recovery victory

The brain does weird things when you deprive it of food.

And I don’t mean just calorically. Even if you’re eating 2000, 3000 calories a day in recovery, if they’re all safe, you’re still going to be obsessed with food and what you “can’t” have.

(AKA a friendly reminder to challenge yourself today.)

#No9TWritingChallenge II: 41

Word: Roar

Originally posted by teapotsandroses

You say it’s
a cry of the weak.
But I call it
my roar of victory.
Because it took what feels
like a lifetime
to accept that
it takes strength
to need
a helping hand.

                                                              ~N.V. 

Ahem.

That, my friends, is what we call an achievement. It’s my absolute childhood favourite: Nana’s Mac and Cheese *u*

I saw just how much cheese and milk and butter goes into it and guess what? I didn’t give a shit. All that mattered is how delicious it was. I had all of this AND finished off loads of Nana’s portion too! Can I get a freakin round of applause??

Tips for Breaking Your Gum Addiction

It’s been a little more than two and a half months since I stopped chewing gum, so I wanted to share some advice on how to do it :) 

  • Focus on the long-term gratification. Try to make it just one day without gum. At the end of the day, think about how good it feels to NOT have chewed gum. I know that after I binged on gum, I always experienced guilt/shame/sadness— compared to pride/accomplishment when I had resisted the temptation. Chewing gum feels good in the moment, but (literally) at the end of the day, staying strong feels so much better.
  • Respect your hunger. You’re thinking, “But I chew gum so I don’t HAVE to eat!” Sorry, but gum doesn’t equal nutrients. You need food in your mouth, not flavor. If you rely on gum as a way to stimulate your taste buds while restricting, there’s only one way to kick the habit, and that’s to eat when you’re hungry. Trust me, I know it’s hard. I’ve been starving an hour after a huge breakfast, and although in the past I would’ve chewed manically for two hours to put off eating until my “set time,” now I have a snack. Your body is telling you something, and it’s your responsibility to listen, not trick it.
  • Brush your teeth. If you’re craving gum not because you’re hungry, but because you’re bored, brush your teeth! It’s the same burst-y effect in your mouth, but unlike gum, it has that sense of finality, like after you brush your teeth, you’re going to move on with your life.
  • Don’t chew it at all. Ever. You’re dependent on gum, and so you can’t chew it “in moderation.” Don’t accept pieces from friends, don’t buy a pack with the plan to spread it out over a couple of days, just. don’t. chew. it. I know from prior experiences of trying to quit that “just one piece” turns into a whole pack very, very quickly.
  • Mark your progress on a calendar/reward yourself. For every day you make it, draw a little smiley-face. It’s so so so cool to see the smiley faces stack up. After I reach certain mile-stones, I like to treat myself!

I hope this advice helps anyone who is trying to stop chewing gum! It’s such a hard thing to overcome, but speaking as someone who used to walk two miles just to buy a pack, it’s definitely do-able.