remember that one time i wrote a thing

ladynorbert  asked:

I'm chuckling at your remark about animals loving Robert Vaughn. One of the episodes he was in on Murder, She Wrote had him as a stable owner, and I remember thinking that the horses seemed quite fond of him.

Ahhh, I forgot about the horses, too!  The horses adoring him is really something because, according to an interview of his I read that was around the time of Hustle, he actually confessed that he was afraid of horses, and mused on the irony that he did so many Westerns and had all those horseback scenes, but, like his fear of drowning and the water scenes, did the scenes anyway.

But I guess it must have helped that the horses liked him, though! 💜

When I was living with my abusers I was an obsessive, relentless self-editor. Part of it was when I posted on my livejournal or whatever they were usually literally monitoring me while doing so, I had no privacy for any thing that I wrote to anyone, but part of it was just the general impact of constant emotional terrorism. I remember trying to compose a message to someone at one point and like, the third time I deleted a line one of my abusers was like, “you self-censor more than anyone I know,” in this really approving tone of voice. 

On my old tumblr, no one is forcing me to edit myself that relentlessly, but I do get some of that old feeling of like… this relentless pressure to phrase everything absolutely perfectly. If I use the wrong word, people who hate me will seize on it and punish me for it and no amount of clarification will ever do, so I can never use the wrong word, which is an impossible standard anyway because every word I say is wrong when it’s not in agreement with the people who are picking apart my shit like this, but when I do get slammed like that my first reaction is, “this is my fault for not presenting my thoughts in a clear or non-offensive or whatever way”. 

I don’t feel like I have to do that anymore! It is a HUGE weight off my shoulders! I did not realize how glad I would be to have that gone, to have a space where I can be a human being in public again. 

Tagged by @imusuallyobsessed who always remembers me n these games I love. thank you.

rules: tell your followers 11 random facts about you and tag 11 other people in return. The facts can be absolutely anything, whatever springs to mind.

GREAT LETS!

  1. I used to love Naruto and my writing style as it is now, lyrical and introspective, became apparent/started existing around the time I wrote my ‘big story’ for that fandom.
  2. I ship one ship at a time, always, not for ride-or-die-otp reasons, but because of obsessive reasons: I literally cannot think about more than one thing at a time, because my mind automatically redirects every bit of creative effort towards this thing that I am passionate about right this moment.
  3. Which is why, usually, when I leave a fandom, I do so for good. But that only happens once I find something else to love just as much, and not spontaneously.
  4. Spring is the hardest part of the year for me, always, which is disconcerting because I love spring, its so beautiful – I love flowers, I love the green, the renewal - but my brain doesn’t rly give a shit about any of that and just wants to shut me down.
  5. I had a very… classical upbringing, I think. Piano classes, art classes, classic musical left and right, poetry, mythology books etc.
  6. I had a goth phase! Yes, I did lmao. Or was it called Emo phase? Idk. But it involved a lt of black clothes (which I still wear), thousand bracelets, the necklaces and all the works, even the dark and unrelenting makeup sometimes. The hard rock music (lmao which I still love), the un-dealt with anger silently feeding my depression before I even knew what that was, was not so much fun however.
  7. I am an excellent liar – or so evidence would suggest - and I hate that about myself more than almost anything.
  8. I am empathetic and more times than not I can understand where people are coming from and why they are saying what they are saying, but that has a ‘dark side’ so to speak, which I hate. Meaning that I know where people are coming from and my brain usually informs me of all the ways this person can be manipulated and what could be said to hurt them the most because I know where it hurts. Which creeps me the fuck out and I never do (more or less…), but it enrages me seeing other people do exactly that without the slightest awareness.
  9. I could see every person that ever abused a child dead, and never feel bad about it. That is not a metaphor or exaggeration. I would smile upon the sight of their graves.
  10. I LOVE FOOD! I love cooking – it’s the one thing that truly manages to stave off my anxiety. But mostly I love food and I love eating.
  11. Im the nicest, most breathtakingly-rage filled ball of randomness and anxiety you will ever meet, probably XD

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i think one of the best feelings when learning a language is looking back on previous vocabulary lists or grammar points that you’ve studied or written down at some point in time and just being surprised that maybe a year or two ago, these were things that you either struggled with or could never remember, despite the fact that it might feel like second nature to you now. THAT FEELING OF PROGRESS IS GREAT, I HOPE EVERYONE GOES BACK AND LOOKS AT HOW FAR THEY’VE COME IN THEIR LANGUAGE STUDIES !!! 

some nights i’d feel so alone that the only comforting thing was the sky. so id learn a ton of constellations and go and sit outside and find every single one that i could and i would beg the sky to light me up inside because i was tired of burning out and i was desperately in need of some light and guidance. i painted planets on my walls and wrote down my favorite constellations. and on the very worst nights, when i felt like i was drowning underneath all of the blackness, i’d look at the moon and remember that someone, somewhere else was looking up at the sky, at that very moment, looking for the same thing as me. and at times, this is the most comforting thing.
—  you’re never alone. other people feel this way too.
why this scene is so wonderful

I was looking for metas about this scene, but I couldn’t find anything, so decided to say several words myself.

Firstly, I made one gifset and captioned it as glare of death and people wrote that Bucky looks like he’s about to cry or has already cried. Tbh, I think it’s both. Great thing about this scene, to my mind, is not if he’s feeling anger or pain, but the fact that he’s definetely feeling something here!

As I remember, we only see two moments where Bucky is feeling something. First one is this:

Here, he’s angry af. Before this moment, we see hydra agents shooting wildly, but WS is calm, he casually walks and shoots for like two or three times only. But when Nat breaks his glasses(sorry, don’t know what they’re called), he becomes crazy and starts shooting without aiming properly. He feels anger and frustration.

Second one is a bit of confusion and hesitation:

(not my gif)

Throughout the whole movie, what catches our eyes is how calm ws is. He isn’t running, he never is in a hurry. Of course, he kills people, fights like an assassin, but he is always laid-back and really relaxed.

But in the final scenes, he acts like a crazy. WS’ actions are so brutal. Although he is sent to missions to kill people, I don’t think that winter soldier is allowed to make them personal. I mean that he must finish the missions succesfully, but he must know show his personal attitude towards it.

But here

He slaughters hydra/shield agents in a way that is screams to be really personal to me. He freaking shot that pilot and didn’t even care to throw away the body. He’s just to eager to get to Steve. Yes, it is his mission, but so was that causeway scene and his actions in these situations are so different from each other.

Considering all of these, I believe that in that scene he is not unemotional. WS is about to finish his missions, not only because hydra ordered him, but because Steve makes him feel things that causes him pain and confusion and uncertainity.

Is he angry? Yes. Is he ] eager to kill Steve in the most brutal way? Hell, yes. Is he also feeling pain? He IS! I think that he’s torn between too many emotions and that reflects in his eyes. They are deadly, but at the same time a bit red and look like he’s gonna cry.

To be sure I have to look once again at this moment:

He looks so childish and it feels like he’s suffering. But then:

See how he narrows his eyes for a second? Yes, he’s in misery, but that eye narrowing thing also tells me that WS is also furious and wants to visiously kill his oponent.

P.S. Please, add your thoughts ‘cause I’m so interested in the interpretation of this scene.

Phil Lester: Marriage Proposal Expert

Summary: Phil has been trying for months to propose to Dan, and each attempt has failed spectacularly.

Or the five times Phil tried to propose and the one time Dan did.

Words: 6,075

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A/N: I’ve been working on this for the last few days instead of studying for my upcoming exams so I hope you guys like it. It’s over 6,000 words! I can’t even remember the last time I wrote a oneshot this long.


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Phil had everything planned, to the last bit. All the candles were lit, dinner was done and ready to be served and the ring was in his jeans’ pocket. All that was left was for Dan to get back home from the shopping Phil had sent him to do while he had prepared everything.

He had been planning for this moment for the past month and had bought the ring five months ago. If it had been up to him, Phil would have proposed the second he got the ring. It just had never seemed like the right time. Life had been so crazy for them for the past year and a half and it never seemed like they had the time for much else.

Now that it seemed as if they were finally getting a very well deserved break, Phil had finally decided that there was no better time than this to finally ask Dan to marry him. It took him a month to decide and plan everything because he wanted it all to be perfect. It was not everyday that you got to ask your boyfriend of seven years to marry you and Phil would have nothing ruin the moment.

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It’s during these gentle, quiet mornings that Harry gets to watch Louis blink sleepily as he wakes up. It’s one of his favourite things, the way Louis sniffles and frowns slightly, buries his face into the pillow for one more second before he opens his eyes and meets Harry’s gaze with electric blue.

“It’s been one year since we hugged,” Harry says in lieu of a ‘good morning.’

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First-Name Basis

HAPPY KILLUGON DAY! :D

I actually wasn’t sure if I was going to post anything for today bc I didn’t know if I had the time to write a real full-length story….. 

BUT then I remembered this post that golden-chocobo​ messaged me about like two months ago and I changed my mind XD Please enjoy~

Ao3 link

Word count: 3104

Prompt:

does the “i slept with you the other day and i didnt know we had a mutual friend and now we’re sitting across each other for brunch and it’s awkward because i ran out when you were asleep” au exist bc i need that fic

Modern au :3


Killua had never been as mortified as he was now, standing frozen and utterly paralyzed while Kurapika introduced Leorio’s friend who had suddenly joined them for lunch on this random Saturday afternoon.

There was no denying it. Killua knew Leorio’s friend, had met this stranger with caramel skin and spiky brown hair last week at Palm’s party. It was this exact same bright-eyed man who had invited Killua back to his apartment, who Killua had spent the entire night with before waking up in said stranger’s bed, horrified, and sprinting away as fast as his legs could carry him.

This same person who was now gazing at him with eyes that burned gold and had Killua’s heart doing back flips in his chest.

Killua clenched his hands into white-knuckled fists. To say that he wanted to jump out of the nearest window would have been an understatement.

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Remembered Promises

I’ve had such an amazing response to Forgotten Secrets and a couple of wonderful people requested  a sequel, so who am I to say no? There will be one more part of this little series if you guys still want it! 

Thank you to everyone who has taken the time to like/reblog/comment/tag Forgotten Secrets. You don’t know how much it means to me. I hope you enjoy this silly little follow up. 


Prompt: Things You Said With No Space Between Us || msr fluff || 4409

“Next thing you’ll be telling me you can win me a teddy bear” Scully scoffed as they paced around another stall with a selection of overstuffed toys on display. By her side, Mulder chewed happily on a stick of brightly coloured cotton candy.

“Well not with that attitude, I won’t, Scully. Although I could.” He stopped next to the shooting range and eyed it up for a moment, contemplating how difficult the game really was. “Yeah, I definitely could.”

“We both know my aim is far better than yours. But don’t get your hopes up, I’m not going to be wooing you with a fluffy pink bear today, Mulder. Sorry to shatter your dreams.” 

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johnlockhell221b  asked:

i'm in such freebatch hell tonight.. going through BFI screenings, sherlock outtakes, hobbit premiere, applelock.. send help!!!

I can help. I can definitely help.

Like, remember that time Benedict said he’d be happy living in Baker St with Martin? Remember that time Martin wrote an intro to a book about The Hobbit and the only other actor he mentioned was Benedict? Remember how he talked about Benedict’s childhood? Remember Benedict calling Martin sweetheart? Remember how literally no one in that room reacted like that was a weird thing? Remember how Martin called Benedict Benny? Remember how Benedict flew out to New Zealand to see Martin on his last day of filming and crash his TWE movie premiere? Remember how they invented Retraftas together? Remember how when they were asked about their relationship, Martin said it was none of the interviewer’s fucking business and Benedict said they were considering adoption? Remember that time a fan caught Benedict (with his shirt practically open to his nipples btw) at a cafe waiting for Martin so they could have an off set lunch date while filming HLV? Remember when Benedict was gushing so profusely about Martin during an interview that he had to clarify that his adoration was platonic? Remember that time Martin put grapes in his eyes and Benedict then had to put things in his eyes (including headphone buds and cocktail straws) for like a week after? Remember how they groom each other like a couple of old marrieds? Ben straightening Martin’s shirt. Martin picking lint from Benedict’s collar. 

Is this helping you with your freebatch hell situation? 

This is Night Vale !

Inspired by this famous song ~

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What are some misconceptions about being a strong woman?

SOLANGE: Oh my God, they’re endless! [laughs] One thing that I constantly have to fight against is not feeling arrogant when I say I wrote every lyric on this album. I still have not been able to say that. That’s the first time I’ve actually ever said it, because of the challenges that we go through when we celebrate our work and our achievements. I remember Björk saying that she felt like, no matter what stage in her career, if a man is credited on something that she’s done, he’s going to get the credit for it. And, unfortunately, that still rings true. It’s something I’ve learned so much about from you, getting to be in control of your own narrative. And, at this point, it should be an expectation, not something that you’re asking permission for. I feel like I’m getting closer to that, not taking on all the baggage when I have to just stand up for myself and say, “No, I’m uncomfortable with that.” And I really appreciate you and mom being examples of that, being able to speak about our achievements, these things that deserve to be celebrated, without feeling bashful about it.

11 questions tag

Rules:

  1. Always repost the rules
  2. Answer 11 random questions posted for you
  3. Create 11 new ones
  4. Tag 11 people

I was tagged by @puppynamu Thank you!!

Questions for me:

1. What is the last lie you told? 
my mom: didn’t you say you’re gonna clean your closet
me: yeah?

2. Are you willing to eat a bowl of crickets for $40k? They better be fried

3. Movie that you never get sick of? Any Disney movie, I love them, they’re always so sentimental. Maybe Anastasia, but I know I’m choosing that movie simply because I haven’t watched it in a long time

4. Is there anything you want to do before you go to sleep tonight? Exercise lmao i haven’t exercised in 4 days 

5. If you are taking medication, did you remember to take it on time? Please do! I don’t have medication but I should prob take my vitamins, thank you for reminding me <3

6. What makes you feel afraid? a lot of things! going down the stairs, when it’s too quiet, people yelling at each other, not knowing where my mom or siblings are

7. Sunset or sunrise? Sunset, i’ve taken so many photos, i love when the clouds turn pink

8. Most embarrassing childhood memory? 5th grade. Family Life. Looking at a diagram and not realizing what it was until my classmates pointed it out (I was staring at it for a good five minutes, totally zoned out) I was 11 years old rip

9. Favorite mythical god/goddess? ALL OF THEM minus Zeus, Dionysus and Hades lol (my brain says Athena but my heart says Aphrodite… she was literally born from seafoam, like that’s aesthetic #goals)

10. What are your favorite lyrics? uhh i can’t think of a favorite? I have a lot of lyrics I love, but I can’t think of my all time favorite. so here are just a few:

“But I can fly, past the countless stars, fly away”
“I said to leave, I said I’m okay”
“Just me, her, and the moon”
“You’re all I want, so much it’s hurting”
“If you’re lost, just look for me, you’ll find me in the region of the summer stars”
“And I remember you laughing, so let’s just laugh again”
“Hands are silent, voice is numb”
“I hear your voice, it’s like an angel sighing” <– those lyrics were made for sungjong js

11. Can you hula hoop? Yes


My Questions:

1. Are you a chicken nugget?

2. Can you whistle with your fingers (bc I can’t and I think it’s pretty darn cool)?

3. Do you know how to read or write in another language?

4. What color is your room?

5. Favorite quote(s)? Favorite Spongebob quote(s)?

6. Do you wear makeup?

7. Can you burp the ABCs?

8. Are you an alien? Can you beam me up your spaceship? 

9. Highlighters (the makeup kind) are actually stardust. True or False?

10. Did you drink water today? Hydrate yourself and then finish this questionnaire. 

11. Someone comes from another universe and tells you about their world. From what they’re talking about, it sounds pretty awesome (despite a few aspects) and you’re thinking about visiting this cool place. The person asks you to come with them, but there’s two conditions. 1) Only you can go. 2) If you go, there’s a 50% chance you might not be able to come back to this universe. What is your decision? Why?

I’m tagging @hoyainifinite @chickenyeol @soooldout @flowrsoo @woohyun-ssi @bionic-leesungjong @ifnt-saranghae @cloudyjong @namwoonie @wonhonnie and I can’t think of one more person so if you see this and read through it and you’re not tagged…. you’re the chosen one

Imagine someone else asking Person A out RIGHT IN FRONT OF PERSON B.

one of the best things I’ve ever read in a fanfiction was that time me & amanda found a KP fanfic on deviantart. I don’t remember the name or 100% what it was about. I think it was kim, ron & monique in college and ron apparently got really attractive & ripped but of course was blissfully unaware and then this line happened…..

kim: “ron you’re hot!”
*ron checks forehead*
ron: “well I feel fine….”


I was literally in tears.

it was so accurate like someone please award whoever wrote this.