It’s like I’m caught between this heartache and the feelings I still have for you. I will always love you, but I also love and respect myself enough to know that even you my love, are no longer worth the pain.
Why do people feel the need to say things like ‘you know, men like women who…’???? I did not care in the 18th century, I do not care now and I will not care in any possible afterlife. Just NOOOOOOOOOOO.
Yoda said “there is no try, there is only do” - this means there is no such thing as “I’ll try” you either will do it or you won’t. It’s like when you ask someone “would you like to go for a run this Tuesday” and they say “umm, yeah - I’ll try and make it” - you know they’re not coming.
Apply this same logic to your climb - are you going to make it to the top, or are you going to try? The use of language here implies that there is a defeatist mindset - “I’ll try, but if I don’t make it - at least I tried”. There’s no second place trophy - you either made it to the top of your climb, or you didn’t.
My business mentor Gary Vee says “there’s no half-pregnant” - there’s no in-between stage, you either are or you aren’t. Adopt this mindset in relation to your climb - whether it’s getting fit & healthy, writing a book, making more money or finding a relationship - either you’ll do it, or you won’t.
Many things are subjective in life - art, music, food - there are many differing opinions out there and all are equally valid. Turning off the light switch is not subjective - it’s either off or it’s not. The same can be said for your success - you’re either going to achieve it, or you aren’t - the choice is yours.
I’d like to encourage you to think about the mindset you have towards achieving your end goal. Are you going to try and achieve it - or are you going to achieve it no matter what it takes? No matter how many years, how much hard work, how many social events you miss - are you going to do it?
Every single one of us has the potential to do something great with the time we have on this planet - you will achieve your goal if you don’t stop working for it. Greatness requires sacrifice - what are you willing to sacrifice for your greatness?
GOD stay at home dad alec makes me emotional. im imagining magnus coming home and asking how max was, alec says he was perfect even tho he was fussy all fucking day long and alec didn't get a moment of peace.
And of course, this particular lie causes even more problems. Because even though Alec is so determined to pretend that Max was calm and happy and perfect all day long to hide the fact that Alec was struggling, it just makes Magnus think that Max was perfectly fine until he got home. Alec creates a version of Max who’s an idyllic little cherub all day long, and then Magnus comes home and Max is screaming and crying (because that’s what Max is like all the time), and the only conclusion Magnus draws from that is that Max is only miserable when he’s around.
And neither of them are willing to talk about these problems. Magnus doesn’t want to admit that he’s a little afraid their kid hates him, and Alec can’t admit that Max is just as difficult with him, because he’s afraid mentioning at all will finally break him and it’ll all come out. But the truth is just that Max is an unfortunately difficult baby. He doesn’t adjust to a normal sleep schedule, he’s still colicky several months after most babies grow out of that sort of thing, he has intense rash reactions to a number of diapers and fabrics that aren’t easy to anticipate or predict, and he does NOT react well once he starts teething. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with him, he’s just difficult, through no fault of anyone. And being home with him all day, Alec always has the extra hardship of not knowing if Max is accidentally ‘altering’ things in the apartment with his magic, or if Alec is just loosing his goddamn mind and put the formula in the washing machine himself.
It would be a difficult situation for anyone, just because Max takes a lot of extra work. But Alec’s complete refusal to voice any of his concerns means that he’s essentially letting himself have one drawn-out anxiety attack over several miserable months. Even when Max is totally happy or sleeps for twelve straight hours, and Alec doesn’t have to worry that he’s incapable of caring for his own baby, that just leaves him alone with nothing to do all day, no one he can talk to, and intentionally isolating himself even if there IS someone he could spend time with.
While Magnus is the first person he should be talking to about these things, Alec staunchly refuses to tell him ANYTHING, and tries to pass off his odd moods and behaviors as a reasonable change as he adjusts to a completely new lifestyle. And Magnus accepts that explanation at face value, and tries not to pry in case that ends up making things harder. It’s a horrible, horrible few months for both of them - but mostly for Alec. There are a few weeks where he convinces himself that he and Magnus genuinely might not be able to make it work. At one point, he even considers moving back into the Institute. Both of them regard it as the lowest point in their whole relationship.
i was just thinking about how magnus is going to plan all of rafael and max's bday parties. they are going to have the most elaborate childrens parties
Well, to be more specific, Max will have the most elaborate birthday parties. Rafa will have small, low-key parties. But the important thing is that they both have parties that are absolutely perfect for them.
And of course, with the way their lives are set up, these kids hit the birthday jackpot. Because they both go to mundane school, and they have mundane friends, and entire mundane existences that are in no way involved with the shadow world. So they can’t very well have a party with all of their mundane friends AND all of their shadow world friends and relatives (I mean, realistically they COULD, but why bother when you have an excuse to have two birthday parties???). So for the bulk of their childhoods, they each get two separate parties every year, one for ‘Friends’ (mundanes) and one for ‘Family’ (anyone they know from the shadow world). When they get old enough to not really need the parent-planned birthday party anymore, they each come up with their own way to compromise and only have one party or celebration.
But when they’re still kids, Magnus absolutely goes all-out. It’s inevitable. Think of how much he loves parties, and how much he loves his kids, then let him plan a party for his kids. Ridiculous. Max’s parties are huge, lavish, and horribly detailed. Max gets to pick the theme every year, and Magnus fucking runs with it. And he gets to plan TWO parties around the one theme every year, once with a fun challenge of keeping it mundane-friendly, and once where he can go to town and do whatever ridiculous shit he wants. And Max adores all of it. His birthday is his favorite month of the year (since he spreads his parties out so he can look forward to them for longer), and his parties are his favorite part of it.
Rafa, on the other hand, likes things to be a bit more reasonable. For the most part, he likes his Family party to feel like a regular dinner, just with everyone in his family all in the same room for once. Apart from the cake and the presents, he doesn’t like having the focus all on him, so it’s really more of an excuse to get everyone together for a nice dinner party. And for his Friend party, he likes going to some separate location where there’s a really specific activity. His mundane birthday parties are at bowling alleys, gymnastics studios, beaches, amusement parks, or even just a regular park. He likes having things to do, instead of having to feel like he’s responsible for keeping all of his friends entertained the whole time.
But both of the boys agree that their favorite birthday ever was the year Rafa turned 8 and Max turned 6, when they agreed to forgo both of their usual parties, and the Lightwood-Bane family went to Disneyland instead.
2. I miss you.
3. Can we talk?
4. I hope I’m not annoying you.
5. I want to see you.
6. Please tell me you’re doing fine.
7. I’m worried about you.
8. Let’s listen to our favorite song.
9. Do not let other people bring you down.
10. I hope you’re truly happy.
11. I love you. I really do.
We started from 1 and I felt 11. Sometimes we do 8 with comforting silence. You used to remind me about 9. And I will always be grateful about everything we’ve had. Wherever you are, and whoever you’re with, please always remember 2, and 10.
ma.c.a // 4 but 7,3,5 and 6 : An Indirect Message From Me
And when there’s
no more tears
left to fall,
your head up high,
that we’re still staring
at the same wide sky,
You and I—
both hoping that
will be fine,
even if sometimes