 things you’ll find in my bag

  1. Lipstick, lip gloss, lip crayon, lip balm and probably a sugar scrub, too. I have a problem. I’m not mad.
  2. A Moleskine notebook.  
  3. My keys, complete with Cap shield keychain.
  4. The “resist” postcards and Stamp Act stamps that I’m using to make sure my senator remembers he’s accountable for his votes. 
  5. Tylenol. A girl likes to be prepared. 

5 things you’ll find in my bedroom

  1. Three pieces of the wicker furniture that I had in my room when I was a teenager. It doesn’t match anything else in my room (or my house). 
  2. A little essential oil diffuser/humidifier thing puffing out hippie-dippie spa smells.  (Copying from @missjanedoeeyes, because I have one, too – today it’s churning out some bright, citrusy goodness that is supposed to make me feel less like I’m dying.)
  3. Two overflowing bookcases. 
  4. My favorite picture ever of my daughter and me. 
  5. Necklaces. So many necklaces.

5 things I’m currently into

  1. Makeup, which is kind of new for me. Being friends with @superstringtheory will do that to you. 
  2. The idea that I will someday finish all my WIPs. Not just one, but ALL. It’s good to have a dream.  
  3. Being intentional about my friendships. Reaching out. Being there.   
  4. Having my nails done. I went YEARS without having a professional manicure, got one so I could have Stucky nails to show my dumpster friends and the slope, pal, it is a slippery one.
  5. Mexican Coke. 

5 things on my to-do list

  1. Do what I said I was going to do when I bought a pie-of-the-month calendar that includes recipes and actually MAKE A PIE OF THE MONTH. (I’m 0-2 thus far. There is make-up pie in my future.) 
  2. Catching up on Game of Thrones. I am woefully behind, and by that, I mean that I just started season 3 today.
  3. Finish the book that’s been sitting on my nightstand for two months without picking up a new one. 
  4. Spring cleaning. It’s not spring, but it felt like it here this past week, so I should probably just get started. 
  5. Plant flowers in my front yard and keep them alive for an entire season.

5 things people may not know about me

  1. I may have to get adult ear tubes because I still get tons of ear infections.

2.  My mom disapproves wildly of my tattoos. 

3.  Beyond Tumblr friends, I only have one IRL friend that I can discuss kinky stuff with – and not because she shares it, just because she’s THAT good a friend.

4.  I’m not a redhead.

5.  I once got really drunk and instead of asking a perfect stranger if he washed his hands after he used the bathroom – it was a whole thing, you had to be there – I asked him if he soaped his penis. So.

anonymous asked:

I remember when NS used to say we were jealous of them for havng ladygt but I'm reading our zine and we have so many more talented artists instead of one that's just good at imitation of the original work there is no room for jealousy.

Seriously

anonymous asked:

Chris, I feel so hopeless. How do I get rid of my HUGE fear of food & gaining weight. It gets worse every day. The whole "food = fuel, you need it to live" shit doesn't work for me. I feel so disconnected when it comes to food. I already see a therapist, but I just don't see how I'll ever not be afraid of food. I'm sorry. I just needed to vent. I hope you have a good day & your soul is at peace. ♡

I know this might sound harsh, but maybe you need to be a little harder on yourself, you need to will yourself to eat…get used to eat…remember what it feels like to eat regularly and normally and eat enough. Like wake up and say, “Enough of this bullshit. You are stronger than these negative thoughts. Let’s go. Come on.” Push yourself, you can do this

[TRANS] BTS Japan Official Fanclub Magazine - Suga’s Biography

A mischievous kid growing up into a boy who enjoys reading 

I was born in Daegu in the South, the third biggest city of Korean, and grew up there until I came up to Seoul. When I was young, I was pretty much an ordinary kid. I loved playing around so my kindergarten teacher didn’t seem to like me. (laughs) I remember being scolded “It’s dangerous!” a lot. I also loved sports and was good at running, to the point of being picked as a relay runner from elementary school all the way up to high school. When it comes to studying, I’m slightly above average. 

I used to love playing outside with friends back then, but I changed as I grew up. Even when we went outside, it wasn’t like we did anything, we just gathered at the park. I wasn’t fond of that so many times I just stayed at home on weekends. My mother told me to go outside and meet my friends sometimes. (laughs) 

I had a thing for collecting, so I collected a lot of books when I was young. It was a time when I wanted to be a cultured man, wanted to pretend I know things too. Mature stuffs that didn’t suit my age or novels, poetry books, essays, newspapers,… I read everything regardless of genre. I don’t know why but up till middle school, I had the habit of reading books from the back page. I still read books sometimes now. My reading speed gets faster by reading multiple sentences at a time. 

Memories of first love from elementary school… I really don’t have any. Unlike Seoul, the provinces are conservative, and my school didn’t have that kind of atmosphere in which boys and girls talk to each other. If I was with a girl, I would become really shy and wouldn’t even say a word. 

The encounter with hip hop
Started composing in middle school 

I started to be interested in music in 5th year of elementary school, while watching the performance of “Stony Skunk”, Korean artists, on TV. It was the prime of ballad back then so if 18 teams perform on a music program, 10 would sing ballads, 5 would be idols and the other 3 would be other genres. They were one of those 3 teams. It was so cool how they were different from other singers. Up until then, I didn’t have any interest in music, but with Stony Skunk, I started listening to hip hop and reggae music, and was influenced by Epik High as well. MP3 player was starting to come out at that time, but I bought a Panasonic CD player and listened with that. 

Along with listening to music, I also started writing music at the same time. It wasn’t like someone told me to do it, I just had the thought of having to do so. I started writing rap lyrics in elementary school and started composing after I went to middle school. Back then, no one around me liked hiphop… It became extremely popular in Korea now but when I first started listening to it, hip hop was a genre once popular a long time ago. I think there probably wasn’t anyone on the streets who raps, except for me. If I rap at the karaoke room, it would just become some kind of sound to my friends. You know the moving hand gestures that are hip hop’s specialty? I was picked on for that too. 

Despite that, I still kept liking hip hop and in my 2nd year of middle school, I went on the stage for the first time at a festival. I performed Dynamic Duo’s “Go Back” with a friend. I didn’t like standing in front of people, but at that time, I only felt like I have to do it. I showed the rap that I practice too, although it wasn’t anything great. (laughs) 

 Actually in middle school, I wanted to go to an arts high school so I composed classical music. But the tuition was too expensive so I ended up just going to a regular high school. I told my father “I have done enough music now so I’ll study hard in high school” and went to that school, but of course I didn’t. (laughs) 

Full-fledged activities as a rapper after joining a crew in town 

Middle school years was when I composed music to satisfy myself only, on a hobby level. It was after I changed the MIDI software that I started full-fledgedly making music. In 1st year of high school, I showed my song to a person that was like a mentor to me, and he liked it a lot. I was introduced to a hip hop crew called “D-town” and joined. That song had the feeling of new-age music but had hip hop beats similar to Nujabes. For your information, the mentor that acknowledged me studied at Berklee College of Music and is currently working as a movie music director.

I think I started rapping properly after joining the crew. I have been rapping since elementary school, but since there wasn’t anyone who raps around me, I thought I was the best. (laughs) 

After that, I came to the Daegu underground scene, and from then, I also got to know that you can’t make a living out of music in the underground scene. Most of the hyungs who made music with me that time was about 10 years older than me, there were also people over 30. They worked part-time jobs and made music at the same time, but it seemed very hard. Even when performing live, it was already a huge deal to have 100 audiences, and I hated that fact. I thought “If I success, could I be the liaison of the underground scene?”. There are plenty of people who make good music in the underground scene, so I thought when I become famous, I want to create a better environment for them, I want to show their music to the world. 

Just then, I knew Big Hit was holding an audition in Daegu. I came there knowing nothing but that it was a company formed by composer Bang Shihyuk, but I was told that I was accepted the next day. I heard it later that when he saw me, he immediately thought of letting me pass. Even though I wasn’t good at rapping that time. (laughs) 

Coming up to Seoul after becoming a trainee
Different from first thought…!? 

I came to Seoul on November 7th, 2010, when I was in 2nd year of high school. I still remember it now. 

I joined to company not to rap, but to become a composer. So I thought I didn’t need to dance, and let people who are good at rapping rap, I just needed to follow the producer path. But it became a totally different thing. (laughs) At that time, rather than idols, the company was planning to create a group consisting of rappers, but that changed. The members were Rap Monster, J-hope and me. There were also Supreme Boy, i11even-hyung who is now active in the underground scene and Iron-hyung who made it to the finals of Show Me The Money 3. I think if we debut like that, despite being good at rapping, we would fail. (laughs) 

Rapper & producer
The future Suga thinks of as a goal 

My 4-year-older brother plays a very big role in letting me be able to walk on the music path like this. He started liking hip hop under my influence, but when I came to the audition, everyone in my family opposed it except for my brother. They didn’t view music activities nicely, even my relatives told me “What music for you, go study.” So I only showed my songs to him. He was the first person I informed that I passed the audition too. Our relationship is so good that we’re like friends. I basically don’t drink alcohol, but I drink it with him only. 

My family all support me now, of course. Even the relatives that told me to study ask for my signatures. (laughs) 

These days, I have thoughts about wanting to also be active as a producer. I have no greed of being in the center, I just want to make music. I don’t have interest towards the entertainment world too, everyone says they want to act, or to go on variety shows, but I don’t want to do those. (laughs) But still, the first thing is to make BTS get 1st place in Korea as well as Japan. And myself too, I want to be the best rapper, the best producer. I don’t know if it would take time, but I have to try.

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The more I look back at YoI, the clearer it becomes how unreliable a narrator Yuuri is, especially in the first episode. We should have realised it right from the off that something wasn’t quite matching up between what he was saying and what we were seeing.

Lemme have a quick look:

“I’m one of the dime a dozen figure skaters certified by the JSF”

Dime a dozen. Right, kiddo. When you have groupies who are the rising stars like Minami-kun, who recognise good skating because they’re trained to, I suspect you may be understating how good you are. When your home town plasters your imagery all over the place because you are their famous skater, you’re more than a dime a dozen.

Also, let us take a moment to remember that he made it as far as the Grand Prix final. We learn in later episodes how many competitions you have to win to get through to the Grand Prix Final. He won. He won lots. He did *well* right up until the Grand Prix. The commentater even comments that he wasn’t himself at this one significant event.

This anxiety-ridden little moppet even explains why: the death of a beloved family pet and grief threw him off, and I suspect his natural anxiety was the nail in the confidence coffin. But he still blames himself, despite a run of horrible circumstances, grief, isolation and the insane amount of pressure he was putting on himself to get his ‘big day’ right.

“I was an idiot to think I could finally meet my idol on the same playing field…”

Maybe Sochi wasn’t a level playing field, but it certainly wasn’t because of the skating. It was because of everything else crashing in on him at the same time, which meant his skating suffered. Then it became a domino effect of depression and anxiety and he lost again and again.

We know this because when he was trying to get his groove back, he took Viktor’s gold-medal winning routine and performs it to perfection. Lemme repeat that: a gold-medal winning routine and performs it to perfection. Which he is doing while not in peak condition and while significantly heavier than he had been during the competitions.

Yuuri is a badass-skater, but because of his spiral of depression and anxiety before the start of the series, his narration about himself and his career naturally skews to the negative. And we believed him. We fell for it, because he believed it himself.

How wrong we all were.

I know everyone is rl worried about Supergirl writers turning Lena Luthor evil after that super shady chess scene but I’d like to offer an alternative explanation.
See, when we see Lena playing chess against her brother Lex, she’s actually playing as the white set. Which as we know, symbolically represents the “light” side”.

This foreshadows Lex and Lena being on opposing sides of the battle of good v evil as adults. Lex on the side of dark and Lena the side of light. Not only that, but the piece she uses to move into checkmate?

THE KNIGHT. Which as you may remember, moves in an L pattern. Knights are also symbolic of nobility, courage and honor. A white knight is a saviour. I think it’s highly unlikely to be coincidence that it was the knight that Lena used to defeat Lex. When Lena is in her office after Kara leaves, she picks up that same piece in contemplation.

Lena is looking back on that chess game she had with Lex all those years ago, where she defeated him using the white knight. I think this strongly suggests that Lena herself is the white knight, rather than it being Kara as initial interpretations might suggest.

Instead of this being a “muhahaha, I’m actually an evil mastermind” moment, it symbolises her coming battle against the forces of evil (aka Lillian Luthor). She’s smart and resourceful and she defeated them once,she can do it again. She’s not evil, she’s just an extra ho who is planning to wreck Lillian’s shit.

At least this is what I’m hoping b/c honestly it would be terrible writing at this point to build up a narrative of “it’s not your origin or your genetics that make you, it’s your choices” (mon-el, m’gann), only to destroy it by making Lena evil all along.

@lesbianlena

  • what she says: i'm fine
  • what she means: i can't believe that bts won a daesang award. the crazy amount of hate they have been getting has been so discouraging, but both army and bts worked hard to prove them wrong. i remember when they couldn't even pay for a car for their mv, and now they're winning album of the year. i completely understand why they were crying, i myself am in tears. they are so hardworking and humble, and it feels so good for that hard work to be acknowledged in such a public way. so many were saying that they'll never amount to anything, that nobody likes them anyway, but bts has always kept pushing forward, working hard to release great content for us. i feel so proud of them, just as proud as if i had won an award myself. i will never stop stanning this band. i don't want to ever let them down as army, and i want to keep gaining recognition and awards for them because i couldn't think of anyone who deserves it more. who has worked so hard to get here? who has remained amazingly, shockingly humble throughout the years of rising popularity? who always has words of encouragement for army that brighten my day? who
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it’s ok Jaehyun, he knows it’s your way of expressing love❤️️❤️️

Often I have heard people say, ‘How good God is! We prayed that it would not rain for our church picnic, and look at the lovely weather!’ Yes, God is good when He sends good weather. But God was also good when He allowed my sister, Betsie, to starve to death before my eyes in a German concentration camp. I remember one occasion when I was very discouraged there. Everything around us was dark, and there was darkness in my heart. I remember telling Betsie that I thought God had forgotten us. ‘No, Corrie,’ said Betsie, ‘He has not forgotten us. Remember His Word: “For as the heavens are high above the earth, so great is His steadfast love toward those who fear Him.” There is an ocean of God’s love available—there is plenty for everyone. May God grant you never to doubt that victorious love—whatever the circumstances.
—  Corrie Ten Boom
I’d been stuck in one gender my whole life. It never bothered me. Now I wondered how that would feel for Alex. The only analogy I could come up with wasn’t a very good one. My second grade teacher, Miss Mengler (aka Miss Mangler), had forced me to write with my right hand even though I was left-handed. She’d actually taped my left hand to the desk. My mom had exploded when she found out, but I still remember the panicky feeling of being restrained, forced to write in such an unnatural way because Miss Mengler had insisted, “This is the normal way, Magnus. Stop complaining. You’ll get used to it.”
—  Magnus Chase and the Gods of Asgard: The Hammer of Thor, Rick Riordan
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We all change, when you think about it. We’re all different people all through our lives. And that’s okay, that’s good, you’ve got to keep moving, so long as you remember all the people that you used to be. I will not forget one line of this. Not one day. I swear. I will always remember when the Doctor was me.

one thing i like about alex danvers’ coming out journey as an adult was that like….she was surprised, but…not…surprised. and then the more she thought about it the more she remembered all these things that she knew, but that she didn’t KNOW, you know?

They did a good job capturing the ways in which not figuring it out is some combination of not knowing and all the ways the world convinces us to not look and not see. 

Yaoi on Ice

YOU KNOW THE FIRST EPISODE WHEN VIKTOR SAW YUURI SKATING IN THE VIDEO, RIGHT??

AND HOW HIS EYES SUDDENLY WIDENED A BIT RIGHT!?!?


HE REMEMBERED YURI FROM THE BANQUET.


PART OF THE REASON HE WENT TO JAPAN WAS BECAUSE VIKTOR RECOGNIZED YUURI AS THE CUTE BOY THAT HE LIKED!


PART OF THE REASON HE WENT WAS BECUSE IT WAS YUURI!


NOT JUST HIS SKATING; HE WANTED TO BE WITH HIM!!!!!!


AND THAT’S HOW HE KNEW HOW TO FIND HIM AT THE HOT SPRINGS!


THEY INTENTIONALLY DID THIS AND IT WAS WONDERFUL. THEY PLAYED US REAL GOOD AND I WANT TO BE PLAYED AGAIN.

GOD BLESS