relatable poetry

They say
love is
but why
can’t I
see you
His hands grip the steering wheel so tight
That his knuckles turn the color of snow.
I can hear him breathing slowly purposefully he is angry
I don’t know what i did this time.
I don’t talk for the rest of the ride home i go to my room.
He only talks to me when he’s telling me it’s time for dinner or to feed the cat.

He digs his nails into his palms
His knuckles are white again
He hits the side of the house
Because of something my brother did
I see him start to come into the house i run into my room
Later he apologizes for being so angry.
He hugs me and at the time i am still so mad i see blazing hot white

Up until this moment my life was filled with white knuckles
My stepdad white knuckled plates so hard into the dishwasher they shattered
A boy’s hand white knuckled my left shoulder so hard he left bruises while
He cried on the right one
Her hands held mine so hard her knuckles drained of color because she was so terrified to walk into
The funeral home by herself
And look at him
And i did the same to her.
I white knuckled her hand when i met her mother again for the first time in 10 years
I was so scared.
I used to think of white as angry but it’s also
And trust.
I trust that you will never waiver
So i trust that i can hold on as tight as i need to
And you will not let me fall.
—  white knuckles
But not all
endings happen
with waving hands
and the loudest
of goodbyes,
because sometimes
endings were
made of
teary eyes
and the saddest
of smiles.
—  ma.c.a // Epilogue

Do not allow him to consume you. If he does not call, go to sleep. If he does not message, put your phone away and have a fantastic day anyway. If he acts distant when you are with him and refuses to tell you what is wrong, don’t wait for him, go home and do something you love. If he tries to insinuate you do not need your friends now that you have him, spend more time with your friends. If he tries to teach you a lesson through the silent treatment, ignore him completely.

If he plays with your feelings constantly, walk away from him. If he acts like your body is his entitlement when you are not ready, walk away from him. If he says terrible, unforgivable things and threatens to leave you after every argument, walk away from him. If he forbids you from doing anything you love, walk away from him. If he claims ownership of your accomplishments, walk away from him. If he demeans you or disrespects your being a girl and refuses to stop when you tell him it hurts, walk away from him.

I cannot stress this enough, you live for yourself first. He is a secondary character in the story of your life. Do not allow him to turn you into a secondary character in your own book.

—  Nikita Gill, Advice for Teenage Girls Finding Their Way Through Love.
Look at me.
Really look at me.
Not just the freckles on my nose
or the horrible pimple above my left eyebrow.
Look into me.
See who I really am,
and not just what you see.
—  Tyler Joseph
I fall in love
with the sea
even if I knew
it can drown me,
and I have more
love for you,
even if I knew
that it is
—  ma.c.a // Island of Feelings
I just want to spend late nights with you. I want to be the one that you go to when you’re hurt and sad. I want to be the one that strokes your hair while you’re laying on my lap. I want to give you early morning kisses and late night cuddles. I just want to be the person that gives you the world. Please, just let me be that person.
You broke the promise you made, and that broke me.
—  You broke me in ways you could never imagine // a.s
I hope you’ll meet someone who will love you endlessly.” he said. Telling her everything he’s thinking for a very long time. “Someone who will wipe away all the sadness in your eyes and kiss the smiles inside your heart. I hope you’ll meet someone who will still look at you with admiration in their eyes even if they had already seen your scars.” he wanted her to know how much she deserves to feel love, more than she had before. He wanted to give her the happiness she deserves. That he’s willing to accept it even if it’s not going to be with him. He looked at her as if he’s staring at the most stunning person in the universe. As if he wanted to see this beautiful scenery forever. Then, he finally said, “I hope you’ll end up with someone who will gladly want to live in the same world with you, no matter how crazy it may seem for you.
—  ma.c.a // I hope it’s you and me