refusing reality

Why people get trapped by Emotional Abusers & Why it’s not their fault

(these apply to platonic and romantic relationships)

1. Attachment

The Emotional Abuser gives you attention: they make you feel flattered, loved and important. You start to believe that they genuinely care about you. They might even think that they do by themselves since they internally justify all their doings. Normally this kind of attachment would lead to a healthy bonding and a closer relationship. With the Emotional Abuser it leads to some levels of addiction and dependency on the victim’s part which is never their fault. Emotional Abuser’s behaviour exploits normal emotional bonding to another human being.

2. Guilt

In some point in the relationship you notice that it’s all about their needs. The Abuser might do something that hurts your feelings and bringing it up leads them to reason why it’s actually your fault and why you have to take responsibility for it. They make up convincing excuses why it’s not their job to do it, why it’s absolutely unreasonable of you to ask for it and so on. In other words: they Guilt-trip you. The Emotional Abuser believes they have no responsibility for their behaviour or feelings. If they feel uncomfortable by something in the relationship they will manipulate you to take the blame instead of trying to work things out. Guilt-tripping makes the victim submit and erodes their sense of emotional and physical boundaries since they are made to believe it’s their job to cater on Abuser’s needs.

3. Cognitive dissonance

After the idealization pace the Emotional Abuser will move to a devaluing pace. Catering to their needs is not enough anymore and you feel you can’t do anything right no matter what you do. The pace starts when the Abuser feels you are getting emotionally too close and/or you are trying to hold them accountable for something they have done. Emotional Abusers are afraid of responsibility and in some cases intimacy so they will try to push you away. They use manipulation: Gaslighting and Guilt-tripping to force you into silence and to take all the responsibility for the relationship. They give you Silent Treatment which is justified by some clever excuses. Emotional Abusers believe they are entitled to absolute emotional comfort even when it means abusing other people.

Because you remember how well they used to treat you, your mind has a hard time accepting they are not the person you thought they were. In fact you might start to make excuses for them in your head because they have manipulated you to think nothing is their fault. It is extremely difficult to get away from the Abuser’s emotional trap because they take advantage of the victim’s emotional bonding to them and give false hope that the relationship could be “fixed”. You are misled into thinking that if you just learn not to be so “needy” and “selfish”, the Abuser will reward you with the loving behaviour they demonstrated in the beginning.


The Emotional Abuser has no intention to take responsibility for what their abusive behaviour has caused you because they have normalized and justified it in their head. Not all of the Abusers are so sure of themselves but need a lot of internal convincing and validation from others so that they can feel good about themselves which is their goal: not having to deal with responsibility or emotional labour. After all Emotional Abusers are not Disney villains but people who are so selfish that they lack of motivation to learn how to not hurt people.

There are two ways how the trap can break: the victim quits all contact with the Abuser or the Abuser leaves the victim. The latter one occurs if the Emotional Abuser feels they have to deal with too much because of the victim. The Abuser might feel threatened by the victim if the victim is making the Abuser feel bad about themself by calling out their abusive behaviour. The Emotional Abuser thinks that they are actually the victim in the relationship because the real Victim is making them feel bad and scared. The Abuser is genuinely afraid that they would have to deal with negative emotions that taking responsibility would require.

In the end the Emotional Abuser ends the relationship with some dramatic note in which they project all their feelings into the victim: you are the abuser, you have harmed them, you have threatened them. This is their way of securing their own emotional well-being as they refuse to acknowledge the reality. Just remember that it was NOT your fault and you are not responsible for their horrible behaviour. While mutually harmful and violent relationships can exist abusive relationships are based on a power imbalance and therefore there is no such a thing as “mutually abusive”. You are nothing like your abuser.

dear people who want to break the habit of interrupting others: when you interrupt someone and they stop talking, do not say what you were going to. apologize and ask them to continue. if they say “it’s fine, you can talk,” tell them “you were talking first,  i interrupted. go ahead.” i know that it is difficult to stop interrupting in general, but start by trying not to allow yourself to benefit from it.

Never Ever.

Jaebum x reader

synopsis“After all these time of me hurting you, why?” “Because Jaebum, never ever, I would fall out of love with you.” 

word count: 1356

genre: angst

“I love you.”

A salty, wet drop of vapor rolled down onto your cheek as you shot up from the bed, eyes darting across the dim room to a small bed table. Stretching your hands towards the digital alarm clock to tap the button, causing the artificial light to shine all over your room, displaying the time “3:07a.m.”

“I love you.” The words that used to haunt you the most at 3am somehow found its way into your head again: Jaebum’s never ending, soothing voice roaming the halls of your head, locked inside the depths.

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amon, knight of justice

As pointed out by @purgatoryandme​ the imagery here is of Amon’s face being uncovered like the lower half of a knight’s mask being taken off, while at the same time Takizawa’s face is being covered up by his Kakuja mask taking that same knight helmet like shape. 

It’s a vivid image for sure, but what exactly does this mean, along with all the other knight imagery that has been quite common in Tokyo Ghoul, and what does it mean for the characters this imagery gets associated with? 

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'The Flash': What's Next for Barry and Iris?
EPs Andrew Kreisberg and Todd Helbing, along with stars Candice Patton and Grant Gustin, tease what’s coming up as Savitar’s threat looms

The lesson they both came to learn during the crossover, though — as was the Music Meister’s goal — was that love is enough. Thus, upon returning to the real world, Barry sang the Pasek and Paul-penned love song “Runnin’ Home to You” to Iris, culminating in a true proposal. So, what’s next for the couple?

They grow closer and closer,” executive producer Andrew Kreisberg tells EW. “They’re both realizing that, like anybody, you don’t know how long you have together, so they’re trying to make every moment count.

While their romance is back on track, Patton notes it will be placed somewhat on the back burner as there are more pressing issues to deal with. “We’re not going to see wedding bells anytime soon, or wedding planning, because the most imminent situation is Iris’ impending death,” Patton says. “So that’s what we’ll be focusing on for the rest of the season, is making sure that prophecy does not come true.”

Though Barry has had his doubts when it comes to his ability to save Iris while being in a relationship with her, “We’ll see him moving forward with as much confidence as he can have right now with everything that’s happening,” Gustin says, noting that Barry has had blind faith all season that he will somehow persevere. “He lost it for a second and he’s got it back,” Gustin says. “He refuses to accept the reality that she will die.”

However, that doesn’t mean the couple won’t have concerns along the way. “They’re both fighting this, how do I be positive that we’re going to stop this while at the same time being realistic that maybe we don’t?” Kreisberg says. “It’s that push and pull. Like any couple, one starts to lose faith and the other one pulls them back up and vice versa. It’s an interesting dynamic that neither of them wants to wallow, and yet they’re struggling to keep going forward.

“From reading the scripts, I have to say, she is very strong,” Patton says of how Iris is handling her possible doom moving forward. “She’s accepting that this could be her potential fate. You get to this point in your life where, if you have a terminal illness, you accept that’s a possibility and you start to plan for that. We’ll see Iris deal with those thoughts and emotions as the season plays out.”

Part of looking to the future, however, does not include wedding planning. “We will see that come up in episode 21,” Gustin teases. “It’s brought up for the first time, but it’s the fact that we haven’t been dealing with it is what’s brought up, that we haven’t had time. There’s more of just trying to save her life; it’s the more pressing matter at this point.”

Still, fellow executive producer Todd Helbing notes that this journey will only make the couple stronger. “Now it’s really the two of them as a unit trying to figure out how to stop Savitar and keep her alive,” Helbing says. “While they’ve never been closer, there’s a lot more pressure than there ever has been on them as a couple. They have to figure out how to work through the biggest tragedy that could befall them in the future.”


Class Appreciation Week, Day 7: Post whatever you want!

“… at the end of the day, they’re just children. They can’t cope with this.”

The Doctor’s appearance is a strange moment, really. Sweeping in with a few quick and supposedly easy lessons to teach before abandoning Coal Hill to the care of a few scared teenagers is a discordant note in a melody that will prove far more complex. Of course, in these brief moments, we are offered only a simplified version of this character, but it serves as an interesting counterpoint, contrasting the basic tenets of Class and Doctor Who..

In a Doctor Who setting, dangerous aliens are fun, words and clever ideas make for entertaining resolutions an putting four teenagers in mortal peril on a weekly basis could be just an adventure. As serious and as complicated as Doctor Who can get, in the end, the next story will likely start with a Doctor and a companion, happy encounter a new source of danger. Here, this is juxtaposed with the grittier, less fantastical reality of our five protagonists.

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Wait, she understands? (College! AU)

Jun x reader (ft. Minghao)

synopsis: Jun and Minghao were having a conversation in Chinese and indirectly told you that Jun has a crush on you -without knowing that you had Chinese lessons since the age of 6. “(Chinese to English translations are in the brackets)”

word count: 1329

genre: fluff fluffy fluff // College! AU

It was unusual for the library to be this packed during school hours: sounds of doorsteps shuffling across the floor, students whispering to each other, padded bangs of books closing, and the dull beeping sound of books being borrowed. Nobody ever care that this place existed before, why is there suddenly so many people today? You thought as your gaze wandered around the library hall, searching for your friend who asked you to join her in the library to finish some homework.

Grabbing your shoulder from behind, your friend had already spotted you, she called “Y/N! Hey, we’re sitting over there.” She greeted you while pointing towards the table around the corner, with only two empty seats. “Ugh, the library is so packed today. All because of that new foreign kid.”


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anonymous asked:

i don't understand why izuku was so upset at the end could you explain; in sorry i'm kinda dumb haha

You’re not dumb, anon! There’s a lot happening in the manga right now, especially emotions-wise, and I’m not sure if I got it completely right, either. But I will try to explain how I interpreted Izuku’s emotions.

First of all, there is Izuku’s rather, uh “bumpy” start into his internship. He was confronted with Nighteye, All Might’s sidekick he didn’t even know about. He must have been nervous enough about that meeting, but to top it off, Nighteye also threw at his face that Mirio had been All Might’s supposed successor, and that he won’t acknowledge Izuku.

So there are already multiple things going on inside Izuku’s mind there, just from that. There is a sidekick he didn’t know about – why did All Might not tell him? Why did he not want to let Izuku meet Nighteye? What had happened between them? I’m sure Izuku was worrying about that since hearing about Nighteye for the first time.

Then, there’s the fact that Izuku had always a lot of insecurity when it came to himself. He had been quirkless, he is still a bit of a crybaby, he doesn’t have much experience… hearing that Mirio, who is so strong and experienced had been supposed to become the successor and that Izuku just was lucky to be the first out of the two of them to meet All Might must have been a hard hit and let some of his old insecurities resurface. And Nighteye, who knows All Might quite well, is sure that Mirio would have been a better choice. And even worse, All Might had known about Mirio, but never told Izuku about it, not even when Izuku had already met Mirio. So Izuku perhaps worries why All Might still keeps so many secrets from him. (And, just to mention – All Might said that he met Izuku first and gave him his quirk before he could give it to Mirio. He didn’t say that he himself thinks that Izuku was the better choice – I’m sure that hurts a bit, too.)

On top of that, Izuku only now seems to start to understand the state of body and mind (but especially the state of mind) All Might had been in six years ago, and is in even now. When the two of them met for the first time, Toshinori was fairly collected about his state – “I have a large scar, miss a few organs, can be a hero for only three hours, there you go, that’s it”. He seemed to have to come to terms with it, having settled into this life he was living now, after his injury.

Izuku realizes now that this is not the truth. Six years ago, All Might was despairing over the fact that he no longer could be a hero, could no longer protect society. He was ready to fling himself – broken and beat as he was – into the fight again and again and again, endangering his very life (and his legacy) just to keep going and doing his job. He was refusing to face reality – to face the fact that he couldn’t be the Number One and a pillar anymore. He still felt responsibility for the world. And he does even now, and Izuku is starting to realize that. All Might is still trying to keep up the façade of him being stronger than he really is, just so he won’t disappoint those who believe in him. He is still doing training, as if he is going to fight against villains again anytime.

Izuku is now confronted by the fact that his idol, his mentor, has taken more psychological damage than physical one, and he never noticed before.

And in the end, they didn’t really settle things. All Might rushed his story out and then continued his jogging, unable to face Izuku and gauge his reaction. Izuku, probably, still has things he wants to say and know, but he doesn’t dare to ask, doesn’t know how to. He is left standing there, wanting to question, wanting to help his mentor, but he is not given the possibility to do so. He is helpless.

Phew. That got out of hand, I’m sorry! XD But yeah, that’s how I interpreted Izuku being upset.

anonymous asked:

Do you believe there's any validity to the idea of Tyrion being Aerys son? It certainly draws another parallel that foils Tywin to Ned but thematically, does it work? Tyrion shares traits that are generally associated with Targs, dreams of dragons, etc. but acts like the daddy that reared him. What are your thoughts? Thanks for your time.

Thanks for the question!

Well, you’re rather nice about this ask and I was thinking of putting my answer politely for you even before I had my realization… but @joannalannister​ already answered this question splendidly so I feel rather redundant.

And I know you already don’t like Secret Targaryen theories, so this next part isn’t meant for you but this is a good chance for me to make my feelings quite clear on the matter: I hate A+J=T so damn much.

I hate how I either have to accept Joanna got raped (Lannister x Bodily Autonomy or nothing), Joanna went to Aerys willingly (HAHAhahaHAha, read WOIAF, that book will disabuse you of the notion), Tyrion being a little person is due to Targaryen genes (little people are born through the same genes as anyone else, just saying, people who come at me with that notion) or a fundamental misunderstanding of four characters (Aerys, Tywin, Joanna and Tyrion) for this theory to bear fruit.

My biggest bone in the craw is that… this erases a really fascinating (and horribly dysfunctional) father-son dynamic for what looks like a rather cheap twist and also ableism validation (@secretlyatargaryen​, feel free to kick my ass if I get this wrong.) Tyrion is Tywin’s true heir in intelligence, strategy and politics, but, thanks to ableism, Tywin refuses to accept this reality, mostly because he thinks Lannisters are perfect and Tyrion doesn’t fit his ideal image of a Lannister due to being a little person. 

To hell with that Lannister ideal. It’s easily one of Tywin’s most toxic notions and has led to great deal of undue misery onto Tyrion from sexual to emotional abuse. GRRM wants us to be sympathetic towards Tyrion, who’s been suppressed, reduced, abused and scorned, despite flourishing when given opportunities, all because of something he can’t control and is a natural fact of life.

So, in my opinion, not only does A+J=T validate Tywin’s ableism (which you just know he’ll blame Tyrion being a little person on the Targaryen genes because Lannisters are perfect) and abuse (because Tyrion is Aerys’ child, thus not a “real” Lannister, ugh), but it’s actively anti-GRRM in terms of what he’s trying to say with Tyrion, full stop.

Hope this helps!

Every morning when I wake up, my mother sees my dead looking eyes and asks “what’s wrong?”
And every morning I tell her,
“Nothing at all”
After all, nothing is wrong. The moon is still revolving around earth, and earth is still revolving around the sun. The birds are still chirping, this city is still buzzing.
And this is how life is supposed to be isn’t it? Sometimes soul mates aren’t meant to be together, sometimes one becomes unhealthy for the other. So you move on, find new people to love and you never allow yourself to wonder
“will I ever love anyone else I meet the same way I loved them?”
But I’m an over thinker, and that question is always on the back of mind.
“will I ever really be able to move on?”
“If nothing is wrong, then why do you have that look on your face?” my mother asks again.
And I don’t know what else to do except to shrug at her and walk away.
Because nothing is wrong.
Nothing is wrong, but I still wake up half dazed because I would rather be in dreamland than in a reality that refuses to acknowledge my pain.
Nothing is wrong, yet my chest is always tight and there’s a constant imaginary lump in my throat; just on the verge of crying but not quite there.
Nothing is wrong at all, but I suck at goodbyes; and even more so at talking about it.
Nothing is wrong, but nothing is right either.
—  and life goes on, apparently. // a.b
Go without me

“Regina, I’m dying”

“No, you are not, Emma.”

“I am. We have to accept the reality.”

“I refuse to be left alone. Don’t you dare die on me, Miss Swan.”

“I’m dying and you call me Miss Swan?”

“I’ll call you whatever I want when you’re being an idiot.”

“Your idiot.”

“Mine. Now drink this.”

She hands Emma a glass of some fizzy concoction. Emma drinks it and burps, then burps some more.

“Wow. I feel so much better. What was in it?”

“Water, baking soda and vinegar. How are you feeling?”

“Less like I’m about to die, but my stomach still  hurts.”

“You ate half a chicken and fries and drank two cans of beer. I’m amazed you didn’t burst.”

“I’m never eating this much, ever again.”

“You said the same thing last week when I made enchiladas.”

“Not my fault your food tastes amazing.”

“Idiot,”Regina’s smiling at this.


Emma leans in to kiss Regina but no sooner do their lips touch that Emma lets out another burp. 

Purple Moose, Orange Squirrel, and A Pink Dress

Hello my pretties!! Here’s a fun little fic that I put together for a couple challenges! I hope you enjoy it!

Check out my masterlist for more stories!

Word count: about 2700

Reader insert, no pairing. Characters: Sam, Dean, Rowena

Warnings: slight canon typical violence, but pretty mild

This was written for @whispersandwhiskerburn Much Ado About Supernatural challenge, prompts: Pagan God, Pie, Pranks, Quote: “We have seen better days”

For @motleymoose Kat’s Mediocre Challenge, Quote: “You’re evil! And you!! You're… Scottish evil!”, Song: Drift Away by Dobie Gray, Western setting

And for @beckawinchester Becka’s Birthday Challenge, Quote: “Stop pointing that thing at me!”, Police Station setting

Prompts are bolded in the story! Feedback is greatly appreciated! XO


Originally posted by malasorte-malavita

“Alright, Winchesters! Never fear, your hero has returned!” You burst into the motel room trying your damnedest not to laugh. You pulled the chestnut brown hair dye from the shopping bag.

“You sure we can’t leave it purple, Sam?” he popped his head out of the bathroom, violet locks swaying. He looked freaking ridiculous but you were really trying not to be an asshole about it, so you choked back your laughter, biting your lip.

“No, Y/N. I’m not keeping the purple hair,” he snapped, snagging the box of dye from your hands. His purple head was quickly replaced by the bright orange face of Dean.

“Please tell me you have something to fix this,” he pointed to his face sadly.

“You guys look terrible…” you commented, smirking slightly. Dean glared back at you.

“We have seen better days,” he sassed, highly irritable, his bitchface not nearly as effective when his skin was glowing like a jack-o’-lantern. “Now tell me there’s something we can do for my freaking face…”

Shaking your head slightly, trying not to kick the sad puppy while he was down, you started to pull things out of the bag.

“Squeeze the lemon in with the baking soda and a little water till you have a paste and scrub scrub scrub!” you shoved the baking soda, lemon, and a sea sponge loofa into his hands. He nodded, a man on a mission, and shut the door to the bathroom.

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No one “wants” to be oppressed.

People want their oppression to be recognized as real, so that the fight against it can gain traction.

Anyone you are accusing of “wanting” to be oppressed specifically wants not to be oppressed.

The refusal to acknowledge the reality of oppressive forces you don’t face only makes sure that those forces remain in power longer, and have other dangerous effects extending well outside the targeted group.

anonymous asked:

I think people have been so use to someone like Taylor Swift writing about her exes (even if she pretends they are about the beards not the gfs) they presume he will too... the fact he has no exes to talk about would make that a tad difficult

I think people have been conditioned to accept that pop music is all about sex and romance – hetero sex and romance! – and can’t imagine that anyone could be deeper than that. They cast Harry into the slot in their brains reserved for “womanizing baby boy band poppet” and refuse to acknowledge the reality of him because they’d have to admit that they blithely accepted the marketing that was shoved at them. Harry isn’t a person to them, he’s a marketed persona. To hell with what he’s actually trying to say. Even setting aside Larry altogether, his actual words and actions cannot reasonably be read as those of a straight serial monogamist, which is the best possible interpretation of his previous image.

LWA: Half-season thoughts.

This show is great. It’s still solid. As expected of Trigger. Yay~

*claps hands* パチパチパチ (^ ∀ ^∫)∫”“

That said, if I wasn’t so busy lately, I would love to write out more analysis or come up with theories on what might happen in the second cour. But at the same time, I’ve become pretty content with just watching LWA as it is and waiting on suspense for the big reveal.

Besides, too often do my theories end up turning into these blown-up expectations anyway and then I get a little depressed when it’s doesn’t happen the way I thought it would…so it’s probably better for me to just wait.

Anywhoo~ I still want to go over briefly the three biggest forces driving the plot so far:

Akko - I asked for character development and they delivered. *sends basket of mini-muffins to studio as thanks*

What’s great about Akko’s growth is that it’s not instantaneous or miraculous. It didn’t occur over the course of two-three episodes like how it might for characters in another series. It’s still happening as we speak.

Yes, she was hit with the realization that she’s not in a mahou shoujo anime just going to one day be able to do everything Chariot was capable of doing. That she can’t just wish for something a million times and expect it to be delivered on her doorstep, fully installed and functioning.

She’s got to actually work for it and she did.

I mean, look at how she’s coming along with her metamorphosis magic! Isn’t that amazing?

But at the same time, she’s still impatient, reckless, thick-headed and oh my god, so whiny. She still gets easily jealous over Diana’s superior skill. Instead of letting that rivalry serve as motivation for her to improve, Akko tries to challenge Diana head-on when she’s clearly not ready for it yet. On top of that, she abuses magic by playing mean pranks on others. Hardly the appropriate behavior for a proper witch, let alone a disciple of Chariot.

In short, Akko’s got the work ethic down…but she has yet to outgrow that childish mindset.

And I love that they’re dedicating so many episodes to showing that. I love that they’re saying making a big show of yourself does not equal entitled recognition or qualification. I’m glad that not everything goes Akko’s way and that her friends don’t mince their words when they tell her the truth. That her complaints will get her nowhere except into more trouble and that what’s wrong is Akko refusing to face reality because she stubbornly won’t let go of these rosy visions on what it’s like to be a witch.

And Akko does come to understand this flaw of hers, slowly and little by little. It’s her own immaturity and desire to beat Diana at some pointless glory game that continue to set her back every time she makes a step forward.

Akko’s got great potential and she really can become a magnificent witch if she tries. But she’s got to learn to calm down, look at the bigger picture and curb that temper first. And of course, that’s going to take a lot of time…which we do have. Another 12-episodes worth of it, in fact. If Akko makes good use of that time, by the end, I wouldn’t doubt she’d have surpass Chariot in ways even she didn’t think was possible.

So let’s hope for that, yea? I’m looking forward to Akko overcoming her obstacles, external and personal. But I’m also positive that regardless of whatever progress she makes, it won’t change the best of who she is. And that’s really what’s important here. Because Akko just wouldn’t be Akko if she’s not Akko.

Diana - Still my Best Girl. Always my Best Girl.

But I’m going to do her segment in a slightly more technical manner than I did Akko’s.

Diana hasn’t received any significant development since episode 2 . For the most part, her role was to serve as a foil to our bumbling heroine.

While that is helpful in highlighting the areas that Akko is weak in and needs to work on, it doesn’t tell us more about Diana than what we already know.

I mean, it’s great to finally get some insight on what drives her in the most recent ep. She’s probably the only student to take the matters of the declining magical population so seriously that she already made it her life goal to reverse the dilemma. It’s a very admirable thing to do so it’s no wonder why everyone looks to her for help.

However, this constant reliance on Diana indicates nobody else is really contributing anything to find a solution. Sure, the teachers mull over it in their office meetings and maybe the younger witches might discuss it among themselves. But out of habit, they’ll all turn to Diana to save the day and that’s not good.

Moreover, knowing Diana, she’ll likely let this get to her head. Her intentions are in the right place but her arrogance may be detrimental to her efforts. Since everybody is always expecting Diana to do things for them and Diana is more than happy to take charge and direct them instead of guiding them to find answers on their own (the festival preparations in a nutshell), how will they react when Diana encounters a problem that all her intellect and magic cannot solve?

Because I don’t believe that magic exists for the sake of itself in this universe. I think in order for there to be magic, there has to be people to believe in it. Which could explain why there are Nine Olde Witches credited instead of just one person and why the witch community is diminishing. The less people there is to believe in magic and enforce it with their wills, the faster magic disappears.

To put it simply, it’s not an issue that one tackles alone. But Diana is going at it alone and that’s her biggest mistake.

Keep in mind, this is not necessarily a bad thing because that opens doors for Diana to change as well.

Her research in the Grand Triskelion to aid her in revitalizing magic is intertwined with Akko’s path in breaking the seal on it so they’ll inevitably work together at some point. Maybe by then, Akko will have matured enough not to always compare herself against Diana. Then Diana won’t need to criticize Akko for being a nuisance anymore, they’ll gradually see eye-to-eye in cooperating, magic is saved, and celebrations will be had. Whoohoo~

In the middle of all that, though, I suspect Diana will realize what she lacks. In contrast to Akko, whose strength lies in her ability to dream, Diana is all textbook and studies and basically, no fun. She’s… a pure-blooded Hermione with no one to call a real friend.

Once she recognizes that her methods won’t help her and witnesses what Akko can do, perhaps it’ll break her restrictive views on magic along with that haughty attitude of hers. Maybe she’ll remember how she was once awed by magic, like when she was so excited to attend Chariot’s performance as a child. Maybe she’ll finally learn to be humble with this lesson learned. Hell, maybe she’ll even gain new powers as a result.

Or maybe all of the above. Who knows?

In any case, there’s more for Diana in store and I can’t wait to see how that plays out. Diana is not there to be Akko’s enemy, after all, like I said since the beginning. She’s her own character just like Akko so it’d be absurd for her to not have her own story to develop.

Ursula/Chariot - *makes strangling noises* Tfw you want to know what’s the deal behind all her secrecy but at the same time, want to enjoy everything this anime has to offer without spoiling any intended effects!!!!! AAAAGGGHHH!!!!!

*deflates* Well, at least we’ve been getting more flashbacks and clues about Chariot lately. The trials Akko is currently facing seem like the same ones Chariot underwent when she was young. But while no one knows how things will turn out for Akko (I think it’s safe to bet she’ll get a happy ending, though), it is sort of implied that Chariot came up short and might’ve paid a hefty price for it.

Like, if Akko’s encounter with Professor Woodward was any indication, maybe she had to give up her identity as Chariot? Maybe she couldn’t harness the Grand Triskelion’s power and had to seal it by throwing her past away?

I dunno, just a thought.

There’s also those flashbacks from ep 11 to consider and I’ve seen pictures of Chariot facing off against another witch (also pictured in those flashbacks), whose profile looks every bit the antagonist this show has been missing. So I wonder when she’ll appear and how it’ll affect the story.

But like I said, I’m content to wait it out. Reveal Chariot’s backstory in increments per episode and build it up that way. I’m not going anywhere so just don’t disappoint me. :)

Oh, and if DVD/Blu-ray sales for LWA go really well, we should demand an OVA from Trigger centering around Chariot’s past and all the adventures she’s experienced at Luna Nova. Agree? AgreeAgreeAgree?!?! 8D

Bonus: Supporting Charas - Just wanted to say that I love these girls and that I’m glad they’ve grown close enough that they can casually hang out like this to roast Akko. <3

Here’s hoping they’ll be accompanying Akko in the grand finale cuz I’m sure the climax is going to be BIG. It’s going to be BIG, I tell you. BIG.

And please have Sucy spit on someone’s face before this ends. Please oh please please PLEASE pretty please? *puppy eyes* (◕ฺω◕ฺ)

Here’s this just in case anyone thought I was dead. Any bets placed are now owed. You can mail my cut along a photo of your disappointment, thanks.

I think it’s been about 5 months since my last confession at the temple of Tumblr, so I guess I’ll give you a thing a month for now.

November was big move for me as far as trying to change the cynical outlook on life and general depression I seemed to not want to let go of. I suppose you can say this is when I started to do some soul searching, but I think you actually have to have one. I moved into a new place in a new area with a new vibe with a whole lot of new experiences. It’s been clear since then that this was necessary.

December was a continuation of trying to be less me; trying to get out more, forcing myself into situations that typically make me anxious, and trying to shrug off things that wasn’t worth stressing over. 

January… wasn’t all that special, I guess. Can’t think of anything of any serious note. I think I heard an epic breakup on New Year’s Eve in the alley behind my building. I couldn’t hear everything, but there was definitely crying and consoling happening. So, other people’s drama was the big event that month.

February 11th I wake to a message from my sister-in-law left around midnight the night before asking me to call her. She sounded like she had been crying when she answered the phone. She then told me that my brother died. I spent that day in a haze. It just didn’t seem real. How could it be? He was 45. He was too young. He looked healthy just a month and a half ago. Until that evening when I finally broke down. We held a memorial for him on the 18th and I spent the weekend with family to grieve and celebrate his life. Even now, typing this, there is still a part of me that doesn’t accept it as a reality. To refuse the reality that I will never see him again. I felt cheated by life. We should have had more time.

March was a fog of depression and apathy. I was barely present for my job most of the time. I would go in, do the work I was expected to do, and left. Sometimes that meant a full day, sometimes that meant an hour. Many days I left for lunch with my book and just never went back. I did just enough to not screw over my team, but I was officially done busting my ass for leadership that had no intention of show a shred of gratitude for it. So, I resigned.

April has been going fairly well so far. I have a new job, the weather is getting better, I’ve been exploring other places outside the neighborhood, seeking out new experiences, and spending more time social situations. My depression has subsided quite a bit in the past few months. There are still bouts of it from time-to-time, but I’m generally happier now-a-days.

I guess that’s enough for now. If you want to know more, I have an ask box (if Tumblr staff hasn’t broken that yet). Okay bye.