When you get older, you notice your sheets are dirty. Sometimes, you do something about it. And sometimes, you read the front page of the newspaper and sometimes you floss and sometimes you stop biting your nails and sometimes you meet a friend for lunch. You still crave lemonade, but the taste doesn’t satisfy you as much as it used to. You still crave summer, but sometimes you mean summer, 5 years ago. You remember your umbrella, you check up on people to see if they got home, you leave places early to go home and make toast. You stand by the toaster in your underwear and a big t-shirt, wondering if you should just turn in or watch one more hour of television. You laugh at different things. You stop laughing at other things. You think about old loves almost like they are in a museum. The socks, you notice, aren’t organized into pairs and you mentally make a note of it. You cover your mouth when you sneeze, reaching for the box of tissues you bought, contains aloe.
When you get older, you try toner, you experiment with trousers, you experiment with real sexy outfits, you experiment with pin curls and darker hair and orange-toned red lipstick and you date people that look good on paper. You kiss them in public and feel only a little self-conscious. You never like them, although sometimes you really do. you think about safe sex and sometimes, kids. You think about plants, maybe succulents, or maybe even a cat?
When you get older, you try different shampoos. You find one you like. You try sleeping early and spin class and jogging again. You try a book you almost read but couldn’t finish. You wrap yourself in the blankets of: familiar t-shirts, caffe au lait, dim tv light, texts with old friends or new people you really want to like and love you. You lose contact with friends from college, and only sometimes you think about it. When you do, it feels bad and almost bitter. You lose people, and when other people bring them up, you almost pretend like you know what they are doing. You try to stop touching your face and become invested in things like expensive salads and trying parsnips and saving up for a vacation you really want. You keep a spare pen in a drawer. You look at old pictures of yourself and they feel foreign and misleading. You forget things like: purchasing stamps, buying more butter, putting lotion on your elbows, calling your mother back. You learn things like balance: checkbooks, social life, work life, time to work out and time to enjoy yourself.
When you get older, you find things like rejection hurt less and things like nostalgia hurt more. You watch people do things you want to do, and then you do some of those things too. Things start to feel like pins on a map. You watch landmarks pass and almost note them. You eat a taco from a food truck and be careful to dab the corners of your mouth with a napkin. You smooth your shirt down. You think about details, the details of how clean the beer cup is, how you need to put the dishes away, how she smells like a perfume you wore and how his teeth are perfect and aligned. You feel a little less downtrodden by things like routine and security and a little more appreciative of things like doing nothing, finding a friend, stretching on a big couch. You hear old songs and only sometimes do they gut you. You think about your future almost always, in both a thrilling way and a very very panicked way.
When you get older, you find yourself more in control. You find your convictions appealing, you find you like your body more, you learn to take things in stride. You begin to crave respect and comfort and adventure, all at the same time. You lay in your bed, fearing death, just like you did.You pull lint off your shirt. You smile less and feel content more. You think about changing and then often, you do.
When you get older, you barely notice it at all. Then, you are sitting somewhere you’ve been before, staring at the nothingness of the sky, and you feel the wind moving away from you, fast and almost impossible to catch.
keith talking to some random stranger about lance and complimenting him like he did with him in beta traz while looking down fondly. “i have a…friend who always complains about my mullet. he’s a very good sharpshooter and also my right-hand man i don’t know what i would without him.” “you seem fond of him.” “I am.”
training session together where 50% of the stuff they do is flirting
another solo mission together where they fight back to back
they find an alternate reality where they’re together and this makes them think a lot about what they could be in theirs
lance starts wearing something red to match his new lion and keith tells him “you look good in my colors”
the team starts noticing lance flirts less than usual
one of those clichè scenes where one character makes a decision that makes their loved one proud and has them looking softly at them
keith and lance offering to wingman for each other but ending up describing each other as their ideal partner while talking to someone
“ofc you would like lance who wouldn’t he’s beautiful i mean what”
they’re facing off an enemy who’s making fun of them for not being strong enough and lance is lie “he’s strong!! he cradled me in his arms once!!” and keith deadass stops in the middle of the battle to shout “YOU REMEMBER”
a parallel of the shut your quiznak scene but this time lance is saying it fondly and keith laughs while saying “i still don’t think you’re using that correctly”
“he’s not my boyfriend!!” “but you want him to be”
lance making a cryptid joke for keith
lance leans in for an hug and keith blushes bc he thinks he was gonna kiss him
“well i do have a boyfriend!!!” *points at keith panicking*
awkwardly asking each other out for a date in the pool but both make sure they don’t mention the word “date” at all
lance distracting keith during a plan exposition by putting his hand on his shoulder or on his own hand
keith sees that someone is trying to make lance feel bad and he’s furious and goes up to that person like “yo take that back immediately”
lance being slightly jealous of seeing someone talking to keith and masks it with an excuse like “i don’t want him to find someone before me cuz ya know…rivals” (no one believes that though) keith: lance i’m not with xx i just wanted to see if u were gonna confess
keith gets asked if he likes someone and he’s like “well there is someone…” *looks at lance while sighing*
they take a selfie with lance’s space phone. (bc duh, needs to happen)
keith looking fondly at lance while everyone else is looking at something else. “cute right?” keith, looking at lance: yeah “i’m not sure we’re talking about the same thing”
keith gifting lance with something and blushing while handing it to him. idc what it is it can be whatever and lance being almost speechless. “you got this…for me?”
keith: please be careful!! lance: always am!
keith to lance: man you are cuddly
lance: did i miss something pidge: oh just keith complaining about bonding moments lance: ok so nothing new then
keith telling lance “i’ve never met anyone like you” because i live for the clichè stuff dont judge
the classic “ we got stuck somewhere alone together and now we gotta talk about our feelings” kind of thing
lance showing off his bf once they’re dating “yep! i’m dating him!!!”
more alone conversations where lance tells keith about his life as an uncle
hunk accidentally mentioning that lance had a crush on keith at the garrison.
like at the garrison you clearly like ke—” “KEN I LIKED KEN REMEMBER KEN?? AHHA GOOD OL’ GUY” “there was no one…named ken”
running after each other for something? because i’ve realized we’ve never seen that in canon and soft music is playing in the back
keith gifting lance with his bom blade once they’re together “i want you to have this”
an “i thought you were dead!” moment where keith kisses lance without hesitation and lance replies with “well i am know”
lance fingergunning at keith pls and thank u
the “fine” “fine” “fine” “FINE” thing when they get into arguments and they end up giving each other the silent treatment but it lasts like one minute and if it starts seriously, it ends jokingly
the pool scene becomes an inside joke like the bonding moment: “we went to the pool together!!!!” “keith you wanted to stay away from me??” “well you forgot our bonding moment!”“oh god not this again….”
a moment where they both turn at each other smirking and everybody is like “lol ur smiling at each other” and they’re like “no we’re not” but their mouths are still curved in a smile
they become very clingy with each other and don’t realize it until someone points it out
they swap clothes for one day and no one questions it. “they’re doing their thing as usual”
“are you hugging me?” “looks like i am” “thank you i needed that”
“when i said that I don’t hate you….i meant something else also”
can we uhhhh get mind-reading aliens that can sense their feelings for each other
“lets do this” and then they smile at each other
keith slipping that he likes lance in the middle of a very tough battle bc he doesnt know what will happen OR “if i dont make it…tell lance i love him”
keith at 2 am: hey pidge lance looked at me for more than one second today what do you think i should do
they try to make sure they always stand next to each other
heres you an idea. sandyxdanny your the one that i want, but as uf!frans. im watching grease again btw. ._. also you dont have to do it. its just a suggestion B) ill probably do it myself eventually. maybe. idk. probably not.
didn’t come out as good as i hoped, but here you go - your biggest dream becoming true.