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Magic Hour.

Everything’s first on that fateful day. She was looking tired even though the day was just going halfway. She needed his presence, maybe some of his voice so she tried to text him, using a different mobile. Then someone called the phone, she immediately ignored the phone call. The number text, asking who was she and why was she texting his number. She answered and then she got another phone call.

The phone call confirmed that it was he, and he asked for her name. She said her name, and he asked if she’s the one that he knew with the same name, since he only knew a single person with that name of hers. She was flattered, thinking that she’s the only girl that he knew in his life with that name and dropped the phone call.

Then in just a matter of minutes, he came walking. He was far from her but their eyes managed to meet. He went to the other side, but she didn’t bother to walk right in there even though she’s dying to see him.

He walked out of there and once again their eyes met. 

She walked in there with a friend, knowing her concerns, that friend told her that she should have walked in there when he was there. They went out to walk outside the campus and as they walk past through the court, she saw him there–unexpectedly– sitting with his friend. Their eyes met again but she didn’t want to talk because her heart might explode.

But what she’s been afraid of just happened– he yelled to call her name, and there’s nothing left to do but to talk to him after a long time of no communication at all.

He was wearing that cute cap that hid his freckled-toned-face. He was still cute in her eyes, knowing that he had a tiny red dot on his nose, she even joked about it, asking him if he’s inlove.

She greeted him with a bang– an action that he usually does. They high-fived – but it was a longer touch than of the usual high-fives. It was a lingering touch. They talked and laughed and joked like the other times. He promised her things, she promised him of some, too. It was a joyful reunion after a long time of misery for her, having no contact at all. It was just a lovely afternoon.

His eyes sparkled as the magic hour readied the sun to set pass upon his eyes. She was startled by that beauty, hoping that he’s also amazed of her look that she had for that day.

They parted with both of them with a smile on their faces, knowing that tomorrow would be more joyful for them. She’s happy after all.

Easier

It’s so easy… to have you in my life.

No wonder, I got you so fast, you are so light.

It’s so easy… to talk to you everyday.

I get the bubbles in my mind with our laughs when you joke around.


But then I realize, it’s easier to fall in love.

It’s easier to when you and I work as one.

But then I realize, it’s harder that I fall in love.

No wonder, I see ‘us’ drifting apart.


Maybe… someday you’d be back.

I’m not sure, but maybe someday.

Maybe…someday you’d be back.

I’m not sure, but maybe I’m willing to wait… for you and I to return to what’s 'us’ before…


Now I can see it… we’re drifting apart.

We’re miles away… more than strangers.

Your smile when you see me… it’s not the same. It’s not even a smile. It hurts.

And I want you back… yes I want us back.


What do you want hear?

Do you want to see me bleeding? Right now I’m bleedin’.

Everytime that you ignore me, I feel so lost.

How could you and I drift apart this fast?


It was easy when we hang around.

But it seems easier for you that we’re apart.

And there’s one thing that I wanna say… before you go.

It’s always you…and I love you so.


Maybe… someday you’d be back.

I’m not sure, but maybe someday.

Maybe…someday you’d be back.

I’m not sure, but maybe I’m willing to wait… for you and I to return to what’s 'us’ before…

He was lonely. She was, too. They were both looking for love. They met and became friends. They were happy with each other and would often laugh on each others’ jokes. He would make her smile, and she would appreciate his thoughtfulness. Then, as time went by, she remembered that she was looking for love. And by that time, she knew she found it: IT WAS HIM. Suddenly, he told her that he found love… but it was on someone else.

She had no choice but to smile for him. She found the perfect; even him did, it’s just not mutual. Then she’s lonely once again.

She's lonely. And it's because of him. Not totally because he deserted her, it's just that she's missing him. It's so bad to imagine how he manage not to reply on her texts, she even made the effort to phone him but he won't just answer the phone. She's breaking apart, without him knowing. But what's worst is that, she doesn't have the right to get hurt, or to brag him about her pains because there's nothing special between them. And with that fact, she keeps on hurting every single day.
LONG STORY SHORT #3: Cap

His story:

Masayang-masaya ako pag-uwi. Sa wakas! Nagbunga lahat ng effort ko! Matapos ang lahat ng pagod, ang lahat ng paglakad-lakad at pagkausap sa mga tao, naging tagumpay naman. Isa na lang ang hinihintay ko, ang maging lehitimo. Pero okay lang naman maghintay, sandali na lang naman yun. 

Gusto kong mag-celebrate. Inuman na! Pumarty ako kasama ng mga kaibigan ko at kasamahan ko. Sobrang masaya, di ko na nga napansin ang oras. Pero dahil good kid ang drama ko, umuwi din ako agad.

Pag-uwi ko, nginitian ko agad sila Ate at Kuya na nakasama ko na sa tahanan ko nang matagal. Pero iba yung ngiti nila. Ano kayang meron?

Pagdating ko sa kwarto ko, pagbukas ng pinto, may isang paperbag. May sulat at nakapangalan sakin. Kinuha ko, tinignan ko yung card, ang sabi…

“For You, Congratulations! Keep it up.”

Kaso walang pangalan yung sender. Pagkuha ko ng laman ng paperbag, isang cap. Cap na matagal ko nang gustong makuha. Aba! Eto talaga yung matagal ko nang gustong balikan kaso walang time at minsan wala pang pera.

Sino naman kayang pwedeng magpadala nito?…..

Siya! Oo siya! Tatanungin ko siya!

Kinabukasan, pagpasok ko, nakita ko agad siya. Di pa nga niya ata ako nakita. O umiwas lang siya ng tingin. Lumapit ako. Pero bago ako makalapit, lahat na bumati sakin, siyempre ngumiti muna ako sa kanila at nagpasalamat.

Paglapit ko sa kanya…

“Uy, thanks dun sa cap ah!”

“Huh?”

“Yung cap, yung pinadala mo sa bahay.”

“Anong cap?”

“Hindi ba ikaw nagbigay nun? Ikaw lang naman nakakaalam nung cap na gusto kong bilhin eh.”

“Wala akong binibigay, baka stalker mo. Naks! Anyway congrats!”

Nagtaka ako, alam ko siya lang naman pwedeng magbigay. Pero di daw siya. Sino kaya?

Her story:

Masayang-masaya siya pag-uwi. Sa wakas! Nagbunga lahat ng effort niya! Matapos ang lahat ng pagod, ang lahat ng paglakad-lakad at pagkausap sa mga tao, naging tagumpay naman. Isa na lang ang dapat niyang hintayin, ang maging lehitimo. Pero okay lang naman maghintay, sandali na lang naman yun. 

Kilala ko siya. Gusto niyang mag-celebrate. Inuman na! Pumarty siya kasama ng iba niyag kaibigan at ng mga kasamahan. Ni hindi na nga niya ako naaalala kasi marami na masyado sila. Hindi man lang niya ako niyaya. Pero okay lang, alam ko namang di siya agad makakauwi. Dumaan muna ako sa isang tindahang alam kong binabalik-balikan niya.

Tinuro ko sa tindera yung cap na naituro niya sakin dati. Gusto niya yun ng sobra. Pero di niya mabalikan kasi walang panahon o kaya wala siyang pera. Kaya binili ko na, congratulatory gift ba.

Tapos, naisip ko nung una na personal iabot sa kanya. Kaso bakit? Baka ano pa isipin niya. Mamaya malisya na naman. Ayoko na. Gusto ko lang siyang batiin. Alam ko namang marami nang panahon ang dumaan. Di na pwedeng maulit yung dati naming pagsasama na walang makakapagpahiwalay samin. Iba na ngayon. Nawawala na siya. Kaya itong cap na lang na toh ang iiwan kong alaala sa kanya.

Pumunta ako sa bahay nila. Kilala ko sina Ate at Kuya na matagal na niyang kasama sa tahanan niya. Kinasabwat ko sila. Nakiusap na kahit kailan wag sasabihin sa kanyang ako yung nagbigay. Pumayag naman sila. Ang bait nila.

Gabi. Pag-uwi ko, alam ko namang nakauwi na siya. Hinihintay ko siyang magtext. Pero wala. Baka di niya nakita. O baka naman di lang niya pinansin. Bahala na bukas.

Kinabukasan, pagpasok ko, nakita ko agad siya. Kunwari di ko siya nakita, parang di ko talaga pinansin. Palapit na siya. Pero bago siya makalapit, lahat na bumati sa kanya, siyempre ngumiti muna siya sa kanila at nagpasalamat.

Paglapit niya sa akin…

“Uy, thanks dun sa cap ah!”

“Huh?”

“Yung cap, yung pinadala mo sa bahay.”

“Anong cap?”

“Hindi ba ikaw nagbigay nun? Ikaw lang naman nakakaalam nung cap na gusto kong bilhin eh.”

“Wala akong binibigay, baka stalker mo. Naks! Anyway congrats!”

Di ko kayang salubungin yung mga mata niyang nagdududa. Pero alam ko napaniwala ko naman siyang di sakin galing. Mas okay na yun. Nagpaalam na siya. Sana lang gamitin niya. Kasi yun na lang yung huli kong maibibigay dahil alam kong sa simula ng tagumpay niya, ay lalo pang madadagdagan ang pagkakalayo namin.

Ang lalaki minsan talaga magulo pa sa babae. Totoo yun. Kasi siya, magulo siya. Magulo na nga kaming dalawa, mas magulo pa siya sakin. Ano na nga ba kasi meron? Wala din naman akong alam. Wala siyang sinasabi, kaya natatakot akong sumugal. Baka magkamali lang ako.

May mga oras na umiiwas siya minsan. Pero mas madalas malapit, madikit. Ang gulo diba? Maraming gustong malaman, pero kahit ako wala akong alam. Minsan nga gusto ko na siyang sapukin. Ang gulu-gulo niya kasi.

Dumating pa yung time na bumitaw siya sa pangakuan namin. Masakit sakin pero ano nga bang karapatan ko di ba? Siya yun. Yun yung gusto niyang mangyari. Pero di ko lang maiwasang magtampo. Sabi ko lagi lang naman akong nasa likod niya.

Kahit masakit tinanggap ko nang desisyon niya, tapos bigla naman niyang sasabihing gusto niya ulit balikan yung pangakuan namin. Anuba daii! Ano ba talagang gusto mong mangyari? Lagi na lang ba akong maghihintay sa kanya kasi magulo siya?

Tapos eto na naman siya, malalaman kong may kasamang iba. Wala nga naman akong karapatang magalit o magduda, pero bakit pag tinatanong ko siya tungkol dun, parang iwas din siya? Ang gulo lang!

Walang dapat masaktan, kasi walang dapat ma-connect. Magulo lang talaga.

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One day, one time.

Don’t change, don’t try.

Have you ever thought of becoming my hero?

You’re blessed with the powers no one can ever handle.

You are so beautiful, I can easily tell.

Every little thing about you is a wonder in me.

How could someone hurt you if you’re the perfect one?

How can someone make you bleed if you’re the greatest catch?

I won’t promise to give you all the time that I’ve got.

But I’m willing to make time to make you matter the most.

I won’t promise to write you the best love song,

But I’m willing to sing you with all my heart.

One day, One time.

When will I ever make you mine?

How will I suppose to tell you that I love you,

If the only way to say my love is to say goodbye?

One day, one time.

One man, one life.

One word, one try.

Goodnight, goodbye.

LONG STORY SHORT #5: DROPOUT

Busy ang lahat. Pati sya, lalo na siya. Pero nagkaroon pa rin siya ng panahon para isipin ka. Siguro kahit ikaw wala ka nang pakialam sa kanya. Nagkaroon pa rin siya ng effort para makausap ka. Kaya tinext ka niya. Ng parang wala lang… matagal na mula nang mag-usap kayo ng ganito.

Tinext ka niya, tinawag ka niya sa tawagang kinasanayan niyo noon pa. Kahit alam niyang dapat hindi na, sumugal pa rin siya, sumagot ka.

Ang akala niya babaliwalain mo siya. Pero dahil sumagot ka, nag-isip siya ng bagay na pwede niyong pag-usapan. Nai-open niya ang problema mo.

Pinag-usapan niyo. Malungkot ka alam niya. Kahit naman ikaw talaga ang dapat sisihin kung bakit nangyari sa iyo yan. Sinubukan niyang pagaanin ang loob mo, nangako na tutulungan ka niya sa abot ng makakaya niya dahil anupa nga naman ang pinagsamahan niyo… na kahit kinalimutan mo… ay pinahalagahan pa rin niya.

Nagulat siya na nagpasalamat ka. Higit pa sa inaasahan niyang pasasalamat.

“Salamat ng sobra a? Kahit alam kong may gap, nagshow ka pa rin ng concern mo, salamat…”

Nagsimula siyang maiyak. Ikaw nang nagsabi, sayo na nanggaling. Pero ano pa bang magagawa niya… kaibigan lang siyang walang magawa sa kaibigang gusto nang lumisan…