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Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
PSA

NOT EVERY IDOL MAKES A FORTUNE. 

 NOT EVERY IDOL IS ABLE TO AFFORD MEAT AND THATS WHY THEY GET SO EXCITED WHEN SHOWS OFFER THEM MEAT AS A PRIZE.
NOT EVERY IDOL IS ABLE TO DO THINGS LIKE BUY THEIR PARENTS A NEW HOUSE.
NOT EVERY IDOL FROM A FOREIGN COUNTRY IS ABLE TO AFFORD A FLIGHT BACK TO THEIR HOME COUNTRY TO BE WITH THEIR FAMILIES.

IDOLS DONT LIVE THIS AMAZING GLAMOROUS LIFE.
THEY HAD TO WORK THEIR BUTTS OFF TO EVEN GET TO THE POINT OF BEING AN IDOL. THEY DIDNT JUST SHOW UP TO A COMPANY AND BE LIKE “IM HERE TO BE A STAR. DEBUT ME.”
THEY WENT THROUGH HOURS OF TRAINING EVERYDAY. WHETHER IT WAS LANGUAGE OR DANCE OR VOCAL OR SCHOOL IN GENERAL. SOME EVEN WORKED WHILE BEING A TRAINEE SO THEY COULD EAT.
IDOLS AND ACTORS AND ACTRESSES OFTEN TALK ABOUT HOW THEY WOULD EAT WHATEVER THEY COULD DURING THEIR TRAINING. SOME EVEN EATING VITAMINS UNTIL THEY HAD TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL. OTHERS ATE OUT OF TRASH CANS BECAUSE THEY HAD NO OTHER WAY OF GETTING FOOD.

THE TRAINING IS STRESSFUL AND WHEN YOU DEBUT IT GETS WORSE. YOUR SCHEDULE IS EVEN MORE PACKED BECAUSE YOULL HAVE TO START DOING INTERVIEWS AND VARIETY SHOWS ON TOP OF PRACTICING VOCALS AND DANCE.
JUST APPEARING ON A MUSIC SHOW LIKE MUSIC BANK OR INKIGAYO TAKES LIKE 11 HOURS BECAUSE THEY GET UP AT LIKE 5 AND DONT LEAVE UNTIL 9.

SO PLEASE DONT AUDITION FOR COMPANIES WITH THE EXPECTATION THAT YOU WILL MAKE BANK RIGHT OFF THE BAT.

GROUPS WHO MAKE BANK WORKED THEIR BUTTS OFF TO BE ABLE TO MAKE ENOUGH MONEY TO SUPPORT THEMSELVES AND BE ABLE TO BUY THINGS FOR THEIR PARENTS AND FAMILY.

BIG BANG DID NOT MAKE MORE THAN MAROON 5 DID IN 2016 THE MINUTE THEY DEBUTED. THEY WORKED HARD TO GET THERE.

PLEASE JUST REMEMBER THAT IDOLS STRUGGLE TOO.