Welcome Back! So this chapter is rough. Tempers are short and our boys have their first real argument and it gets ugly. Fortunately, it’s also the first time they are both open and honest with each other afterwards. Shitty fight=big step forward for them!
It feels weird to say “Enjoy” for this chapter so um… buckle up?
Day Three in the Forest
The day was shit.
Tony’s feet hurt, and his back hurt and his legs hurt and Jesus Christ the bug spray had stopped working almost immediately after putting it on and he was sure he was bit half way to hell.
Another night crammed in a one man tent with Steve– okay, no, actually that hadn’t been all that bad, and Tony’s lips lifted in a reluctant smile remembering the feel of Steve’s beard against his skin. Not that he was into beards at all. Not at all. And even after his pseudo bath in the river the day before, they were still two grown men in the middle of a jungle sweating through layers of clothing and ineffective bug spray, so they didn’t smell good at all. Not at all. And yet, Tony hadn’t thought to complain as they lay pressed up against each other, trying to touch as little as possible but neither one moving away when they did. He hadn’t wanted to say anything when Steve ended up wrapping an arm around his waist and pulling him closer.
And when he had woken up and felt Steve, hard and thick, digging into him– well, it hadn’t even crossed his mind to complain about that. Not at all.
Alright, so that wasn’t all that terrible, but the rest of the day was shit.
They were both cranky and irritable and needing a break from each other and from hiking and the constant stress of looking over their shoulders every three seconds and avoiding the water. They kept switching between eye-stripping each other and then getting under each others skin with thinly veiled insults, and then something would switch all over again and Steve would be looking at him with something beautiful and terrifying in those dark blue eyes and Tony would be stammering and looking away and searching for something sarcastic to change the moment.
The terrain had been gradually getting steeper as the day went on and Tony remembered with a groan the mountain that he could always barely see from camp. Not a huge mountain by any stretch of the imagination, more of a large hill, but after three days on their feet and smaller than usual portions of food and water as well as the added stress of just being around each other, each step seemed like a marathon and by the time they broke for lunch, Tony’s temper was near breaking as well.
He kept telling himself that Steve’s feet hurt way worse than his, that Steve was carrying a bigger bag than him, that Steve was stressed out being the one carrying the guns but–but– damn it Tony was exhausted.
“Right here. Let’s break right here.” were the first words Steve had said all day, dropping his pack and basically collapsing on to the ground, his back against a tree. “Not too long though, we’ve got to get up and over this mountain if we want to make the village by tomorrow. Too risky to get to the river at all, so conserve your water.”
“Wonderful.” Tony slumped down against his own tree and pulled the last of his protein bars from his bag. “More mountain climbing, no river to at least look at, just miles of green. I’ve never hated this color so much in my life.”
Steve made an agreeable grunt as he ate his own bit of food, and they sat in silence again for the few moments they had of rest.
“Will you tell me–” Tony swallowed and took a quick sip. “The students that died? Did you know them?”
“Yeah.” Steve said shortly, pouring a little water in his hands to smooth down his hair and rubbing irritably at his beard.
“Who were they?” Tony asked, bracing himself to hear their names. It had been bugging him the entire time, seeing their bodies and not knowing their names. When he got back to New York he was going to personally pay to get them home and laid to rest because no one deserved to–
“It doesn’t matter.” Steve shrugged and Tony’s mouth dropped.
“It doesn’t matter? It absolutely matters who they were!”
“It really doesn’t.” Steve crumpled up his trash, tucking it carefully in a pouch so they didn’t leave any trace of being there. “Leave it alone.”
“Are you serious?” Tony’s voice rose and Steve sent him an annoyed look. “Steve, they are people. How can you say it doesn’t matter?”
“They were people, Tony. They aren’t anymore. What good would knowing their names do for you besides stress you out? Leave it alone.”
“Jesus.” Tony swore and jumped to his feet. “Look at you. Students– young people– died because of some asshole you trusted and you’re saying they aren’t people? They deserve to be remembered, damn it. What the fuck is wrong with you? Are you that heartless? All these years as a mercenary just ruined you, huh?”
“You’re tired and emotional.” Steve waved him off. “We aren’t talking about this right now.”
“Tired and emotional.” Tony repeated. “No. No, I want you to tell me right now why you don’t think those kids deserve to be named. Why would you even say something like—”
“Because I’ve seen people die. Lots and lots of people die, over and over, Tony.” Steve shook his head. “And remembering their names didn’t do anything except give me nightmares. I’ve seen way too much to try and put a name to every face. Once they are gone, they are just gone. And if I see it any other way then I can’t do my job. They are just bodies.”
“Man.” Tony stared at him. “You make a great mercenary, don’t you, Captain?”
Dark blue eyes flashed with something unreadable. “Yeah, I really do.”
So I kinda wrote a different kind of fanfiction. It’s nothing as in depth as my other fics so I am going to post it here. ENJOY!!
***Actor, Real Person Fanfiction, Walking Dead RPF***
Featuring: Jeffrey Dean Morgan X Original Female Character, Norman Reedus and others.. (FYI this is total fiction, as in I know nothing about JDMs life or that of his real SO and son etc. Because of this, for this work of fiction, they don’t exist. Jeffrey’s been a typical actor playboy dating fellow stars etc. This is written for sick daydreaming pleasure.)
Aria St. James is a busy woman with a thriving restaurant. She thought she had everything she needed until a few famous faces visit her dining room. A tall, dark and handsome actor decides Aria’s just what he’s been looking for.
The week had been difficult, not
only with staffing issues and the upcoming wedding rehearsal dinner but Aria
was missing Jeffrey fiercely. She wasn’t sure how but the man had firmly rooted
himself into her life and with him gone, she was feeling lonely. It wasn’t even
as though they spent everyday together. With both of their schedules being
hectic, they’d go days, if not more than a week from seeing each other. They
did however talk frequently throughout the day and more often than not they
would Skype or FaceTime in the evening.
Jeffrey was addicting it seemed and
now that she had a taste of what it could be like to have someone in her life,
someone she could have dinner or breakfast with, she wanted it all the time.
They’d only been dating for a month or so but she was clearly feeling something
stronger than any of her other relationships. Maybe it was because she was
older but Aria could tell, what they had was deeper and longer lasting. She
wanted to be with him and she could see them becoming even more to each
All of this was wonderful, she was
thoroughly enjoying it but it was also completely and utterly terrifying.
Hi Guys! Sorry it has been a long time since I posted. This is something I have been working on based on Alan’s livestream last week where Val said he prefers Redheads. There will defy be a part 2 if you guys enjoy this so let me know! Looking forward to the comments :) Like and Reblog!
Sharna sat up abruptly pulling the bed sheet with her. He sat up against the headboard and ran his hands through his hair.
She bent down to reach for her bra and put it on, with her back to him. “That shouldn’t have happened.” She spoke quietly. She reached down for her other clothes.
“No, it shouldn’t have.”
They were both quiet, not knowing what to say next. Once she had all her clothes on, she stood up, “I’m just going to go.” She pointed over her shoulder at the door.
A large number of my favorite gleanings from the ever-amazing gift that is the Kylux fandom.
Most are rated E, although there are some Ms and Ts. I like long fics…5k is like a nice prologue to me, so these tend toward the lengthier side - but there are some shorter works as well. I don’t always know which authors are on Tumblr or what name they use here. If I’ve missed tagging one correctly, please let me know.
WIP Rec list coming next.
My preferred tropes…let me show you them.
They Team Up to Defeat Snoke and/or Rule The Galaxy (or Parts of It)
The House of Paper Bones by @ofcorsetstrash Not Rated - 58k The author has taken the familiar elements of the story that leads up to TFA and thrown them into a Cuisinart, re-assembling them in all sorts of novel and interesting ways. Part of the enjoyment of reading this is figuring out who is who.
Run Once More by leoandlancer E - 70,900 Just post-TFA, bitter survivors of the Republic kidnap Hux with the intent to torture and execute him. Snoke don’t care. BAMF Ren saves the day. That’s just the first 2 chapters.
Order in Chaos by @ezlebe E - 86k Force-Sensitive!Hux gets matched up as a young man with the volatile Kylo Ren, to aid him in maintaining control of his emotions.
It All Goes to Hell (They Maybe Defeat Snoke But Rule Nothing) - Some Have MCD
Legacy (3 part series) by @kat2107 E, E, Not Rated - 46,700 A little something for everyone - S&M, Brendol Hux Sr’s A++ Parenting, Pre and Post-TFA, kids. There are surprisingly few fics that give Hux a wife (he doesn’t have one here either) or children. Meet his son, and later, Kylo’s daughter. Not quite fluffy Space Dads; but there’s hope. They defect to the Resistance.
Aware of His Own Halo by @badspacebabies E - 33,400 Defeated Hux slinks off to lick his wounds in the ass-end of the galaxy on a two year drunk. Ren shows up to (in the author’s words) “just fuck all the shame out of him”. Ending is open - they may go on to galactic conquest, who knows?
Before TFA, When They Were Young(er)
The Slightest Shift in the Weather by @claricechiarasorcha E - 21,500 My gateway drug into the Kylux fandom. Maj. Hux the sniper and Kylo, Knight of Ren meet when they are paired together a mission. This author really excels at the small observations and insights that really bring the characters to life. There’s a follow-up story that’s currently a WIP.
Origin Stories by @hollyhark E - 31,200 “Nineteen-year-old Hux goes on a tour of his father’s stormtrooper training facility and meets a strange, hooded financier and his equally strange but far more intriguing apprentice.” One of those fics where you just want to grab them and say “Pay attention and get out now while you can!!”
Just Chillin’ on The Finalizer (usually pre-TFA)
This is kind of a catch-all category. Some of these stories have multiple tropes going on and so I stuck them here ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Ties by Ajaxthegreat E - 30k We get to see ResourcefulEngineer!Hux at work with CrazyPowerfulForceUser!Ren on a planetary mission gone wrong, plus dreams of sexy mud (really) and my fave ‘sparring leads to sex’ action. Pretty ‘Classic Kylux’ that leads to a hint of feels, too.
What Can I Do For You by @claricechiarasorcha E - 44,400 Jealous virgin Ren does not like it when he discovers the ‘friends with benefits’ arrangement Hux has in place. This author has a number of short(ish) works, all of which I wholeheartedly recommend.
Build a War With Your Assistance by grue, @whoresonbob M - 10k Post-TFA, they give each other gifts to express their…feelings? Extremely funny. Author description “General Hux is full-stop done with everyone/everything and Kylo Ren has the emotional maturity of a psychotic toddler.”. The follow-up story is a murder mystery containing one of the funniest ideas I’ve encountered in this fandom. Or maybe my perverse sense of humor just aligns well with the author’s.
The Taste of Copper on Your Tongue by @that-vicious-vixen E - 7,900 Three connected fics, all are good (don’t miss the last, Yours, B. Hux, a snarky exchange of letters between Hux and Leia). The story arc: “Kylo Ren confesses his love like he does all things - with a straight face and loads of unnecessary circumstance, as if everything he is, was, and ever will be hinges on one moment”…”General Hux confesses his love just as he does everything else; with efficiency and few words, more “show” than “tell.” In-between, you get power bottom Hux.
Sex Ed by DaveChicken, @sithofren E - 2k - NOTE - this is Kyluxma Hux’s sex techniques need improvement. Why tell when you can show, with the Force?
Give Me a Shot to Remember by @decotext Not Rated - 10,700 “You’re starting to suspect that this has all been the world’s longest joke, a lead-up to a great cosmic punchline. A morally ambiguous Sith Lord and sarcastic General walk into a bar…” Funny and original writing style. This is part 1 of 2, plus a stand-alone OC story (yes! it’s good!).
One or Both are Unaware of the Other’s Identity, Allowing for Feels to Develop
Downbeat by @acroamatica E - 17,300 Hux the High-Strung Conductor vs Kylo the Intense Piano Virtuoso. Snoke the shit-stirrer. Bonus links to gorgeous music.
Stet by @acroamatica M - 17,000 Hux the pissy editor vs Kylo the writer with writer’s block. This author has an elegant, sophisticated - almost effortless (seeming) style.
Chaos, Control, and Corgis by RockSaltAndRoll and Shortsighted_Owl E - 90k Someone on the spectrum + someone else with BPD mixed with a lot of nosy & involved neighbors = a big payoff when they finally get there.
Parchment and Vellum by @gefionne E - 32,300 If you like the idea of sexy librarians (who don’t know they’re sexy), here you go. You also get Kylo the Weapons of the Middle Ages grad student.
The Secret Heart by @slutstiels E - 48,300 Hux is a closeted actor, Ben an intense one; they’re cast together in career-making roles, but can’t stand working with each other. Very hot sex, angst, anxiety spirals, etc, ensue.
Porn Ships It
Starfucker Base by @eralkfang and @nightsofllyn E - 12k Is Ren’s preferred redheaded twink porn actually made for him as part of a plot by the loathsome Resistance? Hux can’t have that. Super hot and also extremely funny.
Wrong Number by @cosleia E - 8,500 Lonely Hux misdials a phone sex line and gets Kylo instead. Modern AU. Sweet & hot.
Cinema Verite by @huxcrying E - 27,600 Hux finds a beautiful webcam boy and they become close. He’s never seen Kylo Ren’s face so he has no idea they are one and the same. Very hot and also FEELS.
Casadega by deadonarrival, @dead-on-arrivals E - 40,800 Grad student Ben is an escort. Post-divorce Hux just wants some relief. Super hot plus feels.
Hotline Bling by @minzimpression E - 36,900 Hux just needs some wank material and texts his most recent hook-up for a dick pic. Wrong number! What he gets instead is a picture of Kylo Ren’s mad dick. You know this ends up with them getting married, right?
(Somewhat) Hard Kinks and/or ‘Classic’ Kylux Hatesex/Enemies that Leads to Something More Fluffy and Feels-y
Honeycomb by betts, @bettydays E - 48k Three tags tell the story: “Hurting Ben Solo for Fun and Pleasure”, “the author had to duct tape the mouth of her conscience shut to write this”, and “there’s no room for guilt when you open your heart to sin”. 10 kinds of wrong but so right.
This is Very Normal by zamwessell E - 3,400 Not a hard kink, really - but not your usual roleplay/cosplay, either.
Not About Angels by MellyTheHun E - 258,900 (This is a 4 part series, part 4 a WIP) There are many tragic Hux backstories; this is pretty much the most tragic. You also get sexy sparring, lots of Phasma The Awesome Friend, and a fantastic slow burn. Also has something I really enjoy, where you get everything from two different POVs - the second one after you’ve spent a lot of time with the first and have largely accepted that one’s interpretation of events.
Ex Machina by sual E - 32,700 If there were more of this kind of fic, I’d make ‘Ben Solo Master of Droids’ a trope category b/c what can I say, I like droids and this author provides plenty of “cruel and unusual uses for droids”. AU where Ben sees his future as Kylo Ren and rejects it - but is still an odd bird. Surprisingly touching.
Anyone But You by zamwessell E - 14,900 College AU. Conservative & closeted Senator’s son Hux hooks up with liberal artist Ben. LOTS of loud sexual encounters follow. So much sexier than James Carville & Mary Matalin.
And There Will Your Heart Be Also by jellyfishsodapop and oorsprong / @gentleman-caller E - 38k Kylo Ren is a considerate lover like a boss to blushing virgin Hux. WHO KNEW.
Aletheia by @badspacebabies and @reserve E - 40,200 Kylo is not a nice man. Poor Hux’s brain, having so many memories altered. NO KYLO!
Arranged Marriage, Fake/“Temporary” Marriage, and Other Forms of Forced Relationship
Husband by @eralkfang E - 1,700 “Hux and Kylo get smashed when they’re on a random planet, and end up getting married - and having the wedding night to go with it. They wake up the next day, are suitably horrified, and vow to get an annulment asap. Except they don’t. And they keep having sex. And one night, Hux calls him husband and Kylo comes right there and then.”
In This Life and All Others by @fakeandinspace E - 47,600 An in-canon-verse AU where things went a different way post-Empire. “The firstborn child of the Organa family and the firstborn child of a prominent military family, the Huxes, have been promised to each other since before birth, as a means of sealing a peaceful arrangement between the mercenary remains of the Empire’s military and a prominent ruling family of the galaxy” - One party DOES NOT WANT. At least, at first. Sweet and patient study of these 2 idiots getting to know each other.
Raise Your Hands With Burning Candles by @everknowing M - 22k 12 year old Ben Organa is kidnapped by the First Order; his public image is managed by them, including in time a fake relationship with rising star Hux. The story is told via an effective and clever multimedia approach - blog posts, texts, chat logs.
A Balanced Tribute by @cracktheglasses E - 5k Medieval AU; Rey weds Emperor Hux for the good of her land. It’s a bit crowded in this marriage, though. I could read 100k more of this tbh.
Ghosts by Flyting, @agoodflyting G - 1,800 As the author notes, ‘Obvious Plot Twist is Obvious’ - but wrenching nonetheless.
The Hanged Man by @that-vicious-vixen E - 13,300 The Hux children meet a monster of a man who seems to have emerged from the forest behind their Savannah, GA home. The eldest son gets involved despite his better judgement. One tag: “I’m not super great at keeping things dark so it’s somehow violent and fluffy?”
On the left we have James (Harvey suggested the name, as a nod to Mike’s dad supposedly, but Mike suspects it was actually more to do with a certain awesome starship captain), but he usually goes by Jamie, and on the right we have Gordon (absolutely a nod to Harvey’s dad and one Mike was happy to consent to), who of course is immediately Gordy to almost every one from the day he’s born.
Jamie is boisterous and full of beans. He lives for Little League (Harvey coaches his team and swears he isn’t being biased when he says Jamie is the next Derek Jeter) and water pistol fights and when he’s older he will definitely be caught raiding the liquor cabinet. He’s also crazy about Donna and will develop a lifelong preference for redheads because of it.
Gordy is quieter, a little more reserved and shy until he really gets to know you. He loves reading and drawing and is definitely the musician in the family (he could make a living at it when he’s older, of that Harvey has no doubt, already mentally clearing space in his office for the first Grammy award which Gordy will obviously gift him with). He also loves helping Uncle Benjamin with his inventions, but he thinks his Uncle Louis is a little too obsessed with cats.
The boys (fraternal twins) are adopted and yet somehow Mike can’t help thinking that they’ve both inherited Harvey’s traits. His athleticism, competitiveness and playfulness in Jamie; his loyalty, warmth and love of music in Gordy. Harvey doesn’t say anything when Mike mentions this. He just smirks and his eyes twinkle in that way which shouldn’t still be so distracting to Mike after eight years of marriage and eight years of dancing round each other before that and Mike knows he agrees.
And yet they’re both just as surely Mike’s kids. They’re stubborn and bright, compassionate and empathetic, with hearts the size of Texas. And they can wrap Harvey round their little fingers.
And whether you chalk it up to nature or nurture, they’re both as into movies as their dads. Friday night is movie night in the Specter-Ross household. There’s nothing all four of them enjoy more than snuggling up on the huge couch Mike picked out when he and Harvey bought this house together, Mike insisting on decorating it like a proper family home and not some pristine, minimalist bachelor pad. Harvey rolled his eyes and grumbled, but he didn’t fool Mike for one second. This is the home he’s always craved too.
Of course, movie night wouldn’t be complete without snacks. Some nights there’s popcorn and chips and too much soda. Other nights there’s pizza (yes, the kind with cheese in the crust) and French fries and chocolate milk. But always there’s superhero pyjamas (and that’s not just the kids, much to Harvey’s never-ending amusement and fondness every time he spies Mike in those Spidey bottoms) and soft Henley’s (which, again, shouldn’t still be so distracting, but decidedly are) and sometimes an old Harvard t-shirt or sweatshirt (and seriously, Mike wonders, does Harvey have a guy in Boston supplying him with those things or something because they can’t all still be from his college days surely??).
They take it in turns choosing an age-appropriate movie so they each get one choice a month, and, honestly, if you’d told Harvey ten years ago that this would be his life, lazing on an overstuffed couch on a Friday night with Mike’s head a warm, welcome weight on his shoulder and a beautiful, perfect, beloved son curled up on each of their laps, popcorn strewn about the place from their food fight earlier and the latest Pixar behemoth on the box, he’d have said you were crazy. But now he just shakes his head in wonderment and counts his lucky stars, all the while wondering what the hell he did to deserve all this.
And while Lily may be a part of his life again, and a stellar grandmother to the boys, he sometimes still has to swallow a not insubstantial amount of anger when he looks at Mike and their two sons and can’t even begin to comprehend the idea of doing anything that would put him at risk of losing them, put him at risk of hurting them.
But then Mike smiles at him or Jamie throws himself into his arms demanding hugs or Gordy tugs on his sleeve and asks him to play Grandpa Gordon’s records again and the knot in his chest both eases and tightens at the same time as he lets go of the anger and love floods his system all over again.
And, really, there’s no other place any of them would rather be right now than here, together. Mike and Harvey aren’t stupid. They both know it won’t always be this way. All too soon they’ll be alone on Friday nights as friends and dates take their place, and later work commitments and maybe families of their own. But that’s all right too.
Sure, they’ll miss these nights together, but they’ll still have each other (and Jamie’s rings from winning the World Series multiple times, alongside Gordy’s platinum discs commemorating his several bestselling albums because no matter what Mike says about being realistic Harvey knows their boys are destined for greatness) and they’ll have the satisfaction of knowing they raised two good men.
Two good men who will never doubt how much they were loved and wanted, and who will carry both their names, and their fathers’ names, forward into the future and bring nothing but honour and respect to them, and to the two men who taught them the meaning of family and showed them what it means to love and be loved.
And in the meantime, they’ve still got ‘Ghostbusters’ and ‘The Goonies’, the Indiana Jones trilogy (yeah, both Mike and Harvey agree they’re stopping at the third one) and ‘The Princess Bride’ ahead of them to discover anew through bright, wide, innocent eyes that they couldn’t love any more than if they were born of their own flesh and blood.
Attendants dressed him simply. Guan Shan had a vague idea of what was going to happen. He could smell the heat long before they reached it. Black ash stung his nose. Burning metal, hot, hit him in a place that felt like his teeth.
The men gripped him tightly. They held him taunt and shackled his left arm. They forced him to his knees and shackled his legs, neck and left arm close to the ground. Everything was perfectly tight so that the only part of him he could move with any ease was his right arm.
Friendly reminder than despite being pansexual, Bull has, on many occasions, specified a preference for redheads, individuals of lower social class because they wear less cosmetics, and is notorious for his distrust of mages, (to the point that up to the beginning of DA:I, he has NEVER slept with a mage) and altogether bears a very apparent dislike towards the Tevinter Imperium.
Yet he ends up settling into a very affectionate and monogamous relationship with Dorian. A brunet, Tevinter mage of noble birth.
My dear! If you're still doing them can I have a ship, please? I'm 5'0", curvy, redhead. Huge nerd that prefers staying in and reading, writing or watching TV over going out with groups of people. The only way to get me out is to take me to a concert or some other kind of performance (including wrestling shows). I'll also go to the gym on my own because I love the alone time with music that gives me. Always nervous when meeting new people or new situations but I tend to get through it alright.
I totally ship you with Sami Zayn! Like you, he is a little on the nerdy side. He’d enjoy staying in at home with you and having relaxing at home date nights when he’s not on the road. But every once in a while he’d surprise you with tickets to your favorite concert for a bit of a change. Sami has a very caring personality so when you are with him and meeting new people he’d take your hand or wrap his arm around your waist and do anything he could to make you feel more comfortable.