recovery goal

Stop beating yourself up. You’re a work in progress, which means you get there a little bit at a time not all at once.

You don’t need anybody else’s approval but your own.

You don’t need an entire army of supporters standing underneath your feet.

You don’t need a million more dollars in the bank.

You have exactly what you need, and you have it all right now.
So take a breath, and go for it.

—  Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin
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WHEN THE FAT GIRL GETS SKINNY: The Short Film

“crying over a bowl of cocopuffs because the only time i feel pretty is when I’m hungry" fucking crying so hard

Always start your day off on a good note. Put both feet on the floor, and tell yourself you’re ready for the day. Breathe. Remember that this day cannot be relived, and so you will live every second to its very best.
—  Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin
Body Dysmorphic Disorder

Let’s take a moment to talk about body dysmorphia. BDD is more than an insecurity, a “hang up” or simply being self-conscious. Body dysmorphia is a dark, malicious creature that wraps its tentacles around your throat and slowly watches the life slip from your eyes. BDD destroys you. BDD makes you forget who you once were. Body dysmorphia is a nagging voice from deep within, telling you that you’ll never be enough. You’ll never be thin enough. You’ll never be pretty enough. Your skin will never be smooth enough. So you obsessively pick your face… your skin… every bump… every dark spot… every dry patch. Body dysmorphia is constantly being aware of exactly which parts of your body dare to move or jiggle, even a fraction of an inch, while you walk or run… you mentally note these areas and tell yourself that you’ll only be loved once they’ve disappeared from existence. BDD is bundling yourself in long sleeves and pants in the dead of summer because you can’t bare to look at your own skin in the mirror. BDD is intentionally starving yourself until you’re faint from weakness. BDD is brushing your teeth until your gums bleed because you can’t quite get them white enough or straight enough, knowing full well that your efforts are frivolous. BDD is hating every inch of yourself. It’s never being comfortable in your own skin. It’s hiding behind hats and scarves and layer upon layer of clothing. BDD delights in watching your soul wither away. Stop telling us that we’re needy, insecure or hard to love. We’re fighting a monster that you’ve never met.

The brain does weird things when you deprive it of food.

And I don’t mean just calorically. Even if you’re eating 2000, 3000 calories a day in recovery, if they’re all safe, you’re still going to be obsessed with food and what you “can’t” have.

(AKA a friendly reminder to challenge yourself today.)

As exciting as life can get, and how amazing it feels to get things done, its important to stop and notice the beauty that’s around you every now again. Stop and listen to the chirping of the birds. Feel the breeze against your face. Take moments every now and again.

It's the weekend!!

Hello lovelies! Here’s some reminders for the weekend.
•drink lots of water
•take a rest day if you need one
•you made it through another week, I am so proud of you!
•allow yourself some time to sit, pray, or meditate quietly and focus your thoughts.
•remember those meds!! they’re meant to help you 💕
•you’re worthy, valid, and loved.
•make your bed, do some laundry, etc. do productive things even if they are very small. It will make you feel less overwhelmed.
•you will be the person you want to be. Allow yourself the time to change healthily and at your own pace.
•I believe in you, and I am so proud of you.

Keep pushing, beauties. 🌸💪🏼

-Abi xx