relational spirituality

Torch Song is such a fucking beautiful and underappreciated song on Crash Love. (Which is, as I’ve realized in my ‘old age’ a very underappreciated album.)

There’s all this awe and reverence for the subject of the song with this underlayer of bitterness, something I’ve always loved about AFI’s songs. Now this is probably, actually very likely to just be me projecting, but this is how I’ve always read AFI’s songs from a lyrics/general feeling perspective: There’s a common thread of being in absolute, poetic awe of something whether it’s a former lover, a feeling, or some sort indefinable “spiritual” experience related to either of the above. But there’s always this sense of being destroyed or undone by it, or else overwhelmed to the point of drowning or being consumed by it. Torch Song is such a powerful example of this kind of…dichotomy of feelings.

And the music fits so absolutely perfectly with the lyrics. The guitar starts out kind of high and dissonant but then morphs into this beautiful riff that perfectly accents the important, vital parts of the lyrics. There’s this soaring ballad quality to the chorus especially with the higher pitched backing vocals.

Sorry to go all snobby art school critique mode on you guys, but I’ve just always been overwhelmed by this song. And yet when I let people listen to it they don’t get it. I didn’t get it until I actually looked up the lyrics (because Davey doesn’t enunciate and you miss so much important stuff that really makes the song). I was just floored looking up the first few lyrics which I couldn’t understand at first, the only bits I got were: “I’d tear out my eyes for, you my dear”

But then I read this part: 

“I saw you. Angels came to light your path.
I heard you keep their wings pressed under glass.
Now am I, so enthralled that I might die?
I saw you, sweetly smile, and say “do try”

And just seeing this written out is underwhelming because you need that vocal delivery to really get it.

I dunno guys, I’m overwhelmed with emotion every time I hear it and the only way I can think to express it is by writing overly important sounding sentences.

Are there other people who hear an AFI song, even if they’ve listened to it 50,000 times; but they’ll hear it in the context of a certain moment in time and just have to take a moment to process it? Also, do yourselves a favor, if you’ve never listened to Burials while driving down a pitch black country road at 3 in the morning do it. There’s something about being alone in a vehicle in a place that’s barely recognizable and only being able to see a patch of ground two feet in front of you and hearing the The Sinking Night come on with the booming drums first.

he placed his hand over my heart and felt something I never knew.
it was purpose.
at that moment I knew I existed for a reason
and I never gave up on life
—  my second half {excerpt from a poem}
  • Jimin: hyung I'm gonna send you a photo tell me if I look good on it okay?
  • Yoongi: you look beautiful
  • Jimin:
  • Jimin: I didn't even send it yet
  • Yoongi: you don't have to
  • Jimin:
  • Jimin: wait
  • Jimin: did you just flirt with me??
  • Yoongi: well, have been doing it for the past two years but thanks for noticing

6 Signs You’re An Empath

1. You feel things on a deep level - this can be the energy of others, yourself, animals & even those who are no longer with us. Empaths are highly sensitive to energy and can feel the emotions of others very easily. It can be difficult to know the difference between your own emotions and those of others - this is why it is important for us to develop a strong sense of self identity.

2. You speak the truth when others lie - you are more in tune with the truth and feel uncomfortable telling lies because you empathise with the person being lied to. You see yourself in their position and act in a way you would want others to act towards you.

3. You feel the need to help - many of us empaths feel that we are here to help heal the planet. Indeed, there are many people here who need help with their healing process and we attract them to us - just as doctors attract those who are sick. But keep in mind you cannot help others when you don’t take care of yourself - the doctor can’t treat patients when they are ill.

4. You have an abundance of love to give - you see those who are in need of what you have and feel obliged to give them your energy. This is a beautiful thing, but we must also be cautious of who we give our precious energy to - as some people may rely on us to be their generator. Recognise that you also need time to recharge so you may help others with your gift.

5. You’re creative - empaths are naturally creative and have been expressing themselves through art, music, dance, photography, writing etc from a young age. Embrace your creative tendencies and express yourself through different mediums to unlock your full potential as a creative empath. Touching others with your creative expression will assist in the healing of the planet.

6. Suffering bothers you - even to see those who “deserve” it suffer bothers you to some degree. This is because we experience the emotions of others as though we are in their situation - this is not a curse, but a gift. Understand that you have been blessed with this power because you can use it in a way others cannot.

Often times coaches, therapists, shamans and holistic healers are empaths and are particularly effective at what they do because they have learnt how to harness their gift. Hone your intuition and strengthen the relationship you have with yourself if you want to use your gift to help mankind.

Know yourself & you will know your gifts.

Peace & positive vibes.