recovering addict

431 Days Clean and Sober

How am I doing? In my terms I’m ok. Ha.

Physically: My sleep schedule has been so messed up this last week. Thankfully I passed out hard for about 9 hours yesterday. I find it incredibly frustrating that regardless how much sleep I get I still feel so tired.  Basically nothing has changed, still in pain, lots of headaches, tired ALL THE TIME.

Emotionally: At this current moment I’m slightly annoyed but generally content. I feel like my AA sponsor is pressuring me a little too much. She keeps bringing up that I should join an AA home group and I keep refusing. I have no interest in doing so.

Mentally: I’m tired. A tad bit anxious about this upcoming cardiac test. However (quoting my mom) “worrying about tomorrow’s troubles takes away from today’s peace” trying to remember that whenever I feel anxious about it.

Spiritually: Well I did go to church today and afterwards I passed out for 2 hours so I’d say I’m in a good place.

Recovery: I’m still sober.

December 5, 2016

lizzysong  asked:

I have a character who is a now-recovered (sober 15yrs) heroin addict, he ends up needing emergency surgery, the recovery of which is rather painful. In the hospital during recovery, would he be given any morphine or any other kind of strong pain killers, or would that be unethical given his history? Thank you so much for creating this blog! It has been so incredibly helpful!!

Treating pain is almost always an ethical imperative, unless the risk of giving pain medicine outweighs the benefits of analgesia, which are myriad. Doctors don’t withhold pain medicine just because of a history of addiction, especially if there is a known indication like surgery. The patient isn’t drug-seeking, they have a legitimate medical complaint.

Many addicts in recovery refuse pain medicine, and there are non-opiate options. It’s really up to the individual. The most effective version would be doing an in-hospital course of opiates, but deciding not to prescribe opiates for take-home use, or only doing a course of about a week.

Other options include IV bupivacaine or lidocaine, ketorolac/Toradol, cox-2 inhibitors like etoricoxib. There’s a limited role for ketamine in postoperative pain, too, and not just because it’s my thing.

There’s a good overview on Medscape here. 

xoxo, Aunt Scripty

disclaimer

there is one thing i do not see enough of on this website- support for people trying to get clean and/or stay clean. addiction has ruined my life. addiction has ruined so many lives and recovering alcoholics/addicts NEED support to continue with their recovery. so, for those of you who are working on your first 24 hours or your first week, month, year, your 2nd year or 20th- i am so proud of you. you have given yourself something incredible today. addiction is one of the most insidious diseases in the world, but today, you did not let it win. remind yourself of all of the strength you have. you are a miracle.

Addicts never stand still; they are either getting better, or they are getting worse.
-alcoholics anonymous

Remember addiction is a progressive illness. Even while you stay sober, your addiction is out there doing push ups just waiting for you to return.

We are never cured, we only have a daily reprieve.

You must work at your sobriety every day.

TomHardyFact #7 – Tom has been an alcohol and drug addict for years. He said about those times:

I thought I’d have a little bit of a party, and I’d end up high and frightened, in places that scared me. In a blackout I could end up anywhere. I might wake up somewhere the other side of London, or in another country. Or in bed with someone I didn’t know, not knowing how I got there. Bleeding. This was on a daily basis. And I was going to work. I didn’t want to appear rock ‘n’ roll. I didn’t want anyone to know I was out of control, but I couldn’t hide it. Eventually, the body gives up. My body told me. I was completely kaput. I was lucky I didn’t get hepatitis or AIDS.

After spending time in rehab, Tom got sober in 2003 and continued to 'stay off the juice’ ever since.

Now I know my beast and I know how to manage it. It’s like living with a 400lb orang-utan that wants to kill me. […] I’m nine or ten years going on sober now, so I’m a long, long, long way away from my last drink, but I know people in and out of recovery and I know people who’ve died.

Asked if he feels comfortable talking about his past addiction, Tom said:

I think it’s relevant. I think one has to be very careful how much you talk about it, because it’s one of those things unfortunately whereby it takes lives. It’s not to be taken for granted – it’s not a fashion accessory, alcoholism and addiction, it’s a really fucking dangerous illness, it kills people. If you have it, it’s something that needs help, you need help and the help is there. So yes, to be aware of it is one thing, to promote it is bad taste, but I think it’s important to be part of where you’re from and participate in life on life’s terms and addiction is part of my story, so it would be futile to ignore it and pretend it doesn’t exist, because part of living with addiction is being part of it. (x)

I am 3 years and 4 months clean from heroin today!

I am not ashamed nor do I try to hide the fact that I had a drug problem. I don’t think there is anything negative about being a recovering addict. I overcame a drug addiction and that takes true strength and bravery.

I am so incredibly proud of myself.😊