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Being near you is enough to make me feel like I’m safe from myself, and that’s hard as hell to do.
—  I just need you here.

Please reminder that:

• You are not weak if you want meds for your disorder
• You are not weak if you relapse once
• You are not weak if you relapse a thousand times
• You are not weak if some kinds of therapy don’t work for you
• You are not weak if some kinds of meds don’t work for you
• You are not weak if you have a mental disorder.

—  Keep going xx
I feel guilty about not wanting to live with this pain anymore and wanting to harm myself since I promised you I wouldn’t think like that. I’d hate to have broken a promise I made to you.
—  Then again, you promised me you’d always love me.

As i walk by the mirror the side of my stomach seems to come out a cm more then the last time i looked

I can feel my thighs touching while i walk and my collarbones are less prominent

as I type my fingers are big, my chin is multiplying.

all i’m doing is eating my sadness, crying it out and trying to restart

but i always end up in the same place.

and i don’t know if my mind is distorted or i am.

I noticed all of the small things, like you not asking for hugs when you were sad, and when you stopped wearing any of the jewelry that I’d gotten you, things you probably thought I wouldn’t notice.
—  “I noticed everything, I was just too scared to ask why”