remember when i could relate to this

anonymous asked:

Sorry if this sounds creepy or something but I could've sworn you said you got a tattoo in London but I can't see it anywhere? Have you posted it yet? I was just curious to see what you got!

I did! My first tattoo, and I’d been wanting one since 2013. I got it on the second day of my trip, travelled to Brent for a specific artist that I loved who did fineline tattoos. I definitely have not posted it anywhere. Not creepy at all, thanks for remembering.

Because the trip was pretty much conceived so I could see Coldplay a few more times I wanted something that was kind of related. Favourite album of theirs is Parachutes so I got a parachute with a slight representation of a globe underneath it. I initially wanted this little insignia that represented the Parachutes album (second circle below) and that’s what I sent to the artist and he drew me up a few different designs and we just tweaked it when I arrived.

The globe can be the globe on the front cover of the Parachutes album, but also representative of the trip. I also kind of think of music as my own parachute when things get a bit shit so I if I do fall out of love with the band—as I have a habit of doing—I have other connotations attached. And even if I did, I got it at a time in my life when that’s exactly what I wanted and I was 100% content.

If The Killers in Vegas goes ahead, I’ll add a fine little lightning bolt to it. I like that both bands have very sky/nature-related things as emblems.

ikethegod  asked:

Hi! I was very excited to find you in the trans parenting tag. I'm a trans demiboy and I am expecting my first child early 2018. Do you have any specific tags with resources relating to being a pregnant trans person and dealing with cis people, particularly when it comes to doctors?

Hey mon ami! I wish I could be of more help, but resources for pregnant trans people are few and far between. There’s a book written by a trans man who had his own children, but I’m loathe to recommend it as half of it was a preachy message about chestfeeding.

But I will say this; remember when dealing with the medical professionals that you have the right to be treated with respect. Most in the medical profession will accommodate you with your name and pronouns if you insist upon it. I’ve been extremely lucky with mine, frankly. Make sure you put your foot down and stand your ground on it so to speak.

As for resources; I’m still not entirely sure how much I’m allowed to say about this, but I am currently involved in a very VERY exciting project regarding trans pregnancy that is going to reach millions of people. However it may air just after your child is born so might not be of much help! Hopefully it’ll help others though.

im just remembering all the horror stories from kin tumblr back in 2015/2016

  • the person who faked having a prosthetic arm so they could kin the guy from fma
  • meanposts entire existence
  • i remember when someone messaged me really condescendingly and made posts about me because i had a fucking naruto kin and im white
  • person who pretended to be ashkenazi jewish and used google translate to write posts in hebrew
  • suicide baiting people for having the same kins as you
  • kys fake :3
  • the juuzou fakes list
  • edgecult (??????)
  • komaeda kins
  • people being kin with nazi anime characters for some reason
  • that one post saying you shouldnt even relate to characters of different races
  • everyone having that same fucking layout
  • the constant impending fear of getting a callout
  • feel free to add

“But you lost,” Eric says gently, afraid Jack’s about to realize he’s made a mistake.
“And you won,” Jack counters, just as gently, cupping Bitty’s face. “And you have no idea how proud I am. Six years ago you’d pass out if you got hit. Tonight you ran me into the boards twice!”
“Cause you were being an asshole, Sweetpea,” Eric defends, fighting the warmth rising in his cheeks.
“And it was great, but you know who helped you through that? I did,”
Jack grins. “Checked you so many times you forgot you hated me. So, it’s a bit like I won too, you know? I got to see the man I love, the man I want to spend the rest of my life with, fearless.”
Oh. That’s.
Eric grabs a handful of Jack’s jersey and pulls him down into a kiss, heedless of the flashing lights and screaming spectators.
When they separate Jack’s expression is dazed.

“So you’ll marry me?” Jack cradles Eric’s sweaty face and peppers kisses across his cheek. “Please say yes. Make it official.”

(Excerpt from NHL!Bitty Part XII- ‘A Stanley Cup Wedding’) by @whoacanada
(The Rest of Whoacanada’s ABSOLUTELY MARVELOUS NHL!Bitty Series)

WELL THIS WAS FUN.

BACK TO WORK (that’s a joke. I’ll be in a daze for the next three hours like I usually am after finishing something like this)

(Thanks to everyone who kept me company while I streamed!!)
(and thanks so much to Whoacanada for bein’ a super person)

My other Check, Please! FanArt
My other NHL!Bitty related FanArt.  (and here)

Man...

Sigh. Ok, so this is not the first time I’ve seen this argument and I’ve let it slip because whatever dude. But since this was a comment in my post well…

Time to address the ““issue”” in a post because that’s how petty I am.

Lars. Is. Not. Underage.

Proof? Sure.

Now some of you might not remember Ronaldo’s book ‘Keep Beach City Weird’ because, well, you take anything related to Ronaldo for granted. BUT:

Fifteen years ago. Ronaldo and Lars certainly look young there but they couldn’t have been less than 4 years old when they fought (and that’s exaggerating A LOT). 

So, 15+4=19. Lars is around 19-early 20s

Now you may say… How can his parents still get his report card? Well, he’s clearly not the best at school and repeating a year or two is something that could have happened to him. Sad.

There you have it! Lars is not underage, Larsadie is not pedophillia, you can find Lars cute, have a nice day! 

|| Edit: Also ship Laremmy if you want! It’s lovable, the dynamic is interesting and awesome! ||

((Now, if your issue is me being attracted to a cartoon character overall… It’s just a crush, I think his design is adorable, that’s it dude. Have fun!)) 

Yuri on Ice 2017/02/11 all night event report

I’m back from the event and I’ll write a report before going to sleep, mostly because I’m sure I will not be able to decipher my scribbles when I wake up… It’s not the full talk show since you can’t record it and also I couldn’t possibly write down everything, but I tried to take note of most things, especially stuff that has never been mentioned elsewhere. In the end it became quite long so I guess I was able to get most of the stuff down…

Needless to say it’s my notes, so other people might write about parts I omitted, etc. To be honest quite a few of the things they said especially in the beginning, like what the seiyuu think about their characters, is something I’ve read so many times in interviews that I could almost answer in their place, lol… I was a bit disappointed that one of the questions that was answered is the one about Chris’ mysterious acquaintance, because actually Kubo answered that in Pash already (it’s in the Q&A part I’ll be translating later), and I hoped they would feature questions about stuff that hasn’t been explained yet. Well I guess not everybody reads interviews, but still…

Due to the format of the report you can find my comments here and there, mostly in brackets.
Under the cut because it’s long.

I forgot to mention something important: the ones participating in the talk show were Mitsurou Kubo, Toshiyuki Toyonaga (Yuuri), Junichi Suwabe (Victor), Kouki Uchiyama (Yurio).

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remember when some dipshit claimed people hated Dolores Umbridge more than Voldemort cause of misogyny instead of the fact Voldemort is an fantasy black magic serpent man and Dolores Umbridge is just a petty bitter middle manager who abuses power she’s given which is a type of person everyone on earth knows and can relate to dealing with more than they can dealing with fucking Sauron

He glanced at Tiberius. What was odder, perhaps, was that Ty was looking at him. Emma remembered Ty, years ago, saying, why do people say ‘look at me’ when they mean ‘look at my eyes’? You could be looking at any part of a person, and you’re still looking at them. But he was looking curiously at Kit’s eyes as if they reminded him of something.

Holding hands? no of course not what do you mean

I feel like having a lack of empathy is misunderstood by a lot of people. I still feel my own emotions as strongly as anyone, but with other people, it’s more that I can just sort of recognize their feelings rather than feel for them.

I wish I could feel empathy, I wish I could flip a switch and turn it on and off as I please, because as it stands now, I can’t really connect with people. All I can do is analyze behavior and mannerisms, and even when I figure out their emotions from that, I don’t know what to do next. If it’s a situation I can relate to, I can go, “Oh I remember how that felt for me, so wow this must be rough for you,” but beyond that I’m kind of lost. I’ll feel sympathy for someone, I can feel sorry for them, but I don’t actually feel sad for them. I won’t lose any sleep over it, I’ll just go, “wow sucks for them, if I can help I will but if I can’t then oh well.”

People say they don’t want your pity, but there’s really nothing more I can give them.

anonymous asked:

What do you think Dan and Phil are actually doing? I don't think there's anything different going on? They're just being quiet and busy that's happened many times before...

This time around it’s different. The last time we had about a week long worth of silence (I guess but you get what I mean) was when they were in LA. That’s easy to depict as, clearly, they spent a day at the Fine Bros, a day with Cat, a day with Anthony, and easily a day by themselves because they love LA. 

But what we got going on here is different. Because A) they keep tweeting REALLY random and obscure things. They’re easily avoiding our questions, questions they would usually answer like “When is the next gaming video??” Which isn’t technically new, it’s just really weird considering they used to have a pretty developed uploading schedule, and then suddenly it’s tuesday and we don’t have any content? When they uploaded Dream Daddy on Thursday because Phil’s mum was in town for her birthday. They usually say when they’re going to upload on liveshow days beforehand.

But here’s the second clue to this mystery, WHY WERE THE LESTERS DOWN IN LONDON FOR A WEEK? Unless Kathryn is celebrating a milestone, or just love their kids and miss them, usually parents don’t stay for a whole week unless something is happening. 

Point C) how come they stayed with Martyn? They usually stayed with Dan and Phil didn’t they? Do they suddenly not have any room in their London Duplex? Yes. Because Phil isn’t going to have his parents sleep in that tiny box he calls a bedroom, and yet why was Phil feverishly cleaning it before they came over? Cool, parents are gonna look at your place (and I’m pretty sure they’ve seen it before earlier this year??) you can hide some things behind the couch and be cool, but Phil made sure the house was SPECIFICALLY PERFECTLY CLEAN. 

Also, DAN BEING NERVOUS IN FRONT OF THE LESTERS?? Boy you just went on a two week holiday with them in Florida, and have loved Mummy Lester since the beginning, there is NO WAY in hell that you are still nervous around them, SOMETHING IS UP. 

D) It’s been 5 months since That Week in March. And although it could easily have been something moving related, why would Dan make sure we remember it and to bring it up when the time comes?? 

I could go on, but they are being extremely sketchy. It’s almost eerie feeling, because we know something is up, and yet they’re being the masterminds they are and just waiting. Waiting for the right time, or the right signal, or for SOMETHING. They want our FULL attention for it, whatever it is. 

SO either their secret project is being released, or they moved again to their forever home, or they got married, whatever it is it’s SOMETHING. 

WHAT ALL ASTRO BLOGS NEED TO HEAR

After being in the astro community for quite a while now, I’ve noticed a number of different ways that people make mistakes and assumptions. I’m very passionate about the way that astrology is received by the world, and I want it to be a practice that is RESPECTED and possibly even accepted by everyone (eventually). Here are some ways that astro blogs tend to invalidate astrology.

*DISCLAIMER* - I am not targeting any specific people. I’m a Virgo moon, and I only want people to become better astrologers and improve the way astrology is used on this website. And I also want everyone to think more before they post! I’m a naturally critical person and want to fix things, but I don’t want anyone to take personal offense to it (my Libra mars wouldn’t like that!). 

- Using sun sign alone. People rely heavily on sun-sign ONLY astrology. Why do people insist on only talking about sun signs? This is just one slice of someone’s personality - there is a whole chart that needs to be looked at, showing that each person has many other qualities other than the ones expressed by their sun. This is not real astrology, and never has been. This is the astrology created by popular media. Most people will not relate to their sun sign in posts anyway unless the post is about their ego, central identity, and general personality. Most astro bloggers make posts that are not about those things, yet they still insist on writing using sun sign instead of another planet that would be much more accurate. Before you write, think about which planet it would REALLY apply to. Please read my post here for a more detailed explanation of this.

- Forgetting your audience. When reading posts, most people ASSUME that the sun sign is the placement the post would apply to. For example, if the post says “Aquarius in love”, 99% of people (especially newcomers to astrology) try to relate it to Aquarius sun - when in fact, this would need to relate to Aquarius venus since venus is the planet of love. Aquarius suns would not have the qualities that this post describes, unless they have an Aquarius venus as well. Even some highly respectable blogs do this - they forget their audience. They don’t realize that most people don’t understand the way the planets work. I see this most often with sun sign posts, but it could also be true for others. Like, there could be a post about the moon signs that really would actually relate more to mercury. The idea is, remember that people don’t know right off the bat which placement the post would apply to. Help them out! Less people will write off your posts as inaccurate if you do this anyway.

- Including the 13th sign Ophiuchus. Just, no. Please don’t. This was a hoax created by NASA to try to prove astrology false. Astrology isn’t based on the constellations anyway, so there is no 13th sign. It’s based on the sections of the sky - they just happen to be named after certain constellations. The signs haven’t shifted. Read my post here about this for more information.

- Generalizing the signs. “Geminis are talkative and full of gossip!!!” “Cancers are soooo emotional and cry all the time!!!” “Leos want to hog the spotlight 24/7!!!!” Honestly, generalizing only leads to people getting upset. Not to mention the fact that it’s completely inaccurate. Most Geminis are not gossipy, most Cancers are not crybabies, and most Leos are not attention hogs. This could even happen with other planet placements (like moon signs or rising signs), I just happen to see it mostly with sun signs. These kind of posts are made by the same people who tend to only write about sun sign away. Read a real description of the sun signs (I recommend cafeastrology.com), or don’t say anything at all. The signs are complex, and can’t be labeled. Also, people don’t realize that all placements and signs can be either introverted or extroverted. They assume that the air/fire signs are extroverted and the earth/water signs are introverted. Sun signs cannot be limited to one personality type - not to mention the fact that the expression of introversion vs. extroversion is actually shown by the rising sign because that is the “shell” that the world sees. See my post here about how the rising signs can be both introverted and extroverted.

- Grouping the signs into categories. I’m sure everyone reading this has seen a post where half of the signs will be in one category and half of the signs will be in another. This isn’t accurate astrology. Signs cannot be grouped or limited - they are unique, and have 12 individual forms of expression. Limiting them to two or three categories makes astrology simple and trite, when in fact it is extremely complex (but fascinating). It’d be one thing if they grouped them by element (earth, air, water, fire), modality (cardinal, mutable, fixed), but most don’t even do that. It’s literally random most of the time. If you’re going to group the signs, at least offer an explanation why you put each sign in each category.

- Dismissing signs or placements as simply compatible or incompatible. Let’s be real here - each sign has the potential to be compatible with ANY sign. Also, compatibility should focus more on moon or venus sign as opposed to sun sign. Sun sign compatibility just determines the kind of general energy that would surround the relationship. Compatibility is complex. Instead of saying whether or not two people are compatible, say WHY. Show, for example, how their moon signs are different elements, how their venus signs are sextile, and how their rising signs are sister signs. Show how one person’s moon sign is the same sign as the other person’s sun sign. Compatibility is really about connections, anyway. Read my post here for more information.

- Basing astrology just on people you know. Not all Scorpios are energetic just because your best friend is. The reality is, your friend is a Sagittarius rising with an Aries mars. This has nothing to do with her being a Scorpio. When you make posts basing the information solely on one or two people you know, this is spreading false information. This could mean that readers would then assume in the future that all Scorpios are energetic just from reading your post. I hate to break it to you, but a lot of people believe everything they read. Especially if they’re beginners to astrology. Please do your best not to influence them to make assumptions.

- Posting without knowledge. You’d be surprised how much this one comes up. If you don’t know a lot about Taurus moons, don’t make a post about them. Simple as that. Play to your strengths to avoid spreading false information. Again, people believe everything they read more often than you think.

- Giving astrology a bad name. Astrology is fun. If you’re reading this, you probably would agree with me. But, there’s a difference between “fun” astrology that is accurate and “fun” astrology that just makes astrology a complete joke. “The signs as types of peanut butter” doesn’t improve people’s knowledge at all. I mean, sure, you could say it’s funny, but it really isn’t. It’s just pointless, and only serves to make readers think that astrology is a joke. Most people who make these don’t consider that people look at them and assume that that’s all astrology is. Every post you make is influencing people’s perception of the subject. Again, at least offer an explanation for WHY an Aries would sleep with five pillows if you’re really going to make a post about the number of pillows the signs sleep with. Chances are, you don’t have one anyway. Sure, you can say all you want that I’m “taking the fun out of it!!!!” or something. But I’m really not. I just want astrology to be perceived as something that really works, not something people make fun of. I’m sick of people laughing at astrology for the wrong reasons - and joke posts are not helping. You can make astrology accurate AND funny. Here’s an example of a post I made about the venus signs that people found amusing, yet also related to at the same time.

Tree Tattoos

Summary:  Whenever you turn 16, whatever happens to your body happens to your soulmate’s body. Connor Murphy’s soulmate loves trees and flowers, but is also suicidal and anxious. He writes reminders about how they should take their medications, and that today was going to be a good day.
He’s paired up with Evan Hansen, the boy who he tried to get away from after signing his cast, in Biology 2. He offers to hang out after school, and Evan accepts.
The sad thing is that everything flips there.
Word Count: 7.1K
Trigger Warnings: self-harm, mention of suicide attempt, and panic attacks.


Fifteen tattoos were littered all over Connor’s body.  They were small, and he had been getting them since he was 16, and his mother wrote out a thing saying he had parent’s permission to get tattoos.  Cynthia only did that because all the drawings were soulmate markings.

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I love the new cars like Cruz as much as everyone else but can we PLEASE show some appreciation for Louise Nash????? She’s a trailblazer for female racers in the universe! Stealing a number to race? WHAT A BAD ASS! Remember when Lightning is naming the other racing legends and Cruz jumps in to name Louise? That’s because Louise gave Cruz someone to relate to in a game she didn’t think she could play. Louise shows how important it is to have women role models in major industries for young girls. When Cruz flips over Jackson Storm you know who’s face they voom into? LOUISE. Because she’s rooting for her fellow woman. NOT ONLY ALL THAT BUT she’s an homage to a REAL NASCAR racer named Louise Smith who’s known as the First Lady of racing. Anyways I could go on for hours please send love to this car 

I miss when Steven Universe was the best show I’d ever seen. I miss shouting when I first saw Garnet fuse. I miss the mystery. I miss the well-written plot. I miss constantly wondering what could be around the corner. I miss speculating. I miss theories. I miss this show bringing out powerful emotions in me. I miss relating to the characters. I miss it all. I miss Steven Universe.

I still remember when I first saw the extended intro, recorded on someone’s phone camera from the event. I remember watching this crowd of people singing along to the song, screaming and cheering, all united together to be nerds about this amazing show. I remember the dead silence right during “But we’re not going to do it alone” and then explosion that followed as everyone screamed as they saw the first glimpse of Yellow Diamond. I cried watching that video because the idea of having this huge group of people all together in one place all loving this one show was just so powerful to me.

And now here we are. Inconsistent and dull writing, characters who look wildly different in each episode, characters with 0 personality, characters with wasted potential, no tension, no overarching plot for over a year, fuckin racism, and its just all gone to shit. I still want to love this show, and I always have hopes that it’ll pick itself back up. but I just really miss when Steven Universe felt like Steven Universe.

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— Samantha Barks on Wicked and Idina Menzel.
Do you have a dream role onstage?
Wicked would be a dream job. The reason I started in musical theatre was the role of Elphaba. I love that role. It’s a beautiful role […] I first saw Wicked when I was 16 and I remember it making me cry. I know that it’s a happy production in many parts, but I think the fact that the whole thing is so vocally powerful and the songs are so beautiful is why it drove me to tears. It means a lot to me because, again, I remember the first time I saw it thinking: yep, that’s what I want to do. I could really relate to it.

How I Learned to Write Characters (Or How I Became TV Trash)

I used to write horrible characters. They had no personality, embodied stereotypes of the worst types of people and the best, and every protagonist was a Mary Sue. I didn’t understand why I couldn’t relate to them. I created them, didn’t I?

Growing up didn’t fix that. Neither did meeting other people. It helped, yeah. But you can’t ever learn everything about someone. People don’t run like characters do, and if they happen to be similar, chances are they won’t let you find out. It came on its own.

I went through some hard times. At least, for a kid. I dealt with people that didn’t understand that me or my friends were human or had feelings. And it left me and my various mental illnesses struggling to even find motivation to write.

I watched TV. I read.

Finding characters, I understood why I needed to make them better. I found characters that I could relate to. Characters with faults. Characters that were bad people but with good intentions, and fixed themselves.

As I put scotch tape over my cracks in my mind, I learned more about how to write. And as I watched characters, I learned more about myself, too. I could write trauma now. I could write flashbacks. I could write depression and harassment and anxiety and sleepless nights.

And when it got bad, I thought to myself–one more episode. One a day. I just have to sit. There were days where I felt like I had nothing to live for but to find out what happened in the next episode of the current crappy anime I watched. I credit my life to it, honestly, because I was so far gone. I’m back now.

It was bad, but characters around me got through it. I was able to function if they were. They had motivation. I had motivation. I could write these things because I had been through these things and these characters helped me function.

Have any of you cried when you watched TV, not because it was sad, but because you felt the same way they did? Because all of a sudden you were back when you were weak and all you wanted to do was to make them feel better? Crying and sobbing in front of my phone because
I was like that too
And I want people to remember that and see the character get better too alongside them
Because they can do it.

Just little things. Steven Universe–anime–cartoons–I could relate. I could write. I could give my characters the same troubles I had and the same feelings and maybe
Just maybe
Someone else might find their reason to live another day. Someone else might figure out that they’re not alone.

And for all I know, that someone could be the future me.

It was worth it. It still is. Other people’s writing and drawings saved me. And you? The amateur writer going through a tough spot? A recovering pro? A beginner who wants to give up?

You could change somebody’s life. And that somebody might be you.

Running Flat

*kicks down fandom door* I’M COMIN’ IN! 

Lance, like all the other paladins, is finally getting used to the “mind meld” they all have to indulge in when controlling their lions. Until someone’s uncontrollable crush comes in and knocks them all back in surprise. It’s a crush that circles persistently through their thoughts and only gets stronger as time goes on, until they begin to realize this might be a bit more serious than the term “crush” implies. 

Meanwhile, the unfortunate paladin behind it all is trying desperately to bury the feelings away, yet failing at every turn. 

Klance.

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Part 1

The mind meld, as Lance (because he was a genius) had deemed it, that the five paladins were quite forced into when they were in their lions was something they’d all been initially uncomfortable with. But as their battles with the Galra and practice days had worn on, they’d grown quite accustomed to the whole thing. The mental connection wasn’t overly invasive, after all. More or less, it was about intention.

Not intention as in they could control what was projected and what wasn’t, but more as though their thoughts and feelings had to be intentionally severe. For example, Pidge’s irritation when they were cornered by the Galra was always very obvious, or Shiro’s deep desire that they all stay calm and collected. Hunk was known for, well, panic, but that usually faded pretty quickly in favor a deep thrumming determination and focus (as well as hunger when they were practicing boring formations). Keith had less constant interjections and was more inclined to shoot them up with irritation or rage (depending on the situation) for short bursts of seconds. Lance was also pretty sure that, when things were dire, the fierce desire to protect came from Keith too. He’d thought it was Shiro at first, until their head’s steady kind of acute protectiveness had come to the surface.

Though everyone was flattered at these rare displays by Keith, no one said anything. Probably wouldn’t have gone over too well and, honestly, making Keith feel embarrassed by the bonds he’d formed with them probably wasn’t a good idea when considering how he kept to himself most of the time.

Because, yes, even Lance knew when there was potential to go a step too far. He liked to bicker and poke and prod at Keith, and be a general annoyance to everyone, but he wasn’t out to hurt feelings. Not intentionally anyway. He was a people person, after all, and spent a great deal of energy feeling others out and learning their boundaries. Sure, his fellow paladins probably didn’t realize as much (he knew they thought he was slightly ridiculous and maybe even a little stupid—most people did), but it was true. He was generally thoughtful and only pushed as far as he was sure someone could take.

His supposed intellect (or assumed lack) and knack for being annoying aside, he brought his own degree of Lance to the mind meld mud pile of feelings. Optimism, that was what he generally projected in battle or practice. After all, they had to have faith they were going to succeed in order to do so. Maybe optimism wasn’t as important as Hunk’s determination, Shiro’s steady hand, Pidge’s irritated analyses, or Kieth’s adrenaline inducing rage, but it must have been good for something. Otherwise there’d be problems. Allura was always going on about how they had to be balanced, how it was important that their own thoughts work well with everyone else’s.

And since no one had been complaining, Lance could only come to so many conclusions. Either his optimism was useful or, well, simply wasn’t a hindrance, worst case scenario. Not like they really talked about each other’s mental brain waves, after all. They’d all pretty much deduced who was who—it was pretty obvious—but so long as things were going smoothly, there was no need to call any of it to attention.

That was what Lance told himself anyway. Even if his fluffy, hovering over their heads optimism was as much use as a lawnmower in space, at least he wasn’t causing problems. That in and of itself was enough to keep him positive.

Maybe he was a fifth wheel, but at least he wasn’t running flat.

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So I asked him about love and what it meant to him. My mind was split into wanting to listen and fighting to silence the memories that raged in my own head, each one an ear-splitting scream. He said love was about trust, it was about being loyal, but all I could see was your hand in mine and sand between our toes and secret smiles shot that always hit home. He told me he wasn’t sure he’d ever been in love, not truly, not the head over heels kind of way that leaves you struggling for breath and your heart pounding a rhythm you’ve never heard before. I nodded in understanding even though I couldn’t relate, even though I could remember spilling my doubts and my fears like oceans and feeling the soothing sensation of the wind on my wet skin, knowing I was being listened to. Knowing I was home, here, with you, with salt clinging to my lashes. Knowing I could reach out and brush my thumb over the curve of your lips and having you lean into my touch. He said love was something that had to be felt, not seen, and I thought of the way your eyes lit up when I laughed or the quiet way you watched me when you spoke, waiting for my reaction. When he asked me about love, I told him I was sorry.
Sorry because the part of me that wanted to finally stop living in the past ached, but the other part that clung to memories like they were its anchor to this world won. It won because when I had asked you about love all these years ago, you’d only stared at me, that weird expression on your face and said, “why waste time explaining when I can show you?”
—  through the times / n.j.
Even+Sana & S4.

Even and Sana - we already how great the prospect of having them two becoming and being 2 really, really great friends is - there’s no doubt in that. They’re a major BROTP.

But, whilst analysing S3 (because that’s what me and @josteninski have been doing all day everyday ever since S3 ended), a few very, very direct hints have pointed out exactly WHY Even and Sana’s friendship should - and could - be explored and be seen on screen in S4. If this was to happen, it’d be breaking down so many stereotypes and so many barriers, just like how Isak and Sana’s friendship did in S3. It’d form such an important relationship in S4 for a focus to be on, just like how at the end of S3, Magnus and Even’s little budding friendship became a focus, which there’s no doubt, will continue on in S4 too. And there’s PLENTY of proof in S3 as to exactly why Even/Sana could very well happen in S4.

  • Let’s start from the end and work our way backwards. The last dialogue that was spoken in the S3 finale began when Isak said this:

There’s very, very specific detailing here. 4 systems of belief are mentioned here: Allah, Jesus, The Theory of Evolution and Parallel Universes. These 4 were MAJOR points of discussion throughout S3, and related back to 3 characters:

Allah = Sana and Even (how so? I’ll explain further down as we go along).
The Theory of Evolution = Sana.
Jesus = Even (the Jesus tshirt, 21:21, Even dressing as God etc) and Isak’s Mum.
Parallel Universes = Even.

From the 3 characters, it’s Even and Sana who relate the most back to these 4 concepts - Sana taking 2, and Even equally taking 2. Even and Sana helped Isak, SO MUCH, in shaping his beliefs in S3. Even did, with making Isak learning to live in the now, and Sana did, by making Isak realise that fear doesn’t come from religion, and she became a guide for Isak to gain that courage to reach out to his Mum.

Everything happens on this show for a reason, for a parallel to occur, to come back full circle. I’ve got no doubt that that dialogue was a small hint, a doorway opening into S4, leading me to believe that one of the major focuses on S4 will be on Even and Sana, as friends, together. 

  • Which brings me nicely to my next point: Even and Sana meeting each other in the finale.

I mean, of course we know they’ve met before. Why did they need to show us this again? Your argument will be “because Sana came to return the 10% drugs to Isak, and Even was stood there, so naturally, it’d happen.” But, honestly? At this point in the season, did it even MATTER anymore if Sana gave Isak the 10% drugs or not? Not really. Isak would have been fine without them. He didn’t demand them back. And Sana’s a smart girl, she would have figured out what to have done with them to dispose of them. So honestly, what was the point of this scene - because there MUST have been a point. 

The point was: For Isak to become a bridge, connecting Even and Sana together. It was the EXACT same with Magnus and Even too. Isak introduced the boys to Even and vice versa, and from all the boys, it was Magnus ONLY that hugged Even. Later on, we’d come to find out that indeed, it was because Magnus understood Even, since Magnus’ Mum was bipolar too. That became a link for Magnus and Even, whose friendship, I’m sure, is gonna continue on in S4. I mean, in the finale, did you see how Magnus took on Even’s advice? Not Isak’s, or Jonas’ or Mahdi’s - he took on Even’s. And it worked for him and Vilde! It’s the EXACT same thing here, with Sana and Even too. Look at the look they both share in the GIF above - that’s a look of pure acknowledgment. Of, “I see you. I know who you are, by name now. And Isak’s our common ground.” Just like how Magnus and Even hugged, this is that, only in the form of appreciative glances here. 

But just like how with Magnus and Even, not only was Isak their common ground, but so was bipolar disorder. With Sana and Even, the common ground isn’t JUST Isak. It’s also: Islam.

  • This brings me very nicely to my next point. Even and Islam. Remember above when I said I’d discuss how Even related back to Isak talking about Allah? Well, here it is:

There’s a REASON why Sonja was made to say this specific dialogue so blatantly. And at first, as a Muslim myself, it just really, REALLY confused me up as to WHY they’d say this. Why would they say Even memorized the Qura’an - in Arabic no less. What does that have to do with anything? In fact, it COULD have been ANYTHING else Even could have done - but no, he chose to memorize the WHOLE Qura’an. He seeked out Islam when he felt like he needed it the most. He turned to Islam. Some may say that it was because, in his state of elevation, he did that. But, he still did it, nonetheless? And learning the Qura’an doesn’t just happen in one day. It takes YEARS. So Even doing this, within a year, even though it’s a very short time to learn the Qura’an, he still must have dedicated MONTHS towards learning it. And he learnt it.

Then, when we have Even calling out Emma on her generalisations about the LGBT+ community, Even uses “not all Muslims are terrorists” as an example to give his point of view. Yes, that is a very “go to” example, but it’s still used here. By Even. And now that we know that Even memorized the Qura’an, at a time when he needed to do a bit of soul searching and finding some answers, all of a sudden, it just makes even more sense? That Even knows about Islam. Even has some level of education about Islam.

And you know who else he has now, as a reference, in human form, regarding Islam?

Sana.

Which brings this all back full circle. And I’m SO excited to see how Even and Sana could be portrayed next season. I imagine Even would seek out Sana when he feels like he needs someone to speak to, because he turned to Islam last time, I wouldn’t be surprised if Even turns to Sana for support, or just as a friend in a time of need, or he goes to her to actually understand Islam and what he learnt about Islam, some more, by her. That’d then disclose to Sana, that Even’s learnt the entire Qura’an off by heart - and the discussions that could flow from that honestly give me goosebumps, in terms of Sana making Even understand what he learnt, or Sana giving Even insight, or Even understanding Sana and her struggles. We could see Sana open up to Even, and Even UNDERSTANDING that. 

This could be SUCH a GOOD SOLID friendship forming, with so MUCH representation being shown. Is it foolish of me to hope for so much between Even and Sana? Maybe it is. But there’s so much to fall back on in S3, that gives me that hope that we could see Even/Sana in S4! 

anonymous asked:

May I please request 25 with Yuta from NCT? Where he says it after he starts to fall for a girl who is nowhere near his ideal type? Thank you and have a good day/night 💞💞

25. “When you love someone, you don’t just stop. Ever. Even when people roll their eyes or call you crazy… even then. Especially then!”


Yuta Nakamoto x Reader

Genre: College AU, fluff

Word count: 604

Originally posted by nakamotens

You starred daggers at the guy in front of the class.

“I win,” he mouthed to you, a triumphant smug smile spreading across his face. You hated his guts. Everything had to be a competition for him. It was the 4th time this week, you had no idea how but he kept surpassing you in every field. It irritated you to no end. Usually he only did better at certain subjects you were good at as well and considered that he was just lucky but somehow he got so much better in just a few months. You were about done with his shit and just flipped him off, collected your things and went to the door.

“Miss Y/N, where do you think you’re going?” he asked you teasingly before the professor could even react you were out of your seat.

“You’re the last person I would tell,” you said and went outside, you turned to the stairs that led to the roof. At least you could relax here. You leaned on the railing and took out your paper. 96%. How he manages to get a perfect 100 each time was beyond you. You sighed. As much as you hated him you couldn’t deny that he was captivating in every aspect. Well they do say that opposites attract.

“Are you thinking about me?” Yuta asked leaning on the railing near you.

“Yeah right,” you thought.

“96, that’s not bad,” you knew that but hearing this from him didn’t cheer you up at all. You quickly ripped the paper in shreds and threw them out.

“Littering is a bad habit,” but you just rolled your eyes to that.

“What do you want?” 

“Here,” he said handing you his paper. “Read it.”

“I’m not interested.”

“Just take it and read it so you would know why I’m better than you,” he laughed. You snatched the paper out of his hand. You were surprised he actually chose the subject of human emotions for this psychology class. Bla bla bla, you had no idea why he gave it to you. Probably to show off as always but your eyes stopped at the very last sentence. “When you love someone, you don’t just stop. Ever. Even when people roll their eyes or call you crazy… even then. Especially then!” You couldn’t believe how much you could relate to it, immediately remembering all the times you complained about him to your best friend, only to shower him with compliments a few minutes later. 

“Just confess already, if you like him that much,” she told you one day and now you couldn’t help but smile remembering this.

“What’s so funny?” he asked you. You completely forgot he was here, you had to come up with something fast.

“This,” you pointed at the paper. “I like what you wrote here!”

“Which part? Let me see,” he said taking his essay. “Oh this one, I remember it. I had you in mind when I wrote it.”

“What?”

“What?.. Did I? Did I just said that out loud?” he still had no idea what happened.

“You like me~” you teased him, snatching the paper out of his hand.

“No no no, I actually meant to say that I was thinking about you,” but then he realized what he just said. “Oh shit I just repeated it again.”

“You can’t even come up with decent excuses,” you laughed.

“Y/N give me the papers.” he said trying to take them from you.

“Make me,” you chuckled and ran to the stairs.

“Y/N!!” he shouted. “Aish, I hate how much I like her,” he thought running after you.